1 00:00:12,070 --> 00:00:10,629 [Music] 2 00:00:15,030 --> 00:00:12,080 hey 3 00:00:17,269 --> 00:00:15,040 this is another episode of ufo garage 4 00:00:20,950 --> 00:00:17,279 i'm ben and i'm joe and this is where we 5 00:00:23,509 --> 00:00:20,960 talk about them ufos aliens and all 6 00:00:24,870 --> 00:00:23,519 things weird 7 00:00:29,109 --> 00:00:24,880 baby 8 00:00:31,029 --> 00:00:29,119 doing today 9 00:00:32,870 --> 00:00:31,039 doing well i'm going to knock over 10 00:00:34,150 --> 00:00:32,880 something in my office i'm not going to 11 00:00:35,350 --> 00:00:34,160 pick it up 12 00:00:36,330 --> 00:00:35,360 it's not milk 13 00:00:38,389 --> 00:00:36,340 okay well that's good 14 00:00:40,790 --> 00:00:38,399 [Laughter] 15 00:00:42,709 --> 00:00:40,800 it'll smell bad for a little bit right 16 00:00:45,190 --> 00:00:42,719 you know like who doesn't mind a little 17 00:00:46,709 --> 00:00:45,200 curdled milk smell it's a little bit i 18 00:00:48,709 --> 00:00:46,719 like to keep the jug of milk next to my 19 00:00:50,069 --> 00:00:48,719 table just in case you know that's 20 00:00:51,270 --> 00:00:50,079 what's up dude if you get thirsty i 21 00:00:53,750 --> 00:00:51,280 don't know 22 00:00:56,549 --> 00:00:53,760 a little bit i drink milk i i love i 23 00:00:58,470 --> 00:00:56,559 like milk okay gosh 24 00:01:00,630 --> 00:00:58,480 uh well what's up dude how's your week 25 00:01:01,990 --> 00:01:00,640 been it's it's is it thirsty thursday 26 00:01:03,430 --> 00:01:02,000 every thursday or is it just something 27 00:01:05,670 --> 00:01:03,440 we do when we're like we don't really 28 00:01:07,910 --> 00:01:05,680 have like a guest lined up well here 29 00:01:11,190 --> 00:01:07,920 lately it's been thirsty thursday for me 30 00:01:13,670 --> 00:01:11,200 every thursday so yeah uh 31 00:01:15,749 --> 00:01:13,680 you know it's uh well i don't i don't i 32 00:01:18,310 --> 00:01:15,759 don't work on fridays you know yeah so 33 00:01:21,830 --> 00:01:18,320 that's right i'll work them for infinity 34 00:01:24,950 --> 00:01:21,840 hour days and then uh yeah you could 35 00:01:26,870 --> 00:01:24,960 double friday's dude 36 00:01:28,789 --> 00:01:26,880 if you think about it i could double 37 00:01:30,870 --> 00:01:28,799 friday's dude 38 00:01:32,390 --> 00:01:30,880 i'm doing friday now and friday tomorrow 39 00:01:34,870 --> 00:01:32,400 bro 40 00:01:36,870 --> 00:01:34,880 here at tgi fridays you got your shrimp 41 00:01:39,030 --> 00:01:36,880 shooters you got your bacon cheese 42 00:01:41,350 --> 00:01:39,040 flapjacks and [\h__\h] 43 00:01:42,950 --> 00:01:41,360 come on over it's two fridays in the 44 00:01:45,910 --> 00:01:42,960 it's two a week 45 00:01:47,429 --> 00:01:45,920 yeah just come eat here we need 46 00:01:49,910 --> 00:01:47,439 people to eat here 47 00:01:52,870 --> 00:01:49,920 dj hey food you know what 48 00:01:54,469 --> 00:01:52,880 i'm i'm a little sad foo why fully 49 00:01:56,550 --> 00:01:54,479 because because you didn't tell me that 50 00:01:58,310 --> 00:01:56,560 my hair looks nice fool 51 00:02:00,069 --> 00:01:58,320 hey did you get a haircut dog i did get 52 00:02:02,389 --> 00:02:00,079 a haircut i wasn't gonna say anything i 53 00:02:04,069 --> 00:02:02,399 thought i was just extra curly today no 54 00:02:06,550 --> 00:02:04,079 dude i got like four and a half inches 55 00:02:08,389 --> 00:02:06,560 cut off i was gonna say it's a lot it's 56 00:02:09,589 --> 00:02:08,399 still i mean it still goes pretty long 57 00:02:12,150 --> 00:02:09,599 though but i mean yeah it's just a 58 00:02:15,430 --> 00:02:12,160 little extra curly damn dude it it's 59 00:02:17,350 --> 00:02:15,440 looking good man hell yeah dude 60 00:02:19,430 --> 00:02:17,360 you can actually see like like the beard 61 00:02:20,150 --> 00:02:19,440 and the hair differential you know like 62 00:02:22,150 --> 00:02:20,160 no 63 00:02:23,589 --> 00:02:22,160 i got all clean shaven it's the first 64 00:02:25,750 --> 00:02:23,599 time i've ever had like a raise a 65 00:02:27,750 --> 00:02:25,760 straight razor shave it was pretty cool 66 00:02:29,670 --> 00:02:27,760 and then he put the hot towel on my face 67 00:02:32,630 --> 00:02:29,680 and like massaged my face with this 68 00:02:34,150 --> 00:02:32,640 thing oh it was tight oh yeah yeah 69 00:02:36,790 --> 00:02:34,160 that's nice everybody go check out 70 00:02:38,390 --> 00:02:36,800 antonio down at uh clean cuts huddle 71 00:02:41,270 --> 00:02:38,400 texas 72 00:02:43,589 --> 00:02:41,280 hell yeah good stuff 73 00:02:46,869 --> 00:02:43,599 good guy good guy dude speak speaking of 74 00:02:47,670 --> 00:02:46,879 uh uh of male grooming um let's go ahead 75 00:02:49,430 --> 00:02:47,680 let's go ahead and talk about our 76 00:02:51,350 --> 00:02:49,440 sponsor real quick let's do it if you 77 00:02:52,309 --> 00:02:51,360 want to support the show and be a part 78 00:02:56,630 --> 00:02:52,319 of 79 00:02:59,750 --> 00:02:56,640 uh go to manscape.com and use the code 80 00:03:02,949 --> 00:02:59,760 ufo garage at checkout for 20 off plus 81 00:03:05,430 --> 00:03:02,959 free shipping they've got some pretty 82 00:03:08,710 --> 00:03:05,440 dope stuff they got a new 83 00:03:09,750 --> 00:03:08,720 lawn it's called the lawn mower uh 4.0 84 00:03:12,470 --> 00:03:09,760 for 85 00:03:15,030 --> 00:03:12,480 4.0 and uh i 86 00:03:17,350 --> 00:03:15,040 dude i'm a believer i didn't know that 87 00:03:20,309 --> 00:03:17,360 there was such a thing that 88 00:03:22,550 --> 00:03:20,319 that life could be so simple and clean 89 00:03:24,470 --> 00:03:22,560 and uh and close shaved i don't know 90 00:03:27,910 --> 00:03:24,480 hey tammy you behave in the chat over 91 00:03:29,670 --> 00:03:27,920 there tammy's making fun of me 92 00:03:31,350 --> 00:03:29,680 good 93 00:03:33,509 --> 00:03:31,360 somebody's got to do it right 94 00:03:35,030 --> 00:03:33,519 somebody's got to do it heck yeah i'm 95 00:03:36,789 --> 00:03:35,040 about to make i i've been meaning to do 96 00:03:40,070 --> 00:03:36,799 this we gotta we gotta give tammy her 97 00:03:42,149 --> 00:03:40,080 wrench um let's see 98 00:03:43,750 --> 00:03:42,159 uh but anyway yeah so 99 00:03:47,190 --> 00:03:43,760 guys if you wanna support the podcast 100 00:03:49,589 --> 00:03:47,200 and get your uh your your presents in 101 00:03:51,750 --> 00:03:49,599 before [\h__\h] gets crazy with christmas 102 00:03:53,429 --> 00:03:51,760 guys the sooner you do it the better the 103 00:03:55,750 --> 00:03:53,439 stuff makes great christmas presents if 104 00:03:57,589 --> 00:03:55,760 you even if you're a lady get one for 105 00:03:59,750 --> 00:03:57,599 your man get some stuff for your man 106 00:04:01,670 --> 00:03:59,760 they they've got uh they've got ball 107 00:04:03,509 --> 00:04:01,680 toner and they've got uh sprays and 108 00:04:05,990 --> 00:04:03,519 ointments and lotions 109 00:04:08,229 --> 00:04:06,000 cremes and lesions problems and lotions 110 00:04:10,229 --> 00:04:08,239 oh yeah dude 111 00:04:13,110 --> 00:04:10,239 and if you guys are uh are coming to the 112 00:04:16,390 --> 00:04:13,120 live event uh december 4th with terry 113 00:04:18,390 --> 00:04:16,400 loveless down here in taylor texas and 114 00:04:19,830 --> 00:04:18,400 yeah you know you get the itch maybe to 115 00:04:22,629 --> 00:04:19,840 to get some ink 116 00:04:24,550 --> 00:04:22,639 go check out my man tattoo timmy right 117 00:04:26,310 --> 00:04:24,560 there let me let me hide out this uh 118 00:04:27,830 --> 00:04:26,320 this phone number again but i definitely 119 00:04:29,909 --> 00:04:27,840 want to give out all of this good stuff 120 00:04:33,270 --> 00:04:29,919 t derma graphics t-driven graphics at 121 00:04:34,870 --> 00:04:33,280 gmail.com the guy does amazing work go 122 00:04:36,550 --> 00:04:34,880 check him out he's actually the one 123 00:04:39,189 --> 00:04:36,560 that's going to be doing our tattoos for 124 00:04:40,870 --> 00:04:39,199 our 100th episode 125 00:04:43,830 --> 00:04:40,880 yes dude 126 00:04:46,150 --> 00:04:43,840 i'm so stoked yes 127 00:04:47,830 --> 00:04:46,160 yeah i'm ready it's gonna 128 00:04:49,270 --> 00:04:47,840 as soon as i can like i mean we should 129 00:04:50,310 --> 00:04:49,280 already we should schedule for early 130 00:04:52,230 --> 00:04:50,320 december 131 00:04:54,390 --> 00:04:52,240 we should we should are you gonna be 132 00:04:56,310 --> 00:04:54,400 ready for early december or what 133 00:04:57,909 --> 00:04:56,320 yeah can you come out and play in early 134 00:04:59,510 --> 00:04:57,919 december i got my bubble suit i'm ready 135 00:05:01,350 --> 00:04:59,520 to play nice dude i've already called 136 00:05:02,230 --> 00:05:01,360 you i've already called your mom 137 00:05:09,830 --> 00:05:02,240 hey 138 00:05:12,310 --> 00:05:09,840 oh my gosh i'm having i'm sorry i'm 139 00:05:14,390 --> 00:05:12,320 having a hard time uh adding tammy to to 140 00:05:17,590 --> 00:05:14,400 the wrench i can't figure it out i did 141 00:05:19,189 --> 00:05:17,600 it once and uh i'm typing her name in 142 00:05:20,710 --> 00:05:19,199 and it doesn't show up under community 143 00:05:22,150 --> 00:05:20,720 so i don't know 144 00:05:23,830 --> 00:05:22,160 so so 145 00:05:25,189 --> 00:05:23,840 you did it like the same way you did it 146 00:05:27,110 --> 00:05:25,199 last time dude 147 00:05:28,710 --> 00:05:27,120 i think so 148 00:05:31,189 --> 00:05:28,720 all right all right let's move on 149 00:05:33,189 --> 00:05:31,199 i'm sorry tammy if somebody can help me 150 00:05:35,110 --> 00:05:33,199 out let me know um after maybe after the 151 00:05:36,710 --> 00:05:35,120 show we can do a little tutorial but uh 152 00:05:38,629 --> 00:05:36,720 tammy deserves her wrench as soon as 153 00:05:40,150 --> 00:05:38,639 possible 154 00:05:41,590 --> 00:05:40,160 okay well let's get out let's get on 155 00:05:43,749 --> 00:05:41,600 with the show dude we have an amazing 156 00:05:45,990 --> 00:05:43,759 guest tonight i know i'm pretty excited 157 00:05:48,310 --> 00:05:46,000 about this man we have got miss barbra 158 00:05:52,469 --> 00:05:48,320 jean lindsay in the house with us 159 00:05:54,629 --> 00:05:52,479 tonight man i'm excited to get into this 160 00:05:57,029 --> 00:05:54,639 she's got an amazing book called dying 161 00:06:00,150 --> 00:05:57,039 for the light i just want to show you 162 00:06:03,749 --> 00:06:00,160 and uh this this particular book though 163 00:06:05,990 --> 00:06:03,759 was amazing it was so good i mean it's 164 00:06:07,990 --> 00:06:06,000 it's a very easy read 165 00:06:09,670 --> 00:06:08,000 ben could read it i mean it's it's 166 00:06:12,230 --> 00:06:09,680 pretty good 167 00:06:13,749 --> 00:06:12,240 what are you laughing at dude 168 00:06:16,469 --> 00:06:13,759 that's true 169 00:06:17,830 --> 00:06:16,479 ben likes to read dude small books small 170 00:06:19,749 --> 00:06:17,840 books 171 00:06:24,070 --> 00:06:19,759 well let's bring her in man heck yeah 172 00:06:26,469 --> 00:06:24,080 barbara hey hi guys great to be here 173 00:06:28,790 --> 00:06:26,479 good i'm so glad you made it thank you 174 00:06:31,110 --> 00:06:28,800 so much for coming and hanging out with 175 00:06:33,830 --> 00:06:31,120 us two dummies for the evening this is 176 00:06:35,909 --> 00:06:33,840 gonna be a lot of fun uh like i was 177 00:06:37,350 --> 00:06:35,919 saying a little earlier i have your i 178 00:06:39,990 --> 00:06:37,360 have one of your books 179 00:06:41,430 --> 00:06:40,000 uh and it was it was so great like what 180 00:06:44,710 --> 00:06:41,440 an adventure 181 00:06:47,270 --> 00:06:44,720 um the book takes you on i mean 182 00:06:49,270 --> 00:06:47,280 i get into it in the first couple pages 183 00:06:51,430 --> 00:06:49,280 i'm like wow that's that's that's pretty 184 00:06:53,510 --> 00:06:51,440 intense and then i get into the rest of 185 00:06:55,749 --> 00:06:53,520 the book and i almost had to go back a 186 00:06:56,790 --> 00:06:55,759 few pages to to see if i missed 187 00:06:58,070 --> 00:06:56,800 something 188 00:07:01,110 --> 00:06:58,080 because 189 00:07:03,029 --> 00:07:01,120 and i didn't i didn't and i kept on 190 00:07:06,390 --> 00:07:03,039 going and it just was like a 191 00:07:08,629 --> 00:07:06,400 rollercoaster ride that uh went up and 192 00:07:11,589 --> 00:07:08,639 then just kept going down like so it was 193 00:07:14,150 --> 00:07:11,599 extremely fun the entire read i had a 194 00:07:15,110 --> 00:07:14,160 great read uh thank you for making this 195 00:07:17,350 --> 00:07:15,120 book 196 00:07:20,070 --> 00:07:17,360 oh thank you thank you i mean you can't 197 00:07:22,710 --> 00:07:20,080 make this up you know it's it's what 198 00:07:24,550 --> 00:07:22,720 happened and so it's like yeah i had it 199 00:07:26,629 --> 00:07:24,560 it took me a long time to put it in some 200 00:07:28,830 --> 00:07:26,639 kind of word form because it's like well 201 00:07:32,150 --> 00:07:28,840 what happened you just go 202 00:07:33,749 --> 00:07:32,160 uh you know you can't you can't describe 203 00:07:35,749 --> 00:07:33,759 it you can't explain 204 00:07:38,230 --> 00:07:35,759 you know tell us in words and it's so 205 00:07:40,710 --> 00:07:38,240 hard you could you just i couldn't do it 206 00:07:43,589 --> 00:07:40,720 so it took me a long time to just figure 207 00:07:46,869 --> 00:07:43,599 out really what happened and how to how 208 00:07:49,189 --> 00:07:46,879 to grok that how to work that how to 209 00:07:51,350 --> 00:07:49,199 be okay with that i was a single mom 210 00:07:53,909 --> 00:07:51,360 with three kids you know so i i could 211 00:07:57,189 --> 00:07:53,919 get out there with all of that but then 212 00:07:59,270 --> 00:07:57,199 i had to come back into the real 3d and 213 00:08:01,909 --> 00:07:59,280 pay bills and take care of kids get them 214 00:08:03,830 --> 00:08:01,919 to school you know right most of me was 215 00:08:04,790 --> 00:08:03,840 still like wow 216 00:08:07,990 --> 00:08:04,800 out there 217 00:08:10,869 --> 00:08:08,000 yes yeah i can't even imagine uh having 218 00:08:13,749 --> 00:08:10,879 to put this experience in words i mean 219 00:08:15,830 --> 00:08:13,759 uh so for those that don't know your 220 00:08:18,070 --> 00:08:15,840 story really uh this happened back in 221 00:08:20,070 --> 00:08:18,080 the 80s give everybody a little bit of a 222 00:08:21,510 --> 00:08:20,080 rundown of kind of like 223 00:08:24,070 --> 00:08:21,520 how this 224 00:08:27,029 --> 00:08:24,080 started and kind of where where it went 225 00:08:29,670 --> 00:08:27,039 from there if you don't mind yeah it was 226 00:08:31,909 --> 00:08:29,680 a 1989 and 227 00:08:34,469 --> 00:08:31,919 i was a single mom i was going through a 228 00:08:37,029 --> 00:08:34,479 horrific divorce and i think there are 229 00:08:39,509 --> 00:08:37,039 good divorces but so far this life i've 230 00:08:41,350 --> 00:08:39,519 not had that so 231 00:08:44,949 --> 00:08:41,360 so i was going through a really uh 232 00:08:47,350 --> 00:08:44,959 intense divorce but um i also was a 233 00:08:50,070 --> 00:08:47,360 seeker of truth i really knew that there 234 00:08:52,470 --> 00:08:50,080 had to be more than all the stuff 235 00:08:56,070 --> 00:08:52,480 like i i had the really beautiful house 236 00:08:57,829 --> 00:08:56,080 i had the vacation i had all the stuff 237 00:09:00,150 --> 00:08:57,839 and all my friends would say well you 238 00:09:02,550 --> 00:09:00,160 should be happy i had a business at the 239 00:09:04,230 --> 00:09:02,560 time i had a fine art gallery i loved 240 00:09:06,310 --> 00:09:04,240 what i was doing i had lots of friends 241 00:09:07,110 --> 00:09:06,320 my kids were all healthy and and i 242 00:09:10,790 --> 00:09:07,120 should 243 00:09:12,949 --> 00:09:10,800 but i just knew there was something i 244 00:09:14,870 --> 00:09:12,959 didn't know what it was so i started i 245 00:09:17,190 --> 00:09:14,880 met this girl 246 00:09:19,590 --> 00:09:17,200 uh who was a psychic and at the time i 247 00:09:21,990 --> 00:09:19,600 was a practicing catholic so for me to 248 00:09:24,230 --> 00:09:22,000 talk to someone who was psychic was like 249 00:09:27,590 --> 00:09:24,240 it was like talking to the devil itself 250 00:09:28,790 --> 00:09:27,600 you know back home it was like what oh 251 00:09:30,949 --> 00:09:28,800 my gosh 252 00:09:33,590 --> 00:09:30,959 and she was dressed in black so that 253 00:09:35,350 --> 00:09:33,600 made it even worse you know so 254 00:09:37,110 --> 00:09:35,360 so i talked with her for a while and 255 00:09:39,910 --> 00:09:37,120 that she said hey i'd like to give you a 256 00:09:41,910 --> 00:09:39,920 psychic reading and and i said 257 00:09:44,070 --> 00:09:41,920 um she says come to my school and we'll 258 00:09:45,990 --> 00:09:44,080 give you one and so i did 259 00:09:47,990 --> 00:09:46,000 and i went and had the reading and it 260 00:09:50,870 --> 00:09:48,000 changed my life because how could 261 00:09:53,590 --> 00:09:50,880 someone know me that well in just a 262 00:09:55,110 --> 00:09:53,600 matter of minutes and so there were a 263 00:09:58,150 --> 00:09:55,120 group of psychics that read me so i 264 00:09:59,990 --> 00:09:58,160 started taking psychic classes 265 00:10:03,509 --> 00:10:00,000 to learn about this because i thought it 266 00:10:06,630 --> 00:10:03,519 was so exciting right to self-discovery 267 00:10:09,910 --> 00:10:06,640 uh like-minded people there uh trying to 268 00:10:12,150 --> 00:10:09,920 look at new things new ideas and uh back 269 00:10:14,790 --> 00:10:12,160 in the 80s i mean there was no internet 270 00:10:17,269 --> 00:10:14,800 or anything so um i you know you would 271 00:10:19,910 --> 00:10:17,279 go to conferences and things like that 272 00:10:23,269 --> 00:10:19,920 but so i was just minding my own 273 00:10:25,350 --> 00:10:23,279 business and that morning i woke up and 274 00:10:27,670 --> 00:10:25,360 there was like this white web 275 00:10:30,069 --> 00:10:27,680 around me and i couldn't 276 00:10:32,389 --> 00:10:30,079 i started to get out of bed and then i 277 00:10:34,230 --> 00:10:32,399 said what is that i don't have time for 278 00:10:37,190 --> 00:10:34,240 that because i got a lot of things to do 279 00:10:38,870 --> 00:10:37,200 today so i laid back down and then i got 280 00:10:42,150 --> 00:10:38,880 back up again hoping it would go away 281 00:10:45,110 --> 00:10:42,160 but it didn't and what that kind of web 282 00:10:47,910 --> 00:10:45,120 did was kind of keep me out of sync for 283 00:10:50,389 --> 00:10:47,920 the day so i was during the day kind of 284 00:10:52,150 --> 00:10:50,399 went on this discovery of what's wrong 285 00:10:53,509 --> 00:10:52,160 can someone see what's wrong with me and 286 00:10:55,590 --> 00:10:53,519 so i went 287 00:10:58,310 --> 00:10:55,600 i'm giving you the short version okay my 288 00:11:00,870 --> 00:10:58,320 book it does a lot of detail but um and 289 00:11:03,990 --> 00:11:00,880 you can stop me whenever you're like 290 00:11:06,710 --> 00:11:04,000 you going okay so i went to i my friend 291 00:11:08,389 --> 00:11:06,720 came um to check on me because she was a 292 00:11:10,790 --> 00:11:08,399 psychic at the time and she said yeah 293 00:11:12,470 --> 00:11:10,800 your orc field looks really weird you 294 00:11:14,790 --> 00:11:12,480 look really weird i think we maybe need 295 00:11:16,790 --> 00:11:14,800 to go have you be checked at the psychic 296 00:11:18,470 --> 00:11:16,800 school well that made sense to me 297 00:11:21,030 --> 00:11:18,480 because i thought hey they have seen 298 00:11:22,389 --> 00:11:21,040 everything at this point so whatever's 299 00:11:24,470 --> 00:11:22,399 wrong with me 300 00:11:26,870 --> 00:11:24,480 they'll fix it in five minutes and i'm 301 00:11:28,710 --> 00:11:26,880 out because i don't have time for any of 302 00:11:30,790 --> 00:11:28,720 this so we went there 303 00:11:31,590 --> 00:11:30,800 and the guy basically said get out of 304 00:11:34,230 --> 00:11:31,600 here 305 00:11:36,150 --> 00:11:34,240 because my energy was like affecting the 306 00:11:38,710 --> 00:11:36,160 whole energy of the school it was 307 00:11:40,550 --> 00:11:38,720 erratic it was high it was you know 308 00:11:43,670 --> 00:11:40,560 whatever it was it was putting me in a 309 00:11:45,590 --> 00:11:43,680 little bit of a of a very much shall we 310 00:11:47,350 --> 00:11:45,600 say fear state too and i didn't want to 311 00:11:50,069 --> 00:11:47,360 go into here but it was out of my 312 00:11:51,590 --> 00:11:50,079 control whatever was happening to me was 313 00:11:53,910 --> 00:11:51,600 out of my control 314 00:11:55,509 --> 00:11:53,920 and the my teachers the people that i 315 00:11:57,910 --> 00:11:55,519 thought would help me didn't want to 316 00:12:01,110 --> 00:11:57,920 have anything to do with it so that 317 00:12:03,829 --> 00:12:01,120 night i went to a women's healing center 318 00:12:07,190 --> 00:12:03,839 with all psychics there they were about 319 00:12:09,509 --> 00:12:07,200 i don't remember exactly but 35 to 50 320 00:12:11,030 --> 00:12:09,519 women that were psychics there as i'm 321 00:12:13,430 --> 00:12:11,040 walking into the building i started 322 00:12:15,269 --> 00:12:13,440 having a lot of of uh 323 00:12:17,430 --> 00:12:15,279 pain in my chest 324 00:12:21,190 --> 00:12:17,440 so much so that a lady came up to me and 325 00:12:23,750 --> 00:12:21,200 she was told to give a stranger a an 326 00:12:25,509 --> 00:12:23,760 inhaler because they would need it and 327 00:12:27,509 --> 00:12:25,519 so she says i think you're that person 328 00:12:28,550 --> 00:12:27,519 like oh i think you're right 329 00:12:31,030 --> 00:12:28,560 you know 330 00:12:34,230 --> 00:12:31,040 and so i took the inhaler and she walked 331 00:12:36,310 --> 00:12:34,240 me very slowly into the building and all 332 00:12:38,389 --> 00:12:36,320 i remember is walking into the building 333 00:12:40,629 --> 00:12:38,399 was cold and so everyone had scarves and 334 00:12:42,310 --> 00:12:40,639 coats and everyone was talking and it 335 00:12:44,949 --> 00:12:42,320 was getting worse and worse for me i 336 00:12:47,750 --> 00:12:44,959 couldn't breathe and so the next thing i 337 00:12:49,590 --> 00:12:47,760 remember is i passed out 338 00:12:52,389 --> 00:12:49,600 what they remember is a totally 339 00:12:53,269 --> 00:12:52,399 different thing and then i go on a whole 340 00:12:56,389 --> 00:12:53,279 different 341 00:12:58,870 --> 00:12:56,399 you know journey but when my body when 342 00:13:00,150 --> 00:12:58,880 they picked me back up they sat me in a 343 00:13:03,750 --> 00:13:00,160 chair 344 00:13:04,949 --> 00:13:03,760 and i full body channeled a being that 345 00:13:08,150 --> 00:13:04,959 wasn't me 346 00:13:09,990 --> 00:13:08,160 that had a male voice very loud and 347 00:13:12,310 --> 00:13:10,000 scared the hell out of all the women 348 00:13:14,710 --> 00:13:12,320 that were there and i turned a little 349 00:13:18,069 --> 00:13:14,720 bit of a green looking color 350 00:13:21,110 --> 00:13:18,079 and he said to the women that he was an 351 00:13:22,870 --> 00:13:21,120 egyptian being i'm an egyptian rang you 352 00:13:25,190 --> 00:13:22,880 know just like something like out of a 353 00:13:28,470 --> 00:13:25,200 horror movie or something yes 354 00:13:30,389 --> 00:13:28,480 and he said that he was there to kill me 355 00:13:32,230 --> 00:13:30,399 because i had information that couldn't 356 00:13:34,230 --> 00:13:32,240 be given at that time 357 00:13:35,269 --> 00:13:34,240 and so he collapsed both my lungs and 358 00:13:38,790 --> 00:13:35,279 then they started giving me 359 00:13:39,590 --> 00:13:38,800 mouth-to-mouth and then um the ambulance 360 00:13:42,150 --> 00:13:39,600 came 361 00:13:45,269 --> 00:13:42,160 and as they were taking care of me i was 362 00:13:47,430 --> 00:13:45,279 really fortunate to have a group of 363 00:13:48,710 --> 00:13:47,440 psychics who were also reading the 364 00:13:50,550 --> 00:13:48,720 energy 365 00:13:52,710 --> 00:13:50,560 so they could read what was going on 366 00:13:55,350 --> 00:13:52,720 that's what you do right so 367 00:13:57,430 --> 00:13:55,360 i was being put into the ambulance they 368 00:14:00,069 --> 00:13:57,440 were reading it and what they saw and 369 00:14:02,870 --> 00:14:00,079 this is back in 1989 okay 370 00:14:07,430 --> 00:14:02,880 i swear all this is true good year pick 371 00:14:12,629 --> 00:14:10,710 so so i'm i'm you know laid out and so 372 00:14:13,590 --> 00:14:12,639 as they're reading it 373 00:14:18,949 --> 00:14:13,600 um 374 00:14:20,389 --> 00:14:18,959 my body thor comes in i swear to god a 375 00:14:23,750 --> 00:14:20,399 being called thor 376 00:14:27,430 --> 00:14:23,760 a greek god come demigod comes in and 377 00:14:29,430 --> 00:14:27,440 kicks ass on the egyptian being and says 378 00:14:31,910 --> 00:14:29,440 he can't kill me at that time and they 379 00:14:35,910 --> 00:14:31,920 go to battle this is what the psychics 380 00:14:38,150 --> 00:14:35,920 read and he saves me and so uh 381 00:14:41,750 --> 00:14:38,160 later much much later many many years 382 00:14:44,230 --> 00:14:41,760 later i did have a hypnotherapy session 383 00:14:46,389 --> 00:14:44,240 on this but nothing really came of it 384 00:14:48,470 --> 00:14:46,399 i'm still was too traumatized even 30 385 00:14:49,590 --> 00:14:48,480 years later to 386 00:14:52,310 --> 00:14:49,600 okay 387 00:14:55,750 --> 00:14:52,320 i have a question yeah uh 388 00:14:57,509 --> 00:14:55,760 i am this is awesome okay so no i'm 389 00:14:59,189 --> 00:14:57,519 really interested in like we're like 390 00:14:59,829 --> 00:14:59,199 five pages in the book right now by the 391 00:15:01,910 --> 00:14:59,839 way 392 00:15:03,030 --> 00:15:01,920 dude 393 00:15:10,389 --> 00:15:03,040 okay 394 00:15:12,470 --> 00:15:10,399 uh go back to 395 00:15:13,990 --> 00:15:12,480 okay so a lot of it uh near-death 396 00:15:16,150 --> 00:15:14,000 experiences happened because of like 397 00:15:19,110 --> 00:15:16,160 like car accidents or like heart attack 398 00:15:22,069 --> 00:15:19,120 or like during surgery and so 399 00:15:24,710 --> 00:15:22,079 can you maybe describe in detail 400 00:15:26,949 --> 00:15:24,720 uh i i think you just did but like you 401 00:15:29,189 --> 00:15:26,959 were you were at a retreat with other 402 00:15:31,829 --> 00:15:29,199 people so you weren't in like any kind 403 00:15:33,910 --> 00:15:31,839 of like uh abrupt uh 404 00:15:36,470 --> 00:15:33,920 accident or anything like that correct 405 00:15:39,590 --> 00:15:36,480 correct correct i was just i was having 406 00:15:42,389 --> 00:15:39,600 trouble breathing and i am an asthmatic 407 00:15:44,629 --> 00:15:42,399 so so you know i'm used to i always have 408 00:15:47,189 --> 00:15:44,639 an inhaler i know how to deal with it i 409 00:15:49,189 --> 00:15:47,199 go into meditation i take my inhaler if 410 00:15:51,430 --> 00:15:49,199 it gets worse i take some other like 411 00:15:54,069 --> 00:15:51,440 prednisone or something like that so i 412 00:15:56,389 --> 00:15:54,079 knew how to keep it under control i knew 413 00:15:59,350 --> 00:15:56,399 how to but that night it was beyond me 414 00:16:01,990 --> 00:15:59,360 the whole thing was a setup somehow for 415 00:16:04,150 --> 00:16:02,000 me to have this experience i think much 416 00:16:06,870 --> 00:16:04,160 later looking back at it so that i could 417 00:16:09,670 --> 00:16:06,880 have this whole destiny that i've had 418 00:16:11,590 --> 00:16:09,680 that i i would just be fine just being a 419 00:16:12,949 --> 00:16:11,600 single mom okay 420 00:16:14,470 --> 00:16:12,959 i didn't need 421 00:16:16,069 --> 00:16:14,480 any of this 422 00:16:18,069 --> 00:16:16,079 but now i went through it i wouldn't 423 00:16:20,870 --> 00:16:18,079 change it for anything but at the time i 424 00:16:22,550 --> 00:16:20,880 was you know just just being me you know 425 00:16:24,710 --> 00:16:22,560 just being a human 426 00:16:27,030 --> 00:16:24,720 hanging out i love being a mom i love 427 00:16:29,670 --> 00:16:27,040 doing my gallery you know so i didn't 428 00:16:31,509 --> 00:16:29,680 have any reason for any of this yeah 429 00:16:34,870 --> 00:16:31,519 right right so 430 00:16:37,350 --> 00:16:34,880 ben you personally have had a collapsed 431 00:16:40,150 --> 00:16:37,360 lung haven't you yeah i had a it's 432 00:16:42,310 --> 00:16:40,160 called a spontaneous pneumothorax 433 00:16:43,509 --> 00:16:42,320 and most people when you say that term 434 00:16:45,269 --> 00:16:43,519 they're like 435 00:16:48,310 --> 00:16:45,279 i don't know that dinosaur 436 00:16:51,430 --> 00:16:48,320 uh but but yeah like apparently it 437 00:16:53,590 --> 00:16:51,440 happens quite a lot uh 438 00:16:54,550 --> 00:16:53,600 it happens a lot uh i was like i was 439 00:16:56,870 --> 00:16:54,560 like 440 00:16:59,910 --> 00:16:56,880 20 19 maybe 441 00:17:02,710 --> 00:16:59,920 and uh i was smoking cigarettes but 442 00:17:05,270 --> 00:17:02,720 at the time but like dude nothing 443 00:17:07,990 --> 00:17:05,280 i it i wasn't like smoking 12 cigars a 444 00:17:10,549 --> 00:17:08,000 day so uh anyway 445 00:17:12,150 --> 00:17:10,559 they the doctors uh later 446 00:17:14,150 --> 00:17:12,160 realized like it had nothing to do with 447 00:17:15,909 --> 00:17:14,160 cigarettes just happens to 448 00:17:16,949 --> 00:17:15,919 certain people just randomly like it's 449 00:17:21,270 --> 00:17:16,959 called the spontaneous that's why it's 450 00:17:23,110 --> 00:17:21,280 called spontaneous but yeah dude um uh 451 00:17:24,710 --> 00:17:23,120 i thought i was gonna die um i didn't 452 00:17:27,669 --> 00:17:24,720 have a near-death experience i didn't i 453 00:17:28,470 --> 00:17:27,679 don't think i crossed over into any sort 454 00:17:30,150 --> 00:17:28,480 of 455 00:17:33,190 --> 00:17:30,160 realm where i didn't really i didn't 456 00:17:35,029 --> 00:17:33,200 speak to any uh any entity like yourself 457 00:17:36,549 --> 00:17:35,039 barbara and this is why i'm like so 458 00:17:39,029 --> 00:17:36,559 fascinated by it 459 00:17:41,110 --> 00:17:39,039 um i wish i had i don't know maybe even 460 00:17:42,150 --> 00:17:41,120 like talk to somebody 461 00:17:44,070 --> 00:17:42,160 maybe 462 00:17:46,950 --> 00:17:44,080 the pain is that the pain is so 463 00:17:49,350 --> 00:17:46,960 excruciating i never felt anything like 464 00:17:51,029 --> 00:17:49,360 that before and i had had three children 465 00:17:52,630 --> 00:17:51,039 okay 466 00:17:55,029 --> 00:17:52,640 wow so you had already 467 00:17:56,549 --> 00:17:55,039 three children lung you know that's like 468 00:18:04,710 --> 00:17:56,559 kitchen 469 00:18:09,029 --> 00:18:07,190 well i had a collapsed lung and barbara 470 00:18:16,150 --> 00:18:09,039 said it's worse than having three kids 471 00:18:21,590 --> 00:18:18,470 yes 472 00:18:24,150 --> 00:18:21,600 i love it oh my gosh i wanted to point 473 00:18:26,630 --> 00:18:24,160 out the fact that at the beginning 474 00:18:28,070 --> 00:18:26,640 you said you had this web on and the 475 00:18:30,310 --> 00:18:28,080 reason i'm pointing this out is because 476 00:18:32,789 --> 00:18:30,320 it's exactly what i would have done 477 00:18:35,430 --> 00:18:32,799 he said i got this web around me and i 478 00:18:37,110 --> 00:18:35,440 was feeling weird but i had so much to 479 00:18:39,430 --> 00:18:37,120 do that day 480 00:18:40,470 --> 00:18:39,440 so i went and laid down 481 00:18:43,029 --> 00:18:40,480 because that's what i would have done 482 00:18:45,350 --> 00:18:43,039 too i'm so busy i guess i'm gonna go 483 00:18:47,190 --> 00:18:45,360 take a nap 484 00:18:49,110 --> 00:18:47,200 for it i'm you know i'm still kind of 485 00:18:51,270 --> 00:18:49,120 like that i'm kind of a doer i get a lot 486 00:18:54,230 --> 00:18:51,280 of things done in a day i'm still kind 487 00:18:57,669 --> 00:18:54,240 of have a lot of energy for my age i 488 00:19:01,590 --> 00:18:57,679 have a lot of energy i'm 69. so i mean i 489 00:19:04,150 --> 00:19:01,600 i get a lot i'm starting like a a major 490 00:19:07,750 --> 00:19:04,160 uh tech startup company right now too so 491 00:19:11,029 --> 00:19:07,760 i mean so so you know how cool 492 00:19:13,070 --> 00:19:11,039 so so yeah so so this thing changed my 493 00:19:15,669 --> 00:19:13,080 life forever though it it wrote 494 00:19:18,230 --> 00:19:15,679 irrevocably changed my life forever this 495 00:19:21,830 --> 00:19:18,240 experience yes yes 496 00:19:23,990 --> 00:19:21,840 so you you don't you don't really 497 00:19:25,990 --> 00:19:24,000 you you know like that's that's kind of 498 00:19:27,430 --> 00:19:26,000 what i thought was fascinating about 499 00:19:29,430 --> 00:19:27,440 this is that like you know you don't 500 00:19:31,669 --> 00:19:29,440 really remember 501 00:19:34,549 --> 00:19:31,679 kind of like what happened right these 502 00:19:37,110 --> 00:19:34,559 are all like other people telling you 503 00:19:39,590 --> 00:19:37,120 kind of like what they witnessed right 504 00:19:42,789 --> 00:19:39,600 which is is interesting 505 00:19:44,789 --> 00:19:42,799 i have the part where they witnessed it 506 00:19:46,390 --> 00:19:44,799 to the point where they called the 507 00:19:48,870 --> 00:19:46,400 ambulance and they were giving me 508 00:19:51,190 --> 00:19:48,880 resuscitation it was it was really a 509 00:19:54,230 --> 00:19:51,200 matter of life and death any minute so i 510 00:19:56,950 --> 00:19:54,240 had the hospital and the people i had 511 00:19:58,549 --> 00:19:56,960 a whole bunch of psychics praying for me 512 00:20:01,270 --> 00:19:58,559 and for what i was going through and 513 00:20:03,990 --> 00:20:01,280 then i had all of the medical team 514 00:20:06,549 --> 00:20:04,000 working on my body frantically giving me 515 00:20:08,710 --> 00:20:06,559 as much as much of the defibrillator as 516 00:20:11,190 --> 00:20:08,720 i could possibly take and i remember 517 00:20:13,110 --> 00:20:11,200 talking to the doctor like five years 518 00:20:15,510 --> 00:20:13,120 later he said he put through so much 519 00:20:17,669 --> 00:20:15,520 juice through me that he had never he 520 00:20:19,590 --> 00:20:17,679 thought what the hell i we're gonna lose 521 00:20:22,230 --> 00:20:19,600 her anyway let's just you know he was 522 00:20:24,630 --> 00:20:22,240 experimenting on me 523 00:20:27,029 --> 00:20:24,640 you know dr frankenstein over here dude 524 00:20:29,669 --> 00:20:27,039 it was like a frankenstein 525 00:20:32,310 --> 00:20:29,679 it's but i have this big vein that comes 526 00:20:34,549 --> 00:20:32,320 through on my arm and down into my heart 527 00:20:36,950 --> 00:20:34,559 and that's from that them giving me so 528 00:20:39,430 --> 00:20:36,960 much electricity and wow later when i 529 00:20:42,630 --> 00:20:39,440 made it through it my whole body felt 530 00:20:44,870 --> 00:20:42,640 like it was fried on the inside from all 531 00:20:48,070 --> 00:20:44,880 of the electrical charges from all of 532 00:20:49,990 --> 00:20:48,080 that wow but after they did that so my 533 00:20:52,390 --> 00:20:50,000 body's in the medical 534 00:20:55,190 --> 00:20:52,400 icu they call my family and they're 535 00:20:57,350 --> 00:20:55,200 they're like no i'm gonna die any minute 536 00:20:58,870 --> 00:20:57,360 my sister flies out it's a big my family 537 00:21:01,029 --> 00:20:58,880 kind of likes that kind of stuff drama 538 00:21:04,630 --> 00:21:01,039 trauma so it's all this drama trauma i'm 539 00:21:07,190 --> 00:21:04,640 in the hospital and as my body's there 540 00:21:09,590 --> 00:21:07,200 um in that moment that the excruciating 541 00:21:11,669 --> 00:21:09,600 pain was too much was like a hundred 542 00:21:15,510 --> 00:21:11,679 thousand knives in my chest and you can 543 00:21:16,630 --> 00:21:15,520 relate to that and so in that point of 544 00:21:18,549 --> 00:21:16,640 pain 545 00:21:21,669 --> 00:21:18,559 that i couldn't take anymore i popped 546 00:21:23,669 --> 00:21:21,679 out of the body so i have total memory 547 00:21:26,630 --> 00:21:23,679 of popping out of the body 548 00:21:28,950 --> 00:21:26,640 and that's where i go on my own journey 549 00:21:31,110 --> 00:21:28,960 very separate from the people that 550 00:21:33,909 --> 00:21:31,120 people are seeing my body a vegetable 551 00:21:35,990 --> 00:21:33,919 there so in a coma so i like i was in a 552 00:21:38,070 --> 00:21:36,000 coma for two and a half days almost 553 00:21:41,669 --> 00:21:38,080 three days and so i laid in that 554 00:21:44,470 --> 00:21:41,679 comatose state but my beingness my 555 00:21:47,270 --> 00:21:44,480 consciousness went elsewhere and that's 556 00:21:49,110 --> 00:21:47,280 what i write about in the book and 557 00:21:51,909 --> 00:21:49,120 so i could keep going or whatever you 558 00:21:56,710 --> 00:21:54,710 the way the way you describe it when 559 00:21:58,710 --> 00:21:56,720 when we we're gonna get into this next 560 00:22:00,070 --> 00:21:58,720 part um you know 561 00:22:00,950 --> 00:22:00,080 where you went 562 00:22:03,350 --> 00:22:00,960 and 563 00:22:06,950 --> 00:22:03,360 i mean the way you describe it is like 564 00:22:10,230 --> 00:22:06,960 the most enticing like beautiful thing i 565 00:22:12,470 --> 00:22:10,240 mean you're just like it was so warm and 566 00:22:15,750 --> 00:22:12,480 and it smelled good and it looked 567 00:22:17,669 --> 00:22:15,760 beautiful and it sounded great like a 568 00:22:19,830 --> 00:22:17,679 like a thousand babies eating cookies 569 00:22:21,990 --> 00:22:19,840 all at the same time sweet you know what 570 00:22:23,669 --> 00:22:22,000 i'm saying like it was just like the 571 00:22:26,549 --> 00:22:23,679 sweet and i was i was reading this thing 572 00:22:28,789 --> 00:22:26,559 and i like you're just reading like all 573 00:22:30,470 --> 00:22:28,799 these descriptive words like one at one 574 00:22:32,310 --> 00:22:30,480 after another it's like almost half a 575 00:22:33,190 --> 00:22:32,320 page of just descriptive words and i'm 576 00:22:35,510 --> 00:22:33,200 like 577 00:22:37,029 --> 00:22:35,520 i'm feeling so good just by reading this 578 00:22:40,149 --> 00:22:37,039 right now like 579 00:22:42,870 --> 00:22:40,159 and it's it's so wild i can never like i 580 00:22:45,430 --> 00:22:42,880 can never like relate to that good 581 00:22:47,990 --> 00:22:45,440 feeling other than this strange dream 582 00:22:50,470 --> 00:22:48,000 that i had one time and it was very very 583 00:22:51,750 --> 00:22:50,480 strange because i've never felt this 584 00:22:54,870 --> 00:22:51,760 good ever 585 00:22:57,270 --> 00:22:54,880 ever and i was actually kind of sad like 586 00:22:59,750 --> 00:22:57,280 when i woke up for some reason i don't 587 00:23:01,350 --> 00:22:59,760 know but it was like just like this this 588 00:23:04,070 --> 00:23:01,360 nice little like 589 00:23:06,549 --> 00:23:04,080 like pinkish kind of red vibe and it was 590 00:23:08,710 --> 00:23:06,559 just everything was soft and like i 591 00:23:10,630 --> 00:23:08,720 could remember like talking to 592 00:23:12,149 --> 00:23:10,640 i guess people i don't know i don't know 593 00:23:14,070 --> 00:23:12,159 what they were but like whatever it was 594 00:23:15,990 --> 00:23:14,080 everybody was so friendly and i felt 595 00:23:18,070 --> 00:23:16,000 like i was i was drinking this like 596 00:23:20,390 --> 00:23:18,080 pinkish drink and then 597 00:23:22,149 --> 00:23:20,400 somebody said to me you gotta go and i 598 00:23:24,070 --> 00:23:22,159 was like no i'm good i can hang out for 599 00:23:26,789 --> 00:23:24,080 a little while longer and then like 600 00:23:28,710 --> 00:23:26,799 it was almost like this thing like 601 00:23:31,270 --> 00:23:28,720 i guess not scared me but definitely 602 00:23:32,789 --> 00:23:31,280 like kind of almost pushed me like out 603 00:23:36,230 --> 00:23:32,799 of this dream and then i woke up and i 604 00:23:38,230 --> 00:23:36,240 was like oh what a sad day like but i 605 00:23:39,590 --> 00:23:38,240 don't know what it was you know but i've 606 00:23:41,269 --> 00:23:39,600 never experienced anything like that 607 00:23:43,190 --> 00:23:41,279 except for in that dream so anytime 608 00:23:45,590 --> 00:23:43,200 somebody describes like an amazing 609 00:23:47,190 --> 00:23:45,600 feeling that's where i go in my head and 610 00:23:48,789 --> 00:23:47,200 i can only compare it to that because 611 00:23:50,630 --> 00:23:48,799 like that was the greatest feeling i've 612 00:23:53,510 --> 00:23:50,640 ever had so you know but what you 613 00:23:55,510 --> 00:23:53,520 described i can't even imagine that 614 00:23:57,190 --> 00:23:55,520 well and you had a lucid dream right and 615 00:23:59,110 --> 00:23:57,200 so you're in a different dimension 616 00:24:02,070 --> 00:23:59,120 you're probably in that fifth dimension 617 00:24:03,590 --> 00:24:02,080 or higher and when you come down to this 618 00:24:06,070 --> 00:24:03,600 third dimension 619 00:24:07,909 --> 00:24:06,080 after i had all those experiences then 620 00:24:09,909 --> 00:24:07,919 it's like taking a gallon of milk and 621 00:24:12,390 --> 00:24:09,919 putting it into a thimble 622 00:24:14,230 --> 00:24:12,400 right that's old school talk another way 623 00:24:16,950 --> 00:24:14,240 you would call it death but i know what 624 00:24:18,870 --> 00:24:16,960 a symbol is okay i know what a temple is 625 00:24:20,789 --> 00:24:18,880 goes on your thumb 626 00:24:22,789 --> 00:24:20,799 here it's peter pan uh 627 00:24:25,110 --> 00:24:22,799 uh it's pretty bad 628 00:24:27,029 --> 00:24:25,120 so barbra 629 00:24:28,710 --> 00:24:27,039 is this something that you can because 630 00:24:30,870 --> 00:24:28,720 this is something that i'm struggling 631 00:24:32,789 --> 00:24:30,880 with right now currently right because i 632 00:24:34,390 --> 00:24:32,799 i know like a few shows ago i was 633 00:24:36,549 --> 00:24:34,400 telling ben it was like look i don't 634 00:24:38,310 --> 00:24:36,559 know like what this like 635 00:24:41,269 --> 00:24:38,320 higher vibratory 636 00:24:43,190 --> 00:24:41,279 higher consciousness like like uh you 637 00:24:45,029 --> 00:24:43,200 know i don't i don't know what this 638 00:24:46,710 --> 00:24:45,039 adventure is you know what i'm saying 639 00:24:48,149 --> 00:24:46,720 like i don't i'm having a hard time 640 00:24:49,269 --> 00:24:48,159 understanding like 641 00:24:54,149 --> 00:24:49,279 how to 642 00:24:57,510 --> 00:24:54,159 because maybe i just don't i just don't 643 00:24:59,990 --> 00:24:57,520 get it but i'm like i'm very interested 644 00:25:02,149 --> 00:25:00,000 in going down that path i would love to 645 00:25:04,630 --> 00:25:02,159 take that adventure i just i don't feel 646 00:25:06,710 --> 00:25:04,640 like maybe i know how or 647 00:25:08,470 --> 00:25:06,720 or it's so i guess what i'm trying to 648 00:25:09,909 --> 00:25:08,480 say is is this something that you can 649 00:25:12,390 --> 00:25:09,919 learn or is this something that just 650 00:25:14,870 --> 00:25:12,400 kind of come naturally comes naturally 651 00:25:17,590 --> 00:25:14,880 to people or is it a little bit of both 652 00:25:19,990 --> 00:25:17,600 because i i feel like i want it so bad 653 00:25:22,630 --> 00:25:20,000 that i'm i'm kind of losing myself in 654 00:25:24,310 --> 00:25:22,640 the process of looking for it well 655 00:25:25,590 --> 00:25:24,320 there's a couple that's a whole bunch of 656 00:25:26,789 --> 00:25:25,600 things 657 00:25:29,350 --> 00:25:26,799 yeah 658 00:25:30,549 --> 00:25:29,360 i talk like that it's like a seeker of 659 00:25:33,029 --> 00:25:30,559 truth that you know that there's 660 00:25:36,630 --> 00:25:33,039 something more here and so part of that 661 00:25:39,190 --> 00:25:36,640 is that adventure you want a juicy life 662 00:25:42,390 --> 00:25:39,200 you want like a life you can just this 663 00:25:45,110 --> 00:25:42,400 life is just like the best right and you 664 00:25:46,070 --> 00:25:45,120 can create that here but it's not set up 665 00:25:48,630 --> 00:25:46,080 for that 666 00:25:51,269 --> 00:25:48,640 this third dimension is very dense 667 00:25:54,230 --> 00:25:51,279 and it's very controlled it you know all 668 00:25:55,430 --> 00:25:54,240 that stuff i don't know so it's there so 669 00:25:58,470 --> 00:25:55,440 in order to 670 00:26:00,310 --> 00:25:58,480 to you learn how to be that and then by 671 00:26:03,190 --> 00:26:00,320 learning and exploring and having 672 00:26:05,110 --> 00:26:03,200 experiences i think i teach a lot with 673 00:26:07,430 --> 00:26:05,120 experiences but when you have your 674 00:26:09,430 --> 00:26:07,440 experiences are the best teachers and if 675 00:26:11,430 --> 00:26:09,440 you have any kind of relationship with 676 00:26:14,390 --> 00:26:11,440 extraterrestrials or your star family 677 00:26:16,230 --> 00:26:14,400 they like to teach by experiential too 678 00:26:18,870 --> 00:26:16,240 and it's because it connects with your 679 00:26:21,190 --> 00:26:18,880 body and your being and communication 680 00:26:23,430 --> 00:26:21,200 that way and it makes it more real and 681 00:26:25,669 --> 00:26:23,440 then you can expand that consciousness 682 00:26:28,549 --> 00:26:25,679 but work it in your body 683 00:26:30,870 --> 00:26:28,559 right right yeah a lot of times when you 684 00:26:32,789 --> 00:26:30,880 were you have to get the information 685 00:26:35,269 --> 00:26:32,799 it's still out there but the key is to 686 00:26:37,669 --> 00:26:35,279 work it into the third working into your 687 00:26:39,750 --> 00:26:37,679 body so then you can have all that 688 00:26:43,110 --> 00:26:39,760 information and then you get to walk 689 00:26:44,710 --> 00:26:43,120 between both worlds very easily 690 00:26:46,630 --> 00:26:44,720 now you know the third now you're 691 00:26:48,390 --> 00:26:46,640 learning about the fifth you'll you'll 692 00:26:49,990 --> 00:26:48,400 work it you'll have experiences you'll 693 00:26:51,830 --> 00:26:50,000 grow you'll change you transform you'll 694 00:26:53,430 --> 00:26:51,840 meet the right people all these things 695 00:26:55,590 --> 00:26:53,440 start to happen to you because you're on 696 00:26:57,990 --> 00:26:55,600 that quest you're on that journey it's 697 00:27:01,110 --> 00:26:58,000 important to you and then once you start 698 00:27:03,029 --> 00:27:01,120 to crack it then you can go back and be 699 00:27:04,630 --> 00:27:03,039 in that third dimension and be cool with 700 00:27:06,549 --> 00:27:04,640 it because you know you belong in the 701 00:27:08,789 --> 00:27:06,559 fifth and then you're in the fifth you 702 00:27:11,909 --> 00:27:08,799 go i don't want to go to the third and 703 00:27:13,909 --> 00:27:11,919 so then you start to balance it and yes 704 00:27:16,230 --> 00:27:13,919 people have freedom 705 00:27:18,149 --> 00:27:16,240 then you get to choose and it works 706 00:27:20,789 --> 00:27:18,159 really well that way so that's what i 707 00:27:22,870 --> 00:27:20,799 found over my bars barbara you just 708 00:27:25,350 --> 00:27:22,880 sparked an idea in my head 709 00:27:27,269 --> 00:27:25,360 okay and and tell me if like i'm just 710 00:27:29,590 --> 00:27:27,279 regurgitating someone something that 711 00:27:31,269 --> 00:27:29,600 someone else has had but you just gave 712 00:27:32,710 --> 00:27:31,279 me some inspiration that kind of clicked 713 00:27:34,389 --> 00:27:32,720 in my head that 714 00:27:37,029 --> 00:27:34,399 i've been on my own you know personal 715 00:27:38,950 --> 00:27:37,039 spiritual journey for like 716 00:27:41,029 --> 00:27:38,960 the last year and a half and 717 00:27:41,909 --> 00:27:41,039 it's an ebb and flow thing i'm sure you 718 00:27:44,630 --> 00:27:41,919 know 719 00:27:46,549 --> 00:27:44,640 uh but uh there's this thing that i 720 00:27:48,549 --> 00:27:46,559 can't i haven't figured out yet for 721 00:27:50,230 --> 00:27:48,559 myself i haven't found my answer not the 722 00:27:51,269 --> 00:27:50,240 right answer but you know an answer that 723 00:27:54,149 --> 00:27:51,279 works for me 724 00:27:56,389 --> 00:27:54,159 yeah uh and it's this the separation of 725 00:27:57,510 --> 00:27:56,399 self and your body and and your 726 00:27:59,269 --> 00:27:57,520 consciousness 727 00:28:01,430 --> 00:27:59,279 and i don't like the idea that they're 728 00:28:02,630 --> 00:28:01,440 separate i i feel like it's got to be 729 00:28:04,789 --> 00:28:02,640 all one thing 730 00:28:06,630 --> 00:28:04,799 but the more and more people like you 731 00:28:08,470 --> 00:28:06,640 yourself who have been through this kind 732 00:28:10,389 --> 00:28:08,480 of stuff 733 00:28:11,990 --> 00:28:10,399 it doesn't matter stop thinking of it 734 00:28:13,990 --> 00:28:12,000 that way it doesn't it doesn't have to 735 00:28:16,389 --> 00:28:14,000 be one or the other it's 736 00:28:18,789 --> 00:28:16,399 you have to uh think about it as 737 00:28:20,630 --> 00:28:18,799 what i got from what you just said was 738 00:28:23,269 --> 00:28:20,640 these dimensions right it doesn't 739 00:28:25,669 --> 00:28:23,279 necessarily mean you're looking at these 740 00:28:26,950 --> 00:28:25,679 you know uh uh strings you know there's 741 00:28:27,909 --> 00:28:26,960 six strings on a guitar you're not 742 00:28:30,149 --> 00:28:27,919 looking at 743 00:28:31,350 --> 00:28:30,159 six strings it's all on one guitar and 744 00:28:33,510 --> 00:28:31,360 that's you 745 00:28:35,350 --> 00:28:33,520 so that's the image that you put in my 746 00:28:38,310 --> 00:28:35,360 head 747 00:28:41,110 --> 00:28:38,320 and and and if you can ground in that 748 00:28:45,110 --> 00:28:41,120 and be in work center in it it's what i 749 00:28:47,269 --> 00:28:45,120 call being aware of being aware 750 00:28:49,110 --> 00:28:47,279 yeah i like that a lot 751 00:28:51,510 --> 00:28:49,120 where where i will first that's how it 752 00:28:54,789 --> 00:28:51,520 all starts i'm aware of i am not in my 753 00:28:57,350 --> 00:28:54,799 body where the hell am i i'm like now 754 00:28:59,110 --> 00:28:57,360 i'm really in my body and then it's like 755 00:29:00,710 --> 00:28:59,120 the last place they want to be is in my 756 00:29:01,590 --> 00:29:00,720 body 757 00:29:04,630 --> 00:29:01,600 you know 758 00:29:07,750 --> 00:29:04,640 and so you get to to work with that and 759 00:29:08,789 --> 00:29:07,760 and and grok with that and and play play 760 00:29:11,350 --> 00:29:08,799 in that 761 00:29:13,750 --> 00:29:11,360 and yeah and then you get to 762 00:29:15,269 --> 00:29:13,760 see really the body is a gift it is it's 763 00:29:17,190 --> 00:29:15,279 really is a beautiful 764 00:29:19,350 --> 00:29:17,200 temple and it took me a long time to 765 00:29:21,430 --> 00:29:19,360 find that one because i had a lot of 766 00:29:24,870 --> 00:29:21,440 trouble being here because i had a lot 767 00:29:26,710 --> 00:29:24,880 of sickness as a kid and a lot of 768 00:29:28,630 --> 00:29:26,720 pain and suffering associated with the 769 00:29:30,870 --> 00:29:28,640 body so i had to 770 00:29:32,630 --> 00:29:30,880 go through that and i think the biggest 771 00:29:35,029 --> 00:29:32,640 thing is like for me to go through a 772 00:29:36,389 --> 00:29:35,039 near death what happens is i don't fear 773 00:29:37,990 --> 00:29:36,399 death 774 00:29:40,549 --> 00:29:38,000 so if you know and that's what i'm 775 00:29:41,669 --> 00:29:40,559 saying to you don't fear death 776 00:29:44,710 --> 00:29:41,679 right 777 00:29:47,669 --> 00:29:44,720 wow yeah i mean that's that's the big 778 00:29:49,669 --> 00:29:47,679 question dude like yeah yeah you know 779 00:29:52,630 --> 00:29:49,679 the whole spirit you're gonna still 780 00:29:54,549 --> 00:29:52,640 exist you still are there you're still i 781 00:29:56,230 --> 00:29:54,559 proved it by going out and coming back 782 00:29:58,070 --> 00:29:56,240 and not only me but they're having 783 00:29:59,750 --> 00:29:58,080 millions of people having this oh yeah 784 00:30:01,590 --> 00:29:59,760 i'm gonna probably get closer and closer 785 00:30:03,269 --> 00:30:01,600 that everyone oh yeah i have my 786 00:30:06,070 --> 00:30:03,279 near-death experience you know it's like 787 00:30:07,830 --> 00:30:06,080 a so i put that in your baby book right 788 00:30:10,230 --> 00:30:07,840 yeah 789 00:30:13,190 --> 00:30:10,240 so the the being aware 790 00:30:15,830 --> 00:30:13,200 of being aware right 791 00:30:19,830 --> 00:30:15,840 you know uh i think when we talked to uh 792 00:30:22,549 --> 00:30:19,840 geraldine uh she had said uh you know 793 00:30:24,389 --> 00:30:22,559 it takes a lot of practice to 794 00:30:25,590 --> 00:30:24,399 you know 795 00:30:29,909 --> 00:30:25,600 be 796 00:30:31,669 --> 00:30:29,919 that that you're aware of what's going 797 00:30:34,070 --> 00:30:31,679 on that's how you kind of like bring 798 00:30:38,070 --> 00:30:34,080 yourself back to yourself 799 00:30:39,190 --> 00:30:38,080 i am a daydreaming fool like i will 800 00:30:42,549 --> 00:30:39,200 drive 801 00:30:45,669 --> 00:30:42,559 three hours and not look at the road one 802 00:30:47,990 --> 00:30:45,679 time i don't know i always eat pocket 803 00:30:49,909 --> 00:30:48,000 cheese the whole time i have always been 804 00:30:52,070 --> 00:30:49,919 that way i've always been a daydreamer 805 00:30:55,350 --> 00:30:52,080 my head is always in the clouds but 806 00:30:57,509 --> 00:30:55,360 since we had talked to geraldine i have 807 00:30:59,350 --> 00:30:57,519 really like kind of focused on like be 808 00:31:02,070 --> 00:30:59,360 aware of being aware what am i doing 809 00:31:04,710 --> 00:31:02,080 right now okay i'm focused i'm here i'm 810 00:31:06,549 --> 00:31:04,720 experiencing what i'm experiencing 811 00:31:11,269 --> 00:31:06,559 it is exhausting 812 00:31:13,029 --> 00:31:11,279 have to do it all the time you grow it's 813 00:31:14,870 --> 00:31:13,039 like growing a muscle don't try to get 814 00:31:15,830 --> 00:31:14,880 it there by five o'clock 815 00:31:17,669 --> 00:31:15,840 right 816 00:31:19,830 --> 00:31:17,679 yeah yeah 817 00:31:22,789 --> 00:31:19,840 so so there's a part the next part of 818 00:31:24,710 --> 00:31:22,799 that is you surrender and let go 819 00:31:26,470 --> 00:31:24,720 uh-huh that's what a dreamer does that's 820 00:31:28,789 --> 00:31:26,480 what's so beautiful we need artists and 821 00:31:31,990 --> 00:31:28,799 dreamers and people that know how to 822 00:31:34,310 --> 00:31:32,000 trust and let go and let it come to you 823 00:31:35,269 --> 00:31:34,320 yeah so yeah nothing like it's to come 824 00:31:37,269 --> 00:31:35,279 to you 825 00:31:39,990 --> 00:31:37,279 and so you get to work all these 826 00:31:42,470 --> 00:31:40,000 different parts of yourself it's it's uh 827 00:31:44,470 --> 00:31:42,480 it's quite a trip you're on 828 00:31:48,950 --> 00:31:44,480 it definitely is it just makes me wonder 829 00:31:51,750 --> 00:31:48,960 like man like how how much like how much 830 00:31:53,909 --> 00:31:51,760 information or help or messages have 831 00:31:55,669 --> 00:31:53,919 like been sent my way and i've just 832 00:31:57,590 --> 00:31:55,679 completely swept them under the rug 833 00:31:59,669 --> 00:31:57,600 because i'm just not paying attention 834 00:32:01,350 --> 00:31:59,679 right you know like even when i am just 835 00:32:02,870 --> 00:32:01,360 daydreaming like 836 00:32:04,630 --> 00:32:02,880 i'll think of stuff and i'm like oh that 837 00:32:06,950 --> 00:32:04,640 was cool and like three seconds later 838 00:32:08,549 --> 00:32:06,960 it's gone same thing like with dreams 839 00:32:11,509 --> 00:32:08,559 i've tried to like kind of jot down 840 00:32:13,269 --> 00:32:11,519 dreams and stuff like that and like 841 00:32:16,310 --> 00:32:13,279 i'm just so i'm 842 00:32:18,710 --> 00:32:16,320 i'm i'm so bad at like 843 00:32:20,789 --> 00:32:18,720 at uh just 844 00:32:24,149 --> 00:32:20,799 schedules and like keeping 845 00:32:25,590 --> 00:32:24,159 keeping uh you know uh uh you know just 846 00:32:27,590 --> 00:32:25,600 a thing 847 00:32:29,590 --> 00:32:27,600 basically you know i hate it i hate i 848 00:32:32,070 --> 00:32:29,600 swear if i wasn't married and like 849 00:32:34,149 --> 00:32:32,080 didn't have a kid like i 850 00:32:36,549 --> 00:32:34,159 i would probably be homeless right now 851 00:32:39,190 --> 00:32:36,559 because like i just i i just 852 00:32:40,710 --> 00:32:39,200 you know like i don't i don't like money 853 00:32:43,190 --> 00:32:40,720 i don't like 854 00:32:44,950 --> 00:32:43,200 like the societal like just surrounding 855 00:32:46,789 --> 00:32:44,960 like i just i'm just not into that put 856 00:32:49,509 --> 00:32:46,799 me out on a mountain in the desert 857 00:32:50,389 --> 00:32:49,519 somewhere and i'll be fine whatever 858 00:32:51,990 --> 00:32:50,399 yeah 859 00:32:53,830 --> 00:32:52,000 i'll come into town get some water every 860 00:32:55,509 --> 00:32:53,840 other day whatever like i don't care i 861 00:32:57,990 --> 00:32:55,519 just i love that 862 00:33:00,470 --> 00:32:58,000 um so i have a hard time and a lot of 863 00:33:02,870 --> 00:33:00,480 times you know you go to star wars and 864 00:33:04,549 --> 00:33:02,880 you know the the fear leads to anger and 865 00:33:06,789 --> 00:33:04,559 anger leads to hate and hate leads to 866 00:33:08,630 --> 00:33:06,799 the dark side and it's just like you 867 00:33:10,630 --> 00:33:08,640 know you never want to go down that path 868 00:33:12,310 --> 00:33:10,640 but like at the same time it's like you 869 00:33:14,630 --> 00:33:12,320 know i always have to 870 00:33:17,029 --> 00:33:14,640 shift my way of thinking like i get so 871 00:33:18,870 --> 00:33:17,039 frustrated with just 872 00:33:21,190 --> 00:33:18,880 society in general 873 00:33:23,669 --> 00:33:21,200 that i really have to like it's like 874 00:33:24,789 --> 00:33:23,679 work to like pull myself back and say 875 00:33:27,509 --> 00:33:24,799 look 876 00:33:30,149 --> 00:33:27,519 this isn't about everybody else this is 877 00:33:32,630 --> 00:33:30,159 about you like and i do even though i am 878 00:33:34,789 --> 00:33:32,640 a daydreamer i have a big like control 879 00:33:36,710 --> 00:33:34,799 thing like i like i want to be in 880 00:33:38,950 --> 00:33:36,720 control if i'm doing something i want to 881 00:33:40,389 --> 00:33:38,960 do it you know like even if i don't know 882 00:33:42,070 --> 00:33:40,399 how to do it don't tell me how to do it 883 00:33:43,430 --> 00:33:42,080 because i know how to do it even though 884 00:33:45,590 --> 00:33:43,440 i don't know how to you know i'm just 885 00:33:47,430 --> 00:33:45,600 i've just always been that way very 886 00:33:48,789 --> 00:33:47,440 independent i guess you could say you 887 00:33:52,149 --> 00:33:48,799 know so 888 00:33:54,710 --> 00:33:52,159 i i struggle man and i i try to work on 889 00:33:57,029 --> 00:33:54,720 that so much but it's it's exhausting 890 00:33:58,789 --> 00:33:57,039 but it's good to hear that you know it's 891 00:34:01,110 --> 00:33:58,799 not something you got to do by five 892 00:34:03,269 --> 00:34:01,120 o'clock you know work on it you know 893 00:34:04,630 --> 00:34:03,279 it'll be you'll be okay and 894 00:34:06,389 --> 00:34:04,640 and and 895 00:34:08,470 --> 00:34:06,399 you'll work through it as long as you're 896 00:34:09,829 --> 00:34:08,480 taking you're going forward you always 897 00:34:11,270 --> 00:34:09,839 go back a little and you go forward a 898 00:34:12,790 --> 00:34:11,280 lot or you go forward a little you go 899 00:34:14,550 --> 00:34:12,800 back a little bit 900 00:34:16,550 --> 00:34:14,560 but love yourself i know this sounds 901 00:34:18,550 --> 00:34:16,560 really hokey okay 902 00:34:20,790 --> 00:34:18,560 but i swear love yourself through the 903 00:34:22,790 --> 00:34:20,800 whole thing because we're conditioned to 904 00:34:25,349 --> 00:34:22,800 hurt ourselves 905 00:34:27,909 --> 00:34:25,359 we're conditioned to not like ourselves 906 00:34:29,990 --> 00:34:27,919 it's it's more normal to say how screwed 907 00:34:32,710 --> 00:34:30,000 up i am in the morning instead of saying 908 00:34:34,869 --> 00:34:32,720 hey i am really freaking amazing 909 00:34:37,430 --> 00:34:34,879 you know don't we don't do that we're 910 00:34:39,990 --> 00:34:37,440 conditioned to not like ourselves and so 911 00:34:41,990 --> 00:34:40,000 break that so i i started breaking that 912 00:34:43,909 --> 00:34:42,000 habit you know so 913 00:34:46,790 --> 00:34:43,919 you know i am cool that's hard to say 914 00:34:48,389 --> 00:34:46,800 still but but it's about letting go of 915 00:34:50,710 --> 00:34:48,399 all our pain and suffering however we 916 00:34:52,869 --> 00:34:50,720 put that pain and suffering in ourselves 917 00:34:55,270 --> 00:34:52,879 or in our body or in our friends or in 918 00:34:56,790 --> 00:34:55,280 our family stop it 919 00:34:59,589 --> 00:34:56,800 yeah but the way you stop is you be 920 00:35:01,829 --> 00:34:59,599 aware of it you have to be aware of it a 921 00:35:04,630 --> 00:35:01,839 lot a long time i was you know about my 922 00:35:07,270 --> 00:35:04,640 weight i'm fat okay even when i was up 923 00:35:09,430 --> 00:35:07,280 on the ship and saw my body laying on 924 00:35:11,990 --> 00:35:09,440 the table you're like oh you're a little 925 00:35:14,829 --> 00:35:12,000 chunky but you don't look so bad 926 00:35:16,870 --> 00:35:14,839 and so but i literally delicious 927 00:35:18,710 --> 00:35:16,880 yes it's about 928 00:35:21,750 --> 00:35:18,720 you know loving yourself loving your 929 00:35:23,670 --> 00:35:21,760 foreman but i you know we there's lots 930 00:35:26,950 --> 00:35:23,680 of different ways that we don't like 931 00:35:29,589 --> 00:35:26,960 ourselves and it's so sad and we have 932 00:35:31,510 --> 00:35:29,599 the power to change all of that but we 933 00:35:33,270 --> 00:35:31,520 have to be aware of it first because i 934 00:35:35,670 --> 00:35:33,280 wasn't even aware that i was hurting 935 00:35:38,150 --> 00:35:35,680 myself over that i was doing it to me 936 00:35:39,589 --> 00:35:38,160 not anyone else that i was doing that to 937 00:35:41,990 --> 00:35:39,599 me so when i 938 00:35:45,270 --> 00:35:42,000 figured it out then i got pissed you 939 00:35:49,430 --> 00:35:47,589 and then i changed it you know 940 00:35:50,870 --> 00:35:49,440 can i interject just just for a second 941 00:35:52,470 --> 00:35:50,880 barbara um 942 00:35:54,069 --> 00:35:52,480 by the way i just love your vibe you got 943 00:35:56,069 --> 00:35:54,079 a great vibe 944 00:35:58,470 --> 00:35:56,079 that's what we love in the garage here 945 00:35:59,750 --> 00:35:58,480 you know just this positivity and and i 946 00:36:03,750 --> 00:35:59,760 want to speak to that really quick 947 00:36:05,349 --> 00:36:03,760 because i i i i've heard a few 948 00:36:06,870 --> 00:36:05,359 near-death experience i've i've seen a 949 00:36:08,230 --> 00:36:06,880 couple documentaries and i've never 950 00:36:10,470 --> 00:36:08,240 actually talked to somebody that had a 951 00:36:12,550 --> 00:36:10,480 near-death experience so this is like 952 00:36:13,990 --> 00:36:12,560 it's kind of surreal for me like i'm so 953 00:36:16,069 --> 00:36:14,000 i'm just so glad you're you're on the 954 00:36:17,030 --> 00:36:16,079 show thank you again for hanging out uh 955 00:36:19,190 --> 00:36:17,040 so what 956 00:36:21,589 --> 00:36:19,200 what i've come to notice and maybe you 957 00:36:22,630 --> 00:36:21,599 could speak to this is that i have not 958 00:36:25,670 --> 00:36:22,640 heard 959 00:36:28,790 --> 00:36:25,680 a negative experience 960 00:36:31,829 --> 00:36:28,800 wants from a near-death experience 961 00:36:33,750 --> 00:36:31,839 there's no mention of hellfire or like 962 00:36:35,430 --> 00:36:33,760 i think there are some if you look for 963 00:36:37,030 --> 00:36:35,440 them but i think yeah you have to look 964 00:36:38,790 --> 00:36:37,040 for them and that way you prove that 965 00:36:49,829 --> 00:36:38,800 you're right you know and maybe that's 966 00:36:54,790 --> 00:36:52,470 mostly people go back to the love part 967 00:36:57,270 --> 00:36:54,800 that's who we are that's and i swear 968 00:37:00,950 --> 00:36:57,280 this is my teaching from that from my 969 00:37:02,150 --> 00:37:00,960 experience with we we come from love we 970 00:37:04,150 --> 00:37:02,160 are love 971 00:37:06,630 --> 00:37:04,160 we return to love it's all about the 972 00:37:08,710 --> 00:37:06,640 love part and that might be a real 70s 973 00:37:10,870 --> 00:37:08,720 hippie dippy thing but you know it was 974 00:37:12,950 --> 00:37:10,880 kind of a hippy dippy but now i'm 975 00:37:15,270 --> 00:37:12,960 balanced now i can do the right brain 976 00:37:17,270 --> 00:37:15,280 and i can do the left brain and i can do 977 00:37:19,510 --> 00:37:17,280 both of them and and and it's kind of 978 00:37:22,390 --> 00:37:19,520 fun it took me a long time because i had 979 00:37:24,710 --> 00:37:22,400 judgment on using the left brain 980 00:37:25,589 --> 00:37:24,720 because i thought i would 981 00:37:29,349 --> 00:37:25,599 would 982 00:37:33,109 --> 00:37:29,359 i know it 983 00:37:35,349 --> 00:37:33,119 was funny but i swear and so i started 984 00:37:37,430 --> 00:37:35,359 to use celebrity and i've been working 985 00:37:39,270 --> 00:37:37,440 with all this with the left brain and 986 00:37:40,390 --> 00:37:39,280 having a lot of fun because the left 987 00:37:42,790 --> 00:37:40,400 brain can be 988 00:37:45,430 --> 00:37:42,800 equally as creative as the right side of 989 00:37:46,550 --> 00:37:45,440 the brain and i didn't know that 990 00:37:51,990 --> 00:37:46,560 wow 991 00:37:53,030 --> 00:37:52,000 a meditation question i guess for you 992 00:37:54,310 --> 00:37:53,040 um 993 00:37:55,750 --> 00:37:54,320 is there 994 00:37:58,150 --> 00:37:55,760 i've because i've just i've heard 995 00:38:00,870 --> 00:37:58,160 conflicting things and once again it's 996 00:38:03,430 --> 00:38:00,880 it's it's it's uh 997 00:38:06,790 --> 00:38:03,440 it's strange just because it's it's not 998 00:38:09,589 --> 00:38:06,800 familiar to to me personally but 999 00:38:11,430 --> 00:38:09,599 is there any kind of uh is there any 1000 00:38:13,910 --> 00:38:11,440 danger uh 1001 00:38:17,829 --> 00:38:13,920 that could be associated with with 1002 00:38:20,150 --> 00:38:17,839 meditation at all or anything like that 1003 00:38:22,550 --> 00:38:20,160 not that i know of if anything for me to 1004 00:38:23,510 --> 00:38:22,560 be able to be back on this earth plane 1005 00:38:26,310 --> 00:38:23,520 and 1006 00:38:30,069 --> 00:38:26,320 live somewhat of a normal life 1007 00:38:32,950 --> 00:38:30,079 shall we say meditation was my key 1008 00:38:33,990 --> 00:38:32,960 really was when i started out i think i 1009 00:38:36,550 --> 00:38:34,000 don't know if i write that in the book 1010 00:38:39,750 --> 00:38:36,560 or not but it's um i started out right 1011 00:38:42,390 --> 00:38:39,760 afterwards i had uh to meditate and 1012 00:38:45,109 --> 00:38:42,400 that's a way to find yourself yes 1013 00:38:47,030 --> 00:38:45,119 so i would go um in my 1014 00:38:49,990 --> 00:38:47,040 my room and i give myself this is a 1015 00:38:51,750 --> 00:38:50,000 single mom 20 minutes kids i don't care 1016 00:38:53,349 --> 00:38:51,760 what happens you're safe i'm gonna go in 1017 00:38:55,109 --> 00:38:53,359 and i'm gonna meditate for 20 minutes 1018 00:38:57,270 --> 00:38:55,119 and they would scream they would all be 1019 00:39:00,550 --> 00:38:57,280 at the door pounding he's hurting me 1020 00:39:02,550 --> 00:39:00,560 he's pulling my hair she's crying but 1021 00:39:04,870 --> 00:39:02,560 i mean everything's coming right yeah 1022 00:39:07,750 --> 00:39:04,880 and that's for me to just have 20 only 1023 00:39:09,589 --> 00:39:07,760 one is 20 minutes 1024 00:39:11,589 --> 00:39:09,599 right yep and so 1025 00:39:13,829 --> 00:39:11,599 after about a year and a half two years 1026 00:39:16,550 --> 00:39:13,839 i don't remember when but it's just the 1027 00:39:19,109 --> 00:39:16,560 same house i was in a really [\h__\h] mood 1028 00:39:21,349 --> 00:39:19,119 and my and i was kind of losing it and 1029 00:39:24,069 --> 00:39:21,359 my kids took me with a glass of water 1030 00:39:26,069 --> 00:39:24,079 and a timer and took me down the hall 1031 00:39:27,990 --> 00:39:26,079 and opened the door and said we'll see 1032 00:39:30,550 --> 00:39:28,000 you when you're finished meditating 1033 00:39:32,150 --> 00:39:30,560 that's so great that's so great awesome 1034 00:39:35,750 --> 00:39:32,160 you know the reason i ask is just 1035 00:39:38,069 --> 00:39:35,760 because i you know i uh 1036 00:39:40,390 --> 00:39:38,079 i had heard somebody talk one time about 1037 00:39:42,069 --> 00:39:40,400 how they went in they started meditating 1038 00:39:45,109 --> 00:39:42,079 it could just be like the practice 1039 00:39:47,270 --> 00:39:45,119 itself you know and they're like and i 1040 00:39:49,510 --> 00:39:47,280 ended up like tapping in and like 1041 00:39:51,990 --> 00:39:49,520 awaking the kundalini and then like i 1042 00:39:53,270 --> 00:39:52,000 started to go crazy because like i just 1043 00:39:55,430 --> 00:39:53,280 started like 1044 00:39:57,750 --> 00:39:55,440 hearing and like seeing and like just 1045 00:39:59,829 --> 00:39:57,760 you know like they were definitely like 1046 00:40:01,589 --> 00:39:59,839 i guess they crossed into that other 1047 00:40:05,349 --> 00:40:01,599 other realm and like they just weren't 1048 00:40:06,710 --> 00:40:05,359 ready for it and you know i i've i've 1049 00:40:09,030 --> 00:40:06,720 i've told the story a couple times but 1050 00:40:10,470 --> 00:40:09,040 i've had like this meditation experience 1051 00:40:12,069 --> 00:40:10,480 where it kind of like creeped me out a 1052 00:40:14,230 --> 00:40:12,079 little bit just because i had never done 1053 00:40:16,150 --> 00:40:14,240 it before it's a great story and like 1054 00:40:17,990 --> 00:40:16,160 but i mean like i i had done it and it 1055 00:40:19,349 --> 00:40:18,000 was like the second time i had ever done 1056 00:40:21,589 --> 00:40:19,359 it and i'm sitting there and all of a 1057 00:40:24,069 --> 00:40:21,599 sudden i feel like this like it felt 1058 00:40:25,510 --> 00:40:24,079 like a real strong like puff of air boom 1059 00:40:27,990 --> 00:40:25,520 like right in the middle of my head and 1060 00:40:30,470 --> 00:40:28,000 like there was like this like pop and 1061 00:40:32,150 --> 00:40:30,480 like like fizzy and it was like a white 1062 00:40:34,309 --> 00:40:32,160 line like an old school tv when it would 1063 00:40:35,270 --> 00:40:34,319 turn off like did it in front of my eyes 1064 00:40:36,870 --> 00:40:35,280 and it 1065 00:40:39,190 --> 00:40:36,880 kind of shook me up a little bit and i 1066 00:40:42,470 --> 00:40:39,200 was like what in the heck was that like 1067 00:40:44,550 --> 00:40:42,480 i physically like felt it and i was you 1068 00:40:45,910 --> 00:40:44,560 know at the time like again i was 1069 00:40:47,829 --> 00:40:45,920 researching this kind of stuff and 1070 00:40:49,270 --> 00:40:47,839 looking into it and i came across this 1071 00:40:49,910 --> 00:40:49,280 story where the dude was like yeah dude 1072 00:40:57,349 --> 00:40:49,920 i 1073 00:40:59,430 --> 00:40:57,359 that you know 1074 00:41:01,430 --> 00:40:59,440 i started to get into meditation and it 1075 00:41:03,430 --> 00:41:01,440 just so happened the second time i did 1076 00:41:05,030 --> 00:41:03,440 it that thing happened like i came 1077 00:41:07,510 --> 00:41:05,040 across this story and it just kind of 1078 00:41:11,109 --> 00:41:07,520 shied me away from it ever since because 1079 00:41:13,510 --> 00:41:11,119 you know not not being familiar with the 1080 00:41:15,910 --> 00:41:13,520 practice or like if there's something 1081 00:41:18,069 --> 00:41:15,920 dangerous that could happen you know i 1082 00:41:19,430 --> 00:41:18,079 it's just nothing i wanted to play with 1083 00:41:21,190 --> 00:41:19,440 you know i don't play with things i 1084 00:41:22,870 --> 00:41:21,200 don't understand i like to understand 1085 00:41:24,950 --> 00:41:22,880 them first that's that control thing i 1086 00:41:27,589 --> 00:41:24,960 was talking about earlier yeah yeah i 1087 00:41:30,710 --> 00:41:27,599 have a matching story for you perfect 1088 00:41:32,790 --> 00:41:30,720 okay i was like see like i don't 1089 00:41:34,470 --> 00:41:32,800 remember what year was okay but i was 1090 00:41:36,790 --> 00:41:34,480 learning how to 1091 00:41:39,109 --> 00:41:36,800 i was meditating i was vegetarian at the 1092 00:41:41,109 --> 00:41:39,119 time i was really into the meditation 1093 00:41:43,190 --> 00:41:41,119 and i picked up this book that was all 1094 00:41:44,390 --> 00:41:43,200 black and white pictures of yogi 1095 00:41:45,829 --> 00:41:44,400 postures 1096 00:41:47,270 --> 00:41:45,839 which i thought were really cool i got 1097 00:41:49,990 --> 00:41:47,280 it at the library because we used to go 1098 00:41:53,270 --> 00:41:50,000 to the library and we're just kidding 1099 00:41:57,829 --> 00:41:55,750 i know they're the best they're the best 1100 00:41:59,910 --> 00:41:57,839 so i'm i'm meditating in my room and i 1101 00:42:02,230 --> 00:41:59,920 don't it hadn't it was like it wasn't i 1102 00:42:03,910 --> 00:42:02,240 hadn't been doing it for very long and 1103 00:42:07,030 --> 00:42:03,920 when i did when i'm sitting in the 1104 00:42:08,790 --> 00:42:07,040 meditation i pop up out of my body and i 1105 00:42:11,190 --> 00:42:08,800 go up above my body so i have an 1106 00:42:13,190 --> 00:42:11,200 out-of-body experience the moment i go 1107 00:42:16,150 --> 00:42:13,200 up out of the body i shoot up above the 1108 00:42:19,349 --> 00:42:16,160 roof of my house right and i look down 1109 00:42:22,790 --> 00:42:19,359 and i see my body down below and i go 1110 00:42:25,430 --> 00:42:22,800 you know and the moment i go into fear i 1111 00:42:27,430 --> 00:42:25,440 slammed right back down into my body 1112 00:42:29,750 --> 00:42:27,440 so i didn't know what to do with that so 1113 00:42:32,150 --> 00:42:29,760 i called my friend who was the yogi the 1114 00:42:34,390 --> 00:42:32,160 yogi the teacher right and he didn't 1115 00:42:36,150 --> 00:42:34,400 know what to do with that either so i 1116 00:42:38,470 --> 00:42:36,160 did what you did i closed it all down 1117 00:42:41,190 --> 00:42:38,480 and i didn't do it again because i was 1118 00:42:43,030 --> 00:42:41,200 afraid but i think what happened 1119 00:42:47,430 --> 00:42:43,040 the teacher will come 1120 00:42:49,910 --> 00:42:47,440 when you get to you don't have to do it 1121 00:42:52,550 --> 00:42:49,920 on your own so that teacher will come 1122 00:42:55,030 --> 00:42:52,560 that can help you know and it's not in 1123 00:42:57,190 --> 00:42:55,040 an owner or a guru way or any kind of a 1124 00:42:59,349 --> 00:42:57,200 way but it's where when you're ready 1125 00:43:01,190 --> 00:42:59,359 you'll know and you might do with a 1126 00:43:03,430 --> 00:43:01,200 group of people some people like to 1127 00:43:06,230 --> 00:43:03,440 meditate alone some people like to group 1128 00:43:08,870 --> 00:43:06,240 like have group meditation but i didn't 1129 00:43:11,270 --> 00:43:08,880 do it for a long time and then i met um 1130 00:43:13,670 --> 00:43:11,280 a guru person of mine i happen to meet 1131 00:43:17,430 --> 00:43:13,680 one right and i spent three days with 1132 00:43:19,910 --> 00:43:17,440 him and he opened my sick chakra for me 1133 00:43:22,230 --> 00:43:19,920 but he had me do it myself and everyone 1134 00:43:24,950 --> 00:43:22,240 can do that and that's where you reown 1135 00:43:26,790 --> 00:43:24,960 this this beautiful muscle that you have 1136 00:43:29,670 --> 00:43:26,800 this pineal gland that you drop down 1137 00:43:31,589 --> 00:43:29,680 into but also you probably have past 1138 00:43:33,589 --> 00:43:31,599 life where you had done that so you 1139 00:43:35,990 --> 00:43:33,599 brought that information forward with 1140 00:43:38,309 --> 00:43:36,000 you so that's why it was so quick 1141 00:43:41,030 --> 00:43:38,319 because you're used to it i know like me 1142 00:43:42,550 --> 00:43:41,040 uh as a meditator i could go into a cave 1143 00:43:45,030 --> 00:43:42,560 for a year just slide some food and 1144 00:43:46,230 --> 00:43:45,040 water under there and i'm good yeah 1145 00:43:48,069 --> 00:43:46,240 that's 1146 00:43:50,150 --> 00:43:48,079 yeah yeah because it sounds like that 1147 00:43:52,870 --> 00:43:50,160 sounds amazing i know i know they had 1148 00:43:54,870 --> 00:43:52,880 those life experience right so i wasn't 1149 00:43:57,349 --> 00:43:54,880 expecting it it scared the crap out of 1150 00:44:00,150 --> 00:43:57,359 me and this is when you ask for teachers 1151 00:44:01,829 --> 00:44:00,160 to come because it isn't a solo thing 1152 00:44:02,790 --> 00:44:01,839 it's better to work with people who've 1153 00:44:03,910 --> 00:44:02,800 been there 1154 00:44:06,230 --> 00:44:03,920 and work with 1155 00:44:08,390 --> 00:44:06,240 and you can kind of group connect and 1156 00:44:10,390 --> 00:44:08,400 and kind of we it has a nice weave and a 1157 00:44:12,870 --> 00:44:10,400 flow to it i think when we're doing it 1158 00:44:16,230 --> 00:44:12,880 alone like that it can be very harsh 1159 00:44:17,750 --> 00:44:16,240 brutal sudden like that so uh i think if 1160 00:44:20,309 --> 00:44:17,760 i was doing it with someone who knew 1161 00:44:22,710 --> 00:44:20,319 what the hell they were doing yeah see 1162 00:44:25,670 --> 00:44:22,720 me go into that then they could say hey 1163 00:44:27,990 --> 00:44:25,680 and you probably pushed it i pushed it 1164 00:44:30,710 --> 00:44:28,000 i'm that kind of person i just found it 1165 00:44:32,630 --> 00:44:30,720 all by five o'clock boom let's do this 1166 00:44:34,790 --> 00:44:32,640 right i've been fasting i think it was 1167 00:44:37,190 --> 00:44:34,800 my tenth day fasting 1168 00:44:42,710 --> 00:44:39,670 10 days i'm gonna go see you know let's 1169 00:44:44,710 --> 00:44:42,720 see what this is wow oh so that's 1170 00:44:47,510 --> 00:44:44,720 intense i had a cheeseburger before i 1171 00:44:52,630 --> 00:44:50,230 smarter that's smarter i need to i need 1172 00:44:54,550 --> 00:44:52,640 to find that person you know it's it's 1173 00:44:56,150 --> 00:44:54,560 it's it's kind of difficult here in 1174 00:44:57,589 --> 00:44:56,160 austin because everybody's all hippy 1175 00:44:59,349 --> 00:44:57,599 dippity and they all think they're some 1176 00:45:01,670 --> 00:44:59,359 kind of guru like just because they wear 1177 00:45:03,670 --> 00:45:01,680 yoga pants but like yeah you know so i 1178 00:45:06,309 --> 00:45:03,680 like i gotta i gotta find that right 1179 00:45:08,390 --> 00:45:06,319 person uh because it's something 1180 00:45:11,270 --> 00:45:08,400 even a meet up online where you just do 1181 00:45:12,950 --> 00:45:11,280 some yoga works together even with the 1182 00:45:15,670 --> 00:45:12,960 group so no one sees you can be in the 1183 00:45:17,990 --> 00:45:15,680 back corner but just to gently open that 1184 00:45:20,309 --> 00:45:18,000 up again yeah because you're not that 1185 00:45:23,510 --> 00:45:20,319 same person anymore i bet you could 1186 00:45:25,670 --> 00:45:23,520 handle that much easier and you and you 1187 00:45:27,430 --> 00:45:25,680 you could work it i know you could and 1188 00:45:30,069 --> 00:45:27,440 and just heal it you know because you've 1189 00:45:32,390 --> 00:45:30,079 done a lot of work on yourself yeah and 1190 00:45:33,270 --> 00:45:32,400 you know and and you know who you are 1191 00:45:37,270 --> 00:45:33,280 now 1192 00:45:39,670 --> 00:45:37,280 a look at that 1193 00:45:41,589 --> 00:45:39,680 i definitely i definitely want to it's 1194 00:45:43,990 --> 00:45:41,599 something that like i've been like kind 1195 00:45:47,990 --> 00:45:44,000 of thirsty for lately like there's a lot 1196 00:45:49,430 --> 00:45:48,000 of stuff happening um in my life and and 1197 00:45:51,349 --> 00:45:49,440 you know it's it's 1198 00:45:54,230 --> 00:45:51,359 i feel like i always feel like there's 1199 00:45:56,230 --> 00:45:54,240 like something missing like there's like 1200 00:45:58,870 --> 00:45:56,240 something i should be doing that i'm not 1201 00:46:01,109 --> 00:45:58,880 doing and i just i haven't found it and 1202 00:46:02,950 --> 00:46:01,119 like i'm kind of like i'm kind of at the 1203 00:46:05,190 --> 00:46:02,960 end of my rope on like 1204 00:46:07,270 --> 00:46:05,200 okay so you know i'm like 1205 00:46:10,230 --> 00:46:07,280 on like what to do so like it's like 1206 00:46:11,589 --> 00:46:10,240 let's try this again i i i 1207 00:46:13,349 --> 00:46:11,599 hear people have like really good 1208 00:46:15,270 --> 00:46:13,359 experiences and they get their answers 1209 00:46:17,349 --> 00:46:15,280 that they need let's give this a shot 1210 00:46:18,870 --> 00:46:17,359 maybe that's what i'm missing yeah and 1211 00:46:20,790 --> 00:46:18,880 and maybe because you're building your 1212 00:46:23,190 --> 00:46:20,800 house on the outside 1213 00:46:25,510 --> 00:46:23,200 you know coming in maybe if you start on 1214 00:46:28,069 --> 00:46:25,520 the inside and then go out 1215 00:46:29,589 --> 00:46:28,079 yeah i am a landscaper so like not an 1216 00:46:35,750 --> 00:46:29,599 interior guy 1217 00:46:40,790 --> 00:46:38,069 my sunburn and my slightly mexican 1218 00:46:43,430 --> 00:46:40,800 accent exactly 1219 00:46:45,670 --> 00:46:43,440 but it's and i would go slow with it 1220 00:46:47,750 --> 00:46:45,680 respect yourself you know 1221 00:46:49,750 --> 00:46:47,760 just go slow with it 1222 00:46:51,589 --> 00:46:49,760 just be gentle with it you'll know and 1223 00:46:54,150 --> 00:46:51,599 you might for some reason i'm getting 1224 00:46:55,990 --> 00:46:54,160 that it might be a good start in water 1225 00:46:57,589 --> 00:46:56,000 if you have a hot tub or some kind of 1226 00:46:59,270 --> 00:46:57,599 water bathtub 1227 00:47:01,829 --> 00:46:59,280 would be a good place i don't know why 1228 00:47:04,870 --> 00:47:01,839 go swimming in my pool dude dude i need 1229 00:47:06,230 --> 00:47:04,880 to yeah because i'm more of a wine guy 1230 00:47:10,230 --> 00:47:06,240 yeah hey 1231 00:47:11,190 --> 00:47:10,240 wide and pull hand mine's always good 1232 00:47:13,030 --> 00:47:11,200 yes 1233 00:47:16,470 --> 00:47:13,040 i yeah that might actually be a good 1234 00:47:19,510 --> 00:47:16,480 idea um water man you know because 1235 00:47:21,990 --> 00:47:19,520 when i was younger my mom actually ran 1236 00:47:23,589 --> 00:47:22,000 the city pool and i was like a fish and 1237 00:47:25,670 --> 00:47:23,599 as i got older 1238 00:47:28,390 --> 00:47:25,680 it's it's like uh 1239 00:47:31,910 --> 00:47:28,400 i hate the pool now but like what a what 1240 00:47:34,390 --> 00:47:31,920 a poetic uh turn of events that like i 1241 00:47:36,230 --> 00:47:34,400 would open myself up in the very thing 1242 00:47:37,270 --> 00:47:36,240 that i dislike in the first place you 1243 00:47:39,990 --> 00:47:37,280 know like 1244 00:47:41,990 --> 00:47:40,000 yeah that would be pretty interesting so 1245 00:47:44,309 --> 00:47:42,000 i definitely want to give it a shot i'm 1246 00:47:46,710 --> 00:47:44,319 gonna i'm gonna do it i'm i'm dedicated 1247 00:47:49,349 --> 00:47:46,720 now to do it i'm gonna stop being scared 1248 00:47:50,710 --> 00:47:49,359 of it and give it a shot just try it and 1249 00:47:52,950 --> 00:47:50,720 then you don't have to do it every day 1250 00:47:54,069 --> 00:47:52,960 at five o'clock to six o'clock 1251 00:47:57,109 --> 00:47:54,079 right 1252 00:47:58,630 --> 00:47:57,119 i definitely won't i don't have time for 1253 00:48:02,150 --> 00:47:58,640 that 1254 00:48:03,829 --> 00:48:02,160 know maybe this is a good time and i 1255 00:48:05,349 --> 00:48:03,839 always ask not that you have to do what 1256 00:48:07,589 --> 00:48:05,359 they say because you have a body and 1257 00:48:11,190 --> 00:48:07,599 they don't so you have seniority 1258 00:48:13,829 --> 00:48:11,200 so so it's like so it's like you know 1259 00:48:16,470 --> 00:48:13,839 you can ask and say hey you know hey 1260 00:48:17,670 --> 00:48:16,480 all your guides you have ancestral guide 1261 00:48:19,589 --> 00:48:17,680 you have spirit guides you have an 1262 00:48:22,230 --> 00:48:19,599 animal kitchen there's a lot going on 1263 00:48:24,390 --> 00:48:22,240 around you that we don't see because 1264 00:48:26,630 --> 00:48:24,400 it's when you really see what's going on 1265 00:48:28,309 --> 00:48:26,640 around you and so you can ask them for 1266 00:48:29,109 --> 00:48:28,319 help and for guidance that your teacher 1267 00:48:30,790 --> 00:48:29,119 come 1268 00:48:32,470 --> 00:48:30,800 just say i'd like to really do this 1269 00:48:35,589 --> 00:48:32,480 bring me the best teacher in the world 1270 00:48:40,230 --> 00:48:38,069 i mean that's another thing that i'm 1271 00:48:41,270 --> 00:48:40,240 very interested in is getting some sort 1272 00:48:44,870 --> 00:48:41,280 of like 1273 00:48:45,829 --> 00:48:44,880 like past life reading of some kind 1274 00:48:47,510 --> 00:48:45,839 uh 1275 00:48:50,470 --> 00:48:47,520 i've told this story to a couple people 1276 00:48:52,790 --> 00:48:50,480 and they all have some sort of you know 1277 00:48:55,829 --> 00:48:52,800 you know psychic ability of some kind 1278 00:48:57,190 --> 00:48:55,839 and and they've all kind of said 1279 00:48:59,750 --> 00:48:57,200 you know i bet you had a very 1280 00:49:02,549 --> 00:48:59,760 interesting past life or something about 1281 00:49:05,829 --> 00:49:02,559 your past life you know and it's like 1282 00:49:09,109 --> 00:49:05,839 i want to look i want to know 1283 00:49:11,030 --> 00:49:09,119 like let's do it let's do it yes i could 1284 00:49:13,829 --> 00:49:11,040 give you a past life reading right now 1285 00:49:15,030 --> 00:49:13,839 oh wow okay really like like right here 1286 00:49:17,750 --> 00:49:15,040 live on the 1287 00:49:19,670 --> 00:49:17,760 yeah yeah for sure yeah dude 1288 00:49:21,349 --> 00:49:19,680 well i do feel like i'm gonna like hang 1289 00:49:22,549 --> 00:49:21,359 out i'm just gonna watch 1290 00:49:24,870 --> 00:49:22,559 this like 1291 00:49:27,990 --> 00:49:26,390 we've been waiting for this to happen 1292 00:49:30,230 --> 00:49:28,000 we're like hey 1293 00:49:31,670 --> 00:49:30,240 me and joe have this convo like when it 1294 00:49:33,589 --> 00:49:31,680 happens it happens we're not gonna force 1295 00:49:35,910 --> 00:49:33,599 it but i mean you know it doesn't have 1296 00:49:39,670 --> 00:49:37,750 i'd love to do it i'd be honored to give 1297 00:49:40,549 --> 00:49:39,680 you a fast life reading that would be 1298 00:49:42,150 --> 00:49:40,559 awesome 1299 00:49:44,950 --> 00:49:42,160 okay so what do i what do i have to do i 1300 00:49:45,910 --> 00:49:44,960 mean well um you don't have to do 1301 00:49:47,670 --> 00:49:45,920 anything 1302 00:49:51,030 --> 00:49:47,680 you just have okay you do have to do 1303 00:49:52,790 --> 00:49:51,040 something you have to receive 1304 00:49:54,309 --> 00:49:52,800 i have to go i have to go and receive i 1305 00:49:56,230 --> 00:49:54,319 feel like i need to i need to step out 1306 00:49:58,230 --> 00:49:56,240 for this so we can oh no 1307 00:50:00,470 --> 00:49:58,240 and then i could do one i could do one 1308 00:50:02,630 --> 00:50:00,480 maybe that you guys had together 1309 00:50:10,150 --> 00:50:02,640 because i'm sure there is one oh just 1310 00:50:13,670 --> 00:50:11,829 i really can't say i'll see what spirit 1311 00:50:15,430 --> 00:50:13,680 brings you know 1312 00:50:16,710 --> 00:50:15,440 i'll set this face we'll have the intent 1313 00:50:19,109 --> 00:50:16,720 and we'll just see what spirit brings 1314 00:50:21,190 --> 00:50:19,119 for us so okay so how do i how do i 1315 00:50:23,990 --> 00:50:21,200 receive like how do you 1316 00:50:24,870 --> 00:50:24,000 how do you receive okay so you just let 1317 00:50:27,430 --> 00:50:24,880 go 1318 00:50:29,910 --> 00:50:27,440 you take off your hats whatever hats dad 1319 00:50:31,829 --> 00:50:29,920 have father mother have whatever hats 1320 00:50:33,589 --> 00:50:31,839 you have on for a minute i'm going to 1321 00:50:35,270 --> 00:50:33,599 take these hats off for a long time i 1322 00:50:37,910 --> 00:50:35,280 know you just take them off and i have 1323 00:50:40,470 --> 00:50:37,920 my i'll put on my more psychic hat my 1324 00:50:41,430 --> 00:50:40,480 word that psychic had and i got that 1325 00:50:43,670 --> 00:50:41,440 from 1326 00:50:45,589 --> 00:50:43,680 the nde when i came back my psychic 1327 00:50:47,750 --> 00:50:45,599 powers were turned on 100 1328 00:50:49,510 --> 00:50:47,760 i didn't know how to turn them off it 1329 00:50:52,309 --> 00:50:49,520 took me about three years to figure out 1330 00:50:54,390 --> 00:50:52,319 how to turn them on and off and so 1331 00:50:56,390 --> 00:50:54,400 so that's that's a whole nother story in 1332 00:50:58,870 --> 00:50:56,400 itself so yeah i've done about ten 1333 00:51:01,349 --> 00:50:58,880 thousand readings so 1334 00:51:03,589 --> 00:51:01,359 i have a degree of mastery at this so 1335 00:51:05,670 --> 00:51:03,599 just so you know okay i don't mean that 1336 00:51:07,750 --> 00:51:05,680 in any kind of you know but i'm 1337 00:51:09,510 --> 00:51:07,760 impressed i'm bringing out the big guns 1338 00:51:12,069 --> 00:51:09,520 here so then yes 1339 00:51:14,069 --> 00:51:12,079 so that you can relax and let go and 1340 00:51:15,750 --> 00:51:14,079 okay and so the way it'll work is i'm 1341 00:51:18,069 --> 00:51:15,760 going to close my eyes i'll probably 1342 00:51:20,309 --> 00:51:18,079 take off my glasses so close my eyes i'm 1343 00:51:22,230 --> 00:51:20,319 going to go hit my psychic space and 1344 00:51:23,750 --> 00:51:22,240 when i do i want you guys to just keep 1345 00:51:25,829 --> 00:51:23,760 your eyes open 1346 00:51:27,510 --> 00:51:25,839 okay and our readers can kind of tap in 1347 00:51:29,349 --> 00:51:27,520 and see what they get i mean our 1348 00:51:31,109 --> 00:51:29,359 listeners if they want to kind of they 1349 00:51:34,790 --> 00:51:31,119 can kind of tap in and see if they get 1350 00:51:37,109 --> 00:51:34,800 information too because uh they might 1351 00:51:39,030 --> 00:51:37,119 so i'll walk you through 1352 00:51:40,470 --> 00:51:39,040 uh if you want i don't have to i could 1353 00:51:42,870 --> 00:51:40,480 just give you the reading or i can walk 1354 00:51:43,910 --> 00:51:42,880 you through my process when i do a 1355 00:51:45,270 --> 00:51:43,920 reading 1356 00:51:46,790 --> 00:51:45,280 yeah that'd be great i mean i think that 1357 00:51:48,549 --> 00:51:46,800 would be great for everybody to hear for 1358 00:51:50,470 --> 00:51:48,559 people who don't know because i don't 1359 00:51:51,510 --> 00:51:50,480 even know how this works 1360 00:51:53,349 --> 00:51:51,520 the fact that you said that you're like 1361 00:51:55,349 --> 00:51:53,359 a master is awesome that's way better 1362 00:51:56,950 --> 00:51:55,359 than brittany and her yoga pants yeah 1363 00:51:59,030 --> 00:51:56,960 don't trust 1364 00:52:01,030 --> 00:51:59,040 that information i'm putting my glasses 1365 00:52:03,109 --> 00:52:01,040 on 1366 00:52:06,069 --> 00:52:03,119 so just let me know when you're ready 1367 00:52:08,390 --> 00:52:06,079 okay okay so i'm gonna the first thing 1368 00:52:10,150 --> 00:52:08,400 i'm gonna do you guys just be you 1369 00:52:12,549 --> 00:52:10,160 and what i'm gonna do is i'm gonna close 1370 00:52:14,790 --> 00:52:12,559 my eyes and i'm gonna put down a new 1371 00:52:16,309 --> 00:52:14,800 grounding board it's a new grounding um 1372 00:52:17,990 --> 00:52:16,319 sometimes around with your feet which i 1373 00:52:20,309 --> 00:52:18,000 can do or you ground at the base of your 1374 00:52:22,150 --> 00:52:20,319 spine you send down a grounding cord and 1375 00:52:24,950 --> 00:52:22,160 it relaxes and let's go you guys just 1376 00:52:27,589 --> 00:52:24,960 both did that so you guys are quick 1377 00:52:29,589 --> 00:52:27,599 and so then i'm gonna check out my 1378 00:52:31,109 --> 00:52:29,599 chakras so i'm gonna turn down my first 1379 00:52:32,870 --> 00:52:31,119 three chakras i'm gonna turn them down a 1380 00:52:34,790 --> 00:52:32,880 little low you guys don't just stay 1381 00:52:36,390 --> 00:52:34,800 where you are and then i'm going to turn 1382 00:52:38,870 --> 00:52:36,400 down these lower chakras and what that 1383 00:52:40,870 --> 00:52:38,880 does it brings my energy into my upper 1384 00:52:43,670 --> 00:52:40,880 chakras and this is where i get my 1385 00:52:45,430 --> 00:52:43,680 information not on the body level we 1386 00:52:47,109 --> 00:52:45,440 need that body when you're in survival 1387 00:52:48,790 --> 00:52:47,119 or when you're working or driving a car 1388 00:52:51,030 --> 00:52:48,800 and all that but not when you're doing a 1389 00:52:53,829 --> 00:52:51,040 reading right and so i turn down those 1390 00:52:55,510 --> 00:52:53,839 those lower chakras and then i'm gonna 1391 00:52:57,829 --> 00:52:55,520 say hello to my heart chakra and then i 1392 00:52:59,670 --> 00:52:57,839 go up to my fifth chakra then i go into 1393 00:53:02,470 --> 00:52:59,680 my sixth chakra i'm gonna drop down just 1394 00:53:04,790 --> 00:53:02,480 to tab into that pineal seat there check 1395 00:53:05,990 --> 00:53:04,800 it out hey how you doing we're gonna do 1396 00:53:07,829 --> 00:53:06,000 a reading for these guys you're gonna 1397 00:53:09,430 --> 00:53:07,839 have a lot of fun 1398 00:53:11,109 --> 00:53:09,440 and so then from that sick tracker i'll 1399 00:53:13,750 --> 00:53:11,119 go up through the crown 1400 00:53:16,069 --> 00:53:13,760 and i'll just kind of do a 360 around 1401 00:53:20,309 --> 00:53:16,079 sometimes i'll because i am who i am 1402 00:53:25,829 --> 00:53:23,349 around to all of my guides and all of my 1403 00:53:28,309 --> 00:53:25,839 wisdom that i'm cooked up with and my 1404 00:53:30,950 --> 00:53:28,319 ancestors and my you know whoever wants 1405 00:53:33,270 --> 00:53:30,960 to show up for this particular reading 1406 00:53:35,589 --> 00:53:33,280 and then i give thanks and i connect 1407 00:53:38,710 --> 00:53:35,599 with them connect to my divine part of 1408 00:53:40,309 --> 00:53:38,720 me that is is you know bigger than life 1409 00:53:42,790 --> 00:53:40,319 it's bigger than this body it's bigger 1410 00:53:44,950 --> 00:53:42,800 than this world actually and so i just 1411 00:53:46,870 --> 00:53:44,960 connect with that and i give thanks for 1412 00:53:49,030 --> 00:53:46,880 it and i hold it for a minute and then 1413 00:53:50,950 --> 00:53:49,040 i'll come right back down into my sixth 1414 00:53:53,670 --> 00:53:50,960 chakra and you guys just stay where you 1415 00:53:57,349 --> 00:53:53,680 are and then i'm going to close my eyes 1416 00:53:59,750 --> 00:53:57,359 and when i do um i put out a screen 1417 00:54:02,230 --> 00:53:59,760 usually and the information will go on 1418 00:54:05,510 --> 00:54:02,240 that screen i'll bring in my org field 1419 00:54:07,589 --> 00:54:05,520 i'll put up my protection symbols i do a 1420 00:54:10,710 --> 00:54:07,599 few other things we won't go into but 1421 00:54:12,309 --> 00:54:10,720 and i you know i teach this and so at 1422 00:54:13,829 --> 00:54:12,319 from this point of view then i'm up in 1423 00:54:15,829 --> 00:54:13,839 the sixth chakra 1424 00:54:18,230 --> 00:54:15,839 i'm aware of being aware 1425 00:54:20,630 --> 00:54:18,240 and i said it with an intention great 1426 00:54:23,030 --> 00:54:20,640 spirit mother father god all that is all 1427 00:54:26,230 --> 00:54:23,040 that was all that will be we ask for a 1428 00:54:29,190 --> 00:54:26,240 past life reading for our dear dear 1429 00:54:30,230 --> 00:54:29,200 friends here for for ben 1430 00:54:32,630 --> 00:54:30,240 and 1431 00:54:34,790 --> 00:54:32,640 for joe 1432 00:54:38,069 --> 00:54:34,800 and um 1433 00:54:41,190 --> 00:54:38,079 we asked for you to give them clarity 1434 00:54:43,430 --> 00:54:41,200 and permission to explore 1435 00:54:45,270 --> 00:54:43,440 their uh consciousness 1436 00:54:48,470 --> 00:54:45,280 on this earth plane in these beautiful 1437 00:54:51,109 --> 00:54:48,480 human bodies um i hope 1438 00:54:52,710 --> 00:54:51,119 okay and so now i'm gonna have i'll have 1439 00:54:54,470 --> 00:54:52,720 i can do both at once or i can do them 1440 00:54:56,630 --> 00:54:54,480 one at a time i think i'm going to do 1441 00:54:58,950 --> 00:54:56,640 joe first and then ben is that okay 1442 00:55:01,030 --> 00:54:58,960 perfect so joe if you say and you can 1443 00:55:02,390 --> 00:55:01,040 just and if you get anything ben let me 1444 00:55:03,990 --> 00:55:02,400 know because you might get something if 1445 00:55:06,309 --> 00:55:04,000 you close your eyes you could kind of 1446 00:55:09,589 --> 00:55:06,319 tune in to what i just said love this 1447 00:55:11,270 --> 00:55:09,599 yep yep okay okay and because we all 1448 00:55:12,870 --> 00:55:11,280 have this ability 1449 00:55:14,950 --> 00:55:12,880 we all have 1450 00:55:17,190 --> 00:55:14,960 it's like exercising a muscle we just 1451 00:55:19,510 --> 00:55:17,200 tune in and and when you start to use it 1452 00:55:22,470 --> 00:55:19,520 it's really a cool tool to use 1453 00:55:24,789 --> 00:55:22,480 okay and so so joe then if you could say 1454 00:55:26,630 --> 00:55:24,799 your whole name or if you can't say your 1455 00:55:30,230 --> 00:55:26,640 whole name whatever your name is three 1456 00:55:31,349 --> 00:55:30,240 times for me i'm gonna go in and in that 1457 00:55:34,230 --> 00:55:31,359 tone 1458 00:55:36,309 --> 00:55:34,240 i'm going to connect with you as spirit 1459 00:55:38,710 --> 00:55:36,319 and then i'm going to ask for the energy 1460 00:55:40,549 --> 00:55:38,720 to come and it starts like a video 1461 00:55:41,510 --> 00:55:40,559 playing and i'll just read that past 1462 00:55:43,430 --> 00:55:41,520 slide 1463 00:55:45,589 --> 00:55:43,440 okay and there's some other technical 1464 00:55:46,870 --> 00:55:45,599 stuff to it but that i won't go into 1465 00:55:48,950 --> 00:55:46,880 that's 1466 00:55:50,950 --> 00:55:48,960 okay so just put your whole name three 1467 00:55:53,430 --> 00:55:50,960 times for me please 1468 00:55:55,750 --> 00:55:53,440 joe ryan strelsky 1469 00:55:59,109 --> 00:55:55,760 joe ryan strawski 1470 00:56:00,630 --> 00:55:59,119 joe ryan strelski 1471 00:56:02,549 --> 00:56:00,640 okay you're gonna love this you probably 1472 00:56:05,270 --> 00:56:02,559 are probably someone's already read this 1473 00:56:07,589 --> 00:56:05,280 before but the first thing that shows up 1474 00:56:11,109 --> 00:56:07,599 is like that you're gonna laugh though 1475 00:56:13,589 --> 00:56:11,119 okay i'm sorry i'm not responsible for 1476 00:56:15,030 --> 00:56:13,599 what i see okay i just give you the 1477 00:56:17,109 --> 00:56:15,040 information and you do what you want 1478 00:56:18,950 --> 00:56:17,119 with it but it's in like that movie 1479 00:56:20,870 --> 00:56:18,960 versailles i don't know if you've seen 1480 00:56:22,470 --> 00:56:20,880 that movie but that you have the velvet 1481 00:56:23,910 --> 00:56:22,480 coat and the 1482 00:56:26,150 --> 00:56:23,920 the um 1483 00:56:28,309 --> 00:56:26,160 the doily like you know and you have 1484 00:56:30,789 --> 00:56:28,319 this whole outfit on 1485 00:56:33,670 --> 00:56:30,799 and of the shoes and the tights and the 1486 00:56:36,309 --> 00:56:33,680 whole thing and you're um 1487 00:56:37,349 --> 00:56:36,319 you're like a perfumed and your hair is 1488 00:56:39,589 --> 00:56:37,359 coived 1489 00:56:41,670 --> 00:56:39,599 there is such a name and i'm looking at 1490 00:56:44,309 --> 00:56:41,680 this past life and and you're in like 1491 00:56:46,789 --> 00:56:44,319 the court you're a part of the court and 1492 00:56:49,670 --> 00:56:46,799 you're a part of the court in that 1493 00:56:52,150 --> 00:56:49,680 um you have a like a dog like a a couple 1494 00:56:54,390 --> 00:56:52,160 of them not one or but two of them and 1495 00:56:56,710 --> 00:56:54,400 they're like they're almost like a 1496 00:56:58,710 --> 00:56:56,720 um like a i want to say like a cocker 1497 00:57:01,109 --> 00:56:58,720 spaniel or something like that they're 1498 00:57:03,589 --> 00:57:01,119 little dogs 1499 00:57:04,789 --> 00:57:03,599 and so with the two dogs you're you're 1500 00:57:07,670 --> 00:57:04,799 going through the court and you're 1501 00:57:09,109 --> 00:57:07,680 deciding who gets to stay and who gets 1502 00:57:12,630 --> 00:57:09,119 to go 1503 00:57:13,670 --> 00:57:12,640 and so you have that power and by just a 1504 00:57:15,750 --> 00:57:13,680 mere 1505 00:57:18,870 --> 00:57:15,760 uh notice that you get to say and who 1506 00:57:21,030 --> 00:57:18,880 gets to go and you love uh love this you 1507 00:57:24,150 --> 00:57:21,040 don't like the power 1508 00:57:26,950 --> 00:57:24,160 but it's given to you and you don't want 1509 00:57:29,430 --> 00:57:26,960 to do it but you have to do it so you 1510 00:57:31,670 --> 00:57:29,440 might as well just have fun doing it so 1511 00:57:34,230 --> 00:57:31,680 it's kind of your your and you have a 1512 00:57:37,030 --> 00:57:34,240 lot of friends that uh you have a whole 1513 00:57:38,870 --> 00:57:37,040 entourage so you felt a lot better with 1514 00:57:41,589 --> 00:57:38,880 a lot of people around you and you're 1515 00:57:44,309 --> 00:57:41,599 kind of like that this lifetime why are 1516 00:57:47,349 --> 00:57:44,319 we looking at this lifetime now for you 1517 00:57:50,069 --> 00:57:47,359 it's because you miss you miss community 1518 00:57:52,390 --> 00:57:50,079 you miss the tribe you miss where 1519 00:57:54,630 --> 00:57:52,400 everyone laughed at the same time it is 1520 00:57:58,870 --> 00:57:54,640 at a joke that you made that that 1521 00:58:00,950 --> 00:57:58,880 everyone got right so so it's where um 1522 00:58:02,150 --> 00:58:00,960 it's where you felt very loved and 1523 00:58:04,950 --> 00:58:02,160 supported 1524 00:58:08,069 --> 00:58:04,960 and needed as well because the job that 1525 00:58:08,950 --> 00:58:08,079 you did was really important to the king 1526 00:58:10,710 --> 00:58:08,960 and 1527 00:58:13,510 --> 00:58:10,720 it looks almost french 1528 00:58:14,390 --> 00:58:13,520 but i i could be italian i'm not sure 1529 00:58:17,270 --> 00:58:14,400 so 1530 00:58:23,109 --> 00:58:17,280 good 1531 00:58:25,349 --> 00:58:23,119 get things done uh you know how to 1532 00:58:28,390 --> 00:58:25,359 delegate you're a very good delegator 1533 00:58:30,710 --> 00:58:28,400 uh in this life in in the past life 1534 00:58:33,190 --> 00:58:30,720 um and so why are you looking at that 1535 00:58:34,710 --> 00:58:33,200 and it's because of community and and 1536 00:58:37,510 --> 00:58:34,720 where you uh 1537 00:58:39,990 --> 00:58:37,520 find your place you found you felt out 1538 00:58:42,710 --> 00:58:40,000 of place and you're still trying to find 1539 00:58:46,069 --> 00:58:42,720 your place here and what spirit wants to 1540 00:58:48,870 --> 00:58:46,079 say to you is you're how about starting 1541 00:58:51,510 --> 00:58:48,880 your own place and everybody comes 1542 00:58:53,589 --> 00:58:51,520 and that's kind of what ufo garage is in 1543 00:58:55,829 --> 00:58:53,599 a way but also 1544 00:58:56,870 --> 00:58:55,839 in your life where you're hey you're 1545 00:58:59,190 --> 00:58:56,880 tired of 1546 00:59:00,390 --> 00:58:59,200 of that so just have everybody just come 1547 00:59:02,870 --> 00:59:00,400 to you 1548 00:59:04,950 --> 00:59:02,880 and and have some fun and celebration 1549 00:59:07,109 --> 00:59:04,960 and celebrate life 1550 00:59:08,789 --> 00:59:07,119 that's part of your work hey we all sign 1551 00:59:10,710 --> 00:59:08,799 up for different things and and you 1552 00:59:12,870 --> 00:59:10,720 signed up for celebrating life how's 1553 00:59:15,750 --> 00:59:12,880 that you know wow 1554 00:59:17,349 --> 00:59:15,760 so so that's that's what i see for you 1555 00:59:18,870 --> 00:59:17,359 i love that 1556 00:59:22,309 --> 00:59:18,880 okay 1557 00:59:27,430 --> 00:59:24,230 that's that's pretty nuts 1558 00:59:29,430 --> 00:59:27,440 okay and so i'll go to to bend next then 1559 00:59:32,549 --> 00:59:29,440 and then we can talk about it 1560 00:59:34,870 --> 00:59:32,559 absolutely let's do it okay and so what 1561 00:59:36,870 --> 00:59:34,880 you can do joe is you can um go ahead 1562 00:59:38,789 --> 00:59:36,880 and and close your eyes and kind of go 1563 00:59:40,390 --> 00:59:38,799 in and see if you pick up anything okay 1564 00:59:41,750 --> 00:59:40,400 okay cool cool all right and our 1565 00:59:44,309 --> 00:59:41,760 listeners too 1566 00:59:46,069 --> 00:59:44,319 all right so ben all right 1567 00:59:48,150 --> 00:59:46,079 so i'm going to offer you up in that 1568 00:59:49,829 --> 00:59:48,160 reading i just did or i'd still continue 1569 00:59:52,710 --> 00:59:49,839 to read you so i'm just going to go 1570 00:59:55,910 --> 00:59:54,710 and this reading is complete 1571 00:59:58,069 --> 00:59:55,920 for joe 1572 01:00:00,390 --> 00:59:58,079 and i call back any of my energy i may 1573 01:00:02,870 --> 01:00:00,400 have given you joe and i give you back 1574 01:00:05,510 --> 01:00:02,880 any of your energy you may have given me 1575 01:00:08,549 --> 01:00:05,520 and this reading is complete 1576 01:00:11,270 --> 01:00:08,559 okay now go to bed this is so much fun 1577 01:00:12,950 --> 01:00:11,280 love that love that oh i took joe out 1578 01:00:15,430 --> 01:00:12,960 because i thought we were going and then 1579 01:00:18,549 --> 01:00:15,440 okay sorry i i misunderstood the 1580 01:00:20,390 --> 01:00:18,559 assignment so great oh sorry okay so now 1581 01:00:23,109 --> 01:00:20,400 i'm gonna give you a reading fan if 1582 01:00:24,069 --> 01:00:23,119 that's cool hell yeah 1583 01:00:28,150 --> 01:00:24,079 all right 1584 01:00:29,430 --> 01:00:28,160 so um let me just check where i am 1585 01:00:30,630 --> 01:00:29,440 i feel like i'm right over there with 1586 01:00:31,510 --> 01:00:30,640 you guys hey 1587 01:00:33,430 --> 01:00:31,520 you know 1588 01:00:34,789 --> 01:00:33,440 i am a spirit i give you a high five 1589 01:00:36,549 --> 01:00:34,799 spiritual high five 1590 01:00:37,270 --> 01:00:36,559 sitting next to me right now i can feel 1591 01:00:42,069 --> 01:00:37,280 it 1592 01:00:46,230 --> 01:00:43,190 okay 1593 01:00:48,390 --> 01:00:46,240 so we asked uh let's go ahead and start 1594 01:00:50,150 --> 01:00:48,400 uh let me turn down they go up let me 1595 01:00:52,710 --> 01:00:50,160 see where i am there i am 1596 01:00:54,390 --> 01:00:52,720 okay and so great spirit mother father 1597 01:00:56,950 --> 01:00:54,400 god all that is all that was all that 1598 01:01:00,150 --> 01:00:56,960 will be we asked for a reading a past 1599 01:01:02,710 --> 01:01:00,160 life reading for ben 1600 01:01:04,549 --> 01:01:02,720 to give him clarity and focus and 1601 01:01:06,069 --> 01:01:04,559 relaxation 1602 01:01:08,069 --> 01:01:06,079 and 1603 01:01:09,430 --> 01:01:08,079 a little bit of future perspective in 1604 01:01:11,750 --> 01:01:09,440 this one i think 1605 01:01:14,630 --> 01:01:11,760 okay so ben if you could 1606 01:01:16,390 --> 01:01:14,640 um say your whole name or whatever name 1607 01:01:18,390 --> 01:01:16,400 you'd like that you're comfortable with 1608 01:01:21,510 --> 01:01:18,400 three times for me please 1609 01:01:24,630 --> 01:01:21,520 benjamin baxter jenkins benjamin baxter 1610 01:01:25,990 --> 01:01:24,640 jenkins benjamin baxter jenkins 1611 01:01:28,309 --> 01:01:26,000 okay 1612 01:01:30,309 --> 01:01:28,319 well the first thing i see with you is 1613 01:01:31,910 --> 01:01:30,319 you're out on a boat 1614 01:01:33,829 --> 01:01:31,920 and you're fishing 1615 01:01:36,630 --> 01:01:33,839 and you just love it and it's kind of 1616 01:01:38,230 --> 01:01:36,640 like a bayou like out in the south 1617 01:01:40,870 --> 01:01:38,240 kind of like where you you're showing me 1618 01:01:41,670 --> 01:01:40,880 the trees that have the little 1619 01:01:43,030 --> 01:01:41,680 the 1620 01:01:49,510 --> 01:01:43,040 fireflies 1621 01:01:51,510 --> 01:01:49,520 that that type of that end of the day 1622 01:01:53,670 --> 01:01:51,520 what's really important for you because 1623 01:01:55,589 --> 01:01:53,680 you worked hard all day and this was 1624 01:01:56,470 --> 01:01:55,599 your time alone you got to be in your 1625 01:01:58,710 --> 01:01:56,480 boat 1626 01:02:01,109 --> 01:01:58,720 in in the water 1627 01:02:04,309 --> 01:02:01,119 having a little something to drink 1628 01:02:06,950 --> 01:02:04,319 and and relaxing in the quiet 1629 01:02:09,510 --> 01:02:06,960 it's where you could have quiet 1630 01:02:11,349 --> 01:02:09,520 um and it's your place and you kind of 1631 01:02:13,589 --> 01:02:11,359 went to the same place every time you 1632 01:02:16,390 --> 01:02:13,599 didn't you didn't change it up you just 1633 01:02:18,470 --> 01:02:16,400 this was your place this was your alone 1634 01:02:20,549 --> 01:02:18,480 place this is your place where you 1635 01:02:23,270 --> 01:02:20,559 connected with to get your thoughts 1636 01:02:24,950 --> 01:02:23,280 clear to get your quiet space because 1637 01:02:27,589 --> 01:02:24,960 the job that you did you were kind of 1638 01:02:30,069 --> 01:02:27,599 like a technical job like almost like a 1639 01:02:32,789 --> 01:02:30,079 medical job whatever you had to do was 1640 01:02:34,950 --> 01:02:32,799 very precision very precise and you had 1641 01:02:37,910 --> 01:02:34,960 to be focused and you had to be on it 1642 01:02:39,910 --> 01:02:37,920 all day and so it was kind of tense and 1643 01:02:41,910 --> 01:02:39,920 you could get tense from it so you 1644 01:02:44,950 --> 01:02:41,920 didn't have a lot of relationships in 1645 01:02:46,069 --> 01:02:44,960 your life so um because of that 1646 01:02:47,990 --> 01:02:46,079 and so 1647 01:02:49,990 --> 01:02:48,000 this is the part where you got to be on 1648 01:02:52,069 --> 01:02:50,000 this boat it's just like a little boat 1649 01:02:54,870 --> 01:02:52,079 it's not like a fancy boat just 1650 01:02:57,670 --> 01:02:54,880 wonderful little simple boat 1651 01:03:01,990 --> 01:02:57,680 and so you're sitting there and you're 1652 01:03:03,990 --> 01:03:02,000 uh just convincing yourself of what you 1653 01:03:05,750 --> 01:03:04,000 did do and what you didn't do and how 1654 01:03:07,430 --> 01:03:05,760 you can improve yourself 1655 01:03:08,950 --> 01:03:07,440 and then you do that for a little bit so 1656 01:03:11,349 --> 01:03:08,960 you write it all down of how you could 1657 01:03:14,230 --> 01:03:11,359 do a better job the next day so you're a 1658 01:03:15,190 --> 01:03:14,240 writer and in the writing you write your 1659 01:03:18,069 --> 01:03:15,200 thoughts 1660 01:03:20,630 --> 01:03:18,079 and your plans and then once you have 1661 01:03:26,069 --> 01:03:20,640 let go enough you actually connect and 1662 01:03:31,190 --> 01:03:28,870 stories short like short stories 1663 01:03:32,950 --> 01:03:31,200 not long stories but short stories and 1664 01:03:36,230 --> 01:03:32,960 it's all in this beautiful 1665 01:03:38,069 --> 01:03:36,240 book that you take it and you wrap up a 1666 01:03:40,470 --> 01:03:38,079 band like a rubber band around it and 1667 01:03:41,750 --> 01:03:40,480 you keep it in your pocket 1668 01:03:43,029 --> 01:03:41,760 um 1669 01:03:44,710 --> 01:03:43,039 it's kind of like you're showing me 1670 01:03:47,670 --> 01:03:44,720 where they have the it looks like 1671 01:03:50,230 --> 01:03:47,680 america because you have that uh that 1672 01:03:51,990 --> 01:03:50,240 triangle hat on so i'm not sure what 1673 01:03:53,190 --> 01:03:52,000 that is so 1674 01:03:54,069 --> 01:03:53,200 uh 1675 01:03:56,870 --> 01:03:54,079 cool 1676 01:04:00,069 --> 01:03:56,880 yeah very very learned man too very 1677 01:04:03,109 --> 01:04:00,079 learned man um short books 1678 01:04:05,349 --> 01:04:03,119 yeah but you were very responsible 1679 01:04:07,349 --> 01:04:05,359 and so this is the kind of your gift 1680 01:04:09,029 --> 01:04:07,359 that you gave yourself and the reason 1681 01:04:11,190 --> 01:04:09,039 why you're looking at that in this 1682 01:04:13,910 --> 01:04:11,200 lifetime 1683 01:04:16,710 --> 01:04:13,920 is because to tap into 1684 01:04:18,870 --> 01:04:16,720 finding words or writing um 1685 01:04:21,589 --> 01:04:18,880 there's some kind of a creative it might 1686 01:04:23,270 --> 01:04:21,599 be video or film but i really see 1687 01:04:26,390 --> 01:04:23,280 writing like a i don't know if it's a 1688 01:04:28,870 --> 01:04:26,400 screenplay or a play or a 1689 01:04:29,829 --> 01:04:28,880 something that belongs for sure 1690 01:04:32,630 --> 01:04:29,839 pardon 1691 01:04:33,829 --> 01:04:32,640 songs for sure yeah yeah 1692 01:04:35,670 --> 01:04:33,839 yeah 1693 01:04:37,589 --> 01:04:35,680 so it's it's where you're a writer 1694 01:04:40,230 --> 01:04:37,599 you're definitely a writer and and to 1695 01:04:41,750 --> 01:04:40,240 remember that you're a writer and to 1696 01:04:43,910 --> 01:04:41,760 take some time 1697 01:04:45,750 --> 01:04:43,920 to be creative because you're very a 1698 01:04:46,950 --> 01:04:45,760 very creative being 1699 01:04:48,950 --> 01:04:46,960 and you're waiting for someone to 1700 01:04:51,029 --> 01:04:48,960 co-create with which is like with this 1701 01:04:54,630 --> 01:04:51,039 guy but this is a different kind of a 1702 01:04:57,029 --> 01:04:54,640 co-creation it's a co-creation with 1703 01:04:59,589 --> 01:04:57,039 one other partner that has that missing 1704 01:05:01,029 --> 01:04:59,599 key to your um 1705 01:05:03,349 --> 01:05:01,039 what you're doing with it i know if it 1706 01:05:04,710 --> 01:05:03,359 said it's to music or it sets it to 1707 01:05:08,390 --> 01:05:04,720 publishing or 1708 01:05:13,589 --> 01:05:08,400 uh whatever that next key is it's coming 1709 01:05:19,190 --> 01:05:14,789 okay 1710 01:05:19,200 --> 01:05:24,230 where do i send my check 1711 01:05:28,789 --> 01:05:26,470 barbara yes 1712 01:05:30,870 --> 01:05:28,799 i don't know how you did it 1713 01:05:34,470 --> 01:05:30,880 but you just spoke to me on like such a 1714 01:05:37,750 --> 01:05:34,480 spiritual level spiritual level um 1715 01:05:39,349 --> 01:05:37,760 and we've never met before um 1716 01:05:42,470 --> 01:05:39,359 i don't talk about a lot of stuff that 1717 01:05:44,390 --> 01:05:42,480 you mentioned that just hit me 1718 01:05:46,390 --> 01:05:44,400 in the dang heart and 1719 01:05:47,510 --> 01:05:46,400 man that was that was very powerful and 1720 01:05:48,630 --> 01:05:47,520 i just want to thank you for that that 1721 01:05:53,910 --> 01:05:48,640 was awesome 1722 01:05:53,920 --> 01:05:56,470 man 1723 01:06:00,789 --> 01:05:58,950 joe's got his microphone muted so then 1724 01:06:02,710 --> 01:06:00,799 i'm gonna offer you up whoop take back 1725 01:06:05,430 --> 01:06:02,720 my energy give you backing of yours this 1726 01:06:07,910 --> 01:06:05,440 reading is complete dude that's wild 1727 01:06:09,670 --> 01:06:07,920 because like i'm your buddy 1728 01:06:11,589 --> 01:06:09,680 doing this show with you 1729 01:06:16,069 --> 01:06:11,599 but the other guy 1730 01:06:18,870 --> 01:06:16,079 the p guy is nico the producer oh 1731 01:06:20,630 --> 01:06:18,880 see when you say p guy 1732 01:06:21,990 --> 01:06:20,640 i thought of like 1733 01:06:23,990 --> 01:06:22,000 i thought the shape 1734 01:06:26,470 --> 01:06:24,000 i thought of the shape as in like a key 1735 01:06:28,309 --> 01:06:26,480 to a lock of some sort that's 1736 01:06:31,589 --> 01:06:28,319 i was i don't know i was just 1737 01:06:34,549 --> 01:06:31,599 uh very enthralled by um i was trying to 1738 01:06:35,510 --> 01:06:34,559 figure your your cadence out barbara i 1739 01:06:36,950 --> 01:06:35,520 mean 1740 01:06:38,069 --> 01:06:36,960 that's just what my brain does i try to 1741 01:06:39,990 --> 01:06:38,079 like figure 1742 01:06:42,710 --> 01:06:40,000 puzzles out and i'm like okay there's 1743 01:06:45,589 --> 01:06:42,720 got to be a pattern here um and he 1744 01:06:47,829 --> 01:06:45,599 picked up on that pretty quickly um 1745 01:06:49,670 --> 01:06:47,839 and and i don't know how else to explain 1746 01:06:52,230 --> 01:06:49,680 that other than like have you seen every 1747 01:06:53,750 --> 01:06:52,240 episode of this podcast like i guarantee 1748 01:06:55,750 --> 01:06:53,760 you have not 1749 01:06:58,230 --> 01:06:55,760 i have not i want to 1750 01:07:00,069 --> 01:06:58,240 okay but i haven't yet i have it well 1751 01:07:01,829 --> 01:07:00,079 you say you want to until you get into 1752 01:07:06,549 --> 01:07:01,839 like episode 12 and you're like oh my 1753 01:07:11,190 --> 01:07:08,309 oh man wow 1754 01:07:11,990 --> 01:07:11,200 that was amazing that was so awesome 1755 01:07:23,270 --> 01:07:12,000 like 1756 01:07:27,029 --> 01:07:26,069 i'm a project manager for a company and 1757 01:07:43,510 --> 01:07:27,039 i 1758 01:07:44,870 --> 01:07:43,520 there 1759 01:07:47,829 --> 01:07:44,880 and like 1760 01:07:51,750 --> 01:07:48,789 uh 1761 01:07:53,190 --> 01:07:51,760 i mean i still have a job yeah i i 1762 01:07:55,029 --> 01:07:53,200 i you know 1763 01:07:56,710 --> 01:07:55,039 i mean i've tried to get fired and it 1764 01:07:59,029 --> 01:07:56,720 won't even fire me so 1765 01:08:00,390 --> 01:07:59,039 you know what i'm saying so like that's 1766 01:08:02,390 --> 01:08:00,400 pretty cool 1767 01:08:05,670 --> 01:08:02,400 that's really really cool 1768 01:08:08,549 --> 01:08:05,680 um i i you know that's dude that's spot 1769 01:08:11,670 --> 01:08:08,559 on i mean i i love i love the social 1770 01:08:14,630 --> 01:08:11,680 aspect of like gatherings and and and 1771 01:08:17,110 --> 01:08:14,640 parties and like you know like and and 1772 01:08:19,030 --> 01:08:17,120 when i walk into a room i automatically 1773 01:08:21,110 --> 01:08:19,040 get that feeling of like you're cool 1774 01:08:24,070 --> 01:08:21,120 you're cool you're not i don't like you 1775 01:08:24,870 --> 01:08:24,080 i wish you would go that's so wild man 1776 01:08:30,229 --> 01:08:24,880 that 1777 01:08:32,070 --> 01:08:30,239 kind of helps like 1778 01:08:34,950 --> 01:08:32,080 it kind of helps with like 1779 01:08:36,950 --> 01:08:34,960 my my my uh my struggle my internal 1780 01:08:38,550 --> 01:08:36,960 struggle with my own personality a 1781 01:08:40,309 --> 01:08:38,560 little bit you know 1782 01:08:42,630 --> 01:08:40,319 because 1783 01:08:44,470 --> 01:08:42,640 you're pretty amazing and we get to 1784 01:08:46,470 --> 01:08:44,480 bring we've had these lives that you get 1785 01:08:48,390 --> 01:08:46,480 to bring that information with you the 1786 01:08:50,630 --> 01:08:48,400 information doesn't die your intellect 1787 01:08:53,430 --> 01:08:50,640 keeps growing and changing so you get to 1788 01:08:55,749 --> 01:08:53,440 bring that with you yeah and that whole 1789 01:08:56,870 --> 01:08:55,759 that whole like 1790 01:08:58,470 --> 01:08:56,880 you know 1791 01:09:01,349 --> 01:08:58,480 creating your own thing and bringing 1792 01:09:04,309 --> 01:09:01,359 people to you like that's exactly what 1793 01:09:06,950 --> 01:09:04,319 this is like that's exactly what this is 1794 01:09:08,870 --> 01:09:06,960 because i'm so tired of working for the 1795 01:09:11,829 --> 01:09:08,880 other person it's like let's just do 1796 01:09:13,430 --> 01:09:11,839 what i want to do now you know yeah 1797 01:09:15,189 --> 01:09:13,440 that's incredible man that's that's 1798 01:09:17,269 --> 01:09:15,199 absolutely incredible 1799 01:09:19,110 --> 01:09:17,279 barbara barbara i gotta ask you how much 1800 01:09:20,709 --> 01:09:19,120 more time do we have with you because i 1801 01:09:23,349 --> 01:09:20,719 know you have a 1802 01:09:24,550 --> 01:09:23,359 a class tonight and i do have a a 1803 01:09:26,149 --> 01:09:24,560 question for you i just wanted to make 1804 01:09:29,030 --> 01:09:26,159 sure we have enough time well i 1805 01:09:31,110 --> 01:09:29,040 cancelled my class for you guys oh 1806 01:09:35,269 --> 01:09:31,120 man thank you 1807 01:09:37,269 --> 01:09:35,279 oh dude i felt so bad last time i i i 1808 01:09:39,910 --> 01:09:37,279 couldn't come last time and i never do 1809 01:09:41,749 --> 01:09:39,920 that and i'm a person of my word and so 1810 01:09:43,430 --> 01:09:41,759 i just felt really bad and so tonight i 1811 01:09:45,110 --> 01:09:43,440 just told them it's all canceled and if 1812 01:09:47,269 --> 01:09:45,120 they want to come see you they can come 1813 01:09:49,910 --> 01:09:47,279 on and see it on the youtube if they 1814 01:09:51,590 --> 01:09:49,920 want so that's so great that's so great 1815 01:09:53,189 --> 01:09:51,600 that is awesome because that's awesome 1816 01:09:54,950 --> 01:09:53,199 we've got a few a lot more questions i 1817 01:09:57,430 --> 01:09:54,960 mean we're only like page six in this 1818 01:09:59,830 --> 01:09:57,440 book right now i mean and every every 1819 01:10:02,790 --> 01:09:59,840 everybody uh watching us live on youtube 1820 01:10:06,470 --> 01:10:02,800 is absolutely loving you uh so i'm i'm 1821 01:10:08,870 --> 01:10:06,480 so happy to hear that and thank you 1822 01:10:10,790 --> 01:10:08,880 eight you know so 1823 01:10:13,189 --> 01:10:10,800 really crazy dude 1824 01:10:15,350 --> 01:10:13,199 you have family like right there on the 1825 01:10:17,270 --> 01:10:15,360 board of louisiana bro 1826 01:10:18,550 --> 01:10:17,280 anawac texas 1827 01:10:20,149 --> 01:10:18,560 texas 1828 01:10:21,669 --> 01:10:20,159 we are on 1829 01:10:24,149 --> 01:10:21,679 everything you say 1830 01:10:26,470 --> 01:10:24,159 it's crazy you were like spot on with 1831 01:10:29,750 --> 01:10:26,480 both of us like everything you said that 1832 01:10:33,110 --> 01:10:29,760 was wild that was wild either you have 1833 01:10:35,830 --> 01:10:33,120 access to some like cia level like like 1834 01:10:37,669 --> 01:10:35,840 background checking data 1835 01:10:39,110 --> 01:10:37,679 i just say hello to your spiritual 1836 01:10:41,350 --> 01:10:39,120 spirit it has nothing to do with the 1837 01:10:43,030 --> 01:10:41,360 body yeah ah 1838 01:10:44,790 --> 01:10:43,040 you know and so a lot of times i would 1839 01:10:47,189 --> 01:10:44,800 just do readings for people i never saw 1840 01:10:48,550 --> 01:10:47,199 them never saw their face but i you 1841 01:10:50,630 --> 01:10:48,560 close your eyes you can connect to 1842 01:10:52,870 --> 01:10:50,640 anybody you close your eyes and connect 1843 01:10:55,189 --> 01:10:52,880 to your grandmother that passed away you 1844 01:10:58,550 --> 01:10:55,199 connect to your you know you can connect 1845 01:11:00,229 --> 01:10:58,560 to your sister that lives 300 miles away 1846 01:11:01,350 --> 01:11:00,239 you know there's no time or space in 1847 01:11:03,590 --> 01:11:01,360 love there's 1848 01:11:06,470 --> 01:11:03,600 the and there's so it's it's just a 1849 01:11:07,669 --> 01:11:06,480 continuum i i love that um 1850 01:11:10,950 --> 01:11:07,679 that you 1851 01:11:12,870 --> 01:11:10,960 your approach barbara uh i mean 1852 01:11:16,790 --> 01:11:12,880 our our chat tonight i i feel like i've 1853 01:11:20,790 --> 01:11:18,950 but what i appreciate about your 1854 01:11:23,110 --> 01:11:20,800 approach to this is that 1855 01:11:25,110 --> 01:11:23,120 you say that anybody can have access to 1856 01:11:27,669 --> 01:11:25,120 this right 1857 01:11:29,510 --> 01:11:27,679 a lot of people out there um 1858 01:11:30,709 --> 01:11:29,520 if you're if you're new to this subject 1859 01:11:31,910 --> 01:11:30,719 if you're listening right now or 1860 01:11:34,709 --> 01:11:31,920 watching it 1861 01:11:36,310 --> 01:11:34,719 um there's this idea that like 1862 01:11:39,750 --> 01:11:36,320 there's something to be gained out of 1863 01:11:42,950 --> 01:11:39,760 this like money or or or or whatever but 1864 01:11:45,510 --> 01:11:42,960 i feel like that is that only that's 1865 01:11:48,070 --> 01:11:45,520 that is the small percentage of it the 1866 01:11:49,189 --> 01:11:48,080 majority of the people that do work that 1867 01:11:52,470 --> 01:11:49,199 actually 1868 01:11:54,790 --> 01:11:52,480 that exists 1869 01:11:58,550 --> 01:11:54,800 i mean 1870 01:12:00,950 --> 01:11:58,560 it it's not about that at all 1871 01:12:04,550 --> 01:12:00,960 it's it's not but i am blending i have a 1872 01:12:07,430 --> 01:12:04,560 school now and um i've taught this for 1873 01:12:09,750 --> 01:12:07,440 um about 10 years but i do have a school 1874 01:12:11,590 --> 01:12:09,760 i have a website and i am 1875 01:12:13,430 --> 01:12:11,600 starting to make money not just for me 1876 01:12:15,990 --> 01:12:13,440 but for all my students that go through 1877 01:12:16,950 --> 01:12:16,000 it and and for i'm what i'm doing is i'm 1878 01:12:18,790 --> 01:12:16,960 taking 1879 01:12:21,430 --> 01:12:18,800 psychics out of the arts and 1880 01:12:23,270 --> 01:12:21,440 entertainment and out of that darkness 1881 01:12:25,990 --> 01:12:23,280 and bringing them to the wellness 1882 01:12:31,110 --> 01:12:28,310 where they're honored in the old days 1883 01:12:33,110 --> 01:12:31,120 you know the communities had a seer 1884 01:12:35,030 --> 01:12:33,120 and they went to her and they she helped 1885 01:12:37,669 --> 01:12:35,040 them she had their best interest at 1886 01:12:39,189 --> 01:12:37,679 heart so uh all of my friends are 1887 01:12:41,189 --> 01:12:39,199 psychics because i'm the psychics most 1888 01:12:43,030 --> 01:12:41,199 of my friends are right yeah and and 1889 01:12:43,830 --> 01:12:43,040 they're good loving kind i mean you have 1890 01:12:47,590 --> 01:12:43,840 your 1891 01:12:49,750 --> 01:12:47,600 and all of that but for everyone that 1892 01:12:51,590 --> 01:12:49,760 i've met they 1893 01:12:53,830 --> 01:12:51,600 they're doing it because they love doing 1894 01:12:55,590 --> 01:12:53,840 it it's their it's what they're supposed 1895 01:12:58,070 --> 01:12:55,600 to do 1896 01:12:59,110 --> 01:12:58,080 so i've been thinking about this lately 1897 01:13:01,350 --> 01:12:59,120 um 1898 01:13:02,870 --> 01:13:01,360 is is so me and joe we've been doing 1899 01:13:06,870 --> 01:13:02,880 this podcast for like two and a half 1900 01:13:08,630 --> 01:13:06,880 years and we want to do this a lot more 1901 01:13:10,630 --> 01:13:08,640 but it's really hard to 1902 01:13:13,270 --> 01:13:10,640 we can't do this for you know it's it's 1903 01:13:15,590 --> 01:13:13,280 for fun right yeah yeah how do you how 1904 01:13:16,870 --> 01:13:15,600 do you do something that you're good at 1905 01:13:19,110 --> 01:13:16,880 and 1906 01:13:20,229 --> 01:13:19,120 have a great time but also get paid for 1907 01:13:21,990 --> 01:13:20,239 it like 1908 01:13:24,229 --> 01:13:22,000 what was that struggle like 1909 01:13:25,750 --> 01:13:24,239 for you and how did you overcome that 1910 01:13:29,270 --> 01:13:25,760 like did you change the way you thought 1911 01:13:30,390 --> 01:13:29,280 about it yeah i did i had to i i put it 1912 01:13:32,390 --> 01:13:30,400 in that 1913 01:13:35,110 --> 01:13:32,400 and you're gonna whatever 1914 01:13:37,430 --> 01:13:35,120 um i've i've known i've been with lots 1915 01:13:40,630 --> 01:13:37,440 of religion but i think part of it was 1916 01:13:42,310 --> 01:13:40,640 that christ thing where if if if i 1917 01:13:45,270 --> 01:13:42,320 really cared about people i would give 1918 01:13:47,669 --> 01:13:45,280 the two of them as a gift it's a gift 1919 01:13:48,470 --> 01:13:47,679 but um and i would just gift it to them 1920 01:13:50,950 --> 01:13:48,480 but 1921 01:13:53,510 --> 01:13:50,960 um then i saw my friends that owned 1922 01:13:55,510 --> 01:13:53,520 houses and went on trips and and not 1923 01:13:57,189 --> 01:13:55,520 that it's a competition but i saw them 1924 01:13:59,669 --> 01:13:57,199 take care of themselves and i got to the 1925 01:14:00,550 --> 01:13:59,679 point where i gave so much away i mean i 1926 01:14:03,910 --> 01:14:00,560 could 1927 01:14:06,950 --> 01:14:03,920 stand and people would take all day long 1928 01:14:08,149 --> 01:14:06,960 you know and so i got out of balance 1929 01:14:11,110 --> 01:14:08,159 that way 1930 01:14:12,709 --> 01:14:11,120 and so i think this is a way that it can 1931 01:14:14,390 --> 01:14:12,719 be in balance and 1932 01:14:17,270 --> 01:14:14,400 where i'm held in honor 1933 01:14:19,510 --> 01:14:17,280 and integrity as well and i'm not just 1934 01:14:21,590 --> 01:14:19,520 used and abused shall we say not that i 1935 01:14:23,270 --> 01:14:21,600 will be abused but also i would see 1936 01:14:25,189 --> 01:14:23,280 people that i wouldn't charge for a 1937 01:14:26,870 --> 01:14:25,199 reading they said they didn't have any 1938 01:14:29,510 --> 01:14:26,880 money and i go i've never turned away 1939 01:14:31,030 --> 01:14:29,520 anyone i never have turned away anyone 1940 01:14:32,709 --> 01:14:31,040 but then i'd see that person go on 1941 01:14:36,470 --> 01:14:32,719 vacation to 1942 01:14:37,990 --> 01:14:36,480 hawaii yeah no and so i just went what 1943 01:14:40,630 --> 01:14:38,000 you know yeah 1944 01:14:42,470 --> 01:14:40,640 and so so um i played with it i 1945 01:14:43,590 --> 01:14:42,480 struggled with it for a long time 1946 01:14:46,390 --> 01:14:43,600 and i 1947 01:14:49,350 --> 01:14:46,400 ended up meeting my business partner now 1948 01:14:53,189 --> 01:14:49,360 who got stuck he lived in mallorca james 1949 01:14:55,030 --> 01:14:53,199 bradley and um she got stuck in la and i 1950 01:14:57,430 --> 01:14:55,040 had helped him i'd done a reading or two 1951 01:14:59,590 --> 01:14:57,440 readings for him and we started talking 1952 01:15:02,229 --> 01:14:59,600 he says what you do needs to be done on 1953 01:15:04,470 --> 01:15:02,239 a global platform i know how to do that 1954 01:15:06,070 --> 01:15:04,480 so we merged his business with my 1955 01:15:08,229 --> 01:15:06,080 esoteric and 1956 01:15:09,189 --> 01:15:08,239 that's so awesome i love that 1957 01:15:11,270 --> 01:15:09,199 you know 1958 01:15:13,510 --> 01:15:11,280 it kind of it kind of brings back your 1959 01:15:15,830 --> 01:15:13,520 point earlier of like we live in this 1960 01:15:19,189 --> 01:15:15,840 super dense three-dimensional world you 1961 01:15:21,270 --> 01:15:19,199 know and we can escape to that 5d world 1962 01:15:23,350 --> 01:15:21,280 you know and like when it comes when it 1963 01:15:26,950 --> 01:15:23,360 comes to money i mean 1964 01:15:28,070 --> 01:15:26,960 that is part of the 3d world yes and you 1965 01:15:30,790 --> 01:15:28,080 have to 1966 01:15:35,270 --> 01:15:30,800 great point you can bring your your 1967 01:15:38,070 --> 01:15:35,280 5d like information to people here but 1968 01:15:41,350 --> 01:15:38,080 you can't do that unless you survive in 1969 01:15:42,950 --> 01:15:41,360 this 3d world which requires money and 1970 01:15:45,270 --> 01:15:42,960 you know i was so funny because i was 1971 01:15:47,990 --> 01:15:45,280 literally thinking about this today like 1972 01:15:49,990 --> 01:15:48,000 there's so much stuff that i would love 1973 01:15:53,350 --> 01:15:50,000 to do and there's so many people that i 1974 01:15:55,750 --> 01:15:53,360 would love to help and i literally don't 1975 01:15:57,669 --> 01:15:55,760 have the time or the money to do it and 1976 01:15:59,830 --> 01:15:57,679 i would love to be able to do something 1977 01:16:02,550 --> 01:15:59,840 like this and be able to support people 1978 01:16:05,030 --> 01:16:02,560 like i would love to write a 50 000 1979 01:16:06,630 --> 01:16:05,040 check to uapx right now hand it over to 1980 01:16:09,270 --> 01:16:06,640 our buddy gary voorhees and be like dude 1981 01:16:11,430 --> 01:16:09,280 go buy you some awesome things right 1982 01:16:13,350 --> 01:16:11,440 let's you know like i i that's what i 1983 01:16:15,270 --> 01:16:13,360 would love to do i want to help so many 1984 01:16:16,709 --> 01:16:15,280 people and and i get so frustrated and 1985 01:16:17,910 --> 01:16:16,719 like bummed out sometimes because i'm 1986 01:16:25,750 --> 01:16:17,920 like 1987 01:16:27,430 --> 01:16:25,760 know in the moment you get in your head 1988 01:16:29,270 --> 01:16:27,440 and you're just like 1989 01:16:31,110 --> 01:16:29,280 like you feel like a complete failure 1990 01:16:32,950 --> 01:16:31,120 sometimes because you you can't like 1991 01:16:35,590 --> 01:16:32,960 achieve the things that you would like 1992 01:16:38,310 --> 01:16:35,600 to um at least on the timeline that 1993 01:16:41,270 --> 01:16:38,320 you'd like to do it you know i think i 1994 01:16:43,430 --> 01:16:41,280 went through this whole pathway where i 1995 01:16:45,669 --> 01:16:43,440 used to i was a multi-millionaire at one 1996 01:16:47,750 --> 01:16:45,679 time oh wow that's awesome and i had a 1997 01:16:50,149 --> 01:16:47,760 big house and i had the cars and i had 1998 01:16:51,910 --> 01:16:50,159 all the stuff and i had created it 1999 01:16:53,669 --> 01:16:51,920 myself right one time i had three 2000 01:16:55,430 --> 01:16:53,679 thousand dollars at once 2001 01:16:58,310 --> 01:16:55,440 it was only once though 2002 01:17:00,790 --> 01:16:58,320 and it went away very fast and and then 2003 01:17:06,229 --> 01:17:03,510 i let it go right yeah 2004 01:17:09,430 --> 01:17:06,239 but what i found is through a like a 2005 01:17:12,630 --> 01:17:09,440 shamanic path right is i'm not my credit 2006 01:17:14,950 --> 01:17:12,640 card i'm not my credit score i know how 2007 01:17:16,790 --> 01:17:14,960 much money i have in my pocket 2008 01:17:18,390 --> 01:17:16,800 i'm i am not 2009 01:17:20,870 --> 01:17:18,400 my job 2010 01:17:22,550 --> 01:17:20,880 i'm really not i'm i'm i'm me and i'm 2011 01:17:24,790 --> 01:17:22,560 free and and 2012 01:17:27,910 --> 01:17:24,800 um and and 2013 01:17:30,070 --> 01:17:27,920 you can't buy love 2014 01:17:32,790 --> 01:17:30,080 you can't buy family you can't buy your 2015 01:17:34,950 --> 01:17:32,800 beloved you can't buy your children 2016 01:17:36,310 --> 01:17:34,960 you know they're priceless so they're 2017 01:17:38,240 --> 01:17:36,320 that whole other 2018 01:17:41,910 --> 01:17:38,250 my kid was kind of expensive 2019 01:17:43,110 --> 01:17:41,920 [Laughter] 2020 01:17:45,510 --> 01:17:43,120 well i mean you got to put them through 2021 01:17:46,950 --> 01:17:45,520 college there they're not yeah 2022 01:17:48,709 --> 01:17:46,960 for taxes 2023 01:17:51,350 --> 01:17:48,719 we're just in the diaper stage i can't 2024 01:17:53,430 --> 01:17:51,360 even imagine college 2025 01:17:56,070 --> 01:17:53,440 money is a loaded it's a loaded subject 2026 01:17:58,149 --> 01:17:56,080 for people and especially i think where 2027 01:18:00,870 --> 01:17:58,159 we're going we're going to create new 2028 01:18:02,470 --> 01:18:00,880 ways that it isn't just the 2029 01:18:03,669 --> 01:18:02,480 five percent or three percent or ten 2030 01:18:05,910 --> 01:18:03,679 percent whatever that number keeps 2031 01:18:07,270 --> 01:18:05,920 changing owns everything but we're going 2032 01:18:08,630 --> 01:18:07,280 to be going through some chaos where 2033 01:18:11,270 --> 01:18:08,640 we're going to be changing a lot of 2034 01:18:13,590 --> 01:18:11,280 these things up so why can't you have 2035 01:18:15,910 --> 01:18:13,600 your living off of ufo garage there's 2036 01:18:17,590 --> 01:18:15,920 ways that you can do that financially 2037 01:18:18,550 --> 01:18:17,600 where you set it up for yourself so you 2038 01:18:20,310 --> 01:18:18,560 can 2039 01:18:21,910 --> 01:18:20,320 you know where you get subscribers pay 2040 01:18:24,070 --> 01:18:21,920 subscribers or you get 2041 01:18:25,110 --> 01:18:24,080 you know all sorts of things um you get 2042 01:18:27,910 --> 01:18:25,120 a good 2043 01:18:29,350 --> 01:18:27,920 left-brained businessman if we if we 2044 01:18:31,430 --> 01:18:29,360 could just live straight off of like 2045 01:18:34,310 --> 01:18:31,440 good vibes we would be me we would be 2046 01:18:36,550 --> 01:18:34,320 billionaires because we got some great 2047 01:18:39,669 --> 01:18:36,560 vibes like our 2048 01:18:41,750 --> 01:18:39,679 crew our crew the show's up to our live 2049 01:18:43,750 --> 01:18:41,760 knows it listens to our podcast like 2050 01:18:45,430 --> 01:18:43,760 yeah just the love that just pours out 2051 01:18:47,750 --> 01:18:45,440 each and every day like we're so 2052 01:18:49,669 --> 01:18:47,760 thankful for that true it's true but i 2053 01:18:51,910 --> 01:18:49,679 did my show for like seven years you 2054 01:18:54,390 --> 01:18:51,920 know and so i'm dedicated to that i 2055 01:18:56,149 --> 01:18:54,400 never got paid for any of that is that a 2056 01:18:58,390 --> 01:18:56,159 badge i can wear 2057 01:19:03,510 --> 01:18:58,400 maybe 2058 01:19:06,790 --> 01:19:03,520 is that like a i mean we speak about the 2059 01:19:09,110 --> 01:19:06,800 these these lives these past lives if 2060 01:19:11,830 --> 01:19:09,120 we're talking about karma is just a word 2061 01:19:14,550 --> 01:19:11,840 i'm using i'm not it doesn't necessarily 2062 01:19:16,790 --> 01:19:14,560 need to make this uh be the same thing 2063 01:19:19,830 --> 01:19:16,800 as we all think of karma but like 2064 01:19:22,550 --> 01:19:19,840 if we're talking about like a life of of 2065 01:19:24,870 --> 01:19:22,560 servitude that serves 2066 01:19:27,510 --> 01:19:24,880 not just you but others but you don't 2067 01:19:28,630 --> 01:19:27,520 actually get rich off of it or you know 2068 01:19:32,790 --> 01:19:28,640 you live 2069 01:19:34,790 --> 01:19:32,800 and on the inside you feel very 2070 01:19:38,310 --> 01:19:34,800 fulfilled 2071 01:19:40,470 --> 01:19:38,320 is that not some sort of um bliss in a 2072 01:19:42,470 --> 01:19:40,480 way it is bliss i've had that for a very 2073 01:19:44,870 --> 01:19:42,480 long time i've lived like that 2074 01:19:47,270 --> 01:19:44,880 you know a very simple life in a lot of 2075 01:19:51,430 --> 01:19:47,280 ways that's why i do the show and 2076 01:19:53,350 --> 01:19:51,440 and um i was really happy of doing that 2077 01:19:55,430 --> 01:19:53,360 and having a simple life doing just 2078 01:19:57,990 --> 01:19:55,440 certain readings for people and doing my 2079 01:20:00,229 --> 01:19:58,000 classes and you know the whole little 2080 01:20:02,070 --> 01:20:00,239 thing with my my family have three kids 2081 01:20:05,189 --> 01:20:02,080 and three grandkids and 2082 01:20:07,990 --> 01:20:05,199 um i was really pretty pretty happy 2083 01:20:11,189 --> 01:20:08,000 pretty joyful and then i met this 2084 01:20:13,430 --> 01:20:11,199 bradley guy and it just it changed i had 2085 01:20:15,830 --> 01:20:13,440 a different i'm for some reason i'm in 2086 01:20:17,350 --> 01:20:15,840 this to help change this because there's 2087 01:20:19,270 --> 01:20:17,360 some things that need to be changed in 2088 01:20:21,350 --> 01:20:19,280 our money system and i don't know what 2089 01:20:23,750 --> 01:20:21,360 i'm doing in it but i'm doing something 2090 01:20:25,750 --> 01:20:23,760 and that is that i want psychics and 2091 01:20:27,510 --> 01:20:25,760 people who have i want them to be 2092 01:20:30,070 --> 01:20:27,520 respected and honored 2093 01:20:33,189 --> 01:20:30,080 right it means we can do that with money 2094 01:20:35,750 --> 01:20:33,199 and and that's okay and i'll tell you 2095 01:20:36,950 --> 01:20:35,760 most of those most of my students they 2096 01:20:38,870 --> 01:20:36,960 are all 2097 01:20:40,950 --> 01:20:38,880 if they when they get their money 2098 01:20:42,070 --> 01:20:40,960 they're like me we give a lot of it away 2099 01:20:44,310 --> 01:20:42,080 i still do 2100 01:20:46,870 --> 01:20:44,320 but we have our choice to do it or not 2101 01:20:49,910 --> 01:20:46,880 to do it right right right 2102 01:20:52,310 --> 01:20:49,920 so so whatever and and i still do a lot 2103 01:20:53,030 --> 01:20:52,320 of free readings and feelings for people 2104 01:20:54,790 --> 01:20:53,040 too 2105 01:20:55,669 --> 01:20:54,800 but it's my choice when i want to do 2106 01:20:56,470 --> 01:20:55,679 that 2107 01:20:59,510 --> 01:20:56,480 yeah 2108 01:21:01,510 --> 01:20:59,520 well you know by by doing that you know 2109 01:21:03,990 --> 01:21:01,520 you give a free reading whether or not 2110 01:21:06,870 --> 01:21:04,000 you saw them go to hawaii or whatever 2111 01:21:09,750 --> 01:21:06,880 afterwards right it's it's 2112 01:21:12,070 --> 01:21:09,760 for me personally like 2113 01:21:14,390 --> 01:21:12,080 i got like you gave me that reading and 2114 01:21:17,030 --> 01:21:14,400 it was almost like this like it was 2115 01:21:18,470 --> 01:21:17,040 energized right so like more than likely 2116 01:21:20,870 --> 01:21:18,480 i'm probably gonna go do something 2117 01:21:24,149 --> 01:21:20,880 really nice tomorrow you know like it 2118 01:21:25,270 --> 01:21:24,159 just it made you feel so good 2119 01:21:27,510 --> 01:21:25,280 um 2120 01:21:29,189 --> 01:21:27,520 by like just what you're doing you know 2121 01:21:30,950 --> 01:21:29,199 and that's kind of like the goal with us 2122 01:21:32,550 --> 01:21:30,960 in this show is like 2123 01:21:35,430 --> 01:21:32,560 all we want to do is just make people 2124 01:21:37,110 --> 01:21:35,440 feel good um and also ben i wanted to 2125 01:21:37,990 --> 01:21:37,120 point this out to you 2126 01:21:40,310 --> 01:21:38,000 um 2127 01:21:41,830 --> 01:21:40,320 bonnie says ben and joe you do know that 2128 01:21:43,750 --> 01:21:41,840 all your wine and liquors are tax 2129 01:21:45,590 --> 01:21:43,760 deductible now that we are a business we 2130 01:21:47,669 --> 01:21:45,600 can write them off for our taxes yeah 2131 01:21:49,669 --> 01:21:47,679 think about that but i start saving my 2132 01:21:51,430 --> 01:21:49,679 receipts see there's that left brain 2133 01:21:53,370 --> 01:21:51,440 person that we needed bonnie you're 2134 01:21:55,990 --> 01:21:53,380 hired you're hired 2135 01:21:58,470 --> 01:21:56,000 [Laughter] 2136 01:22:01,189 --> 01:21:58,480 but yeah it's so beautiful i mean like 2137 01:22:03,350 --> 01:22:01,199 it it it makes you feel good that's 2138 01:22:05,110 --> 01:22:03,360 that's should be the goal for everybody 2139 01:22:07,110 --> 01:22:05,120 is you do something that makes somebody 2140 01:22:08,629 --> 01:22:07,120 feel so good that they want to go out 2141 01:22:11,750 --> 01:22:08,639 and do something else that's good for 2142 01:22:13,510 --> 01:22:11,760 somebody else you know and just watch 2143 01:22:15,510 --> 01:22:13,520 the dominoes fall 2144 01:22:17,830 --> 01:22:15,520 and and somebody else had made a comment 2145 01:22:19,510 --> 01:22:17,840 earlier to the money thing you know it's 2146 01:22:21,430 --> 01:22:19,520 like there's a lot of people in this 2147 01:22:22,950 --> 01:22:21,440 world that have a lot of money that 2148 01:22:25,750 --> 01:22:22,960 don't do 2149 01:22:27,510 --> 01:22:25,760 the best things right yeah 2150 01:22:29,590 --> 01:22:27,520 you almost feel like the tides are kind 2151 01:22:31,669 --> 01:22:29,600 of changing to where like 2152 01:22:33,270 --> 01:22:31,679 more people are starting to maybe roll 2153 01:22:35,270 --> 01:22:33,280 into a little bit of money that are 2154 01:22:37,350 --> 01:22:35,280 starting to do good things and like how 2155 01:22:41,110 --> 01:22:37,360 can we like change this world a little 2156 01:22:43,830 --> 01:22:41,120 bit by this this this evil money well 2157 01:22:45,830 --> 01:22:43,840 how can we change it to not evil money 2158 01:22:47,510 --> 01:22:45,840 why can't we make money a beautiful 2159 01:22:50,310 --> 01:22:47,520 wonderful thing that we can help 2160 01:22:52,950 --> 01:22:50,320 everybody with you know so 2161 01:22:53,830 --> 01:22:52,960 i'm on team money is good 2162 01:22:55,270 --> 01:22:53,840 you know 2163 01:22:58,070 --> 01:22:55,280 well there's got to be 2164 01:23:01,110 --> 01:22:58,080 money and it's balance and it's neutral 2165 01:23:03,270 --> 01:23:01,120 and it's a tool that we can use yeah 2166 01:23:04,870 --> 01:23:03,280 yeah i always think of it as have you 2167 01:23:07,110 --> 01:23:04,880 ever seen uh the movie the wedding 2168 01:23:09,030 --> 01:23:07,120 singer whenever he goes into the bank 2169 01:23:11,990 --> 01:23:09,040 and he's like hey how's it going he's 2170 01:23:14,470 --> 01:23:12,000 like well uh i like money i know what it 2171 01:23:16,149 --> 01:23:14,480 looks like i don't have a lot of it but 2172 01:23:18,470 --> 01:23:16,159 that's where you come in 2173 01:23:24,629 --> 01:23:18,480 he's trying to get a job 2174 01:23:28,390 --> 01:23:26,149 you know um 2175 01:23:30,629 --> 01:23:28,400 i've had it and i haven't had it and 2176 01:23:32,390 --> 01:23:30,639 i've had it and i haven't had it i've 2177 01:23:33,910 --> 01:23:32,400 had it way big i've had it way low i've 2178 01:23:36,790 --> 01:23:33,920 had it way big and way low and then in 2179 01:23:38,229 --> 01:23:36,800 between and but what i found is if i can 2180 01:23:40,149 --> 01:23:38,239 just stay centered within myself it 2181 01:23:41,669 --> 01:23:40,159 doesn't matter 2182 01:23:44,950 --> 01:23:41,679 right 2183 01:23:48,229 --> 01:23:44,960 it's just money 2184 01:23:50,149 --> 01:23:48,239 i i love i love this so much i i kind of 2185 01:23:52,950 --> 01:23:50,159 want to if you guys are open to it i 2186 01:23:55,189 --> 01:23:52,960 kind of want to change uh uh directions 2187 01:23:57,910 --> 01:23:55,199 for for a little bit because uh barbara 2188 01:24:00,870 --> 01:23:57,920 i have i'm so as i mentioned earlier i'm 2189 01:24:06,070 --> 01:24:00,880 so fascinated with with ancient egyptian 2190 01:24:08,629 --> 01:24:06,080 culture and anything that has to do with 2191 01:24:11,430 --> 01:24:08,639 what i believe to be a very 2192 01:24:14,070 --> 01:24:11,440 misunderstood uh history of ours 2193 01:24:16,870 --> 01:24:14,080 okay yeah and and the fact that your 2194 01:24:18,470 --> 01:24:16,880 experience um and and 2195 01:24:20,629 --> 01:24:18,480 and let me know if i'm like backtracking 2196 01:24:22,709 --> 01:24:20,639 too far well it's good i'm with you 2197 01:24:25,590 --> 01:24:22,719 wherever you guys want to go 2198 01:24:29,669 --> 01:24:25,600 you totally got me yeah so okay awesome 2199 01:24:30,709 --> 01:24:29,679 thank you um so this this egyptian 2200 01:24:31,430 --> 01:24:30,719 god 2201 01:24:38,629 --> 01:24:31,440 i 2202 01:24:40,950 --> 01:24:38,639 okay well um 2203 01:24:43,669 --> 01:24:40,960 the the being that came in was pretty 2204 01:24:46,950 --> 01:24:43,679 tall from what i understand a very big 2205 01:24:49,030 --> 01:24:46,960 he had a kind of like a dog head so 2206 01:24:51,350 --> 01:24:49,040 almost like an anubis head 2207 01:24:53,110 --> 01:24:51,360 with a with a male body 2208 01:24:55,110 --> 01:24:53,120 um 2209 01:24:57,189 --> 01:24:55,120 i looked for him afterwards i it was a 2210 01:24:59,189 --> 01:24:57,199 long time before i could go to egypt 2211 01:25:00,629 --> 01:24:59,199 after my near-death experience and 2212 01:25:02,709 --> 01:25:00,639 before that i'd never been out of the 2213 01:25:03,990 --> 01:25:02,719 united states and after i've traveled 2214 01:25:06,470 --> 01:25:04,000 the world 2215 01:25:07,189 --> 01:25:06,480 so and that's a part of i don't know how 2216 01:25:09,990 --> 01:25:07,199 but 2217 01:25:12,870 --> 01:25:10,000 i was able to to go to many sacred spots 2218 01:25:14,070 --> 01:25:12,880 so i went to egypt the first time and 2219 01:25:15,910 --> 01:25:14,080 um 2220 01:25:17,510 --> 01:25:15,920 there's something there right i think 2221 01:25:19,750 --> 01:25:17,520 everyone should go to egypt at least 2222 01:25:21,030 --> 01:25:19,760 once in their life and i think it's that 2223 01:25:22,950 --> 01:25:21,040 part where 2224 01:25:24,950 --> 01:25:22,960 it's experiential 2225 01:25:27,350 --> 01:25:24,960 you don't have to read anything you 2226 01:25:28,709 --> 01:25:27,360 don't have to know anything but you go 2227 01:25:31,110 --> 01:25:28,719 there and you connect 2228 01:25:33,189 --> 01:25:31,120 there's a connection that happens and if 2229 01:25:36,070 --> 01:25:33,199 you can feel it in your bones you can 2230 01:25:39,030 --> 01:25:36,080 feel it in your breath it changes you 2231 01:25:40,550 --> 01:25:39,040 it reminds you that there's so much that 2232 01:25:43,350 --> 01:25:40,560 we don't know 2233 01:25:45,750 --> 01:25:43,360 and so much we need to find out and have 2234 01:25:47,669 --> 01:25:45,760 those adventures to find out but there's 2235 01:25:49,270 --> 01:25:47,679 definitely a connection 2236 01:25:51,910 --> 01:25:49,280 when i was there i don't know if you 2237 01:25:54,470 --> 01:25:51,920 read my other book at all but i have a 2238 01:25:56,629 --> 01:25:54,480 second book that i wrote along with them 2239 01:25:58,950 --> 01:25:56,639 um i don't know how many other people 2240 01:26:02,070 --> 01:25:58,960 but it's um when i was in the egyptian 2241 01:26:03,510 --> 01:26:02,080 temple um i had an experience there i 2242 01:26:06,950 --> 01:26:03,520 don't know if you want me to talk about 2243 01:26:08,550 --> 01:26:06,960 that oh please do yes yes please i wrote 2244 01:26:09,669 --> 01:26:08,560 about it but it's about a whole and 2245 01:26:12,390 --> 01:26:09,679 here's my 2246 01:26:13,590 --> 01:26:12,400 this is my book yes well she's by 2247 01:26:16,790 --> 01:26:13,600 segment 2248 01:26:19,350 --> 01:26:16,800 yes wait show what's the uh 2249 01:26:21,510 --> 01:26:19,360 the artwork there oh yeah a friend of 2250 01:26:22,950 --> 01:26:21,520 mine jan newell did this it's a 2251 01:26:24,390 --> 01:26:22,960 contemporary 2252 01:26:26,870 --> 01:26:24,400 um 2253 01:26:28,709 --> 01:26:26,880 expression of sekhmet 2254 01:26:30,310 --> 01:26:28,719 which is uh 2255 01:26:32,709 --> 01:26:30,320 an amazing goddess i'll tell you about 2256 01:26:34,629 --> 01:26:32,719 her and then the book what happened is i 2257 01:26:37,110 --> 01:26:34,639 had this experience there 2258 01:26:39,590 --> 01:26:37,120 so i wanted to know if anyone else had 2259 01:26:41,830 --> 01:26:39,600 experiences there and so what i came to 2260 01:26:44,229 --> 01:26:41,840 find out is that there's many people 2261 01:26:46,390 --> 01:26:44,239 who've had experiences with the goddess 2262 01:26:49,030 --> 01:26:46,400 segment from egypt and these are some 2263 01:26:50,550 --> 01:26:49,040 different uh goddess some different 2264 01:26:52,390 --> 01:26:50,560 collaborations 2265 01:26:53,350 --> 01:26:52,400 by different artists 2266 01:26:55,830 --> 01:26:53,360 um 2267 01:26:58,310 --> 01:26:55,840 so it's i i like to i'm like you joe i 2268 01:27:01,110 --> 01:26:58,320 like to invite everybody to come with me 2269 01:27:02,870 --> 01:27:01,120 and have fun with it right yes i love 2270 01:27:04,550 --> 01:27:02,880 that yeah and i didn't want to feel 2271 01:27:05,350 --> 01:27:04,560 alone in the experience because it was 2272 01:27:07,669 --> 01:27:05,360 so 2273 01:27:10,229 --> 01:27:07,679 extraordinary i just wanted other people 2274 01:27:12,470 --> 01:27:10,239 to have that experience as well 2275 01:27:14,870 --> 01:27:12,480 so that's just another 2276 01:27:17,510 --> 01:27:14,880 why why does that why does a lioness or 2277 01:27:19,669 --> 01:27:17,520 a lionhead look so great on a human body 2278 01:27:21,110 --> 01:27:19,679 like what it does it does i don't know 2279 01:27:24,229 --> 01:27:21,120 it looks dope 2280 01:27:26,950 --> 01:27:24,239 yeah hey it's lyran right and here's 2281 01:27:31,270 --> 01:27:26,960 here's her her main statue i had 2282 01:27:33,030 --> 01:27:31,280 somebody tell me i had lyrian ancestors 2283 01:27:34,950 --> 01:27:33,040 i think that's where we know each other 2284 01:27:35,750 --> 01:27:34,960 but that's a whole nother episode might 2285 01:27:37,830 --> 01:27:35,760 be 2286 01:27:39,350 --> 01:27:37,840 unidentified celebrity review thank you 2287 01:27:42,310 --> 01:27:39,360 so much dude 2288 01:27:46,149 --> 01:27:44,149 wow look at that 2289 01:27:47,669 --> 01:27:46,159 so that's where went to her temple i 2290 01:27:48,950 --> 01:27:47,679 went to her temple 2291 01:27:52,149 --> 01:27:48,960 in karnak 2292 01:27:53,350 --> 01:27:52,159 and um when i was there i walked in and 2293 01:27:55,510 --> 01:27:53,360 you have like 2294 01:27:57,189 --> 01:27:55,520 five to seven minutes with her 2295 01:27:59,830 --> 01:27:57,199 and i walked in 2296 01:28:01,910 --> 01:27:59,840 and it was really dark and she's a 2297 01:28:04,070 --> 01:28:01,920 beautiful statue i forget what she's 2298 01:28:07,750 --> 01:28:04,080 made out of a beautiful stone 2299 01:28:09,750 --> 01:28:07,760 um i don't know exact measurements sand 2300 01:28:11,669 --> 01:28:09,760 i think it's about seven feet tall you 2301 01:28:14,229 --> 01:28:11,679 know she's not as big as you think but 2302 01:28:16,550 --> 01:28:14,239 she feels big right and so she's 2303 01:28:18,790 --> 01:28:16,560 standing there with uh a lotus in one 2304 01:28:20,709 --> 01:28:18,800 hand and an ankh a lotus staff in one 2305 01:28:22,310 --> 01:28:20,719 hand and an ankh in the other and i'm 2306 01:28:24,470 --> 01:28:22,320 just minding my own business i don't 2307 01:28:28,229 --> 01:28:24,480 know anything about her at all this is 2308 01:28:31,110 --> 01:28:28,239 how i get in trouble you guys 2309 01:28:34,790 --> 01:28:31,120 minding my own business so i walk in 2310 01:28:37,910 --> 01:28:34,800 and um i'm standing there and she walks 2311 01:28:40,870 --> 01:28:37,920 out of the statue i am not doing any 2312 01:28:43,510 --> 01:28:40,880 drives i'm not doing anything no alcohol 2313 01:28:46,390 --> 01:28:43,520 no no anything i have coffee that's 2314 01:28:49,270 --> 01:28:46,400 about it she steps out of her statue 2315 01:28:51,990 --> 01:28:49,280 like you and i 3d in 3d 2316 01:28:54,550 --> 01:28:52,000 and when she does that she hooks into 2317 01:28:57,030 --> 01:28:54,560 like your attractor being her red eyes 2318 01:28:59,830 --> 01:28:57,040 into my eyes right into my stick shock 2319 01:29:02,629 --> 01:28:59,840 from my eyes and when she does that she 2320 01:29:06,390 --> 01:29:02,639 puts those fire ring around us 2321 01:29:08,790 --> 01:29:06,400 and um she puts this golden stairs down 2322 01:29:12,390 --> 01:29:08,800 and she asks me to step on it and when 2323 01:29:14,070 --> 01:29:12,400 she does then the water fills in within 2324 01:29:17,270 --> 01:29:14,080 the fire ring 2325 01:29:19,590 --> 01:29:17,280 and what she does she tells me 2326 01:29:21,830 --> 01:29:19,600 she says that i'm powerful 2327 01:29:23,590 --> 01:29:21,840 and that i earned it and not to ever 2328 01:29:26,629 --> 01:29:23,600 forget it 2329 01:29:28,310 --> 01:29:26,639 and so she says do you get it and i said 2330 01:29:29,590 --> 01:29:28,320 like i'm shaking right because all of 2331 01:29:31,030 --> 01:29:29,600 our energy is going right through your 2332 01:29:33,030 --> 01:29:31,040 body and you're going 2333 01:29:34,709 --> 01:29:33,040 like that a little bit yeah crack my 2334 01:29:36,629 --> 01:29:34,719 tooth i actually i still have a cracked 2335 01:29:39,189 --> 01:29:36,639 tooth from that it cracked the tooth 2336 01:29:41,110 --> 01:29:39,199 because the energy was so extreme 2337 01:29:43,350 --> 01:29:41,120 and so i said 2338 01:29:46,070 --> 01:29:43,360 all i could say was yeah 2339 01:29:48,229 --> 01:29:46,080 and so then once i got it she kept me in 2340 01:29:50,629 --> 01:29:48,239 this tractor beam until i she was sure i 2341 01:29:53,270 --> 01:29:50,639 got it then when i got it and she was 2342 01:29:56,390 --> 01:29:53,280 happy with that then the water came back 2343 01:29:59,110 --> 01:29:56,400 the fire ring went back i stepped off 2344 01:30:00,870 --> 01:29:59,120 the steps she took the steps back up and 2345 01:30:03,270 --> 01:30:00,880 then she stepped backwards into her 2346 01:30:05,110 --> 01:30:03,280 statue again and then it was the energy 2347 01:30:07,990 --> 01:30:05,120 dropped 2348 01:30:10,310 --> 01:30:08,000 and so i laid flat on the ground right 2349 01:30:13,110 --> 01:30:10,320 and so they kind of walked me out 2350 01:30:14,310 --> 01:30:13,120 and i cried for three days 2351 01:30:17,030 --> 01:30:14,320 i just cried 2352 01:30:18,390 --> 01:30:17,040 all this crying i think it was for me it 2353 01:30:19,830 --> 01:30:18,400 was all the pain and suffering that i 2354 01:30:21,590 --> 01:30:19,840 had been running through my body that 2355 01:30:23,750 --> 01:30:21,600 was in our world 2356 01:30:26,470 --> 01:30:23,760 that i didn't know i had 2357 01:30:29,110 --> 01:30:26,480 and so later i that's what helped me 2358 01:30:31,430 --> 01:30:29,120 divorce my husband at the time 2359 01:30:33,189 --> 01:30:31,440 oh wow she helped give me the power and 2360 01:30:35,910 --> 01:30:33,199 the strength to do that 2361 01:30:37,910 --> 01:30:35,920 yeah the lioness man a lioness and so 2362 01:30:39,189 --> 01:30:37,920 she helped some so i thought well if i 2363 01:30:40,950 --> 01:30:39,199 had that experience i don't know it was 2364 01:30:43,350 --> 01:30:40,960 a few years later 2365 01:30:45,030 --> 01:30:43,360 um and i was in meditation that's where 2366 01:30:47,110 --> 01:30:45,040 you get in trouble too and i'm in 2367 01:30:48,550 --> 01:30:47,120 meditation but i do get my best ideas 2368 01:30:50,550 --> 01:30:48,560 when i'm in meditation i always have a 2369 01:30:53,030 --> 01:30:50,560 book next to me because i always write 2370 01:30:56,870 --> 01:30:53,040 that's my best place to write and so i'm 2371 01:30:58,870 --> 01:30:56,880 in there and they said go ahead and um 2372 01:31:00,390 --> 01:30:58,880 she comes in and i haven't seen her 2373 01:31:02,709 --> 01:31:00,400 since and she comes in says i'd like you 2374 01:31:04,390 --> 01:31:02,719 to write a book up about your experience 2375 01:31:07,350 --> 01:31:04,400 because i don't have time for that you 2376 01:31:10,870 --> 01:31:09,669 they don't i appreciate the gift and all 2377 01:31:14,870 --> 01:31:10,880 but 2378 01:31:19,030 --> 01:31:16,870 so i go on to the internet i'm going to 2379 01:31:19,830 --> 01:31:19,040 write a book i'm still on the internet 2380 01:31:21,430 --> 01:31:19,840 where 2381 01:31:23,590 --> 01:31:21,440 does anyone else have any other 2382 01:31:25,270 --> 01:31:23,600 experiences to join me 2383 01:31:27,750 --> 01:31:25,280 and then i click out of and that was 2384 01:31:30,310 --> 01:31:27,760 facebook on facebook and so i sit back 2385 01:31:31,750 --> 01:31:30,320 down in meditation i go [\h__\h] i mean i go 2386 01:31:33,350 --> 01:31:31,760 i don't know what am i 2387 01:31:35,830 --> 01:31:33,360 you could say [\h__\h] it's okay 2388 01:31:37,510 --> 01:31:35,840 i can't i can't on my station you know 2389 01:31:40,470 --> 01:31:37,520 i'm just gonna get some wine real quick 2390 01:31:42,310 --> 01:31:40,480 oh yeah and so anyway so the 2391 01:31:43,430 --> 01:31:42,320 um um 2392 01:31:46,149 --> 01:31:43,440 the people 2393 01:31:48,229 --> 01:31:46,159 it's all the so i go onto facebook again 2394 01:31:49,750 --> 01:31:48,239 because i thought i could erase it and 2395 01:31:50,870 --> 01:31:49,760 it never happened i don't have to write 2396 01:31:53,669 --> 01:31:50,880 a book 2397 01:31:56,550 --> 01:31:53,679 but what happened is facebook exploded 2398 01:31:59,510 --> 01:31:56,560 and all these people contacted me 2399 01:32:02,390 --> 01:31:59,520 and so i wrote i got their stories and 2400 01:32:04,149 --> 01:32:02,400 their art and i decided well if we just 2401 01:32:06,550 --> 01:32:04,159 have the stories it might be really fun 2402 01:32:08,790 --> 01:32:06,560 to put in some beautiful artwork of 2403 01:32:11,669 --> 01:32:08,800 those experiences too and so 2404 01:32:12,550 --> 01:32:11,679 i did it and it's uh it's a group effort 2405 01:32:14,870 --> 01:32:12,560 and 2406 01:32:17,030 --> 01:32:14,880 i'm not a really a writer you know i'm 2407 01:32:18,870 --> 01:32:17,040 still don't consider myself a writer at 2408 01:32:21,430 --> 01:32:18,880 all right right and it took me a long 2409 01:32:22,390 --> 01:32:21,440 time to do that you know and so 2410 01:32:24,070 --> 01:32:22,400 but i'm 2411 01:32:27,430 --> 01:32:24,080 really glad i did 2412 01:32:30,149 --> 01:32:27,440 sometimes when people you know 2413 01:32:33,590 --> 01:32:30,159 sometimes people are so great at things 2414 01:32:35,990 --> 01:32:33,600 that they don't uh consider themselves 2415 01:32:37,830 --> 01:32:36,000 to be you know and i think a lot of that 2416 01:32:40,550 --> 01:32:37,840 is that free flow 2417 01:32:42,709 --> 01:32:40,560 just creative energy you know ben and i 2418 01:32:44,950 --> 01:32:42,719 are working on a documentary right now 2419 01:32:48,070 --> 01:32:44,960 oh they're good we don't know anything 2420 01:32:49,990 --> 01:32:48,080 about film right like and and it is 2421 01:32:51,910 --> 01:32:50,000 turning out 2422 01:32:54,550 --> 01:32:51,920 pretty amazing we'll have to i have to 2423 01:32:56,229 --> 01:32:54,560 shoot you the uh the the trailer for it 2424 01:32:58,629 --> 01:32:56,239 oh i'd love to see that we just finished 2425 01:32:59,990 --> 01:32:58,639 our second trailer and i mean it's just 2426 01:33:02,149 --> 01:33:00,000 it's one of those things where like you 2427 01:33:05,030 --> 01:33:02,159 know we're not we're not we're not film 2428 01:33:08,550 --> 01:33:05,040 guys you know like we we played music 2429 01:33:11,189 --> 01:33:08,560 you know uh and and that's that's pretty 2430 01:33:13,510 --> 01:33:11,199 much it bin's very creative he's a 2431 01:33:15,910 --> 01:33:13,520 graphic design guy i do a little bit of 2432 01:33:18,229 --> 01:33:15,920 graphic design stuff too i'm very 2433 01:33:20,310 --> 01:33:18,239 outdoorsy uh but we don't know anything 2434 01:33:22,550 --> 01:33:20,320 about film and it's it's just turning 2435 01:33:23,910 --> 01:33:22,560 into this amazing thing so 2436 01:33:26,390 --> 01:33:23,920 you know and and for you not being a 2437 01:33:28,149 --> 01:33:26,400 writer i mean i have this book and 2438 01:33:30,070 --> 01:33:28,159 you know when i finished it i told my 2439 01:33:32,149 --> 01:33:30,080 wife i was like i need more of these 2440 01:33:34,310 --> 01:33:32,159 books so i'm thinking i'll probably be 2441 01:33:36,390 --> 01:33:34,320 receiving a few more of your books uh 2442 01:33:40,709 --> 01:33:36,400 for christmas because that's that's kind 2443 01:33:42,950 --> 01:33:40,719 of on my list um it's absolutely amazing 2444 01:33:45,430 --> 01:33:42,960 but i i you know 2445 01:33:47,270 --> 01:33:45,440 i i think that there's something to that 2446 01:33:49,270 --> 01:33:47,280 sometimes when you branch out and do 2447 01:33:51,189 --> 01:33:49,280 something that you're just not familiar 2448 01:33:53,669 --> 01:33:51,199 with you know you're not confined to 2449 01:33:56,550 --> 01:33:53,679 that box or the restraints that people 2450 01:33:58,390 --> 01:33:56,560 are professionals in that area you know 2451 01:33:59,830 --> 01:33:58,400 they kind of stick to that little box 2452 01:34:02,310 --> 01:33:59,840 but when you're not familiar with 2453 01:34:04,470 --> 01:34:02,320 something you take it and run and some 2454 01:34:07,430 --> 01:34:04,480 of the best stuff happens 2455 01:34:10,629 --> 01:34:07,440 uh when you're that type of person so 2456 01:34:13,030 --> 01:34:10,639 yeah thank you well and and i 2457 01:34:14,950 --> 01:34:13,040 if you're if it's meant to be and then i 2458 01:34:17,990 --> 01:34:14,960 think i just fought with myself for so 2459 01:34:19,830 --> 01:34:18,000 long too right i'm not a writer i don't 2460 01:34:22,070 --> 01:34:19,840 know anything i'm not good enough who 2461 01:34:24,470 --> 01:34:22,080 would want to hear my story you know and 2462 01:34:25,510 --> 01:34:24,480 what the first nations call it stinking 2463 01:34:30,830 --> 01:34:25,520 thinking 2464 01:34:31,830 --> 01:34:30,840 to stop your creativity 2465 01:34:33,750 --> 01:34:31,840 yes tell us 2466 01:34:34,550 --> 01:34:33,760 the hell out open the door and shove it 2467 01:34:35,430 --> 01:34:34,560 out 2468 01:34:37,430 --> 01:34:35,440 yes 2469 01:34:39,030 --> 01:34:37,440 writing my book was i 2470 01:34:40,629 --> 01:34:39,040 it was probably the hardest one of the 2471 01:34:42,470 --> 01:34:40,639 hardest things i've done 2472 01:34:44,790 --> 01:34:42,480 and it was just to 2473 01:34:47,350 --> 01:34:44,800 just to put it in words was really 2474 01:34:49,750 --> 01:34:47,360 for me was a very challenge i'm sure and 2475 01:34:52,229 --> 01:34:49,760 my thing is it's just very it's a very 2476 01:34:54,709 --> 01:34:52,239 simple book because it's just it's not 2477 01:34:56,950 --> 01:34:54,719 flowery beautiful words you know that 2478 01:35:00,629 --> 01:34:56,960 was my main thing it's just a very 2479 01:35:03,990 --> 01:35:00,639 simple book telling a a very simple 2480 01:35:06,629 --> 01:35:04,000 story of what happened it is it is it 2481 01:35:09,750 --> 01:35:06,639 and but that's what i loved about it is 2482 01:35:12,709 --> 01:35:09,760 that it is so simple so it it 2483 01:35:15,109 --> 01:35:12,719 it doesn't matter what your intelligence 2484 01:35:18,709 --> 01:35:15,119 level is or like you're reading great or 2485 01:35:20,390 --> 01:35:18,719 whatever it's a book for everybody and 2486 01:35:23,030 --> 01:35:20,400 and just in case you guys haven't seen 2487 01:35:25,669 --> 01:35:23,040 it here it is again uh dying for the 2488 01:35:28,149 --> 01:35:25,679 light this was fabulous she showed you 2489 01:35:29,910 --> 01:35:28,159 her one of her other books and it's 2490 01:35:33,430 --> 01:35:29,920 great 2491 01:35:35,750 --> 01:35:33,440 because because the the simplicity is 2492 01:35:38,390 --> 01:35:35,760 what i absolutely loved about it um 2493 01:35:41,109 --> 01:35:38,400 terry loveless was very good at that too 2494 01:35:43,270 --> 01:35:41,119 terry loveless and scary yes he's scary 2495 01:35:45,830 --> 01:35:43,280 he's such a great guy i gave him a 2496 01:35:48,149 --> 01:35:45,840 reading did you 2497 01:35:50,470 --> 01:35:48,159 explain she's been on the show i just 2498 01:35:52,550 --> 01:35:50,480 love that guy yeah he's gonna be at our 2499 01:35:54,550 --> 01:35:52,560 event we're having a live event here in 2500 01:35:56,390 --> 01:35:54,560 my hometown it's the first one that's 2501 01:35:58,550 --> 01:35:56,400 ever happened and terry was nice enough 2502 01:36:00,229 --> 01:35:58,560 to come down and join us but 2503 01:36:02,950 --> 01:36:00,239 that's exactly what i loved about his 2504 01:36:05,990 --> 01:36:02,960 book as well is it was just so easy to 2505 01:36:07,430 --> 01:36:06,000 read it's very to the point i have a i 2506 01:36:08,629 --> 01:36:07,440 have this 2507 01:36:09,830 --> 01:36:08,639 i have a little collection of books 2508 01:36:11,990 --> 01:36:09,840 behind me and 2509 01:36:13,189 --> 01:36:12,000 i have this uh like secret machines by 2510 01:36:16,310 --> 01:36:13,199 tom delong 2511 01:36:17,990 --> 01:36:16,320 words mean you know what i'm saying like 2512 01:36:20,470 --> 01:36:18,000 i tried to read it and i had to just put 2513 01:36:22,550 --> 01:36:20,480 it down like after like 100 pages 2514 01:36:24,870 --> 01:36:22,560 because i was like i can't comprehend 2515 01:36:26,709 --> 01:36:24,880 any of this it's way above whatever it 2516 01:36:28,950 --> 01:36:26,719 is that i understand i gotta have a 2517 01:36:30,310 --> 01:36:28,960 conversation with him about it but i 2518 01:36:32,629 --> 01:36:30,320 don't feel like he wrote that book 2519 01:36:34,870 --> 01:36:32,639 because you know what i'm saying like 2520 01:36:36,629 --> 01:36:34,880 the words in there are just kind of like 2521 01:36:39,990 --> 01:36:36,639 sometimes he might have channeled it 2522 01:36:41,830 --> 01:36:40,000 dude you might have you might have but 2523 01:36:45,270 --> 01:36:41,840 some people i've i feel like just try to 2524 01:36:48,790 --> 01:36:45,280 over explain or like seem a little more 2525 01:36:49,830 --> 01:36:48,800 like just in intelligent uh like to you 2526 01:36:53,350 --> 01:36:49,840 know 2527 01:36:54,629 --> 01:36:53,360 for some reason intelligence equates uh 2528 01:36:58,470 --> 01:36:54,639 uh 2529 01:36:59,750 --> 01:36:58,480 what's the word that i'm looking for um 2530 01:37:00,950 --> 01:36:59,760 i guess 2531 01:37:03,990 --> 01:37:00,960 uh 2532 01:37:05,030 --> 01:37:04,000 truthfulness right or or you're very you 2533 01:37:08,870 --> 01:37:05,040 know 2534 01:37:10,950 --> 01:37:08,880 credible is the word that i'm looking 2535 01:37:13,669 --> 01:37:10,960 for like intelligence seems to like 2536 01:37:16,229 --> 01:37:13,679 equate to credible right but 2537 01:37:18,070 --> 01:37:16,239 i've noticed the exact opposite very 2538 01:37:20,149 --> 01:37:18,080 intelligent people will sometimes just 2539 01:37:21,910 --> 01:37:20,159 say things that go over your head to 2540 01:37:23,669 --> 01:37:21,920 make it sound credible but a lot of 2541 01:37:25,270 --> 01:37:23,679 times they're full of [\h__\h] sometimes you 2542 01:37:27,510 --> 01:37:25,280 know and they're just guessing as much 2543 01:37:29,750 --> 01:37:27,520 as you are so like why can't we all just 2544 01:37:30,550 --> 01:37:29,760 like be on the same level about it you 2545 01:37:31,830 --> 01:37:30,560 know 2546 01:37:34,709 --> 01:37:31,840 yeah 2547 01:37:36,950 --> 01:37:34,719 well um and for me i probably couldn't 2548 01:37:39,109 --> 01:37:36,960 even think to make it more intelligent i 2549 01:37:42,070 --> 01:37:39,119 just wrote it the way i 2550 01:37:44,470 --> 01:37:42,080 the way it was for me so my family's 2551 01:37:46,470 --> 01:37:44,480 from this is from the south as well my 2552 01:37:47,669 --> 01:37:46,480 mom is from arkansas my dad's from 2553 01:37:49,350 --> 01:37:47,679 mississippi 2554 01:37:52,070 --> 01:37:49,360 but i'm from california i was born in 2555 01:37:53,830 --> 01:37:52,080 california in california wow but well 2556 01:37:55,270 --> 01:37:53,840 they're very simple 2557 01:37:57,430 --> 01:37:55,280 beautiful people but they have the 2558 01:37:59,590 --> 01:37:57,440 biggest hearts you know that you know i 2559 01:38:03,350 --> 01:37:59,600 can hear my grandma say come on in and 2560 01:38:05,030 --> 01:38:03,360 sit as fail barbra jean 2561 01:38:06,790 --> 01:38:05,040 me and ben were having that conversation 2562 01:38:07,590 --> 01:38:06,800 we were like 2563 01:38:09,350 --> 01:38:07,600 hey 2564 01:38:11,590 --> 01:38:09,360 we're from texas we got barbra jean 2565 01:38:13,510 --> 01:38:11,600 coming on we got barbra jean hey barbra 2566 01:38:15,750 --> 01:38:13,520 jean come on next week 2567 01:38:19,189 --> 01:38:15,760 is barbra jean her first name or is it 2568 01:38:20,470 --> 01:38:19,199 barbara jean she got tied up 2569 01:38:22,629 --> 01:38:20,480 exactly 2570 01:38:24,390 --> 01:38:22,639 she got tied up first belle last week 2571 01:38:25,830 --> 01:38:24,400 okay she had her own thing going on 2572 01:38:27,430 --> 01:38:25,840 we're gonna 2573 01:38:28,550 --> 01:38:27,440 get her back on uh 2574 01:38:30,470 --> 01:38:28,560 this week 2575 01:38:32,390 --> 01:38:30,480 and we will continue 2576 01:38:34,310 --> 01:38:32,400 uh 2577 01:38:35,430 --> 01:38:34,320 but any time i say your name i mean i 2578 01:38:38,950 --> 01:38:35,440 have to say it 2579 01:38:42,070 --> 01:38:40,790 i've stopped myself at least 100 times 2580 01:38:44,070 --> 01:38:42,080 tonight 2581 01:38:45,830 --> 01:38:44,080 what is it what is it about what is it 2582 01:38:47,189 --> 01:38:45,840 about the southern 2583 01:38:49,270 --> 01:38:47,199 hemisphere of 2584 01:38:51,669 --> 01:38:49,280 i don't know the site the southern 2585 01:38:53,189 --> 01:38:51,679 portion of the united states yes that 2586 01:38:54,709 --> 01:38:53,199 that's like 2587 01:38:56,950 --> 01:38:54,719 there's just nice people like 2588 01:38:59,270 --> 01:38:56,960 everybody's kind of chill you know like 2589 01:39:02,950 --> 01:38:59,280 wha why is it do you think it's just 2590 01:39:04,550 --> 01:39:02,960 less people more spread out or like 2591 01:39:06,470 --> 01:39:04,560 you're not on top of each other like in 2592 01:39:08,390 --> 01:39:06,480 new york city maybe 2593 01:39:10,310 --> 01:39:08,400 where you're like hey your dog [\h__\h] on 2594 01:39:12,470 --> 01:39:10,320 my shoes this morning it's because 2595 01:39:15,189 --> 01:39:12,480 nobody wanted to build railroads to come 2596 01:39:17,270 --> 01:39:15,199 down here so everything stayed slow 2597 01:39:19,270 --> 01:39:17,280 we hung out with everybody we had to 2598 01:39:21,830 --> 01:39:19,280 make our own food we had to share it 2599 01:39:23,990 --> 01:39:21,840 with mom and paul we had to do our own 2600 01:39:26,950 --> 01:39:24,000 thing you know nobody was transporting 2601 01:39:28,870 --> 01:39:26,960 goods down to grocery stores around here 2602 01:39:30,470 --> 01:39:28,880 you know the first thing they did was 2603 01:39:32,629 --> 01:39:30,480 build them all the way to the west 2604 01:39:34,790 --> 01:39:32,639 because that's where the gold was until 2605 01:39:36,870 --> 01:39:34,800 they found oil down here and that's when 2606 01:39:38,830 --> 01:39:36,880 everybody became interested in the south 2607 01:39:41,030 --> 01:39:38,840 right was because of the oil 2608 01:39:43,669 --> 01:39:41,040 so why uh 2609 01:39:47,590 --> 01:39:43,679 i think with my family if they 2610 01:39:49,590 --> 01:39:47,600 there's no [\h__\h] and it's straight up 2611 01:39:51,510 --> 01:39:49,600 and i got that from them i didn't know i 2612 01:39:53,990 --> 01:39:51,520 got that from them until i was much 2613 01:39:55,590 --> 01:39:54,000 older when i was around a lot of 2614 01:39:57,830 --> 01:39:55,600 different people and i go you know i 2615 01:39:59,270 --> 01:39:57,840 like the ones that tell it straight up 2616 01:40:01,189 --> 01:39:59,280 that's the kind of people i want to hang 2617 01:40:02,229 --> 01:40:01,199 out with because that to do that you 2618 01:40:05,109 --> 01:40:02,239 have to be 2619 01:40:07,430 --> 01:40:05,119 based on truth right and integrity 2620 01:40:10,709 --> 01:40:07,440 and that was important when i was raised 2621 01:40:12,870 --> 01:40:10,719 that that a man or woman 2622 01:40:15,030 --> 01:40:12,880 were known by their word my word is my 2623 01:40:16,070 --> 01:40:15,040 bond i still unlike that 2624 01:40:18,149 --> 01:40:16,080 you know 2625 01:40:20,629 --> 01:40:18,159 something that we can't lose 2626 01:40:22,390 --> 01:40:20,639 in our society i think we would we would 2627 01:40:25,109 --> 01:40:22,400 be in a really bad place 2628 01:40:26,149 --> 01:40:25,119 to lose that i i want to build on top of 2629 01:40:27,990 --> 01:40:26,159 that 2630 01:40:31,189 --> 01:40:28,000 barbara like like 2631 01:40:33,590 --> 01:40:31,199 you you've definitely been to uh 2632 01:40:44,629 --> 01:40:33,600 can we say a different 2633 01:40:50,149 --> 01:40:48,070 uh so like there's there's this theme 2634 01:40:52,470 --> 01:40:50,159 that i've uh kind of paid attention to 2635 01:40:54,550 --> 01:40:52,480 and i just want to know is this 2636 01:40:56,550 --> 01:40:54,560 something that you felt in your 2637 01:40:59,189 --> 01:40:56,560 experience where there there are no 2638 01:41:02,629 --> 01:40:59,199 secrets it's it's literally just 2639 01:41:05,430 --> 01:41:02,639 whatever is put out from your brain 2640 01:41:07,590 --> 01:41:05,440 is understood by the other entity and 2641 01:41:10,870 --> 01:41:07,600 and i don't know if that's that that 2642 01:41:12,149 --> 01:41:10,880 connects with you uh in any way 2643 01:41:14,629 --> 01:41:12,159 is that is that something you could 2644 01:41:16,629 --> 01:41:14,639 speak on to like 2645 01:41:19,510 --> 01:41:16,639 when when i was when i had the 2646 01:41:20,390 --> 01:41:19,520 near-death experience i can go i'll go 2647 01:41:23,350 --> 01:41:20,400 up 2648 01:41:25,750 --> 01:41:23,360 i'll go past that when i first met the 2649 01:41:27,030 --> 01:41:25,760 the the being the he called himself the 2650 01:41:28,149 --> 01:41:27,040 guardian right 2651 01:41:29,910 --> 01:41:28,159 and 2652 01:41:32,550 --> 01:41:29,920 um i want to back up for a second though 2653 01:41:35,189 --> 01:41:32,560 that's okay i went into blissed-out 2654 01:41:37,350 --> 01:41:35,199 state there is no time by the way okay i 2655 01:41:39,030 --> 01:41:37,360 went into blissed-out state i went into 2656 01:41:42,709 --> 01:41:39,040 this warm 2657 01:41:44,709 --> 01:41:42,719 undulating water of love and i was in it 2658 01:41:47,430 --> 01:41:44,719 and it was me and i was it and there was 2659 01:41:49,590 --> 01:41:47,440 so much love there it's beyond a 2660 01:41:51,030 --> 01:41:49,600 father's love for a child for your baby 2661 01:41:53,350 --> 01:41:51,040 for your daughter you don't think there 2662 01:41:56,149 --> 01:41:53,360 could ever be more love than that i know 2663 01:41:59,430 --> 01:41:56,159 i have three of them and but there is 2664 01:42:02,550 --> 01:41:59,440 there was and and i was in it i was 2665 01:42:05,910 --> 01:42:02,560 so blown away by it by that much love 2666 01:42:06,950 --> 01:42:05,920 that i was a part of and then i i looked 2667 01:42:09,189 --> 01:42:06,960 down 2668 01:42:11,350 --> 01:42:09,199 and i became one with everything you 2669 01:42:13,750 --> 01:42:11,360 just you just you're one with everything 2670 01:42:15,669 --> 01:42:13,760 you just totally become one so you don't 2671 01:42:18,310 --> 01:42:15,679 exist anymore but you're one with 2672 01:42:20,470 --> 01:42:18,320 everything and then i looked down 2673 01:42:22,229 --> 01:42:20,480 and i looked and i didn't have a body 2674 01:42:24,390 --> 01:42:22,239 but i still existed 2675 01:42:27,910 --> 01:42:24,400 and how was that possible and in that 2676 01:42:30,310 --> 01:42:27,920 moment my i just totally lost it my 2677 01:42:32,950 --> 01:42:30,320 brain totally expanded right my 2678 01:42:35,270 --> 01:42:32,960 consciousness totally expanded and and 2679 01:42:37,750 --> 01:42:35,280 in that split second that i looked down 2680 01:42:39,109 --> 01:42:37,760 i didn't have a body yet i still existed 2681 01:42:40,950 --> 01:42:39,119 and all my 2682 01:42:43,270 --> 01:42:40,960 all my codons went 2683 01:42:45,350 --> 01:42:43,280 you know like all over the place right 2684 01:42:48,310 --> 01:42:45,360 all the synopsis are going everywhere 2685 01:42:50,229 --> 01:42:48,320 and then i find myself the next spot was 2686 01:42:52,550 --> 01:42:50,239 on a spaceship 2687 01:42:54,950 --> 01:42:52,560 and i never been on i had never been on 2688 01:42:57,109 --> 01:42:54,960 a spaceship before that i know of 2689 01:42:59,109 --> 01:42:57,119 um but i i did have an experience when i 2690 01:43:02,470 --> 01:42:59,119 was 12 but that's a whole another story 2691 01:43:04,950 --> 01:43:02,480 but so so i'm on the spaceship and i'm 2692 01:43:07,270 --> 01:43:04,960 in like a dentist's chair what was my 2693 01:43:09,270 --> 01:43:07,280 best uh description of it where you're 2694 01:43:12,149 --> 01:43:09,280 leaning back a little bit the soft brown 2695 01:43:15,350 --> 01:43:12,159 and mahogany accent to it right oh i 2696 01:43:17,510 --> 01:43:15,360 love that description 2697 01:43:19,990 --> 01:43:17,520 designer so i mean i know all those 2698 01:43:21,830 --> 01:43:20,000 little details right and i guess 2699 01:43:24,470 --> 01:43:21,840 the feeling of everything i'm a feely 2700 01:43:25,910 --> 01:43:24,480 person so i'm kind of kicked back my 2701 01:43:28,229 --> 01:43:25,920 feet are up 2702 01:43:29,830 --> 01:43:28,239 and i find myself in a circular room and 2703 01:43:31,510 --> 01:43:29,840 it's a spaceship and 2704 01:43:33,189 --> 01:43:31,520 and how do i know it's a spaceship 2705 01:43:35,830 --> 01:43:33,199 because it's a knowingness that it's a 2706 01:43:38,229 --> 01:43:35,840 spaceship i had seen old older movies 2707 01:43:41,590 --> 01:43:38,239 that showed it but but i was definitely 2708 01:43:42,870 --> 01:43:41,600 there and i find myself in this space 2709 01:43:44,229 --> 01:43:42,880 but i look down and i still don't have 2710 01:43:46,390 --> 01:43:44,239 the body 2711 01:43:48,870 --> 01:43:46,400 but i still exist isn't that weird but i 2712 01:43:49,990 --> 01:43:48,880 can feel the weight my weight in the 2713 01:43:51,750 --> 01:43:50,000 chair 2714 01:43:54,310 --> 01:43:51,760 but i don't hold the body 2715 01:43:55,350 --> 01:43:54,320 and so i'm thinking well you know 2716 01:43:57,030 --> 01:43:55,360 uh 2717 01:43:59,590 --> 01:43:57,040 and here's comes this big guy about 2718 01:44:00,550 --> 01:43:59,600 eight feet tall square shoulders white 2719 01:44:03,830 --> 01:44:00,560 robe 2720 01:44:06,070 --> 01:44:03,840 big hood i can't see his face at all and 2721 01:44:07,669 --> 01:44:06,080 he starts coming towards me i don't know 2722 01:44:08,709 --> 01:44:07,679 i can't see down so i can't see his feet 2723 01:44:10,310 --> 01:44:08,719 or flip 2724 01:44:11,830 --> 01:44:10,320 or what he's if he's walking or what 2725 01:44:15,109 --> 01:44:11,840 he's doing but it's very graceful 2726 01:44:18,070 --> 01:44:15,119 towards me and that first telepathic 2727 01:44:20,310 --> 01:44:18,080 uh communication was pure 2728 01:44:21,189 --> 01:44:20,320 and i was a hundred percent present 2729 01:44:22,790 --> 01:44:21,199 there 2730 01:44:25,350 --> 01:44:22,800 a hundred percent i wasn't thinking 2731 01:44:28,870 --> 01:44:25,360 about my kids i have three kids you know 2732 01:44:31,430 --> 01:44:28,880 i wasn't there at all i was full 100 2733 01:44:34,070 --> 01:44:31,440 focused in what was going down 2734 01:44:35,189 --> 01:44:34,080 and i was totally he totally we had this 2735 01:44:36,950 --> 01:44:35,199 total 2736 01:44:39,189 --> 01:44:36,960 uh connection and he said he was the 2737 01:44:41,510 --> 01:44:39,199 guardian he was there to help me to 2738 01:44:43,750 --> 01:44:41,520 communicate with this group of beings 2739 01:44:45,270 --> 01:44:43,760 that he's going to introduce me to and 2740 01:44:47,350 --> 01:44:45,280 that was his job 2741 01:44:50,550 --> 01:44:47,360 and so so then i go on all these 2742 01:44:52,629 --> 01:44:50,560 different places of experiences in on 2743 01:44:54,709 --> 01:44:52,639 one on the spaceship and then i go out 2744 01:44:57,669 --> 01:44:54,719 of the spaceship and then i go to these 2745 01:45:00,229 --> 01:44:57,679 different places of experiences 2746 01:45:02,950 --> 01:45:00,239 so you've you've you've experienced 2747 01:45:05,189 --> 01:45:02,960 communication on a level 2748 01:45:06,149 --> 01:45:05,199 there that 2749 01:45:08,790 --> 01:45:06,159 i don't know 2750 01:45:11,350 --> 01:45:08,800 can you say it exists in an auditory 2751 01:45:13,109 --> 01:45:11,360 realm or is it 2752 01:45:15,189 --> 01:45:13,119 how do you describe that like do you 2753 01:45:17,109 --> 01:45:15,199 hear the words or do you just know the 2754 01:45:19,510 --> 01:45:17,119 words like they're just in your head 2755 01:45:21,430 --> 01:45:19,520 different it's a it's um 2756 01:45:24,229 --> 01:45:21,440 it's a different way of communication 2757 01:45:25,750 --> 01:45:24,239 and in itself it's a communication 2758 01:45:27,430 --> 01:45:25,760 so that's why i have trouble with the 2759 01:45:28,229 --> 01:45:27,440 words for it it had 2760 01:45:30,950 --> 01:45:28,239 um 2761 01:45:33,030 --> 01:45:30,960 it's it's telepathic it's you guys do it 2762 01:45:34,950 --> 01:45:33,040 all the time you do it with your baby 2763 01:45:36,629 --> 01:45:34,960 you do it with your wife you do it with 2764 01:45:38,629 --> 01:45:36,639 the phone you do with all kinds of 2765 01:45:41,350 --> 01:45:38,639 things but this is very different when i 2766 01:45:42,870 --> 01:45:41,360 was there i was 100 100 2767 01:45:44,790 --> 01:45:42,880 there totally 2768 01:45:47,109 --> 01:45:44,800 in that present moment and i think 2769 01:45:48,870 --> 01:45:47,119 that's a gift they gave me later that 2770 01:45:51,430 --> 01:45:48,880 we're always so busy and so ahead of 2771 01:45:54,390 --> 01:45:51,440 ourselves that just to take that moment 2772 01:45:57,510 --> 01:45:54,400 like this moment and really have this 2773 01:45:59,910 --> 01:45:57,520 moment yeah like 100 2774 01:46:03,030 --> 01:45:59,920 really have this because it's 2775 01:46:04,550 --> 01:46:03,040 pretty awesome yes 2776 01:46:08,390 --> 01:46:04,560 so let me 2777 01:46:09,430 --> 01:46:08,400 like order for everybody that's 2778 01:46:11,750 --> 01:46:09,440 listening 2779 01:46:14,550 --> 01:46:11,760 so you you 2780 01:46:16,070 --> 01:46:14,560 we go to this this point right to where 2781 01:46:18,070 --> 01:46:16,080 you feel like you're having this asthma 2782 01:46:19,830 --> 01:46:18,080 attack somebody comes and helps you they 2783 01:46:21,990 --> 01:46:19,840 they bring you inside they put you in a 2784 01:46:24,390 --> 01:46:22,000 chair you remember everything up to this 2785 01:46:27,270 --> 01:46:24,400 point to where the pain becomes so bad 2786 01:46:30,550 --> 01:46:27,280 that you just go out of body right 2787 01:46:32,790 --> 01:46:30,560 people remember this this uh this entity 2788 01:46:35,590 --> 01:46:32,800 right and then uh you you have these 2789 01:46:37,590 --> 01:46:35,600 experiences of this this thor being 2790 01:46:40,229 --> 01:46:37,600 coming down and saying 2791 01:46:42,310 --> 01:46:40,239 not today right you know i don't 2792 01:46:44,070 --> 01:46:42,320 experience that everyone else does i 2793 01:46:45,910 --> 01:46:44,080 don't have a memory of that right you 2794 01:46:47,830 --> 01:46:45,920 don't have to remember yeah everybody 2795 01:46:50,229 --> 01:46:47,840 else does and that's what i find 2796 01:46:53,109 --> 01:46:50,239 fascinating that's so cool but then you 2797 01:46:56,310 --> 01:46:53,119 go into this place of just like oh 2798 01:46:58,790 --> 01:46:56,320 yes you feel so good right but you were 2799 01:47:00,950 --> 01:46:58,800 describing how like you just don't 2800 01:47:04,470 --> 01:47:00,960 you can't even comprehend the kind of 2801 01:47:06,950 --> 01:47:04,480 love unless you've experienced it right 2802 01:47:09,510 --> 01:47:06,960 and from this point then you move into 2803 01:47:11,189 --> 01:47:09,520 the ship like was 2804 01:47:13,830 --> 01:47:11,199 so i i think this is kind of where i'm 2805 01:47:16,790 --> 01:47:13,840 going like what are these transitions 2806 01:47:18,870 --> 01:47:16,800 like are they just like instant boom i'm 2807 01:47:20,709 --> 01:47:18,880 there 2808 01:47:22,870 --> 01:47:20,719 you're having like a whole new 2809 01:47:25,590 --> 01:47:22,880 experience you're having to soak it in 2810 01:47:26,950 --> 01:47:25,600 right yeah you're you're with this being 2811 01:47:29,109 --> 01:47:26,960 in this chair 2812 01:47:31,030 --> 01:47:29,119 he's communicating with you 2813 01:47:32,390 --> 01:47:31,040 and then from there you go out and 2814 01:47:34,310 --> 01:47:32,400 because you know he's gonna be your 2815 01:47:36,629 --> 01:47:34,320 guide he's the guy who's gonna introduce 2816 01:47:37,590 --> 01:47:36,639 you to these other beings and you go out 2817 01:47:41,830 --> 01:47:37,600 and you 2818 01:47:44,149 --> 01:47:41,840 realms yeah right and so this is like 2819 01:47:46,149 --> 01:47:44,159 why i was saying in the book this exact 2820 01:47:47,590 --> 01:47:46,159 part where i was like i needed to go 2821 01:47:50,070 --> 01:47:47,600 back because i feel like i skipped a 2822 01:47:52,550 --> 01:47:50,080 page or something but it's not it's an 2823 01:47:55,350 --> 01:47:52,560 instant like boom i'm here 2824 01:47:59,030 --> 01:47:55,360 boom i'm there and boom i'm somewhere 2825 01:48:02,390 --> 01:47:59,040 else yeah one of my favorite parts is is 2826 01:48:05,910 --> 01:48:02,400 uh when you're talking about the green 2827 01:48:08,070 --> 01:48:05,920 the green everywhere green's my favorite 2828 01:48:09,109 --> 01:48:08,080 color so i was like really drawn to that 2829 01:48:11,109 --> 01:48:09,119 portion 2830 01:48:14,070 --> 01:48:11,119 i learned something about the green 2831 01:48:15,189 --> 01:48:14,080 since then oh really yeah you're gonna 2832 01:48:18,070 --> 01:48:15,199 love this 2833 01:48:20,310 --> 01:48:18,080 okay all right you ready for this okay 2834 01:48:22,550 --> 01:48:20,320 so he takes me out of the ship and we're 2835 01:48:25,990 --> 01:48:22,560 we're flying over green in these 2836 01:48:28,629 --> 01:48:26,000 mountains of lush green hills the most 2837 01:48:30,470 --> 01:48:28,639 beautiful green you could ever imagine 2838 01:48:32,629 --> 01:48:30,480 it's not emerald green it's not a blue 2839 01:48:34,629 --> 01:48:32,639 green it's just these greens that are 2840 01:48:36,390 --> 01:48:34,639 like not technicolor they're even better 2841 01:48:38,709 --> 01:48:36,400 than technicolor so you don't have to do 2842 01:48:40,550 --> 01:48:38,719 drugs okay and i think what you know 2843 01:48:43,750 --> 01:48:40,560 that picked a color boom boom boom and 2844 01:48:45,430 --> 01:48:43,760 so i'm i'm just in my the love of this 2845 01:48:48,229 --> 01:48:45,440 the love of this land there were no 2846 01:48:50,070 --> 01:48:48,239 buildings no humans no anything but the 2847 01:48:52,149 --> 01:48:50,080 appreciation for the beauty they wanted 2848 01:48:53,990 --> 01:48:52,159 to make sure i got that 2849 01:48:55,430 --> 01:48:54,000 and i think for me i thought at the time 2850 01:48:57,350 --> 01:48:55,440 i was going through divorce so maybe 2851 01:48:59,590 --> 01:48:57,360 they were healing my heart brings that 2852 01:49:01,830 --> 01:48:59,600 heart chakra but but what i found out 2853 01:49:03,990 --> 01:49:01,840 later this has been pretty recently 2854 01:49:06,310 --> 01:49:04,000 because this is a gift that keeps on 2855 01:49:08,629 --> 01:49:06,320 giving the nde you know it's just i've 2856 01:49:10,870 --> 01:49:08,639 been trying to unravel this for 30 years 2857 01:49:12,709 --> 01:49:10,880 so yes but you know so you don't go 2858 01:49:15,270 --> 01:49:12,719 crazy with it that you can just kind of 2859 01:49:17,109 --> 01:49:15,280 unravel it gently with yourself so i'm 2860 01:49:19,430 --> 01:49:17,119 i'm at um 2861 01:49:23,350 --> 01:49:19,440 okay how do i say this let's see i find 2862 01:49:25,270 --> 01:49:23,360 myself at a sasquatch conference wow yes 2863 01:49:27,030 --> 01:49:25,280 okay and i was speaking and that's a 2864 01:49:29,030 --> 01:49:27,040 whole another story because i don't know 2865 01:49:31,669 --> 01:49:29,040 you know and so but i had some 2866 01:49:34,310 --> 01:49:31,679 experiences with sasquatch right i love 2867 01:49:36,149 --> 01:49:34,320 that you were at a sasquatch conference 2868 01:49:37,510 --> 01:49:36,159 like people out there that are new to 2869 01:49:39,910 --> 01:49:37,520 this stuff like 2870 01:49:41,430 --> 01:49:39,920 it applies he it does 2871 01:49:43,990 --> 01:49:41,440 the the 2872 01:49:47,669 --> 01:49:44,000 look it applies 2873 01:49:48,629 --> 01:49:47,679 it does i know it sounds disjointed 2874 01:49:51,990 --> 01:49:48,639 it's not 2875 01:49:53,270 --> 01:49:52,000 there's a connection it's all connected 2876 01:49:54,950 --> 01:49:53,280 so i love that you were there i just 2877 01:49:57,350 --> 01:49:54,960 wanted it the only thing i've learned 2878 01:49:58,709 --> 01:49:57,360 all of it is connected 2879 01:50:00,629 --> 01:49:58,719 well here i'll tell you what my kids 2880 01:50:02,950 --> 01:50:00,639 said about that i have three amazing 2881 01:50:05,189 --> 01:50:02,960 kids and they said mom we finally 2882 01:50:06,950 --> 01:50:05,199 finally got us okay with the e.t ufos 2883 01:50:08,830 --> 01:50:06,960 and all the people and now you get a 2884 01:50:13,189 --> 01:50:08,840 freaking bring in 2885 01:50:14,629 --> 01:50:13,199 sasquatch holy crap that's not fair 2886 01:50:16,070 --> 01:50:14,639 they said are you sure you want to do 2887 01:50:17,350 --> 01:50:16,080 that you're going to discredit all the 2888 01:50:20,470 --> 01:50:17,360 work that you've done for all these 2889 01:50:23,430 --> 01:50:20,480 years and i go it is what it is yeah and 2890 01:50:25,189 --> 01:50:23,440 i'm i'm up for it i'm going to do this 2891 01:50:28,390 --> 01:50:25,199 because i was asked to do it so i'm 2892 01:50:30,310 --> 01:50:28,400 going to do it so i'm flying um and i 2893 01:50:33,270 --> 01:50:30,320 can't see my body we're going back to 2894 01:50:34,870 --> 01:50:33,280 the with my uh guardian and we're over 2895 01:50:37,910 --> 01:50:34,880 these hills and 2896 01:50:40,790 --> 01:50:37,920 they're the guardians of this you know 2897 01:50:44,149 --> 01:50:40,800 of of our nature of our of our 2898 01:50:45,990 --> 01:50:44,159 of our of our earth and one of the uh 2899 01:50:48,229 --> 01:50:46,000 jonos is one of the first things they 2900 01:50:50,310 --> 01:50:48,239 showed me was a relationship with our 2901 01:50:53,430 --> 01:50:50,320 gaia with our mother earth and that our 2902 01:50:56,629 --> 01:50:53,440 heartbeats beat the same exact beat 2903 01:50:57,669 --> 01:50:56,639 that of the um native drum 2904 01:50:59,750 --> 01:50:57,679 and that 2905 01:51:01,910 --> 01:50:59,760 we're her and she's us 2906 01:51:03,990 --> 01:51:01,920 and that was a blow mind for me at that 2907 01:51:06,750 --> 01:51:04,000 time i just cried like a baby but i'm a 2908 01:51:09,030 --> 01:51:06,760 crier it's just you know is that that 2909 01:51:11,430 --> 01:51:09,040 7.83 hertz 2910 01:51:13,990 --> 01:51:11,440 i don't know you know it could be i have 2911 01:51:15,189 --> 01:51:14,000 no idea that would be something you guys 2912 01:51:18,550 --> 01:51:15,199 might know 2913 01:51:22,550 --> 01:51:18,560 or 432 hertz or the 8 hertz i have no 2914 01:51:24,229 --> 01:51:22,560 idea but i know that we have it and 2915 01:51:25,350 --> 01:51:24,239 we are synced 2916 01:51:27,430 --> 01:51:25,360 humans 2917 01:51:29,270 --> 01:51:27,440 yeah to the earth that's why they talk 2918 01:51:32,070 --> 01:51:29,280 about taking your shoes off and like 2919 01:51:35,109 --> 01:51:32,080 grounding with the earth because you'll 2920 01:51:36,629 --> 01:51:35,119 have we have the same frequency 2921 01:51:39,270 --> 01:51:36,639 vibration 2922 01:51:40,550 --> 01:51:39,280 so the heartbeat is interesting yeah i 2923 01:51:42,790 --> 01:51:40,560 didn't mean to interrupt i just wanted 2924 01:51:44,790 --> 01:51:42,800 to back back that up 2925 01:51:47,510 --> 01:51:44,800 and so that it's that green part that 2926 01:51:49,350 --> 01:51:47,520 protection of that right of our forest 2927 01:51:51,430 --> 01:51:49,360 and our environment because if it was 2928 01:51:53,669 --> 01:51:51,440 left to us we would have probably i 2929 01:51:56,229 --> 01:51:53,679 don't and i i do want to say that people 2930 01:51:57,750 --> 01:51:56,239 are good people if we're left alone i 2931 01:51:59,669 --> 01:51:57,760 think we are like the hobbits we just 2932 01:52:01,750 --> 01:51:59,679 want to be with our families to love 2933 01:52:04,470 --> 01:52:01,760 everybody and take care of the land and 2934 01:52:06,709 --> 01:52:04,480 do all of that we're not bad people i'm 2935 01:52:09,189 --> 01:52:06,719 tired of people saying how we've you 2936 01:52:12,950 --> 01:52:09,199 know raped the land and pillaged this 2937 01:52:16,629 --> 01:52:12,960 and didn't take care of that and me too 2938 01:52:19,030 --> 01:52:16,639 bad people you are me too much [\h__\h] 2939 01:52:21,750 --> 01:52:19,040 because we're not we're loving giving 2940 01:52:23,750 --> 01:52:21,760 kind caring people there's enough of us 2941 01:52:25,510 --> 01:52:23,760 okay there we're here 2942 01:52:28,790 --> 01:52:25,520 and and we're changing things while 2943 01:52:31,350 --> 01:52:28,800 we're here and so in that green 2944 01:52:34,390 --> 01:52:31,360 um again with that love part that love 2945 01:52:36,790 --> 01:52:34,400 connection so later um with the whole 2946 01:52:39,350 --> 01:52:36,800 sasquatch connection 2947 01:52:41,189 --> 01:52:39,360 um is the guardians and so i had this 2948 01:52:43,589 --> 01:52:41,199 whole thing happen i won't go into all 2949 01:52:45,830 --> 01:52:43,599 of that but it's where in the third 2950 01:52:46,790 --> 01:52:45,840 dimension it's it's either white or 2951 01:52:49,270 --> 01:52:46,800 black 2952 01:52:51,669 --> 01:52:49,280 and no in between and i think that the 2953 01:52:54,070 --> 01:52:51,679 sasquatch have kept that green alive 2954 01:52:55,189 --> 01:52:54,080 this whole time 2955 01:53:01,750 --> 01:52:55,199 yes 2956 01:53:07,189 --> 01:53:04,070 it's just black and gray and thanks to 2957 01:53:11,750 --> 01:53:07,199 sasquatch we still have some green 2958 01:53:12,709 --> 01:53:11,760 the green i love that dude 2959 01:53:16,950 --> 01:53:12,719 okay 2960 01:53:19,030 --> 01:53:16,960 it's like fire because of that because 2961 01:53:21,589 --> 01:53:19,040 the guardian aspect of it right like 2962 01:53:23,270 --> 01:53:21,599 yeah would you if 2963 01:53:25,350 --> 01:53:23,280 let's let's 2964 01:53:27,669 --> 01:53:25,360 let's do a thought experiment s3 real 2965 01:53:30,390 --> 01:53:27,679 quick if we were to create a planet just 2966 01:53:32,790 --> 01:53:30,400 for fun and to like just to see how much 2967 01:53:36,390 --> 01:53:32,800 love we can produce right 2968 01:53:38,550 --> 01:53:36,400 we need a guardian because 2969 01:53:40,870 --> 01:53:38,560 there's some sort of 2970 01:53:42,709 --> 01:53:40,880 of law there's got to be some sort of 2971 01:53:44,390 --> 01:53:42,719 law to keep things 2972 01:53:46,229 --> 01:53:44,400 and balance there's like this bubble 2973 01:53:48,950 --> 01:53:46,239 right this beautiful bubble trying to 2974 01:53:49,990 --> 01:53:48,960 keep those oils and like soaps in right 2975 01:53:52,550 --> 01:53:50,000 like 2976 01:53:55,990 --> 01:53:52,560 there's got to be something that can 2977 01:53:57,270 --> 01:53:56,000 that can make that happen and maybe 2978 01:53:59,830 --> 01:53:57,280 earth 2979 01:54:02,790 --> 01:53:59,840 it's not some element or some 2980 01:54:05,669 --> 01:54:02,800 light being maybe it is i don't know 2981 01:54:07,430 --> 01:54:05,679 maybe for earth there's little uh little 2982 01:54:08,870 --> 01:54:07,440 agents that 2983 01:54:11,189 --> 01:54:08,880 and maybe they're not little i mean 2984 01:54:13,910 --> 01:54:11,199 they're like 11 tall right 2985 01:54:19,109 --> 01:54:16,709 like that's exactly what what we need 2986 01:54:22,390 --> 01:54:19,119 though like we can't as humans 2987 01:54:24,790 --> 01:54:22,400 i feel like the most powerful uh 2988 01:54:26,950 --> 01:54:24,800 moment of change that that i i could 2989 01:54:27,750 --> 01:54:26,960 have is to see something like bigfoot 2990 01:54:33,350 --> 01:54:27,760 not 2991 01:54:36,149 --> 01:54:33,360 or light or ghost or whatever if i'm 2992 01:54:38,870 --> 01:54:36,159 gonna change what i'm doing like if i'm 2993 01:54:41,300 --> 01:54:38,880 gonna change the way i see the world i 2994 01:54:42,470 --> 01:54:41,310 need to see some 11 foot tall 2995 01:54:44,950 --> 01:54:42,480 [Laughter] 2996 01:54:46,790 --> 01:54:44,960 big full guy be like hey 2997 01:54:48,870 --> 01:54:46,800 you're [\h__\h] up and then run away real 2998 01:54:50,470 --> 01:54:48,880 fast yeah like this is the guardian of 2999 01:54:52,470 --> 01:54:50,480 the green dude 3000 01:54:53,430 --> 01:54:52,480 you're making too much trash and you 3001 01:54:57,990 --> 01:54:53,440 stink 3002 01:55:00,229 --> 01:54:58,000 and then runs away 3003 01:55:02,790 --> 01:55:00,239 no no one believes me uh 3004 01:55:06,310 --> 01:55:02,800 that's what i want dude any any time a 3005 01:55:08,390 --> 01:55:06,320 bigfoot conversation comes up 3006 01:55:10,470 --> 01:55:08,400 barbara i'm gonna have to steal that for 3007 01:55:12,790 --> 01:55:10,480 every bigfoot conversation that comes up 3008 01:55:15,669 --> 01:55:12,800 please do i i got it i just it was a 3009 01:55:17,109 --> 01:55:15,679 gift to me in meditation so that's and i 3010 01:55:19,750 --> 01:55:17,119 got it through ikealian working with 3011 01:55:21,750 --> 01:55:19,760 another healer but also something that 3012 01:55:24,229 --> 01:55:21,760 came to me just lately with the 3013 01:55:26,470 --> 01:55:24,239 sasquatch actually just today uh with 3014 01:55:30,550 --> 01:55:26,480 the sasquatch is that i've heard a lot 3015 01:55:33,990 --> 01:55:30,560 of talk about that they're protecting 3016 01:55:36,229 --> 01:55:34,000 the forest against us 3017 01:55:37,750 --> 01:55:36,239 but really they're protecting it as a 3018 01:55:38,950 --> 01:55:37,760 gift for us 3019 01:55:40,149 --> 01:55:38,960 um 3020 01:55:44,470 --> 01:55:40,159 yeah 3021 01:55:45,990 --> 01:55:44,480 doesn't it it makes more sense because 3022 01:55:46,790 --> 01:55:46,000 you know my whole thing was always like 3023 01:55:48,550 --> 01:55:46,800 well 3024 01:55:50,870 --> 01:55:48,560 you know people were like oh people go 3025 01:55:52,310 --> 01:55:50,880 missing and like you know like there's 3026 01:55:54,870 --> 01:55:52,320 all this like negative stuff that 3027 01:55:57,270 --> 01:55:54,880 surrounds sasquatch but you know you can 3028 01:55:59,510 --> 01:55:57,280 get a lot of the positive stuff too like 3029 01:56:01,430 --> 01:55:59,520 these gifting sites and things like that 3030 01:56:02,950 --> 01:56:01,440 for sasquatch but like 3031 01:56:04,470 --> 01:56:02,960 for me i've always felt that way i'm 3032 01:56:06,229 --> 01:56:04,480 always like well 3033 01:56:08,229 --> 01:56:06,239 you're in his home i mean it's where he 3034 01:56:10,149 --> 01:56:08,239 lives you know what i'm saying like 3035 01:56:11,910 --> 01:56:10,159 literally in his living room when people 3036 01:56:13,350 --> 01:56:11,920 are like oh there's so many bugs out 3037 01:56:15,589 --> 01:56:13,360 here it's like well i mean they live 3038 01:56:17,270 --> 01:56:15,599 here you don't like you know what i'm 3039 01:56:18,390 --> 01:56:17,280 saying 3040 01:56:20,310 --> 01:56:18,400 this keeps you getting all these 3041 01:56:21,910 --> 01:56:20,320 mosquitoes on me well what do you do 3042 01:56:23,589 --> 01:56:21,920 when a mosquito goes in your house you 3043 01:56:25,030 --> 01:56:23,599 try to get rid of it do you not they're 3044 01:56:27,589 --> 01:56:25,040 doing the exact same thing trying to get 3045 01:56:29,669 --> 01:56:27,599 rid of you from messing up their home 3046 01:56:33,990 --> 01:56:29,679 yeah 3047 01:56:36,550 --> 01:56:34,000 and it's funny with me i'm not i'm not a 3048 01:56:39,189 --> 01:56:36,560 woodsy person at all i'm one of those 3049 01:56:41,030 --> 01:56:39,199 ones where i think wherever i come from 3050 01:56:42,470 --> 01:56:41,040 and people always ask me what planet do 3051 01:56:44,149 --> 01:56:42,480 you come from and i go well i don't 3052 01:56:46,550 --> 01:56:44,159 think l.a 3053 01:56:49,109 --> 01:56:46,560 i know 3054 01:56:51,109 --> 01:56:49,119 i'm at the foot of a mountain though 3055 01:56:53,109 --> 01:56:51,119 i'm in a good place yeah it is i get a 3056 01:56:56,470 --> 01:56:53,119 lot of slack for that you probably 3057 01:56:58,470 --> 01:56:56,480 you've probably seen some mountain lions 3058 01:57:00,390 --> 01:56:58,480 forgiveness you know i won't group you 3059 01:57:02,550 --> 01:57:00,400 in with them i promise yeah 3060 01:57:04,229 --> 01:57:02,560 and it's a very creative hub 3061 01:57:06,470 --> 01:57:04,239 if you live in the mountains barbara i 3062 01:57:07,669 --> 01:57:06,480 mean like my cousin actually lives in 3063 01:57:09,830 --> 01:57:07,679 l.a and 3064 01:57:12,470 --> 01:57:09,840 he's seen melans like you're not just 3065 01:57:15,830 --> 01:57:12,480 living in i saw a bobcat just three days 3066 01:57:17,510 --> 01:57:15,840 ago it's not it's in our thing yeah it's 3067 01:57:19,270 --> 01:57:17,520 all right we have bears that we take 3068 01:57:21,589 --> 01:57:19,280 care of the whole community takes care 3069 01:57:23,510 --> 01:57:21,599 of a mama bear and her and her three 3070 01:57:25,990 --> 01:57:23,520 babies and then there's another mama 3071 01:57:28,550 --> 01:57:26,000 bear in her babies too 3072 01:57:30,310 --> 01:57:28,560 what you're saying is that uh los 3073 01:57:36,550 --> 01:57:30,320 angeles 3074 01:57:39,910 --> 01:57:36,560 anyway y'all aren't like totally 3075 01:57:41,510 --> 01:57:39,920 disconnected from nature right like 3076 01:57:43,830 --> 01:57:41,520 and you know i was really meant to be 3077 01:57:45,510 --> 01:57:43,840 here and i didn't know why and so not 3078 01:57:46,950 --> 01:57:45,520 that i do everything that spirit tells 3079 01:57:48,950 --> 01:57:46,960 me i usually argue with them a lot 3080 01:57:50,629 --> 01:57:48,960 before i do something but they said you 3081 01:57:52,870 --> 01:57:50,639 know you really need to come to la 3082 01:57:54,870 --> 01:57:52,880 that's i don't really want to go to l.a 3083 01:57:56,950 --> 01:57:54,880 but my son was here and so that really 3084 01:57:58,870 --> 01:57:56,960 helped bring me here but 3085 01:58:00,229 --> 01:57:58,880 i think i'm here for all these other 3086 01:58:03,189 --> 01:58:00,239 reasons too 3087 01:58:05,350 --> 01:58:03,199 and so it's interesting to kind of go 3088 01:58:07,430 --> 01:58:05,360 with that flow of that so yeah i'm 3089 01:58:08,149 --> 01:58:07,440 patrolled so much i kind of let go with 3090 01:58:09,030 --> 01:58:08,159 it 3091 01:58:10,310 --> 01:58:09,040 um 3092 01:58:13,270 --> 01:58:10,320 but there was something i was going to 3093 01:58:15,910 --> 01:58:13,280 say about the sasquatch and the green oh 3094 01:58:17,589 --> 01:58:15,920 well i live in like on my i live on a 3095 01:58:19,589 --> 01:58:17,599 spaceship if you really ask me what 3096 01:58:22,470 --> 01:58:19,599 planet i come from i don't i live in 3097 01:58:23,990 --> 01:58:22,480 this huge ass spaceship that has the 3098 01:58:25,990 --> 01:58:24,000 right to go wherever they want to go 3099 01:58:27,350 --> 01:58:26,000 whenever they want to go if they feel 3100 01:58:29,270 --> 01:58:27,360 like going there 3101 01:58:31,510 --> 01:58:29,280 and i'm with that group 3102 01:58:32,830 --> 01:58:31,520 so it's so cool i want to know more 3103 01:58:34,550 --> 01:58:32,840 about 3104 01:58:37,669 --> 01:58:34,560 that 3105 01:58:40,149 --> 01:58:37,679 and so so i i go with them and i work 3106 01:58:41,270 --> 01:58:40,159 with them and and that's a whole nother 3107 01:58:42,310 --> 01:58:41,280 thing but 3108 01:58:49,350 --> 01:58:42,320 um 3109 01:58:52,470 --> 01:58:49,360 just going to say it's one of my 3110 01:58:53,589 --> 01:58:52,480 favorite numbers but you don't look it 3111 01:58:55,510 --> 01:58:53,599 uh 3112 01:58:58,950 --> 01:58:55,520 you know i i'm just going to say just 3113 01:59:01,030 --> 01:58:58,960 your your vibe and your energy is is is 3114 01:59:03,430 --> 01:59:01,040 it's a beautiful thing um 3115 01:59:05,750 --> 01:59:03,440 and i just love meeting people like 3116 01:59:07,750 --> 01:59:05,760 yourself that have kind of 3117 01:59:09,589 --> 01:59:07,760 well that have been through 3118 01:59:11,430 --> 01:59:09,599 i've been through it i have you know my 3119 01:59:13,669 --> 01:59:11,440 where they talk war stories i talk uh 3120 01:59:15,750 --> 01:59:13,679 love stories i guess 3121 01:59:18,229 --> 01:59:15,760 i mean we've got enough 3122 01:59:19,149 --> 01:59:18,239 hate and and and 3123 01:59:21,750 --> 01:59:19,159 uh 3124 01:59:24,470 --> 01:59:21,760 disassociation we've got enough of that 3125 01:59:25,510 --> 01:59:24,480 in the news and our content we've got 3126 01:59:27,430 --> 01:59:25,520 enough 3127 01:59:31,030 --> 01:59:27,440 of that can we just like throw in some 3128 01:59:32,790 --> 01:59:31,040 love every now and then like some 3129 01:59:34,390 --> 01:59:32,800 that's what i've done for seven years on 3130 01:59:35,830 --> 01:59:34,400 my show you know and i got a lot of 3131 01:59:38,550 --> 01:59:35,840 slack for it 3132 01:59:40,629 --> 01:59:38,560 yeah yeah like everybody's gonna point 3133 01:59:43,270 --> 01:59:40,639 out something wrong with something yeah 3134 01:59:44,950 --> 01:59:43,280 and and it's definitely like that's the 3135 01:59:46,550 --> 01:59:44,960 uh you know when people talk about 3136 01:59:48,550 --> 01:59:46,560 everything that's happening right now 3137 01:59:50,550 --> 01:59:48,560 and there's like a paradigm shift that's 3138 01:59:52,310 --> 01:59:50,560 that's occurring like 3139 01:59:54,149 --> 01:59:52,320 that's one thing that's always left out 3140 01:59:56,310 --> 01:59:54,159 of the conversation is 3141 01:59:58,149 --> 01:59:56,320 the amount of positivity 3142 02:00:01,270 --> 01:59:58,159 that is going to be included with this 3143 02:00:03,990 --> 02:00:01,280 whole shift i think is is going to be 3144 02:00:06,550 --> 02:00:04,000 fascinating because you know like we're 3145 02:00:08,950 --> 02:00:06,560 all so like just especially with these 3146 02:00:09,910 --> 02:00:08,960 past couple years i mean we have just 3147 02:00:11,750 --> 02:00:09,920 been 3148 02:00:12,390 --> 02:00:11,760 beaten down 3149 02:00:15,669 --> 02:00:12,400 to 3150 02:00:20,310 --> 02:00:15,679 the negative uh just aspect of stuff and 3151 02:00:21,910 --> 02:00:20,320 i'm a huge talk radio person like i love 3152 02:00:25,350 --> 02:00:21,920 the most boring 3153 02:00:27,910 --> 02:00:25,360 uh you know just talk radio news radio 3154 02:00:29,589 --> 02:00:27,920 whatever it is right but i i've noticed 3155 02:00:32,229 --> 02:00:29,599 like over the past year like 3156 02:00:36,470 --> 02:00:32,239 i've literally just cut it off like i 3157 02:00:39,109 --> 02:00:36,480 can't i can't do it anymore my body 3158 02:00:41,910 --> 02:00:39,119 physically can't handle it 3159 02:00:44,149 --> 02:00:41,920 anymore like i'm so sick of it 3160 02:00:45,910 --> 02:00:44,159 that you know like there's there's you 3161 02:00:48,229 --> 02:00:45,920 know 3162 02:00:51,030 --> 02:00:48,239 yeah there's a time and a place but we 3163 02:00:54,550 --> 02:00:51,040 live in literally one of the greatest 3164 02:00:57,990 --> 02:00:54,560 times the world has ever seen can we get 3165 02:01:00,310 --> 02:00:58,000 over the negative nitpicky [\h__\h] for 3166 02:01:02,390 --> 02:01:00,320 a while can we move on to something 3167 02:01:04,709 --> 02:01:02,400 really awesome there's a lot of amazing 3168 02:01:06,390 --> 02:01:04,719 stuff happening right now and you know i 3169 02:01:08,709 --> 02:01:06,400 hate when people are like oh these are 3170 02:01:10,950 --> 02:01:08,719 the end times man like the world's going 3171 02:01:13,030 --> 02:01:10,960 to crap and blah blah blah and it's like 3172 02:01:14,709 --> 02:01:13,040 you're just not paying attention you're 3173 02:01:17,030 --> 02:01:14,719 only paying attention to what they're 3174 02:01:18,790 --> 02:01:17,040 feeding you there are so many like we're 3175 02:01:20,709 --> 02:01:18,800 having this conversation right now with 3176 02:01:23,109 --> 02:01:20,719 you barbara yeah there's so many 3177 02:01:25,030 --> 02:01:23,119 beautiful people out in this world time 3178 02:01:27,669 --> 02:01:25,040 for you to go searching it's time for 3179 02:01:29,430 --> 02:01:27,679 you to go on your own journey and like 3180 02:01:31,589 --> 02:01:29,440 when i was saying earlier about like i'm 3181 02:01:34,149 --> 02:01:31,599 ready to take this journey you know i'm 3182 02:01:36,229 --> 02:01:34,159 ready to go and move on like this is a 3183 02:01:38,709 --> 02:01:36,239 big part of it just meeting people like 3184 02:01:40,950 --> 02:01:38,719 you and and talking to people like you 3185 02:01:43,910 --> 02:01:40,960 and like just other experiencers whether 3186 02:01:45,910 --> 02:01:43,920 it be bigfoot or near death or alien or 3187 02:01:48,629 --> 02:01:45,920 whatever like i said like one thing that 3188 02:01:50,070 --> 02:01:48,639 i've kind of you know assumed throughout 3189 02:01:53,430 --> 02:01:50,080 this whole thing is they are all 3190 02:01:54,870 --> 02:01:53,440 connected in some way and a lot of this 3191 02:01:56,229 --> 02:01:54,880 you know 3192 02:01:58,470 --> 02:01:56,239 especially like when it comes to like 3193 02:02:00,950 --> 02:01:58,480 the et stuff there's a lot of negative 3194 02:02:03,109 --> 02:02:00,960 stuff that kind of comes out there's so 3195 02:02:04,629 --> 02:02:03,119 much positivity and i feel like you know 3196 02:02:06,390 --> 02:02:04,639 maybe some of the negative stuff is just 3197 02:02:09,189 --> 02:02:06,400 like a misunderstanding 3198 02:02:11,669 --> 02:02:09,199 coming from that fear portion um that 3199 02:02:13,750 --> 02:02:11,679 we're all so used to tapping into 3200 02:02:15,669 --> 02:02:13,760 because it's like i'm scared i don't 3201 02:02:17,750 --> 02:02:15,679 know what it is so therefore i'm i'm 3202 02:02:19,270 --> 02:02:17,760 terrified now 3203 02:02:22,550 --> 02:02:19,280 you get the stories we're like yeah i 3204 02:02:24,070 --> 02:02:22,560 was cut in half and like okay you know 3205 02:02:26,470 --> 02:02:24,080 i can't argue with that you know what 3206 02:02:28,390 --> 02:02:26,480 i'm saying like i was i was poked or 3207 02:02:30,470 --> 02:02:28,400 stabbed or like you know they took my 3208 02:02:32,629 --> 02:02:30,480 insides out and then they put them back 3209 02:02:35,189 --> 02:02:32,639 i can't argue with that and not even 3210 02:02:37,350 --> 02:02:35,199 going there yeah but for me personally 3211 02:02:38,629 --> 02:02:37,360 like if i were to if i were to see 3212 02:02:39,830 --> 02:02:38,639 something me and ben have talked about 3213 02:02:42,550 --> 02:02:39,840 this if i were to see something in the 3214 02:02:45,350 --> 02:02:42,560 corner of my room at night time and i'm 3215 02:02:47,669 --> 02:02:45,360 fully aware i'm going to be so scared 3216 02:02:51,030 --> 02:02:47,679 right but that doesn't necessarily mean 3217 02:02:53,830 --> 02:02:51,040 that's a fear type of moment right it's 3218 02:02:56,470 --> 02:02:53,840 just my misunderstanding of what that is 3219 02:02:57,830 --> 02:02:56,480 so there's a lot of beautiful stuff 3220 02:03:00,070 --> 02:02:57,840 behind this 3221 02:03:01,510 --> 02:03:00,080 and i think it's it's it's important 3222 02:03:04,629 --> 02:03:01,520 that we kind of 3223 02:03:06,709 --> 02:03:04,639 start to focus on the beautiful stuff 3224 02:03:09,589 --> 02:03:06,719 you know instead of this this this 3225 02:03:11,430 --> 02:03:09,599 mountain of feces that we have seemed to 3226 02:03:13,830 --> 02:03:11,440 build for ourselves 3227 02:03:15,669 --> 02:03:13,840 uh over the past few years it's just so 3228 02:03:18,629 --> 02:03:15,679 negative and it's just like bringing 3229 02:03:21,030 --> 02:03:18,639 everybody down like the amount of hate 3230 02:03:24,070 --> 02:03:21,040 that you see on the internet is 3231 02:03:25,430 --> 02:03:24,080 sickening it's absolutely sickening i i 3232 02:03:26,470 --> 02:03:25,440 can't even 3233 02:03:28,149 --> 02:03:26,480 you know 3234 02:03:31,030 --> 02:03:28,159 facebook and all that stuff like you 3235 02:03:32,950 --> 02:03:31,040 know ben's got tick tock and and then he 3236 02:03:36,149 --> 02:03:32,960 he tweets and and all kinds of stuff 3237 02:03:37,109 --> 02:03:36,159 like that i [\h__\h] i don't i lit 3238 02:03:39,669 --> 02:03:37,119 yeah 3239 02:03:41,350 --> 02:03:39,679 i literally had to stop at facebook just 3240 02:03:42,790 --> 02:03:41,360 because 3241 02:03:45,030 --> 02:03:42,800 i don't know part of me just doesn't 3242 02:03:47,109 --> 02:03:45,040 care and the other part of me is like oh 3243 02:03:49,510 --> 02:03:47,119 it's gonna be the same thing just on 3244 02:03:52,069 --> 02:03:49,520 other platforms like what's the point 3245 02:03:53,510 --> 02:03:52,079 you know so i could speak a lot to that 3246 02:03:55,750 --> 02:03:53,520 joe but like 3247 02:03:58,229 --> 02:03:55,760 dude i get it you follow it you get 3248 02:04:00,709 --> 02:03:58,239 algorithms that provide you positivity 3249 02:04:02,629 --> 02:04:00,719 in your life i get it dude you know 3250 02:04:04,709 --> 02:04:02,639 i'll the weird thing is i only 3251 02:04:06,310 --> 02:04:04,719 understand certain algorithms as long as 3252 02:04:07,589 --> 02:04:06,320 i'm on the toilet 3253 02:04:10,550 --> 02:04:07,599 yes 3254 02:04:11,830 --> 02:04:10,560 give me the time to think yeah dude 3255 02:04:13,430 --> 02:04:11,840 we're like 3256 02:04:15,750 --> 02:04:13,440 but like i see where you're going with 3257 02:04:17,669 --> 02:04:15,760 that like barbara like what do you what 3258 02:04:20,550 --> 02:04:17,679 do you think like after 3259 02:04:23,350 --> 02:04:20,560 you you have such a a calm nature about 3260 02:04:26,790 --> 02:04:23,360 yourself this confidence what 3261 02:04:28,550 --> 02:04:26,800 for somebody who is that person spewing 3262 02:04:30,149 --> 02:04:28,560 out negativity on the internet just 3263 02:04:32,390 --> 02:04:30,159 because they have to stroke their 3264 02:04:34,310 --> 02:04:32,400 freaking ego like 3265 02:04:36,149 --> 02:04:34,320 what do you say to that person like do 3266 02:04:38,709 --> 02:04:36,159 you treat that person 3267 02:04:41,030 --> 02:04:38,719 with fire with fire do you do you scorch 3268 02:04:43,109 --> 02:04:41,040 it with with water or do you find some 3269 02:04:45,030 --> 02:04:43,119 other element that i probably don't 3270 02:04:46,790 --> 02:04:45,040 touch it i don't give it any of my 3271 02:04:49,589 --> 02:04:46,800 energy he's doing exactly what he's 3272 02:04:51,030 --> 02:04:49,599 doing so let him just do that he'll just 3273 02:04:52,470 --> 02:04:51,040 detract whoever he's supposed to attract 3274 02:04:54,790 --> 02:04:52,480 but he's not going to attract anything 3275 02:04:55,830 --> 02:04:54,800 from me now if he was in my front yard 3276 02:04:57,910 --> 02:04:55,840 doing that 3277 02:04:59,750 --> 02:04:57,920 that's a whole another thing right yeah 3278 02:05:02,310 --> 02:04:59,760 if he's in your front yard 3279 02:05:03,830 --> 02:05:02,320 like like urinating on your flower bed 3280 02:05:06,470 --> 02:05:03,840 like hey 3281 02:05:07,910 --> 02:05:06,480 then aim over okay 3282 02:05:10,229 --> 02:05:07,920 i'm about to call that bear that's 3283 02:05:12,470 --> 02:05:10,239 hanging out the southern roots kick in 3284 02:05:14,470 --> 02:05:12,480 then yes yes 3285 02:05:16,790 --> 02:05:14,480 hey we're friendly and we love everybody 3286 02:05:18,390 --> 02:05:16,800 but don't you stand on my goddamn yard 3287 02:05:21,189 --> 02:05:18,400 all right 3288 02:05:23,350 --> 02:05:21,199 grass 3289 02:05:25,589 --> 02:05:23,360 southerner knows how to form tackle 3290 02:05:28,629 --> 02:05:25,599 don't care if you ever know how to play 3291 02:05:30,629 --> 02:05:28,639 uh uh any lick a football you do know 3292 02:05:32,229 --> 02:05:30,639 how to take a bottle down i tell you you 3293 02:05:33,910 --> 02:05:32,239 do you do 3294 02:05:35,669 --> 02:05:33,920 yeah and then that's what my dad taught 3295 02:05:37,430 --> 02:05:35,679 me he goes don't take any [\h__\h] from 3296 02:05:39,910 --> 02:05:37,440 anybody that's 3297 02:05:42,229 --> 02:05:39,920 that's his biggest gift to me 3298 02:05:43,589 --> 02:05:42,239 don't take any [\h__\h] from anybody 3299 02:05:45,910 --> 02:05:43,599 you know i didn't think that was i 3300 02:05:49,109 --> 02:05:45,920 thought okay great thanks for that but 3301 02:05:52,709 --> 02:05:49,119 later on that made such sense to me as 3302 02:05:55,030 --> 02:05:52,719 you get older you know it did so so i 3303 02:05:55,990 --> 02:05:55,040 thanked him for that 3304 02:05:58,069 --> 02:05:56,000 so yeah 3305 02:06:00,550 --> 02:05:58,079 i love that like um 3306 02:06:03,109 --> 02:06:00,560 so like the the the 3307 02:06:04,629 --> 02:06:03,119 the idea that there's a lot of stuff 3308 02:06:06,709 --> 02:06:04,639 happening right now 3309 02:06:09,430 --> 02:06:06,719 um where 3310 02:06:12,229 --> 02:06:09,440 there's this side of of 3311 02:06:13,990 --> 02:06:12,239 i fall into this category of vindication 3312 02:06:17,669 --> 02:06:14,000 where like i've been in the ufos and 3313 02:06:20,790 --> 02:06:17,679 aliens for a really long time yeah i 3314 02:06:23,189 --> 02:06:20,800 might not know the exact dates on like 3315 02:06:25,189 --> 02:06:23,199 crashes or retrievals or like cover-ups 3316 02:06:28,390 --> 02:06:25,199 and stuff but like we have a pretty good 3317 02:06:31,430 --> 02:06:28,400 idea right we just love the i we just 3318 02:06:32,149 --> 02:06:31,440 love this topic and we have so much fun 3319 02:06:33,189 --> 02:06:32,159 so 3320 02:06:35,990 --> 02:06:33,199 uh 3321 02:06:40,149 --> 02:06:36,000 when this negativity comes 3322 02:06:42,069 --> 02:06:40,159 awry where where somebody's like hey 3323 02:06:44,550 --> 02:06:42,079 you didn't get this wrong 3324 02:06:47,189 --> 02:06:44,560 what what can somebody 3325 02:06:50,149 --> 02:06:47,199 how do you how do you like redirect that 3326 02:06:52,149 --> 02:06:50,159 energy where this negativity comes out 3327 02:06:54,310 --> 02:06:52,159 like i feel like you've been beyond the 3328 02:06:56,950 --> 02:06:54,320 void and back like 3329 02:07:00,790 --> 02:06:56,960 there's this instead of saying ha i told 3330 02:07:06,149 --> 02:07:00,800 you how do you turn that into a yes 3331 02:07:11,990 --> 02:07:08,310 or do they just deserve the ha i told 3332 02:07:14,229 --> 02:07:12,000 you you know yeah yeah yeah it's kind of 3333 02:07:16,310 --> 02:07:14,239 um 3334 02:07:19,510 --> 02:07:16,320 i let him just have it you know what i 3335 02:07:22,870 --> 02:07:19,520 mean i just let him have it yeah i don't 3336 02:07:25,270 --> 02:07:22,880 okay here's the deal okay i don't engage 3337 02:07:26,790 --> 02:07:25,280 unless i want to engage 3338 02:07:29,589 --> 02:07:26,800 so i have the freedom or the choice to 3339 02:07:31,430 --> 02:07:29,599 engage or not now if i'm in a good mood 3340 02:07:34,069 --> 02:07:31,440 i probably wouldn't engage but if i want 3341 02:07:37,350 --> 02:07:34,079 to engage i will and it's not for fun 3342 02:07:39,589 --> 02:07:37,360 like a cat with a ba a ball of yarn 3343 02:07:41,589 --> 02:07:39,599 you know because that could be karmic so 3344 02:07:45,030 --> 02:07:41,599 i am careful 3345 02:07:47,589 --> 02:07:45,040 not to create any karma with anybody but 3346 02:07:49,430 --> 02:07:47,599 uh but you can you know 3347 02:07:51,109 --> 02:07:49,440 um 3348 02:07:54,629 --> 02:07:51,119 and i think there's responsibility and 3349 02:07:56,149 --> 02:07:54,639 so however anybody is in their beingness 3350 02:07:58,709 --> 02:07:56,159 they're right where they're where 3351 02:08:00,229 --> 02:07:58,719 they're meant to be and and i get i have 3352 02:08:03,270 --> 02:08:00,239 a choice to either 3353 02:08:04,470 --> 02:08:03,280 um and i always try to respect where 3354 02:08:06,310 --> 02:08:04,480 they are 3355 02:08:09,750 --> 02:08:06,320 wherever that is 3356 02:08:11,430 --> 02:08:09,760 with the experience they're having 3357 02:08:12,229 --> 02:08:11,440 that is so important 3358 02:08:15,350 --> 02:08:12,239 like 3359 02:08:17,189 --> 02:08:15,360 that's the best answer 3360 02:08:19,990 --> 02:08:17,199 did i even ask a question but that was 3361 02:08:24,149 --> 02:08:20,000 the best that was the best answer 3362 02:08:25,430 --> 02:08:24,159 yes sorry yeah maybe i didn't actually i 3363 02:08:29,510 --> 02:08:25,440 don't know 3364 02:08:32,870 --> 02:08:29,520 okay so i i have a dd like my brain 3365 02:08:35,270 --> 02:08:32,880 12 different that makes you a beautiful 3366 02:08:37,589 --> 02:08:35,280 you know adds gift 3367 02:08:39,189 --> 02:08:37,599 but uh you answered kind of my thought 3368 02:08:40,870 --> 02:08:39,199 is like like 3369 02:08:41,750 --> 02:08:40,880 i think a lot of this 3370 02:08:43,990 --> 02:08:41,760 uh 3371 02:08:45,910 --> 02:08:44,000 where people kind of speak out and and 3372 02:08:48,550 --> 02:08:45,920 are conflicted they're just confused and 3373 02:08:50,709 --> 02:08:48,560 they need some direction okay you know 3374 02:08:52,229 --> 02:08:50,719 you just thought of the story okay when 3375 02:08:55,109 --> 02:08:52,239 you're talking now okay let's go let's 3376 02:08:58,310 --> 02:08:55,119 go and i want i i'll change it a little 3377 02:09:00,629 --> 02:08:58,320 bit to protect the innocent okay 3378 02:09:02,709 --> 02:09:00,639 i know these are the best ones it's not 3379 02:09:04,069 --> 02:09:02,719 it's not about joe yeah it's not about 3380 02:09:07,750 --> 02:09:04,079 you or 3381 02:09:13,669 --> 02:09:11,430 and so and he hadn't had his hair cut 3382 02:09:15,270 --> 02:09:13,679 yeah 3383 02:09:18,709 --> 02:09:15,280 thank you for noticing barbara even 3384 02:09:21,669 --> 02:09:18,719 barbara noticed her hair 3385 02:09:23,990 --> 02:09:21,679 yeah so i'm at this funeral right 3386 02:09:25,750 --> 02:09:24,000 and i'm the one that actually uh 3387 02:09:27,750 --> 02:09:25,760 performed this particular funeral 3388 02:09:29,830 --> 02:09:27,760 because i'm a spiritual minister all 3389 02:09:31,910 --> 02:09:29,840 these years i've married people and bury 3390 02:09:32,950 --> 02:09:31,920 people and baptize people and all that 3391 02:09:35,830 --> 02:09:32,960 and so 3392 02:09:38,709 --> 02:09:35,840 so i'm at this funeral and 3393 02:09:41,189 --> 02:09:38,719 and i have this man come towards me well 3394 02:09:43,270 --> 02:09:41,199 i can read what he's going to say to me 3395 02:09:46,950 --> 02:09:43,280 he's going to say to me you don't have 3396 02:09:49,510 --> 02:09:46,960 the right to perform that you're this or 3397 02:09:52,390 --> 02:09:49,520 that or whatever his righteousness 3398 02:09:55,350 --> 02:09:52,400 whatever his judgment is he is so right 3399 02:09:57,990 --> 02:09:55,360 and so judgmental and so in it he's like 3400 02:10:01,669 --> 02:09:58,000 a little whirlwind that's all around him 3401 02:10:03,830 --> 02:10:01,679 that's going to come kill me right yeah 3402 02:10:06,470 --> 02:10:03,840 so he starts coming at me and no one 3403 02:10:08,130 --> 02:10:06,480 else is around and so i look at him and 3404 02:10:15,400 --> 02:10:08,140 i go 3405 02:10:15,410 --> 02:10:20,950 [Music] 3406 02:10:24,790 --> 02:10:22,870 oh wait here's the second part of it i 3407 02:10:27,830 --> 02:10:24,800 didn't throw any energy with it because 3408 02:10:29,669 --> 02:10:27,840 you can say fu with no energy and then 3409 02:10:32,229 --> 02:10:29,679 you could say f you with energy and 3410 02:10:33,350 --> 02:10:32,239 there's two different things there okay 3411 02:10:36,470 --> 02:10:33,360 yes 3412 02:10:37,990 --> 02:10:36,480 so i didn't put any energy behind it 3413 02:10:39,990 --> 02:10:38,000 but i had to do that because i didn't 3414 02:10:41,669 --> 02:10:40,000 want to engage with them 3415 02:10:43,589 --> 02:10:41,679 i feel like uh 3416 02:10:45,109 --> 02:10:43,599 we were best friends in a past life 3417 02:10:48,229 --> 02:10:45,119 barbara because that's what that's what 3418 02:10:54,790 --> 02:10:51,350 if there are no words we're like 3419 02:10:54,800 --> 02:11:09,510 oh 3420 02:11:14,149 --> 02:11:11,830 anyway she just hits at me or what 3421 02:11:17,830 --> 02:11:14,159 [\h__\h] is that me dude 3422 02:11:20,310 --> 02:11:17,840 i i am full of no energy fuse 3423 02:11:25,350 --> 02:11:20,320 like it's ridiculous how many i have 3424 02:11:29,589 --> 02:11:27,669 maybe that's a gift that was given just 3425 02:11:31,910 --> 02:11:29,599 hey you're just full of 3426 02:11:35,510 --> 02:11:31,920 no energy fuse 3427 02:11:37,669 --> 02:11:35,520 i i feel like joe do i know 3428 02:11:38,629 --> 02:11:37,679 we've hung out so much we're like you'll 3429 02:11:40,790 --> 02:11:38,639 say 3430 02:11:44,390 --> 02:11:40,800 like hey good morning and i know that 3431 02:11:46,870 --> 02:11:44,400 you actually mean like [\h__\h] you dude 3432 02:11:47,669 --> 02:11:46,880 not to me but like you know like 3433 02:11:52,069 --> 02:11:47,679 just 3434 02:11:54,069 --> 02:11:52,079 morning time 3435 02:11:55,270 --> 02:11:54,079 that that's how i i know like maybe i 3436 02:11:57,830 --> 02:11:55,280 was a a 3437 02:12:00,870 --> 02:11:57,840 a liar at one point because i was like i 3438 02:12:02,550 --> 02:12:00,880 like to sleep i'm a cat 3439 02:12:05,910 --> 02:12:02,560 yeah i don't do any reading until after 3440 02:12:08,310 --> 02:12:05,920 11 o'clock oh dude that's probably good 3441 02:12:09,910 --> 02:12:08,320 that's probably good man 3442 02:12:11,270 --> 02:12:09,920 so barbara 3443 02:12:11,990 --> 02:12:11,280 getting kind of back 3444 02:12:16,390 --> 02:12:12,000 to 3445 02:12:18,790 --> 02:12:16,400 we have we have your guide who's guiding 3446 02:12:20,390 --> 02:12:18,800 you yeah and his purpose is to show you 3447 02:12:21,830 --> 02:12:20,400 these things and to like 3448 02:12:23,830 --> 02:12:21,840 help you uh 3449 02:12:26,229 --> 02:12:23,840 introduce you to 3450 02:12:28,149 --> 02:12:26,239 to these other beings can you can you 3451 02:12:31,109 --> 02:12:28,159 describe a little bit about these other 3452 02:12:33,510 --> 02:12:31,119 beings that you were introduced to yeah 3453 02:12:37,270 --> 02:12:33,520 the first group of beings were behind a 3454 02:12:39,430 --> 02:12:37,280 big plexiglass plate or a glass plate 3455 02:12:41,510 --> 02:12:39,440 and i think later that their energy was 3456 02:12:43,510 --> 02:12:41,520 different like they hooked up 3457 02:12:45,750 --> 02:12:43,520 to where i was and their energy was a 3458 02:12:47,589 --> 02:12:45,760 different vibration right than where i 3459 02:12:50,550 --> 02:12:47,599 and the guardian were because i came 3460 02:12:52,390 --> 02:12:50,560 from earth are usually our our uh 3461 02:12:54,709 --> 02:12:52,400 vibrations pretty low 3462 02:12:57,510 --> 02:12:54,719 you know well i don't mean that in any a 3463 02:13:00,149 --> 02:12:57,520 negative it is what it is right so they 3464 02:13:02,709 --> 02:13:00,159 their vibration is very different and so 3465 02:13:04,870 --> 02:13:02,719 um so he raised he did this with his 3466 02:13:07,030 --> 02:13:04,880 hand and then the light went on and i 3467 02:13:09,189 --> 02:13:07,040 didn't count them i always wish that i 3468 02:13:11,990 --> 02:13:09,199 would have but i didn't i i don't know 3469 02:13:14,870 --> 02:13:12,000 how many beings were there 10 11 12 13 3470 02:13:16,870 --> 02:13:14,880 uh behind this plexiglas plate and 3471 02:13:18,470 --> 02:13:16,880 there's like fat ones skinny ones 3472 02:13:20,790 --> 02:13:18,480 there's tall ones they're short ones but 3473 02:13:23,030 --> 02:13:20,800 they all have the same white robe on 3474 02:13:25,350 --> 02:13:23,040 and they all i can't see their faces and 3475 02:13:27,270 --> 02:13:25,360 i thought god they go like some discount 3476 02:13:42,470 --> 02:13:27,280 store where they're getting like these 3477 02:13:46,310 --> 02:13:44,390 what's up with that that's my first 3478 02:13:49,189 --> 02:13:46,320 thought it's what's up with that i've 3479 02:13:51,109 --> 02:13:49,199 never thought about that that's amazing 3480 02:13:53,350 --> 02:13:51,119 i did if there's other people out there 3481 02:13:55,510 --> 02:13:53,360 i'm sure they relate with that and so to 3482 02:13:58,229 --> 02:13:55,520 sort of jumping up and down and they 3483 02:13:59,350 --> 02:13:58,239 they telepath among themselves and then 3484 02:14:01,669 --> 02:13:59,360 they all 3485 02:14:03,350 --> 02:14:01,679 relax at the same time and their energy 3486 02:14:05,750 --> 02:14:03,360 becomes one 3487 02:14:07,510 --> 02:14:05,760 and they tell their one being 3488 02:14:09,750 --> 02:14:07,520 then to tell 3489 02:14:10,950 --> 02:14:09,760 my guardian they tell him and then he 3490 02:14:12,629 --> 02:14:10,960 tells me 3491 02:14:15,109 --> 02:14:12,639 and then that's how the communication 3492 02:14:16,790 --> 02:14:15,119 was and so what they decided then i 3493 02:14:20,950 --> 02:14:16,800 think they would decide if i was worth 3494 02:14:22,470 --> 02:14:20,960 it or not i don't need to send her back 3495 02:14:24,229 --> 02:14:22,480 trying to decide i don't know what 3496 02:14:27,589 --> 02:14:24,239 they're deciding but they decided to 3497 02:14:28,790 --> 02:14:27,599 keep me in and so then i have the next 3498 02:14:31,350 --> 02:14:28,800 experience 3499 02:14:34,229 --> 02:14:31,360 was with the earth itself and the drum 3500 02:14:36,550 --> 02:14:34,239 beat and being one with her and i go 3501 02:14:37,750 --> 02:14:36,560 into that in detail and then we fly up 3502 02:14:40,069 --> 02:14:37,760 out of the ship i didn't know we could 3503 02:14:42,390 --> 02:14:40,079 do that we go to the mounds of green and 3504 02:14:43,910 --> 02:14:42,400 then the third thing we do so he looks 3505 02:14:46,229 --> 02:14:43,920 at me when he looks at me 3506 02:14:47,430 --> 02:14:46,239 there's i don't see his face but i it's 3507 02:14:50,310 --> 02:14:47,440 a um 3508 02:14:52,310 --> 02:14:50,320 a telepath and then just like that i'm 3509 02:14:55,109 --> 02:14:52,320 having a different experience so we're 3510 02:14:57,189 --> 02:14:55,119 walking up these large steps out i don't 3511 02:14:58,790 --> 02:14:57,199 know why but i know they're alabaster 3512 02:15:00,709 --> 02:14:58,800 and they're lit from underneath we walk 3513 02:15:02,629 --> 02:15:00,719 up these stairs and then i look and 3514 02:15:05,430 --> 02:15:02,639 we're floating in the cosmos with stars 3515 02:15:06,830 --> 02:15:05,440 all around us and there's this big huge 3516 02:15:16,790 --> 02:15:06,840 um 3517 02:15:19,109 --> 02:15:16,800 beautiful outstanding and so i go up 3518 02:15:21,990 --> 02:15:19,119 there and there's a group of beings on 3519 02:15:24,950 --> 02:15:22,000 the inside of this big ring of columns 3520 02:15:26,870 --> 02:15:24,960 and they all have the same outfits on i 3521 02:15:28,870 --> 02:15:26,880 swear i don't know what's up with that 3522 02:15:31,430 --> 02:15:28,880 and and but they're the big ones like my 3523 02:15:33,270 --> 02:15:31,440 guardian they're all big big with the 3524 02:15:34,950 --> 02:15:33,280 big square shoulders and and they're 3525 02:15:37,189 --> 02:15:34,960 holding hands so when i come up to them 3526 02:15:40,069 --> 02:15:37,199 they open their hand and i click with 3527 02:15:42,709 --> 02:15:40,079 them and when i do i i i come into their 3528 02:15:46,709 --> 02:15:42,719 synergy field and and they're doing like 3529 02:15:47,910 --> 02:15:46,719 a guttural like that uh tibetan 3530 02:15:52,470 --> 02:15:47,920 oh cool 3531 02:15:58,790 --> 02:15:56,069 yes like the who you know yeah i love 3532 02:16:01,189 --> 02:15:58,800 them okay yeah that band's great that's 3533 02:16:08,629 --> 02:16:01,199 a great band i love it and we're talking 3534 02:16:11,830 --> 02:16:10,950 and so i'm with them and then in the 3535 02:16:14,069 --> 02:16:11,840 middle 3536 02:16:17,350 --> 02:16:14,079 is another column coming up 3537 02:16:19,510 --> 02:16:17,360 and it has a circle top and there's a 3538 02:16:21,189 --> 02:16:19,520 hologram of the mother earth 3539 02:16:23,189 --> 02:16:21,199 and she's rotating slightly and there's 3540 02:16:24,069 --> 02:16:23,199 these white vapors coming down off of 3541 02:16:26,470 --> 02:16:24,079 her 3542 02:16:28,950 --> 02:16:26,480 and they tell me that their name are the 3543 02:16:32,629 --> 02:16:28,960 watchers they're the watchers and their 3544 02:16:34,790 --> 02:16:32,639 job is to protect the earth and that 3545 02:16:37,349 --> 02:16:34,800 they will they've always done it they 3546 02:16:39,990 --> 02:16:37,359 will always do it and that 3547 02:16:41,429 --> 02:16:40,000 i can relax in that knowingness and that 3548 02:16:44,230 --> 02:16:41,439 i'm a part of them 3549 02:16:46,950 --> 02:16:44,240 and so and i could always go back there 3550 02:16:49,110 --> 02:16:46,960 so i've gone back there with meditation 3551 02:16:51,669 --> 02:16:49,120 for myself for a while and i did take 3552 02:16:54,790 --> 02:16:51,679 groups there as well to see what their 3553 02:16:58,150 --> 02:16:54,800 experiences would be but um so then i'm 3554 02:17:00,070 --> 02:16:58,160 having that and i'm stepping back and 3555 02:17:02,870 --> 02:17:00,080 then my garden looks at me and then it's 3556 02:17:04,389 --> 02:17:02,880 time to the next thing so so the next 3557 02:17:07,589 --> 02:17:04,399 one i go on 3558 02:17:10,790 --> 02:17:07,599 um this uh it's like a spaceship itself 3559 02:17:12,469 --> 02:17:10,800 but i'm on the inside and i go on these 3560 02:17:14,389 --> 02:17:12,479 stairs and i have the guardian to the 3561 02:17:15,509 --> 02:17:14,399 left and it's like a big ambassador 3562 02:17:17,509 --> 02:17:15,519 party 3563 02:17:19,830 --> 02:17:17,519 lots lots of people there's kind of jazz 3564 02:17:22,150 --> 02:17:19,840 music and it's kind of tripped out 3565 02:17:24,549 --> 02:17:22,160 because it's victorian it looks 3566 02:17:26,309 --> 02:17:24,559 victorian wayne's coding with black and 3567 02:17:29,270 --> 02:17:26,319 white checkered floor 3568 02:17:30,629 --> 02:17:29,280 and big big you know big trees but 3569 02:17:33,429 --> 02:17:30,639 they're not really green they have kind 3570 02:17:35,669 --> 02:17:33,439 of like a glittery like on them and 3571 02:17:37,669 --> 02:17:35,679 and then if you look up the skylights 3572 02:17:40,790 --> 02:17:37,679 open you can see all the stars but it's 3573 02:17:41,669 --> 02:17:40,800 way tall way way tall like a skyscraper 3574 02:17:44,070 --> 02:17:41,679 tall 3575 02:17:46,549 --> 02:17:44,080 and then um like a jeep guy who looks 3576 02:17:48,790 --> 02:17:46,559 like a jeeves with the white uh gloves 3577 02:17:51,270 --> 02:17:48,800 uh offers me he has his platter and he 3578 02:17:53,429 --> 02:17:51,280 offers me a drink and it's their little 3579 02:17:54,950 --> 02:17:53,439 tubes of vials of different colors i 3580 02:17:56,549 --> 02:17:54,960 don't remember right now i used to know 3581 02:17:59,190 --> 02:17:56,559 what color i took but i don't remember 3582 02:18:00,389 --> 02:17:59,200 now and so so i took the color i don't 3583 02:18:02,549 --> 02:18:00,399 think i ever really drank it but i 3584 02:18:05,429 --> 02:18:02,559 didn't see anyone eating anything but 3585 02:18:07,509 --> 02:18:05,439 they all talked and um they all telepath 3586 02:18:09,190 --> 02:18:07,519 to each other and they all had these 3587 02:18:10,549 --> 02:18:09,200 badges and i know you're gonna think 3588 02:18:12,070 --> 02:18:10,559 this is really hokey because i thought 3589 02:18:13,750 --> 02:18:12,080 it was really hokey 3590 02:18:15,750 --> 02:18:13,760 and the badge they would hit that and 3591 02:18:17,990 --> 02:18:15,760 that would put them into the speaking 3592 02:18:19,429 --> 02:18:18,000 they could speak the same language then 3593 02:18:21,669 --> 02:18:19,439 so they could communicate with each 3594 02:18:24,070 --> 02:18:21,679 other if they wanted to uh verbally 3595 02:18:26,230 --> 02:18:24,080 right and so there's this one guy who 3596 02:18:28,389 --> 02:18:26,240 came who looked like a teddy bear that 3597 02:18:31,110 --> 02:18:28,399 had a monocle and he wasn't robin 3598 02:18:34,150 --> 02:18:31,120 williams but but he was kind of like he 3599 02:18:36,709 --> 02:18:34,160 liked this teddy bear dude right and 3600 02:18:39,509 --> 02:18:36,719 one of their scholars and he 3601 02:18:42,709 --> 02:18:39,519 was really excited to see me because he 3602 02:18:44,790 --> 02:18:42,719 had studied about humans uh this is what 3603 02:18:46,790 --> 02:18:44,800 i got from him i don't know if it's true 3604 02:18:49,030 --> 02:18:46,800 but this is what i got from him and so 3605 02:18:51,669 --> 02:18:49,040 he was so excited to actually see a 3606 02:18:54,070 --> 02:18:51,679 human and to actually touch me and i 3607 02:18:56,309 --> 02:18:54,080 still look down i don't have a body but 3608 02:18:58,549 --> 02:18:56,319 everyone else can see my body they all 3609 02:19:01,110 --> 02:18:58,559 tell me i have a beautiful smile and i 3610 02:19:02,230 --> 02:19:01,120 go thank you and i you know i don't see 3611 02:19:05,110 --> 02:19:02,240 it at all 3612 02:19:07,509 --> 02:19:05,120 but but his he was i just remember him 3613 02:19:10,549 --> 02:19:07,519 being so kind of giddy like that he got 3614 02:19:13,190 --> 02:19:10,559 to see like a specimen that he studied 3615 02:19:15,990 --> 02:19:13,200 you know he got that's so awesome it was 3616 02:19:18,469 --> 02:19:16,000 kind of tripped out so in like a zoo but 3617 02:19:22,950 --> 02:19:18,479 i'm the it right yeah 3618 02:19:26,629 --> 02:19:24,389 because i want to make sure that i 3619 02:19:29,030 --> 02:19:26,639 remember exactly all the details that i 3620 02:19:31,349 --> 02:19:29,040 possibly can so i look off into the 3621 02:19:33,830 --> 02:19:31,359 distance and a beam catches my eye and 3622 02:19:36,790 --> 02:19:33,840 he has a tuxedo on and it has a pink 3623 02:19:39,429 --> 02:19:36,800 elephant head swear to god i don't make 3624 02:19:41,589 --> 02:19:39,439 this stuff up this is like what i saw 3625 02:19:44,230 --> 02:19:41,599 and i just wanted to remember to see 3626 02:19:46,230 --> 02:19:44,240 that um and then it's kind of crowded 3627 02:19:48,790 --> 02:19:46,240 and there's all kinds of people 3628 02:19:50,790 --> 02:19:48,800 and they were there to go to this big 3629 02:19:51,670 --> 02:19:50,800 circle place where they're going to all 3630 02:19:52,870 --> 02:19:51,680 talk 3631 02:19:55,110 --> 02:19:52,880 and um 3632 02:19:56,710 --> 02:19:55,120 communicate about um 3633 02:19:59,030 --> 02:19:56,720 they were like ambassadors where they 3634 02:20:00,710 --> 02:19:59,040 made solutions to different things and 3635 02:20:03,190 --> 02:20:00,720 talked about what's going on here what's 3636 02:20:05,110 --> 02:20:03,200 going on there and how they could help 3637 02:20:06,389 --> 02:20:05,120 each other and all this sort of thing so 3638 02:20:08,710 --> 02:20:06,399 it was like 3639 02:20:11,270 --> 02:20:08,720 an alignment uh 3640 02:20:13,190 --> 02:20:11,280 you know a federation shall we say yeah 3641 02:20:14,070 --> 02:20:13,200 like-minded souls that were keeping 3642 02:20:17,190 --> 02:20:14,080 peace 3643 02:20:18,550 --> 02:20:17,200 and that was their job and so right when 3644 02:20:20,389 --> 02:20:18,560 i'm just starting to hang out i'm really 3645 02:20:23,750 --> 02:20:20,399 having fun then he gives me the look and 3646 02:20:25,110 --> 02:20:23,760 then i have to go so then i spiral up i 3647 02:20:26,469 --> 02:20:25,120 don't know how much you want me to tell 3648 02:20:28,710 --> 02:20:26,479 you can tell me to stop whenever you 3649 02:20:31,830 --> 02:20:28,720 want to keep no i love it i love it 3650 02:20:34,710 --> 02:20:31,840 you're good so i spiral up and then the 3651 02:20:36,469 --> 02:20:34,720 next uh experiences with this group of 3652 02:20:37,990 --> 02:20:36,479 these women that are in these most 3653 02:20:39,429 --> 02:20:38,000 amazing dresses 3654 02:20:41,190 --> 02:20:39,439 joe your past life would really 3655 02:20:44,309 --> 02:20:41,200 appreciate this they're in these 3656 02:20:46,389 --> 02:20:44,319 gorgeous turquoise and lapis blues and 3657 02:20:49,190 --> 02:20:46,399 oranges and they're in silks and they 3658 02:20:51,910 --> 02:20:49,200 have enamel jewelry and they have uh 3659 02:20:56,389 --> 02:20:51,920 tiaras and headpieces my present life 3660 02:20:59,590 --> 02:20:58,630 joe enjoys a nice tiara 3661 02:21:02,230 --> 02:20:59,600 yeah 3662 02:21:05,670 --> 02:21:02,240 i have lots of them actually 3663 02:21:07,990 --> 02:21:05,680 yes yeah and so so their job with me is 3664 02:21:10,870 --> 02:21:08,000 all telepath and they sing in this 3665 02:21:11,750 --> 02:21:10,880 beautiful operatic voices 3666 02:21:13,750 --> 02:21:11,760 so 3667 02:21:16,550 --> 02:21:13,760 gorgeous just you know that where they 3668 02:21:19,110 --> 02:21:16,560 hit those pitches and you just go 3669 02:21:21,510 --> 02:21:19,120 like that you know and yeah 3670 02:21:22,469 --> 02:21:21,520 and so their job is for me to find my 3671 02:21:24,550 --> 02:21:22,479 voice 3672 02:21:26,950 --> 02:21:24,560 and so that they're they i can't leave 3673 02:21:30,630 --> 02:21:26,960 until i find my voice and like well my 3674 02:21:33,349 --> 02:21:30,640 voice is really low of a very alto voice 3675 02:21:36,150 --> 02:21:33,359 so they stayed until i could 3676 02:21:37,830 --> 02:21:36,160 could have that so i i finally let it go 3677 02:21:40,550 --> 02:21:37,840 and it's like the 3678 02:21:42,790 --> 02:21:40,560 the other guys kind of 3679 02:21:45,110 --> 02:21:42,800 that's my voice or i can sing but not 3680 02:21:48,150 --> 02:21:45,120 high at all but i found what was my 3681 02:21:50,389 --> 02:21:48,160 voice and it's a very low earthy 3682 02:21:52,630 --> 02:21:50,399 voice actually i really wanted to have a 3683 02:21:54,630 --> 02:21:52,640 celestial voice but i ended up with an 3684 02:21:56,950 --> 02:21:54,640 earthy voice like what's up with that 3685 02:21:59,750 --> 02:21:56,960 but but that's what i had and finally i 3686 02:22:02,150 --> 02:21:59,760 got my voice and then i got to leave the 3687 02:22:04,550 --> 02:22:02,160 guardian said and then when i went up 3688 02:22:06,469 --> 02:22:04,560 uh up up and up with him 3689 02:22:07,990 --> 02:22:06,479 and then that's when i saw my friend 3690 02:22:09,670 --> 02:22:08,000 meditating 3691 02:22:11,750 --> 02:22:09,680 in a hospital i'm thinking what is she 3692 02:22:14,389 --> 02:22:11,760 doing in the hospital and then i look 3693 02:22:16,389 --> 02:22:14,399 down there's a hospital bed and and 3694 02:22:18,230 --> 02:22:16,399 there i am laying on my side in the 3695 02:22:19,830 --> 02:22:18,240 hospital bed and that's when i say oh 3696 02:22:22,309 --> 02:22:19,840 you're a little puffy but you're not too 3697 02:22:26,230 --> 02:22:22,319 bad and but i didn't freak out or 3698 02:22:28,630 --> 02:22:26,240 anything you know delicious girl 3699 02:22:30,469 --> 02:22:28,640 i didn't go like what the 3700 02:22:33,349 --> 02:22:30,479 i didn't lose it at all it was like oh 3701 02:22:35,429 --> 02:22:33,359 that's my body i'm here that's pretty 3702 02:22:37,590 --> 02:22:35,439 interesting you know and so then i go 3703 02:22:39,670 --> 02:22:37,600 back up at the guardian and i said look 3704 02:22:41,429 --> 02:22:39,680 if i'm going back down there i'm 3705 02:22:43,670 --> 02:22:41,439 definitely going to need some help 3706 02:22:45,190 --> 02:22:43,680 you know because i'm not cool i am no 3707 02:22:46,710 --> 02:22:45,200 full i'm going to need some help when i 3708 02:22:48,309 --> 02:22:46,720 go back there and he says well we're 3709 02:22:49,190 --> 02:22:48,319 going to give you the gift of white 3710 02:22:51,429 --> 02:22:49,200 light 3711 02:22:53,590 --> 02:22:51,439 so he has his hands because and i go 3712 02:22:55,830 --> 02:22:53,600 that's all you're going to give me after 3713 02:22:58,389 --> 02:22:55,840 everything i've been through that is so 3714 02:22:59,190 --> 02:22:58,399 messed up and so i started arguing with 3715 02:23:01,349 --> 02:22:59,200 him 3716 02:23:03,830 --> 02:23:01,359 that that's not enough everyone has 3717 02:23:06,740 --> 02:23:03,840 white light that's not such a big gift 3718 02:23:08,469 --> 02:23:06,750 arguing you're arguing with this entity 3719 02:23:10,469 --> 02:23:08,479 [Laughter] 3720 02:23:13,270 --> 02:23:10,479 that you you feel like 3721 02:23:14,870 --> 02:23:13,280 he owes you some i did 3722 02:23:25,990 --> 02:23:14,880 like i totally 3723 02:23:29,670 --> 02:23:27,830 thank you and so i can't see his face 3724 02:23:31,590 --> 02:23:29,680 still you know but but he and i'm trying 3725 02:23:33,510 --> 02:23:31,600 to get pissed a little bit and so he 3726 02:23:34,710 --> 02:23:33,520 gives me the white light and i go fine 3727 02:23:36,469 --> 02:23:34,720 and so then i 3728 02:23:38,550 --> 02:23:36,479 i i don't know i didn't say it like that 3729 02:23:39,990 --> 02:23:38,560 i'm very respectful but 3730 02:23:42,230 --> 02:23:40,000 i'm not happy 3731 02:23:43,990 --> 02:23:42,240 and so then i go start to go back down 3732 02:23:46,550 --> 02:23:44,000 to my body again it goes wait a minute 3733 02:23:48,230 --> 02:23:46,560 come on back up telepath i didn't see 3734 02:23:49,910 --> 02:23:48,240 him so i go up back up to him again 3735 02:23:50,870 --> 02:23:49,920 because we'd like to give you 3736 02:23:53,110 --> 02:23:50,880 um 3737 02:23:54,790 --> 02:23:53,120 a mission if you're ready to take it and 3738 02:23:56,870 --> 02:23:54,800 i said yeah sure what is it without 3739 02:23:59,349 --> 02:23:56,880 thinking and he said we'd like for you 3740 02:24:01,510 --> 02:23:59,359 to be an ambassador so i said okay i'll 3741 02:24:04,230 --> 02:24:01,520 be an ambassador and i'm thinking oh i'm 3742 02:24:06,710 --> 02:24:04,240 ambassador of love i'm an ambassador of 3743 02:24:08,469 --> 02:24:06,720 you know what am i an ambassador of and 3744 02:24:11,270 --> 02:24:08,479 i look back and then and i didn't see 3745 02:24:13,670 --> 02:24:11,280 him and then i start to to go back into 3746 02:24:15,349 --> 02:24:13,680 the body so then i want to take all my 3747 02:24:16,870 --> 02:24:15,359 likeness of being all my 3748 02:24:19,349 --> 02:24:16,880 all that as me 3749 02:24:22,070 --> 02:24:19,359 into the body so i do this process where 3750 02:24:25,110 --> 02:24:22,080 i kind of go into every layer every 3751 02:24:26,550 --> 02:24:25,120 aspect of my body until there's not one 3752 02:24:29,030 --> 02:24:26,560 iota left 3753 02:24:30,790 --> 02:24:29,040 that's filled up right and it's me and 3754 02:24:34,309 --> 02:24:30,800 then you get that last click where it's 3755 02:24:37,030 --> 02:24:34,319 all in and then i sat up and i'm in the 3756 02:24:39,750 --> 02:24:37,040 hospital bed and all the tubes and wires 3757 02:24:42,630 --> 02:24:39,760 and all the everything goes crazy and i 3758 02:24:45,349 --> 02:24:42,640 say with pretty raspy boise thing um 3759 02:24:46,870 --> 02:24:45,359 uh i'm starving i want some nachos this 3760 02:24:48,630 --> 02:24:46,880 is my favorite part 3761 02:24:51,030 --> 02:24:48,640 that was my favorite part 3762 02:24:53,429 --> 02:24:51,040 like you probably had literally a a tube 3763 02:24:54,309 --> 02:24:53,439 down your throat if you were in a cold 3764 02:25:00,070 --> 02:24:54,319 right 3765 02:25:05,030 --> 02:25:02,550 and then everyone's pissed at me 3766 02:25:06,070 --> 02:25:05,040 because i you know i was supposed to die 3767 02:25:08,830 --> 02:25:06,080 and they all 3768 02:25:11,349 --> 02:25:08,840 were very inconvenienced by 3769 02:25:12,389 --> 02:25:11,359 that my gosh 3770 02:25:16,870 --> 02:25:12,399 barbara 3771 02:25:19,270 --> 02:25:16,880 so it man like that last part like of of 3772 02:25:20,870 --> 02:25:19,280 you know kind of like you know you're 3773 02:25:23,190 --> 02:25:20,880 getting through the book and you're 3774 02:25:26,389 --> 02:25:23,200 talking about this experience it reminds 3775 02:25:29,429 --> 02:25:26,399 me of like a like the cantina scene in 3776 02:25:31,670 --> 02:25:29,439 star wars with a party but the party was 3777 02:25:33,510 --> 02:25:31,680 thrown by andy warhol you know what i'm 3778 02:25:35,590 --> 02:25:33,520 saying like because andy warhol was an 3779 02:25:37,429 --> 02:25:35,600 alien right so you know that guy you 3780 02:25:39,670 --> 02:25:37,439 know he probably threw that party but 3781 02:25:40,790 --> 02:25:39,680 like you know that's that it's so cool 3782 02:25:42,150 --> 02:25:40,800 because 3783 02:25:44,790 --> 02:25:42,160 you know you always hear like these 3784 02:25:47,510 --> 02:25:44,800 stories of like oh yeah the galactic 3785 02:25:49,750 --> 02:25:47,520 council right and you're like 3786 02:25:51,429 --> 02:25:49,760 maybe i don't know but then like you 3787 02:25:53,429 --> 02:25:51,439 read your book and you're like why well 3788 02:25:56,230 --> 02:25:53,439 i've encountered all of these different 3789 02:25:58,389 --> 02:25:56,240 beings and they all kind of 3790 02:26:01,590 --> 02:25:58,399 you know grouped together for this this 3791 02:26:03,670 --> 02:26:01,600 large party you know like once a year or 3792 02:26:05,670 --> 02:26:03,680 whatever space years are yeah and 3793 02:26:06,710 --> 02:26:05,680 they're having a good time 3794 02:26:08,710 --> 02:26:06,720 it's like 3795 02:26:10,950 --> 02:26:08,720 super long space years old yeah however 3796 02:26:11,830 --> 02:26:10,960 long space years are i don't know 3797 02:26:13,670 --> 02:26:11,840 it 3798 02:26:15,910 --> 02:26:13,680 seems like they're having a good time 3799 02:26:17,429 --> 02:26:15,920 you know like but if you really break i 3800 02:26:21,830 --> 02:26:17,439 mean we could go off on a tangent on 3801 02:26:25,990 --> 02:26:23,429 but yeah i mean you know we always hear 3802 02:26:27,510 --> 02:26:26,000 those stories of the galactic council 3803 02:26:30,469 --> 02:26:27,520 and like you know we had that recent 3804 02:26:31,510 --> 02:26:30,479 like uh like last year the the the prime 3805 02:26:34,070 --> 02:26:31,520 minister 3806 02:26:35,910 --> 02:26:34,080 or the head guy of like israel the head 3807 02:26:37,750 --> 02:26:35,920 military guy he had talked about you 3808 02:26:39,750 --> 02:26:37,760 know the galactic council and this and 3809 02:26:41,830 --> 02:26:39,760 that and everybody's always kind of like 3810 02:26:43,910 --> 02:26:41,840 well i i don't know you know we always 3811 02:26:45,990 --> 02:26:43,920 we always envision the galactic council 3812 02:26:47,830 --> 02:26:46,000 of like you know the part in like star 3813 02:26:49,510 --> 02:26:47,840 wars and like episode what is it like 3814 02:26:51,670 --> 02:26:49,520 one the original one where like they're 3815 02:26:53,429 --> 02:26:51,680 all in that that round room and there's 3816 02:26:55,270 --> 02:26:53,439 all these different beings around and 3817 02:26:56,790 --> 02:26:55,280 it's kind of like 3818 02:26:59,030 --> 02:26:56,800 yeah i guess that could that could be 3819 02:27:01,349 --> 02:26:59,040 possible right like if something can if 3820 02:27:02,790 --> 02:27:01,359 something can materialize and walk 3821 02:27:05,590 --> 02:27:02,800 through your wall 3822 02:27:07,910 --> 02:27:05,600 invite you over and pull you through a 3823 02:27:09,910 --> 02:27:07,920 wall and you end up in this space that 3824 02:27:11,110 --> 02:27:09,920 you don't know what it is but you assume 3825 02:27:13,030 --> 02:27:11,120 it's a ship 3826 02:27:16,230 --> 02:27:13,040 can there be a galactic council right 3827 02:27:18,469 --> 02:27:16,240 you know so if they've uh materialized 3828 02:27:20,230 --> 02:27:18,479 through your window or your and taking 3829 02:27:23,110 --> 02:27:20,240 you up into space are they not 3830 02:27:25,750 --> 02:27:23,120 galactically counseling you 3831 02:27:27,590 --> 02:27:25,760 yeah there you go dude yeah 3832 02:27:29,670 --> 02:27:27,600 but you know like your your book and 3833 02:27:32,790 --> 02:27:29,680 just hearing all this stuff it like adds 3834 02:27:34,070 --> 02:27:32,800 more weight to the whole thing like 3835 02:27:35,830 --> 02:27:34,080 yeah 3836 02:27:37,429 --> 02:27:35,840 and especially if there is all of these 3837 02:27:38,230 --> 02:27:37,439 different beings like i believe that 3838 02:27:42,469 --> 02:27:38,240 there's 3839 02:27:44,309 --> 02:27:42,479 uncountable amount of things out there 3840 02:27:46,630 --> 02:27:44,319 you know not only do i believe in the 3841 02:27:48,230 --> 02:27:46,640 higher vibrational light beings but i 3842 02:27:50,309 --> 02:27:48,240 also believe in like things that are 3843 02:27:52,469 --> 02:27:50,319 just smarter than us that live on the 3844 02:27:55,110 --> 02:27:52,479 other side of the milky way you know i 3845 02:27:56,070 --> 02:27:55,120 believe in the whole spectrum of things 3846 02:27:57,349 --> 02:27:56,080 because 3847 02:28:00,150 --> 02:27:57,359 i mean why not 3848 02:28:01,990 --> 02:28:00,160 you know why not and and i don't i'm not 3849 02:28:03,349 --> 02:28:02,000 i'm not like a scientist i'm a doctor 3850 02:28:06,230 --> 02:28:03,359 scientist you know 3851 02:28:08,150 --> 02:28:06,240 doctor scientist dude but you know it's 3852 02:28:13,030 --> 02:28:08,160 it's one of those things that's like you 3853 02:28:15,349 --> 02:28:13,040 know if if if if a is happening 3854 02:28:16,389 --> 02:28:15,359 b is happening you know 3855 02:28:17,270 --> 02:28:16,399 so 3856 02:28:21,670 --> 02:28:17,280 and 3857 02:28:23,830 --> 02:28:21,680 equals c which is everything around us 3858 02:28:24,790 --> 02:28:23,840 i think what happened with me there too 3859 02:28:27,670 --> 02:28:24,800 is that 3860 02:28:28,469 --> 02:28:27,680 i used to look at life when i came back 3861 02:28:32,070 --> 02:28:28,479 um 3862 02:28:35,429 --> 02:28:32,080 i looked at it from a cosmic perspective 3863 02:28:37,590 --> 02:28:35,439 not from a human perspective 3864 02:28:42,230 --> 02:28:37,600 and and when you do that with anything 3865 02:28:47,030 --> 02:28:43,429 yes 3866 02:28:48,870 --> 02:28:47,040 yeah so what do you uh where okay i had 3867 02:28:50,550 --> 02:28:48,880 this thought earlier when you wanted to 3868 02:28:52,870 --> 02:28:50,560 hold on i wanted to show aurelio that 3869 02:28:55,750 --> 02:28:52,880 i'm wearing my socks i don't have much i 3870 02:28:57,270 --> 02:28:55,760 don't have my chocolates on today dude 3871 02:28:59,670 --> 02:28:57,280 aurelio said he's still waiting on his 3872 02:29:01,910 --> 02:28:59,680 shirt and i'm like oh [\h__\h] like i'm in 3873 02:29:04,790 --> 02:29:01,920 charge of all that stuff i need what 3874 02:29:07,670 --> 02:29:04,800 happened i'm i'm going to send you 5 000 3875 02:29:08,950 --> 02:29:07,680 shirts so just be prepared to be our new 3876 02:29:11,750 --> 02:29:08,960 you're going to have to sell a lot of 3877 02:29:11,760 --> 02:29:17,190 we get 10 by the way 3878 02:29:17,200 --> 02:29:20,830 barbra jean gets 20 percent 3879 02:29:26,790 --> 02:29:23,750 um uh [\h__\h] what was it gonna say you 3880 02:29:29,110 --> 02:29:26,800 said something earlier joe well 3881 02:29:30,389 --> 02:29:29,120 remind me remind me the topic because we 3882 02:29:32,150 --> 02:29:30,399 were just talking about something i had 3883 02:29:34,309 --> 02:29:32,160 really i feel like it was a really 3884 02:29:35,429 --> 02:29:34,319 important uh important thing you were 3885 02:29:39,990 --> 02:29:35,439 talking about like if they can 3886 02:29:42,070 --> 02:29:40,000 materialize through walls and 3887 02:29:44,389 --> 02:29:42,080 show up in your room right that was the 3888 02:29:46,230 --> 02:29:44,399 joke i already made oh you already made 3889 02:29:49,110 --> 02:29:46,240 it i already made it because they're 3890 02:29:51,429 --> 02:29:49,120 galactically counseling you dude that's 3891 02:29:52,550 --> 02:29:51,439 right sorry 3892 02:29:55,030 --> 02:29:52,560 um 3893 02:29:57,110 --> 02:29:55,040 [\h__\h] all right all right well i guess i 3894 02:29:59,750 --> 02:29:57,120 can i can move on to my other my other 3895 02:30:00,630 --> 02:29:59,760 question barbara um 3896 02:30:08,070 --> 02:30:00,640 so 3897 02:30:11,750 --> 02:30:08,080 watching the show live on youtube and is 3898 02:30:12,950 --> 02:30:11,760 is confused about what happens after you 3899 02:30:15,190 --> 02:30:12,960 die 3900 02:30:17,590 --> 02:30:15,200 yeah and maybe they're a religious 3901 02:30:19,590 --> 02:30:17,600 person maybe they're not 3902 02:30:22,070 --> 02:30:19,600 what perspective 3903 02:30:25,590 --> 02:30:22,080 can you bring or or 3904 02:30:27,670 --> 02:30:25,600 or wisdom can you say to that person 3905 02:30:29,510 --> 02:30:27,680 that is that is terrified of that 3906 02:30:31,110 --> 02:30:29,520 because i know i have been 3907 02:30:33,030 --> 02:30:31,120 i'm not anymore 3908 02:30:34,870 --> 02:30:33,040 uh but 3909 02:30:36,950 --> 02:30:34,880 is there anything you could tell 3910 02:30:38,309 --> 02:30:36,960 somebody that's kind of like 3911 02:30:40,710 --> 02:30:38,319 man 3912 02:30:42,550 --> 02:30:40,720 a little afraid of of death like what 3913 02:30:44,630 --> 02:30:42,560 happens after you die 3914 02:30:47,670 --> 02:30:44,640 and it doesn't have to segregate you 3915 02:30:49,750 --> 02:30:47,680 into any religion right like 3916 02:30:51,670 --> 02:30:49,760 yeah it's it's um 3917 02:30:54,630 --> 02:30:51,680 well number one if there's a hotline a 3918 02:30:58,550 --> 02:30:54,640 suicide line go to that always have that 3919 02:31:00,790 --> 02:30:58,560 and use that all right um 3920 02:31:02,870 --> 02:31:00,800 and i wouldn't i'm not one to say hey 3921 02:31:03,830 --> 02:31:02,880 the hell with this i'm out of here 3922 02:31:05,429 --> 02:31:03,840 right 3923 02:31:08,389 --> 02:31:05,439 um 3924 02:31:11,910 --> 02:31:08,399 because we are here for this experience 3925 02:31:14,630 --> 02:31:11,920 at this time for a particular reason 3926 02:31:16,630 --> 02:31:14,640 we don't know the big big picture of it 3927 02:31:19,670 --> 02:31:16,640 but we can intuit 3928 02:31:20,790 --> 02:31:19,680 of where we belong here 3929 02:31:21,830 --> 02:31:20,800 and 3930 02:31:25,270 --> 02:31:21,840 to 3931 02:31:27,349 --> 02:31:25,280 look at the other side is like 3932 02:31:29,030 --> 02:31:27,359 i'm sitting in this chair and i'm just 3933 02:31:31,270 --> 02:31:29,040 sitting you've heard that just sitting 3934 02:31:32,630 --> 02:31:31,280 in the chair next to you so the veils 3935 02:31:34,790 --> 02:31:32,640 are really 3936 02:31:36,150 --> 02:31:34,800 thin but tell that 3937 02:31:38,389 --> 02:31:36,160 to 3938 02:31:39,830 --> 02:31:38,399 someone who loses their best friend or 3939 02:31:41,990 --> 02:31:39,840 their beloved 3940 02:31:44,630 --> 02:31:42,000 then that's a whole different story 3941 02:31:47,510 --> 02:31:44,640 because like when my father died 3942 02:31:50,230 --> 02:31:47,520 i knew all of this stuff right i have 3943 02:31:52,469 --> 02:31:50,240 all of this experiences but when my 3944 02:31:54,230 --> 02:31:52,479 father died i cried like a baby you know 3945 02:31:56,950 --> 02:31:54,240 you cry because 3946 02:31:58,150 --> 02:31:56,960 the body cries too the body needs to cry 3947 02:32:01,030 --> 02:31:58,160 as well 3948 02:32:02,710 --> 02:32:01,040 so i was interesting when i 3949 02:32:04,790 --> 02:32:02,720 did a another 3950 02:32:07,190 --> 02:32:04,800 burial it was important for the people 3951 02:32:09,110 --> 02:32:07,200 to see the body and then 3952 02:32:11,910 --> 02:32:09,120 some people didn't want to see the body 3953 02:32:13,670 --> 02:32:11,920 at all so it's your relationship with 3954 02:32:16,070 --> 02:32:13,680 that what works and i found that 3955 02:32:18,550 --> 02:32:16,080 everybody's really different from one 3956 02:32:20,309 --> 02:32:18,560 end of the spectrum to the other 3957 02:32:21,190 --> 02:32:20,319 of how that works 3958 02:32:48,230 --> 02:32:21,200 i 3959 02:32:50,550 --> 02:32:48,240 you can count on that so when you 3960 02:32:52,389 --> 02:32:50,560 drop this skin dressing 3961 02:32:53,510 --> 02:32:52,399 on this planet 3962 02:32:56,070 --> 02:32:53,520 and you 3963 02:32:57,830 --> 02:32:56,080 move to where you were before you had 3964 02:32:59,670 --> 02:32:57,840 you're looking back oh i just had that 3965 02:33:00,790 --> 02:32:59,680 body that was kind of an interesting 3966 02:33:03,510 --> 02:33:00,800 experience 3967 02:33:05,349 --> 02:33:03,520 it was delicious that was delicious yes 3968 02:33:08,389 --> 02:33:05,359 i i had a great time thank you for all 3969 02:33:11,510 --> 02:33:08,399 the fish and then you know you you move 3970 02:33:13,349 --> 02:33:11,520 on you move you move on to this next 3971 02:33:14,389 --> 02:33:13,359 amazing thing that's 3972 02:33:17,510 --> 02:33:14,399 that you're 3973 02:33:20,870 --> 02:33:17,520 that 3974 02:33:23,590 --> 02:33:20,880 whatever your next soul evolution is and 3975 02:33:26,950 --> 02:33:23,600 um however big that is or however small 3976 02:33:29,190 --> 02:33:26,960 that is i'm sure that it's been where 3977 02:33:31,990 --> 02:33:29,200 it's been growth it's been 3978 02:33:34,309 --> 02:33:32,000 um worked out way ahead maybe thousands 3979 02:33:36,950 --> 02:33:34,319 of years i don't know and that's or 3980 02:33:39,910 --> 02:33:36,960 maybe in the blink of an eye 3981 02:33:42,870 --> 02:33:39,920 because um i've have found that here on 3982 02:33:44,630 --> 02:33:42,880 the earth plane that things usually move 3983 02:33:46,150 --> 02:33:44,640 pretty slow here 3984 02:33:48,710 --> 02:33:46,160 yeah yeah 3985 02:33:50,630 --> 02:33:48,720 but when i was there it took me two and 3986 02:33:53,910 --> 02:33:50,640 a half days to have all of those 3987 02:33:56,710 --> 02:33:53,920 experiences so that's something to to 3988 02:33:59,429 --> 02:33:56,720 consider i didn't see any of my friends 3989 02:34:00,790 --> 02:33:59,439 or family or animals i think i was in a 3990 02:34:03,110 --> 02:34:00,800 whole different 3991 02:34:05,590 --> 02:34:03,120 space for whatever reason right i do 3992 02:34:09,349 --> 02:34:05,600 know that if i go now my friend david 3993 02:34:10,710 --> 02:34:09,359 brinkley uh he has uh he's had several 3994 02:34:12,230 --> 02:34:10,720 near-death experiences and when i talked 3995 02:34:14,710 --> 02:34:12,240 to the last he goes you're gonna have 3996 02:34:18,240 --> 02:34:14,720 two more you know before you die 3997 02:34:22,230 --> 02:34:19,910 [Laughter] 3998 02:34:24,309 --> 02:34:22,240 that is not fair i hope he's wrong 3999 02:34:26,389 --> 02:34:24,319 because i don't want to do that when i 4000 02:34:28,469 --> 02:34:26,399 go out next time i just want to thank 4001 02:34:30,230 --> 02:34:28,479 you i want to be i already have an idea 4002 02:34:31,750 --> 02:34:30,240 i want to be in my bed i want all my 4003 02:34:33,830 --> 02:34:31,760 children and loved ones around me i want 4004 02:34:36,070 --> 02:34:33,840 to be playing the music that i like i 4005 02:34:37,990 --> 02:34:36,080 want to just eat when i want it and i'm 4006 02:34:40,230 --> 02:34:38,000 it's a part you know how you create 4007 02:34:42,710 --> 02:34:40,240 birth and celebrations well you get to 4008 02:34:45,670 --> 02:34:42,720 create my passing through over the 4009 02:34:47,750 --> 02:34:45,680 rainbow you know yes yes that's what i 4010 02:34:51,190 --> 02:34:47,760 want to do i wanted to be a part of my 4011 02:34:53,110 --> 02:34:51,200 life not an engine nothing because our 4012 02:34:55,750 --> 02:34:53,120 whole life has never been an end to 4013 02:34:59,110 --> 02:34:55,760 nothing never right so it's such 4014 02:35:01,270 --> 02:34:59,120 [\h__\h] yeah so 4015 02:35:04,950 --> 02:35:01,280 uh barbara i i know i i said this early 4016 02:35:07,110 --> 02:35:04,960 on uh in the uh podcast in our our chat 4017 02:35:08,990 --> 02:35:07,120 tonight uh you just gave me another 4018 02:35:11,510 --> 02:35:09,000 really powerful visualization 4019 02:35:12,469 --> 02:35:11,520 visualization i i feel like i need to 4020 02:35:15,349 --> 02:35:12,479 share it 4021 02:35:17,910 --> 02:35:15,359 sure so this this this idea of death um 4022 02:35:20,230 --> 02:35:17,920 and and and it's not a self-inflicted 4023 02:35:22,070 --> 02:35:20,240 death it's just a natural death or an 4024 02:35:24,070 --> 02:35:22,080 accidental death right like 4025 02:35:25,030 --> 02:35:24,080 this is the visual that you just gave me 4026 02:35:27,110 --> 02:35:25,040 uh 4027 02:35:28,389 --> 02:35:27,120 is that you 4028 02:35:34,870 --> 02:35:28,399 you 4029 02:35:37,590 --> 02:35:34,880 bigger picture 4030 02:35:39,190 --> 02:35:37,600 and you are the missing piece of that 4031 02:35:40,870 --> 02:35:39,200 puzzle that's been soggy and wet 4032 02:35:43,510 --> 02:35:40,880 underneath the couch 4033 02:35:45,349 --> 02:35:43,520 for 15 years and and the grandchild 4034 02:35:48,469 --> 02:35:45,359 finally finds it like 4035 02:35:50,790 --> 02:35:48,479 you may not know your importance now 4036 02:35:53,590 --> 02:35:50,800 and and you 4037 02:35:56,950 --> 02:35:53,600 you may not never feel that or or get 4038 02:35:59,349 --> 02:35:56,960 the recognition until years later and 4039 02:36:01,830 --> 02:35:59,359 and that's not what is important it's 4040 02:36:03,270 --> 02:36:01,840 it's what happens is it's the 4041 02:36:05,830 --> 02:36:03,280 effect that 4042 02:36:08,710 --> 02:36:05,840 that uh that brushes uh upon the winds 4043 02:36:10,790 --> 02:36:08,720 of time right like right that's just 4044 02:36:11,990 --> 02:36:10,800 kind of i needed i needed to to voice 4045 02:36:12,790 --> 02:36:12,000 that because that's kind of what you 4046 02:36:14,950 --> 02:36:12,800 just 4047 02:36:16,630 --> 02:36:14,960 gave me in my head like this visual 4048 02:36:19,110 --> 02:36:16,640 yeah you know 4049 02:36:22,950 --> 02:36:19,120 it it's it's just showing up every day 4050 02:36:24,870 --> 02:36:22,960 and being the best you right and if the 4051 02:36:26,389 --> 02:36:24,880 best you is getting out of bed that's 4052 02:36:27,510 --> 02:36:26,399 good 4053 02:36:33,590 --> 02:36:27,520 yeah 4054 02:36:38,070 --> 02:36:35,590 you know just just let's just wake up 4055 02:36:40,309 --> 02:36:38,080 and get this day over with i'm ready to 4056 02:36:43,830 --> 02:36:40,319 get i'm gonna accomplish it eat a plate 4057 02:36:47,429 --> 02:36:45,670 that's too bougie for me ben i gotta 4058 02:36:52,150 --> 02:36:47,439 just gotta get up and [\h__\h] i just 4059 02:36:57,030 --> 02:36:53,910 there will always be days like that and 4060 02:36:58,790 --> 02:36:57,040 there'll always be better days oh man 4061 02:36:59,910 --> 02:36:58,800 right it's the same with your life 4062 02:37:01,270 --> 02:36:59,920 you're going to have some good lives 4063 02:37:03,510 --> 02:37:01,280 you're going to have some probably craft 4064 02:37:05,030 --> 02:37:03,520 lives but there's 4065 02:37:07,910 --> 02:37:05,040 experience just like this life you've 4066 02:37:10,469 --> 02:37:07,920 had it hasn't been one experience like 4067 02:37:12,630 --> 02:37:10,479 like that all the way 4068 02:37:14,630 --> 02:37:12,640 like that if anything being on this 4069 02:37:16,790 --> 02:37:14,640 earth it's about change and your 4070 02:37:19,349 --> 02:37:16,800 relationship to change 4071 02:37:21,190 --> 02:37:19,359 i can choose where you want to put your 4072 02:37:23,270 --> 02:37:21,200 energy at that change right you have a 4073 02:37:25,750 --> 02:37:23,280 lot more features yes 4074 02:37:27,510 --> 02:37:25,760 that is that is one of the things that 4075 02:37:29,990 --> 02:37:27,520 keeps me going 4076 02:37:32,710 --> 02:37:30,000 you know i i 4077 02:37:34,550 --> 02:37:32,720 i complain a lot 4078 02:37:36,309 --> 02:37:34,560 i guess but you know 4079 02:37:40,630 --> 02:37:36,319 i you know 4080 02:37:45,830 --> 02:37:43,110 compared to most my life is absolutely 4081 02:37:48,550 --> 02:37:45,840 fabulous i've got a just the most 4082 02:37:49,750 --> 02:37:48,560 amazing wife and the most beautiful 4083 02:37:53,590 --> 02:37:49,760 little girl 4084 02:37:55,510 --> 02:37:53,600 uh like man i i like it almost it i get 4085 02:37:58,870 --> 02:37:55,520 kind of emotional like just thinking 4086 02:38:01,990 --> 02:37:58,880 about it because it's like one like wow 4087 02:38:02,950 --> 02:38:02,000 do i even deserve that you know but two 4088 02:38:05,670 --> 02:38:02,960 you know 4089 02:38:09,510 --> 02:38:05,680 my life up to this point hasn't always 4090 02:38:11,510 --> 02:38:09,520 been the most amazing thing you know and 4091 02:38:14,389 --> 02:38:11,520 and you know i think about it still 4092 02:38:16,389 --> 02:38:14,399 today like ah there's just so much that 4093 02:38:18,630 --> 02:38:16,399 could be done or could be accomplished 4094 02:38:21,030 --> 02:38:18,640 or like what what can i you know what 4095 02:38:22,630 --> 02:38:21,040 can i do you know like 4096 02:38:25,429 --> 02:38:22,640 and that's one of the things that like 4097 02:38:27,349 --> 02:38:25,439 just kind of keeps me rolling is like 4098 02:38:30,070 --> 02:38:27,359 you know like it is a learning 4099 02:38:32,309 --> 02:38:30,080 experience like maybe i have already 4100 02:38:34,230 --> 02:38:32,319 done this and like i just didn't learn 4101 02:38:36,469 --> 02:38:34,240 something like i'm back in this little 4102 02:38:38,469 --> 02:38:36,479 area again you know as i just learned 4103 02:38:40,950 --> 02:38:38,479 from you a little bit earlier you know i 4104 02:38:43,830 --> 02:38:40,960 was part of this this royal court with 4105 02:38:45,670 --> 02:38:43,840 some sweet ass dogs and like i was in 4106 02:38:47,750 --> 02:38:45,680 charges and stuff so 4107 02:38:48,790 --> 02:38:47,760 you know it's like what what what did i 4108 02:38:50,710 --> 02:38:48,800 miss 4109 02:38:52,389 --> 02:38:50,720 there that i need to 4110 02:38:54,389 --> 02:38:52,399 learn here 4111 02:38:56,389 --> 02:38:54,399 and you know like you know then i just 4112 02:38:58,230 --> 02:38:56,399 go back to just you know 4113 02:39:01,429 --> 02:38:58,240 just my the core 4114 02:39:04,309 --> 02:39:01,439 of my life and like how just 4115 02:39:06,710 --> 02:39:04,319 absolutely perfect and wonderful it is 4116 02:39:09,110 --> 02:39:06,720 like all the surrounding stuff 4117 02:39:11,910 --> 02:39:09,120 just doesn't even matter like as long as 4118 02:39:14,469 --> 02:39:11,920 the core is is is is there 4119 02:39:17,270 --> 02:39:14,479 it's really all you need you know even 4120 02:39:19,110 --> 02:39:17,280 if you haven't had you know the the most 4121 02:39:21,590 --> 02:39:19,120 perfect life you know 4122 02:39:23,990 --> 02:39:21,600 you know you know i've spent times you 4123 02:39:26,469 --> 02:39:24,000 know like as a child you know like i've 4124 02:39:27,830 --> 02:39:26,479 had to sleep in a few cars a few times 4125 02:39:30,150 --> 02:39:27,840 you know what i'm saying like you know i 4126 02:39:33,830 --> 02:39:30,160 come from a separated family but you 4127 02:39:36,389 --> 02:39:33,840 know i also come from a very strong knit 4128 02:39:38,150 --> 02:39:36,399 close family at the same time so you 4129 02:39:40,070 --> 02:39:38,160 know there's a lot of different learning 4130 02:39:41,429 --> 02:39:40,080 experiences and it's kind of what you 4131 02:39:43,910 --> 02:39:41,439 pull out of it 4132 02:39:44,790 --> 02:39:43,920 you know and apply to yourself and and 4133 02:39:46,550 --> 02:39:44,800 and 4134 02:39:49,670 --> 02:39:46,560 i guess choose 4135 02:39:52,630 --> 02:39:49,680 you know to to uh to to do you know that 4136 02:39:53,750 --> 02:39:52,640 path that you you do choose to take 4137 02:39:55,590 --> 02:39:53,760 and uh 4138 02:39:57,910 --> 02:39:55,600 man it's it's it's 4139 02:39:59,750 --> 02:39:57,920 it's super important you know it's super 4140 02:40:01,670 --> 02:39:59,760 important you may not have the best of 4141 02:40:03,110 --> 02:40:01,680 the best all the time but if your core 4142 02:40:04,950 --> 02:40:03,120 is there 4143 02:40:06,710 --> 02:40:04,960 that's all that matters it's all that 4144 02:40:08,870 --> 02:40:06,720 matters you know and death isn't 4145 02:40:10,950 --> 02:40:08,880 something to be scared of it should be 4146 02:40:14,309 --> 02:40:10,960 something that should be celebrated 4147 02:40:15,910 --> 02:40:14,319 celebrated exactly exactly and you know 4148 02:40:18,550 --> 02:40:15,920 you know your story kind of reminded me 4149 02:40:20,870 --> 02:40:18,560 of of uh you know the part where uh uh 4150 02:40:23,510 --> 02:40:20,880 and and you made this reference earlier 4151 02:40:24,309 --> 02:40:23,520 uh but uh 4152 02:40:29,110 --> 02:40:24,319 uh 4153 02:40:30,790 --> 02:40:29,120 takes arthur dent out on the the little 4154 02:40:32,630 --> 02:40:30,800 elevator and he goes out through the 4155 02:40:34,630 --> 02:40:32,640 universe and he's showing him like just 4156 02:40:37,590 --> 02:40:34,640 like oh yeah this is the earth we we've 4157 02:40:39,349 --> 02:40:37,600 made this a few times now you know like 4158 02:40:41,830 --> 02:40:39,359 oh we're painting the mountains right 4159 02:40:44,630 --> 02:40:41,840 now you know like it's it's it's like 4160 02:40:47,750 --> 02:40:44,640 it's it's such a it's such a cool 4161 02:40:49,910 --> 02:40:47,760 a cool story like i don't know like it 4162 02:40:51,510 --> 02:40:49,920 almost makes you it gives you hope 4163 02:40:54,870 --> 02:40:51,520 it gives you hope you know like your 4164 02:40:57,349 --> 02:40:54,880 story reading your book like it really 4165 02:40:58,710 --> 02:40:57,359 like gives you just a a really awesome 4166 02:41:00,230 --> 02:40:58,720 perspective 4167 02:41:01,510 --> 02:41:00,240 on life 4168 02:41:04,630 --> 02:41:01,520 and death 4169 02:41:06,710 --> 02:41:04,640 and and the the the beauty of both of 4170 02:41:07,830 --> 02:41:06,720 them really you know because you even 4171 02:41:09,750 --> 02:41:07,840 mention 4172 02:41:12,630 --> 02:41:09,760 there's a point to where 4173 02:41:15,990 --> 02:41:12,640 you know you feel this love 4174 02:41:17,670 --> 02:41:16,000 that you can't like just you can't even 4175 02:41:20,710 --> 02:41:17,680 match it but there comes a point to 4176 02:41:23,670 --> 02:41:20,720 where you thought about your children 4177 02:41:24,950 --> 02:41:23,680 and like your family and that's what 4178 02:41:27,670 --> 02:41:24,960 like 4179 02:41:29,750 --> 02:41:27,680 brought you almost back to yourself was 4180 02:41:32,630 --> 02:41:29,760 like that feeling of like 4181 02:41:33,830 --> 02:41:32,640 i have to get back to my kids i have to 4182 02:41:36,870 --> 02:41:33,840 you know 4183 02:41:38,150 --> 02:41:36,880 that's so powerful like if if he 4184 02:41:39,269 --> 02:41:38,160 wouldn't have done that i would have 4185 02:41:40,309 --> 02:41:39,279 stayed there 4186 02:41:45,910 --> 02:41:40,319 happily 4187 02:41:49,030 --> 02:41:45,920 was having such an amazing time 4188 02:41:50,710 --> 02:41:49,040 and i just i did not think of anything 4189 02:41:53,590 --> 02:41:50,720 else and then when he gave me the look 4190 02:41:56,070 --> 02:41:53,600 like uh this is after the 4191 02:41:58,630 --> 02:41:56,080 uh the goddesses he goes he gives me the 4192 02:42:00,710 --> 02:41:58,640 look like uh it's time to go like i'm 4193 02:42:01,830 --> 02:42:00,720 not going anywhere 4194 02:42:03,990 --> 02:42:01,840 i'm yes 4195 02:42:06,389 --> 02:42:04,000 i mean you know this is really good and 4196 02:42:08,389 --> 02:42:06,399 he goes well what about your children 4197 02:42:11,190 --> 02:42:08,399 and i go oh 4198 02:42:13,750 --> 02:42:11,200 my three children oh my god 4199 02:42:15,590 --> 02:42:13,760 i was gone let's go i couldn't get there 4200 02:42:17,510 --> 02:42:15,600 fast enough you know 4201 02:42:19,510 --> 02:42:17,520 when i read your book 4202 02:42:21,590 --> 02:42:19,520 i had told that story earlier about the 4203 02:42:23,830 --> 02:42:21,600 dream that i had where like i'd never 4204 02:42:27,030 --> 02:42:23,840 felt a feeling like that before 4205 02:42:29,429 --> 02:42:27,040 i read your book and i was like did i 4206 02:42:32,790 --> 02:42:29,439 die in my sleep 4207 02:42:35,790 --> 02:42:32,800 at some point did i die because 4208 02:42:37,429 --> 02:42:35,800 it was it was almost like 4209 02:42:39,429 --> 02:42:37,439 exactly 4210 02:42:41,670 --> 02:42:39,439 what happened without all the extra cool 4211 02:42:44,790 --> 02:42:41,680 stuff in the mahogany chair and like all 4212 02:42:45,830 --> 02:42:44,800 that stuff i i fell asleep and i had 4213 02:42:48,070 --> 02:42:45,840 this 4214 02:42:49,670 --> 02:42:48,080 just oh god i could have stayed there 4215 02:42:53,110 --> 02:42:49,680 forever 4216 02:42:55,110 --> 02:42:53,120 barbara like i can't explain the feeling 4217 02:42:58,389 --> 02:42:55,120 and like i read your book and i was like 4218 02:43:01,670 --> 02:42:58,399 holy [\h__\h] did i die a few months ago in 4219 02:43:03,910 --> 02:43:01,680 my sleep and then they put me back 4220 02:43:05,590 --> 02:43:03,920 like the next morning like did i have 4221 02:43:07,590 --> 02:43:05,600 like a heart a mini heart attack or 4222 02:43:10,150 --> 02:43:07,600 something and like die 4223 02:43:12,469 --> 02:43:10,160 and then come back because this thing i 4224 02:43:14,550 --> 02:43:12,479 it was like it told me 4225 02:43:16,710 --> 02:43:14,560 it's time to go and i was like oh no no 4226 02:43:18,790 --> 02:43:16,720 no i'm totally all right like right here 4227 02:43:20,870 --> 02:43:18,800 like i wasn't even thinking about it and 4228 02:43:22,630 --> 02:43:20,880 it literally like 4229 02:43:25,670 --> 02:43:22,640 pushed me 4230 02:43:26,389 --> 02:43:25,680 yeah like push like and and i say scared 4231 02:43:38,630 --> 02:43:26,399 like 4232 02:43:41,349 --> 02:43:38,640 just there was just things around me and 4233 02:43:43,269 --> 02:43:41,359 i was drinking this drink and like 4234 02:43:45,590 --> 02:43:43,279 whatever it was that told me i needed to 4235 02:43:47,190 --> 02:43:45,600 go back i was like no i'm good and it 4236 02:43:49,110 --> 02:43:47,200 feel like it just turned into like a 4237 02:43:51,269 --> 02:43:49,120 giant face 4238 02:43:53,830 --> 02:43:51,279 and like came at me really fast and it 4239 02:43:55,349 --> 02:43:53,840 like just it like pushed me back into my 4240 02:43:58,070 --> 02:43:55,359 body 4241 02:44:00,230 --> 02:43:58,080 but it wasn't scary it was just very 4242 02:44:01,830 --> 02:44:00,240 like jarring i guess it's kind of like 4243 02:44:03,190 --> 02:44:01,840 that's what it would take that's all 4244 02:44:05,750 --> 02:44:03,200 that's that's because that's what it 4245 02:44:07,990 --> 02:44:05,760 would take to get you right yeah 4246 02:44:10,230 --> 02:44:08,000 yeah exactly exactly because i was not 4247 02:44:12,790 --> 02:44:10,240 going anywhere that was the best sprite 4248 02:44:15,830 --> 02:44:12,800 i had ever had whatever i was drinking 4249 02:44:18,710 --> 02:44:15,840 whatever feeling that was yeah it was it 4250 02:44:20,070 --> 02:44:18,720 was it was it was oh so when i was 4251 02:44:22,950 --> 02:44:20,080 telling you like when you were all those 4252 02:44:25,030 --> 02:44:22,960 description words in this book 4253 02:44:26,389 --> 02:44:25,040 that's exactly what that dream was like 4254 02:44:28,070 --> 02:44:26,399 and it kind of freaked me out a little 4255 02:44:31,429 --> 02:44:28,080 bit i was like did i 4256 02:44:33,590 --> 02:44:31,439 did i die or something like because you 4257 02:44:36,710 --> 02:44:33,600 almost described that dream like to a 4258 02:44:38,150 --> 02:44:36,720 tee and it was it was very strange so if 4259 02:44:40,230 --> 02:44:38,160 i didn't get to see all the cool like 4260 02:44:42,309 --> 02:44:40,240 green mountains and like meet the people 4261 02:44:44,550 --> 02:44:42,319 in the hoods and like hang out at the 4262 02:44:46,790 --> 02:44:44,560 andy warhol party and whatnot you know 4263 02:44:48,550 --> 02:44:46,800 it was just the good feeling and then 4264 02:44:50,389 --> 02:44:48,560 they pushed me back like i don't know 4265 02:44:52,710 --> 02:44:50,399 maybe and that's what i was saying maybe 4266 02:44:54,309 --> 02:44:52,720 that's one of those little signs that 4267 02:44:56,309 --> 02:44:54,319 you know my guides or whatever we're 4268 02:44:58,830 --> 02:44:56,319 trying to give me like hey 4269 02:45:00,150 --> 02:44:58,840 yeah there's a lot of good stuff 4270 02:45:02,870 --> 02:45:00,160 yeah to that 4271 02:45:05,990 --> 02:45:02,880 i think with me because my body was in 4272 02:45:10,070 --> 02:45:06,000 an icu being taken care of that it gave 4273 02:45:12,309 --> 02:45:10,080 me the luxury of going way out there 4274 02:45:13,590 --> 02:45:12,319 right so well my you can only go so far 4275 02:45:14,790 --> 02:45:13,600 because your body's going what the hell 4276 02:45:18,309 --> 02:45:14,800 is going on 4277 02:45:23,349 --> 02:45:21,190 you know but my body was like it it was 4278 02:45:25,590 --> 02:45:23,359 being given water and it was being taken 4279 02:45:27,670 --> 02:45:25,600 care of and i was in a safe place after 4280 02:45:29,670 --> 02:45:27,680 they stabilized me right 4281 02:45:31,190 --> 02:45:29,680 yeah so they didn't know if i was going 4282 02:45:34,469 --> 02:45:31,200 to make it or not 4283 02:45:36,550 --> 02:45:34,479 and i lost so much my oxygen levels were 4284 02:45:37,910 --> 02:45:36,560 beyond i was supposed to be a vegetable 4285 02:45:39,429 --> 02:45:37,920 they had talked to my family and said 4286 02:45:41,190 --> 02:45:39,439 she's going to be a vegetable the barber 4287 02:45:44,230 --> 02:45:41,200 jean that you knew before will not be 4288 02:45:46,469 --> 02:45:44,240 the same they weren't sure i had last 4289 02:45:48,469 --> 02:45:46,479 rights given me you know 4290 02:45:50,950 --> 02:45:48,479 woman gave me last right 4291 02:45:53,349 --> 02:45:50,960 so it was like serious [\h__\h] right i have 4292 02:45:56,469 --> 02:45:53,359 yeah i have a better i have an 4293 02:45:57,670 --> 02:45:56,479 understanding that uh 4294 02:45:59,910 --> 02:45:57,680 yeah 4295 02:46:01,990 --> 02:45:59,920 a family member of mine i'm i'm very 4296 02:46:04,309 --> 02:46:02,000 familiar with that the the process of 4297 02:46:05,510 --> 02:46:04,319 that um it's very 4298 02:46:10,070 --> 02:46:05,520 intense 4299 02:46:12,710 --> 02:46:10,080 yeah uh barbara i have questions so like 4300 02:46:14,950 --> 02:46:12,720 when we talk about guides 4301 02:46:16,790 --> 02:46:14,960 a lot of a lot of 4302 02:46:19,910 --> 02:46:16,800 in our i guess 4303 02:46:22,389 --> 02:46:19,920 me and joe's like path uh i don't mean 4304 02:46:26,950 --> 02:46:22,399 to speak for both of us but like 4305 02:46:28,790 --> 02:46:26,960 guides often come as an alien entity is 4306 02:46:31,030 --> 02:46:28,800 that something that that you would 4307 02:46:32,230 --> 02:46:31,040 describe as as guides like how do you 4308 02:46:33,510 --> 02:46:32,240 describe 4309 02:46:36,469 --> 02:46:33,520 a guide 4310 02:46:38,790 --> 02:46:36,479 um there's all kinds of different guides 4311 02:46:41,110 --> 02:46:38,800 um there's various guides and they 4312 02:46:44,070 --> 02:46:41,120 change when from my per this is my 4313 02:46:46,309 --> 02:46:44,080 perspective that's not the law you know 4314 02:46:48,630 --> 02:46:46,319 but it's from my perspective is that 4315 02:46:51,110 --> 02:46:48,640 there's so many different guys as and 4316 02:46:53,990 --> 02:46:51,120 our guides change as we change because 4317 02:46:56,630 --> 02:46:54,000 our needs become different so i have 4318 02:47:00,070 --> 02:46:56,640 like the guardian angel a guardian that 4319 02:47:01,349 --> 02:47:00,080 i had since i've had forever i know i've 4320 02:47:03,910 --> 02:47:01,359 had now 4321 02:47:07,590 --> 02:47:03,920 looking back i didn't at the time but 4322 02:47:09,670 --> 02:47:07,600 i've had a sasquatch forever with me wow 4323 02:47:13,349 --> 02:47:09,680 ever with lucky 4324 02:47:16,389 --> 02:47:13,359 i know but we we a lot of us have 4325 02:47:19,910 --> 02:47:16,399 we just have to remember that's all and 4326 02:47:22,070 --> 02:47:19,920 you'll be sparked believe that i'm 100 4327 02:47:24,070 --> 02:47:22,080 believe that it'll come and and when you 4328 02:47:27,429 --> 02:47:24,080 have that aha it's like 4329 02:47:29,670 --> 02:47:27,439 wow you know like really you know and 4330 02:47:31,990 --> 02:47:29,680 you just so it kind of tweaks you a 4331 02:47:34,469 --> 02:47:32,000 little bit and so and you get kind of 4332 02:47:37,590 --> 02:47:34,479 the giggles from it but it's like but i 4333 02:47:39,990 --> 02:47:37,600 don't see them as much as i smell them 4334 02:47:42,870 --> 02:47:40,000 that's how they come to me i smell them 4335 02:47:44,469 --> 02:47:42,880 and a lot of people do that way but and 4336 02:47:45,750 --> 02:47:44,479 there's a difference between the smell 4337 02:47:47,030 --> 02:47:45,760 of them and 4338 02:47:49,110 --> 02:47:47,040 and pot 4339 02:47:50,550 --> 02:47:49,120 very different smell but very earthy 4340 02:47:51,750 --> 02:47:50,560 very musky 4341 02:47:54,710 --> 02:47:51,760 a very 4342 02:47:57,269 --> 02:47:54,720 um very sensual in a way too it's very 4343 02:47:59,670 --> 02:47:57,279 beautiful and um 4344 02:48:01,510 --> 02:47:59,680 so so i've always had that one but 4345 02:48:03,510 --> 02:48:01,520 but not everybody has that okay so 4346 02:48:06,550 --> 02:48:03,520 everyone has the guides that are 4347 02:48:07,750 --> 02:48:06,560 significant made for you you have the 4348 02:48:09,750 --> 02:48:07,760 guides that are just for you and then 4349 02:48:11,510 --> 02:48:09,760 you have group guides 4350 02:48:13,110 --> 02:48:11,520 that's how you know so you have this 4351 02:48:14,870 --> 02:48:13,120 group of guides that all kind of work 4352 02:48:16,950 --> 02:48:14,880 together because they have a whole idea 4353 02:48:18,870 --> 02:48:16,960 of what they are there to create and 4354 02:48:19,910 --> 02:48:18,880 help happen as well 4355 02:48:22,150 --> 02:48:19,920 and so 4356 02:48:24,710 --> 02:48:22,160 um you can have um 4357 02:48:27,110 --> 02:48:24,720 i i'm not a real big one for angel 4358 02:48:28,389 --> 02:48:27,120 guides but all this my whole life i've 4359 02:48:31,349 --> 02:48:28,399 never really talked about angel i've 4360 02:48:33,990 --> 02:48:31,359 never seen angels but lately i have two 4361 02:48:36,710 --> 02:48:34,000 big angels they're like 100 foot tall 4362 02:48:38,630 --> 02:48:36,720 angels wow and they're both on each side 4363 02:48:41,190 --> 02:48:38,640 of me sometimes and like i hadn't come 4364 02:48:42,309 --> 02:48:41,200 in to help with this uh 4365 02:48:44,550 --> 02:48:42,319 with our 4366 02:48:46,550 --> 02:48:44,560 show today uh to just kind of keep 4367 02:48:47,830 --> 02:48:46,560 things grounded and and you know because 4368 02:48:50,469 --> 02:48:47,840 i need help i'm not going to go by 4369 02:48:52,950 --> 02:48:50,479 myself out here you know 4370 02:48:55,510 --> 02:48:52,960 you know so i bring my my buds with me 4371 02:48:56,790 --> 02:48:55,520 you know and so good it would make sense 4372 02:48:59,349 --> 02:48:56,800 because you have like 4373 02:49:01,910 --> 02:48:59,359 like i'm picking up on just like the 4374 02:49:04,469 --> 02:49:01,920 most positive like 4375 02:49:09,910 --> 02:49:08,000 like yeah i'm saying they like us 4376 02:49:11,830 --> 02:49:09,920 [Music] 4377 02:49:14,070 --> 02:49:11,840 these guys these guys talk about farts 4378 02:49:16,070 --> 02:49:14,080 way too much let's make sure that we're 4379 02:49:17,750 --> 02:49:16,080 good oh no they're not like that they're 4380 02:49:19,670 --> 02:49:17,760 real and they're raw and that's what 4381 02:49:21,429 --> 02:49:19,680 they like right and so 4382 02:49:24,150 --> 02:49:21,439 i so you have that and then you have 4383 02:49:27,190 --> 02:49:24,160 your ancestral guides and really you 4384 02:49:31,110 --> 02:49:27,200 have been built upon the shoulders of 4385 02:49:33,030 --> 02:49:31,120 all the generations of your ancestors 4386 02:49:35,670 --> 02:49:33,040 that's so cool we never talk about that 4387 02:49:37,750 --> 02:49:35,680 and you get to have that 4388 02:49:40,469 --> 02:49:37,760 lineage that you brought 4389 02:49:42,469 --> 02:49:40,479 whether you know it or not that they're 4390 02:49:45,990 --> 02:49:42,479 you and you get to call on them to help 4391 02:49:48,710 --> 02:49:46,000 you so i to get where i've gotten in my 4392 02:49:51,030 --> 02:49:48,720 life i haven't ever done it alone i've 4393 02:49:53,750 --> 02:49:51,040 always had a lot of help from friends 4394 02:49:56,150 --> 02:49:53,760 family guides and i'll ask for a long 4395 02:49:57,670 --> 02:49:56,160 time i was isolated and alone that's 4396 02:49:59,910 --> 02:49:57,680 what psychics that's what i'm trying to 4397 02:50:02,710 --> 02:49:59,920 change that the psychic we're alone and 4398 02:50:05,590 --> 02:50:02,720 isolated stop it don't do that anymore 4399 02:50:08,070 --> 02:50:05,600 and so it's with with their your guides 4400 02:50:09,910 --> 02:50:08,080 that you can bring and um and they'll 4401 02:50:12,870 --> 02:50:09,920 help you and all you have to do is ask 4402 02:50:15,269 --> 02:50:12,880 for help and that's not an airy fairy 4403 02:50:16,469 --> 02:50:15,279 la la out there way it's it's your 4404 02:50:18,389 --> 02:50:16,479 birthright 4405 02:50:20,469 --> 02:50:18,399 so you have your ancestors that you come 4406 02:50:23,750 --> 02:50:20,479 from you have your bloodline that come 4407 02:50:26,630 --> 02:50:23,760 to you that you can ask for help um 4408 02:50:29,349 --> 02:50:26,640 um and then you have your um 4409 02:50:31,670 --> 02:50:29,359 totems like your animal guides right a 4410 02:50:33,269 --> 02:50:31,680 lot of us you don't even have to have an 4411 02:50:37,910 --> 02:50:33,279 animal guide that's in a different 4412 02:50:43,110 --> 02:50:41,190 you're the best they're the best i yes 4413 02:50:46,150 --> 02:50:43,120 my little mary margaret she passed away 4414 02:50:49,429 --> 02:50:46,160 last year and oh yeah the best she was a 4415 02:50:50,389 --> 02:50:49,439 little scotty and i just loved her 4416 02:50:52,389 --> 02:50:50,399 yes 4417 02:50:55,030 --> 02:50:52,399 so we have those beings with us right 4418 02:50:56,550 --> 02:50:55,040 here right now that are with us that you 4419 02:50:58,150 --> 02:50:56,560 don't have to go in another realm 4420 02:51:00,469 --> 02:50:58,160 they're here with us 4421 02:51:03,429 --> 02:51:00,479 so i i always give them on the horses 4422 02:51:05,429 --> 02:51:03,439 and all the animals and the winged ones 4423 02:51:08,710 --> 02:51:05,439 and the yes you know go off on that 4424 02:51:10,550 --> 02:51:08,720 whole trip but yes 4425 02:51:13,429 --> 02:51:10,560 it's funny you brought that up barbara 4426 02:51:15,750 --> 02:51:13,439 because i was gonna ask you because 4427 02:51:18,870 --> 02:51:15,760 my initial question was like what is 4428 02:51:20,950 --> 02:51:18,880 your interpretation of a guide 4429 02:51:22,630 --> 02:51:20,960 uh it was a loaded question because i 4430 02:51:24,950 --> 02:51:22,640 wanted you to say 4431 02:51:26,790 --> 02:51:24,960 it could be in the form of a pug 4432 02:51:28,469 --> 02:51:26,800 because i 4433 02:51:30,550 --> 02:51:28,479 might 4434 02:51:37,990 --> 02:51:30,560 my little angel 4435 02:51:45,990 --> 02:51:40,710 oh nibbler i've known this pup since she 4436 02:51:51,510 --> 02:51:47,590 she is uh i thought we were going to put 4437 02:51:56,550 --> 02:51:53,830 i should have 4438 02:52:00,630 --> 02:51:56,560 uh she is uh 4439 02:52:04,230 --> 02:52:00,640 28 28 000 years old she's been on the 4440 02:52:05,830 --> 02:52:04,240 planet she's she's taught um every uh 4441 02:52:08,469 --> 02:52:05,840 psychologist 4442 02:52:11,349 --> 02:52:08,479 uh philosopher um 4443 02:52:15,110 --> 02:52:11,359 hi sweetheart she knows the the secrets 4444 02:52:17,269 --> 02:52:15,120 of the universe it's so great sock rates 4445 02:52:20,630 --> 02:52:17,279 it's so great it's reincarnated 4446 02:52:23,030 --> 02:52:20,640 pilates he's talk she's tough pilates 4447 02:52:26,070 --> 02:52:23,040 she's just my sweet little girl oh my 4448 02:52:28,710 --> 02:52:26,080 god i just love her look at her oh she's 4449 02:52:29,830 --> 02:52:28,720 so cute hi sweetie it and here's the 4450 02:52:32,550 --> 02:52:29,840 thing is like 4451 02:52:33,990 --> 02:52:32,560 honestly like everybody loves their dog 4452 02:52:35,590 --> 02:52:34,000 and stuff but like 4453 02:52:37,910 --> 02:52:35,600 she can't see you she got to beat us 4454 02:52:39,830 --> 02:52:37,920 i've been high with her so many times 4455 02:52:43,110 --> 02:52:39,840 she's told me [\h__\h] 4456 02:52:44,389 --> 02:52:43,120 i didn't know like got me through some 4457 02:52:47,990 --> 02:52:44,399 [\h__\h] like 4458 02:52:49,670 --> 02:52:48,000 that i needed to know that stuff 4459 02:52:51,269 --> 02:52:49,680 so this is my little guardian angel 4460 02:52:53,910 --> 02:52:51,279 right here 4461 02:52:57,429 --> 02:52:53,920 really oh look at her oh 4462 02:53:01,910 --> 02:52:57,439 she does she really does we uh we met a 4463 02:53:04,230 --> 02:53:01,920 lady and she had told ben that he had a 4464 02:53:07,349 --> 02:53:04,240 uh a white manted 4465 02:53:09,110 --> 02:53:07,359 uh guide that followed him everywhere 4466 02:53:11,750 --> 02:53:09,120 and then she told me that i didn't have 4467 02:53:13,910 --> 02:53:11,760 a guide but i belonged to the lyrian 4468 02:53:15,590 --> 02:53:13,920 family and she was like that's probably 4469 02:53:17,349 --> 02:53:15,600 why you don't have a guide because 4470 02:53:18,550 --> 02:53:17,359 they're very independent 4471 02:53:20,790 --> 02:53:18,560 and then she said it was like you're 4472 02:53:21,910 --> 02:53:20,800 also a dwarf and i was like oh okay i 4473 02:53:24,150 --> 02:53:21,920 guess so 4474 02:53:26,950 --> 02:53:24,160 i was just making fun of you now you're 4475 02:53:31,269 --> 02:53:26,960 just making fun of me lady so 4476 02:53:35,830 --> 02:53:33,429 not only do you not have friends but you 4477 02:53:39,349 --> 02:53:35,840 you're you're short 4478 02:53:41,349 --> 02:53:39,359 you're so alone 4479 02:53:45,030 --> 02:53:41,359 you're like they're dark and you're like 4480 02:53:49,190 --> 02:53:47,510 you get in a dirt 4481 02:53:50,469 --> 02:53:49,200 she's like you're so spiritual and you 4482 02:53:53,110 --> 02:53:50,479 have a man 4483 02:53:54,790 --> 02:53:53,120 all right right idea yeah and you like 4484 02:53:59,269 --> 02:53:54,800 dirt you [\h__\h] 4485 02:54:03,110 --> 02:54:01,349 well thanks for introducing me to her 4486 02:54:04,830 --> 02:54:03,120 she's really cool 4487 02:54:08,469 --> 02:54:04,840 she's really 4488 02:54:11,510 --> 02:54:08,479 cool nibbler's a cool pup for sure i 4489 02:54:13,670 --> 02:54:11,520 remember when he got that dog 4490 02:54:15,349 --> 02:54:13,680 like he didn't like we lived in the same 4491 02:54:17,590 --> 02:54:15,359 apartment and he didn't talk to me for 4492 02:54:19,429 --> 02:54:17,600 days he loved that damn dog 4493 02:54:21,429 --> 02:54:19,439 he's ridiculous 4494 02:54:23,670 --> 02:54:21,439 really cool what did she do with the 4495 02:54:26,309 --> 02:54:23,680 baby how was she liking the baby 4496 02:54:27,349 --> 02:54:26,319 she sniffed our child 4497 02:54:29,349 --> 02:54:27,359 once 4498 02:54:31,590 --> 02:54:29,359 she is so jealous she won't even 4499 02:54:33,030 --> 02:54:31,600 acknowledge her she's like 4500 02:54:35,429 --> 02:54:33,040 not it 4501 02:54:38,070 --> 02:54:35,439 she's i'm the baby she's got cataracts 4502 02:54:40,309 --> 02:54:38,080 and uh a bad head she's like i'm the 4503 02:54:42,630 --> 02:54:40,319 oldest one in this house that's right 4504 02:54:44,150 --> 02:54:42,640 but i'm the baby yeah exactly that's 4505 02:54:46,389 --> 02:54:44,160 exactly 4506 02:54:49,349 --> 02:54:46,399 thank you now give me my my beatish oh 4507 02:54:51,750 --> 02:54:49,359 my baby 4508 02:54:53,190 --> 02:54:51,760 she got to beat us what time is it ben 4509 02:54:57,349 --> 02:54:53,200 gave her way too much 4510 02:55:01,349 --> 02:54:58,950 i didn't know that you couldn't strap a 4511 02:55:03,110 --> 02:55:01,359 camel back to the back of a pug and just 4512 02:55:07,190 --> 02:55:03,120 uh just uh 4513 02:55:09,030 --> 02:55:07,200 intravenously just kool-aid yeah 4514 02:55:11,349 --> 02:55:09,040 if i was gone for two days we'd just 4515 02:55:14,070 --> 02:55:11,359 give it a backpack full of kool-aid full 4516 02:55:16,469 --> 02:55:14,080 of gatorade right electrolytes dog needs 4517 02:55:22,710 --> 02:55:16,479 dogs need electrolytes 4518 02:55:27,750 --> 02:55:25,670 reading lately and she said that she saw 4519 02:55:30,469 --> 02:55:27,760 in that i had another dog coming it 4520 02:55:34,309 --> 02:55:30,479 would be a pug so that's interesting and 4521 02:55:40,070 --> 02:55:37,990 i think that's a great name right yes 4522 02:55:42,550 --> 02:55:40,080 i used to smoke two packs of winston's a 4523 02:55:42,560 --> 02:55:50,230 ready 4524 02:55:53,190 --> 02:55:51,030 yeah 4525 02:55:55,990 --> 02:55:53,200 winston's and mavericks and then i used 4526 02:56:01,110 --> 02:55:56,000 to roll my own cigarettes so i was very 4527 02:56:04,230 --> 02:56:01,830 yeah 4528 02:56:05,910 --> 02:56:04,240 or like like a major inconvenience 4529 02:56:07,830 --> 02:56:05,920 they're like oh [\h__\h] 4530 02:56:10,389 --> 02:56:07,840 i was not very popular in like 4531 02:56:11,670 --> 02:56:10,399 restaurants or like malls and things so 4532 02:56:13,510 --> 02:56:11,680 like people would always come and be 4533 02:56:15,510 --> 02:56:13,520 like hey you can't do that in here and 4534 02:56:17,110 --> 02:56:15,520 i'm like what roll a cigarette and 4535 02:56:19,190 --> 02:56:17,120 they're like oh that's that's a 4536 02:56:23,269 --> 02:56:19,200 cigarette i'm like 4537 02:56:27,269 --> 02:56:25,670 just a half 4538 02:56:29,349 --> 02:56:27,279 little spliff you know 4539 02:56:31,349 --> 02:56:29,359 like you like ask it like hey can i bum 4540 02:56:33,510 --> 02:56:31,359 a cigarette and somebody [\h__\h] 4541 02:56:37,190 --> 02:56:33,520 brings out a bag full of tobacco like 4542 02:56:42,389 --> 02:56:40,309 ben was more of a filter guy 4543 02:56:44,550 --> 02:56:42,399 i use a noodle 4544 02:56:45,990 --> 02:56:44,560 yes dude yes 4545 02:56:48,150 --> 02:56:46,000 man 4546 02:56:51,030 --> 02:56:48,160 guys this has been absolutely amazing 4547 02:56:51,750 --> 02:56:51,040 barbara i'm so glad you came on the show 4548 02:56:57,190 --> 02:56:51,760 yes 4549 02:56:58,710 --> 02:56:57,200 wait i feel like i know you too so 4550 02:56:59,830 --> 02:56:58,720 i'll have someone with me reading on 4551 02:57:01,349 --> 02:56:59,840 that right 4552 02:57:03,190 --> 02:57:01,359 right 4553 02:57:06,309 --> 02:57:03,200 i haven't even mentioned the stuff that 4554 02:57:09,910 --> 02:57:06,319 you hit on earlier like i 4555 02:57:12,710 --> 02:57:09,920 like the the checkered anyway 4556 02:57:15,510 --> 02:57:12,720 i feel like you know me more than i know 4557 02:57:18,309 --> 02:57:15,520 i know you but i feel like you picked up 4558 02:57:20,550 --> 02:57:18,319 on some stuff you've got something 4559 02:57:22,630 --> 02:57:20,560 i don't know what it is but it's it's a 4560 02:57:24,790 --> 02:57:22,640 magic i don't know what kind of magic 4561 02:57:25,510 --> 02:57:24,800 but it's a magic 4562 02:57:29,030 --> 02:57:25,520 thing 4563 02:57:30,150 --> 02:57:29,040 and i have absolutely 4564 02:57:40,870 --> 02:57:30,160 i 4565 02:57:43,190 --> 02:57:40,880 yeah thank you yeah thank you 4566 02:57:44,950 --> 02:57:43,200 well barbara we gotta have you back on i 4567 02:57:47,269 --> 02:57:44,960 would love that you have an open 4568 02:57:48,389 --> 02:57:47,279 invitation five events sometime that 4569 02:57:50,309 --> 02:57:48,399 would be fun 4570 02:57:52,870 --> 02:57:50,319 definitely definitely if you ever decide 4571 02:57:55,110 --> 02:57:52,880 you want to come out to texas sometime 4572 02:57:57,349 --> 02:57:55,120 uh yeah i'll let you know 4573 02:57:59,190 --> 02:57:57,359 he's from austin so 4574 02:58:02,469 --> 02:57:59,200 yeah my business partner so he knows 4575 02:58:05,110 --> 02:58:02,479 texas pretty well so perfect well yeah 4576 02:58:07,590 --> 02:58:05,120 you can come to our hometown and we're 4577 02:58:09,429 --> 02:58:07,600 known for uh 4578 02:58:12,150 --> 02:58:09,439 one of the top five barbecue restaurants 4579 02:58:13,670 --> 02:58:12,160 in the entire united states so and it's 4580 02:58:19,429 --> 02:58:13,680 right across the street from where we 4581 02:58:25,349 --> 02:58:23,030 yep yep so definitely let's uh let's 4582 02:58:28,230 --> 02:58:25,359 let's talk a little later because okay 4583 02:58:30,230 --> 02:58:28,240 we're hoping that if this event goes off 4584 02:58:32,389 --> 02:58:30,240 as a success 4585 02:58:34,550 --> 02:58:32,399 we want to grow the whole thing because 4586 02:58:37,030 --> 02:58:34,560 our whole thing is like we love 4587 02:58:39,349 --> 02:58:37,040 conferences and stuff right but like 4588 02:58:42,630 --> 02:58:39,359 you know the speakers get like 30 to 45 4589 02:58:45,910 --> 02:58:42,640 minutes and it's just not enough time 4590 02:58:49,030 --> 02:58:45,920 so terry lives up in in the dallas area 4591 02:58:52,309 --> 02:58:49,040 and we were like let's host an event and 4592 02:58:55,030 --> 02:58:52,319 have one speaker come and let them speak 4593 02:58:58,070 --> 02:58:55,040 for an entire three hours tell their 4594 02:59:00,070 --> 02:58:58,080 story and let people get to know them 4595 02:59:02,790 --> 02:59:00,080 you know so that's kind of the vibe we 4596 02:59:04,070 --> 02:59:02,800 want to look at that yeah 4597 02:59:07,429 --> 02:59:04,080 but deep 4598 02:59:09,830 --> 02:59:07,439 exactly exactly so and uh it's gonna be 4599 02:59:11,190 --> 02:59:09,840 a good time it's gonna be a lot of fun 4600 02:59:13,990 --> 02:59:11,200 barbara if that's something that you're 4601 02:59:16,389 --> 02:59:14,000 interested in let's definitely talk uh 4602 02:59:17,510 --> 02:59:16,399 because the next event could be uh you 4603 02:59:21,750 --> 02:59:17,520 know 4604 02:59:23,590 --> 02:59:21,760 i would be honored 4605 02:59:26,309 --> 02:59:23,600 and give terry my love 4606 02:59:30,230 --> 02:59:26,319 will do i definitely will i definitely 4607 02:59:32,230 --> 02:59:30,240 will we'll lace it in there thank you 4608 02:59:34,070 --> 02:59:32,240 i caught that bin i like that 4609 02:59:35,990 --> 02:59:34,080 one 4610 02:59:37,830 --> 02:59:36,000 all right barbara hey this has been 4611 02:59:40,870 --> 02:59:37,840 great thank you so much for coming on 4612 02:59:43,670 --> 02:59:40,880 tonight thank you barbara you're awesome 4613 02:59:44,710 --> 02:59:43,680 thank you we'll talk to you later 4614 02:59:47,990 --> 02:59:44,720 bye 4615 02:59:49,830 --> 02:59:48,000 we'll see you later 4616 02:59:50,870 --> 02:59:49,840 no nice 4617 02:59:52,790 --> 02:59:50,880 oh 4618 02:59:54,230 --> 02:59:52,800 now you see why i was so bummed when she 4619 02:59:57,190 --> 02:59:54,240 couldn't make it 4620 03:00:00,150 --> 02:59:57,200 dude i know here's the thing is like i 4621 03:00:02,550 --> 03:00:00,160 love this aspect of our show where this 4622 03:00:06,790 --> 03:00:02,560 is how it's always been it's like 4623 03:00:08,150 --> 03:00:06,800 you you find the the cool [\h__\h] 4624 03:00:11,190 --> 03:00:08,160 and i'm like 4625 03:00:14,230 --> 03:00:11,200 what do you mean and then 4626 03:00:15,990 --> 03:00:14,240 we talk about the cool [\h__\h] 4627 03:00:20,550 --> 03:00:16,000 it's evolved 4628 03:00:23,190 --> 03:00:20,560 dad 4629 03:00:24,389 --> 03:00:23,200 dude that was the coolest [\h__\h] we 4630 03:00:27,269 --> 03:00:24,399 literally got 4631 03:00:29,429 --> 03:00:27,279 a reading on our past lives dude how 4632 03:00:31,830 --> 03:00:29,439 cool was that 4633 03:00:34,070 --> 03:00:31,840 i i know i know we're both afraid of 4634 03:00:35,750 --> 03:00:34,080 like getting our like like a like an 4635 03:00:40,230 --> 03:00:35,760 aggres uh 4636 03:00:43,750 --> 03:00:41,830 i see an aggression from you every time 4637 03:00:44,790 --> 03:00:43,760 i talk to you on the [\h__\h] 4638 03:00:46,540 --> 03:00:44,800 phone 4639 03:00:48,710 --> 03:00:46,550 the [\h__\h] dirt 4640 03:00:51,429 --> 03:00:48,720 [Laughter] 4641 03:00:54,469 --> 03:00:51,439 the holy [\h__\h] working it 4642 03:00:57,110 --> 03:00:54,479 we know we're both afraid to get enemas 4643 03:01:01,349 --> 03:00:59,670 so uh man 4644 03:01:07,429 --> 03:01:01,359 that was 4645 03:01:08,870 --> 03:01:07,439 i needed that last uh the last few 4646 03:01:11,269 --> 03:01:08,880 months 4647 03:01:13,910 --> 03:01:11,279 i have been kind of like 4648 03:01:16,230 --> 03:01:13,920 just in search for for some soul stuff 4649 03:01:17,110 --> 03:01:16,240 man i think that was that filled my soul 4650 03:01:19,429 --> 03:01:17,120 stuff 4651 03:01:21,510 --> 03:01:19,439 yeah if that means yeah 4652 03:01:23,510 --> 03:01:21,520 not not that any of our other guests 4653 03:01:25,030 --> 03:01:23,520 didn't fill that it was just like i 4654 03:01:26,469 --> 03:01:25,040 needed to hear some of the stuff she had 4655 03:01:29,910 --> 03:01:26,479 to say 4656 03:01:33,190 --> 03:01:29,920 yeah for sure man like 4657 03:01:35,590 --> 03:01:33,200 dude i've had such like a 4658 03:01:38,389 --> 03:01:35,600 like this month has been just really 4659 03:01:39,590 --> 03:01:38,399 tough i mean you know i i i call you 4660 03:01:41,830 --> 03:01:39,600 invent 4661 03:01:44,950 --> 03:01:41,840 from time to time yeah it's just been so 4662 03:01:47,670 --> 03:01:44,960 tough man i i mean like and and and 4663 03:01:50,309 --> 03:01:47,680 barbara really like 4664 03:01:53,429 --> 03:01:50,319 she kind of put life into perspective a 4665 03:01:55,269 --> 03:01:53,439 little bit like she she 4666 03:01:57,429 --> 03:01:55,279 she talked me off the cliff you know 4667 03:01:59,510 --> 03:01:57,439 what i'm saying like figuratively she 4668 03:02:02,630 --> 03:01:59,520 talked me off the cliff a little bit 4669 03:02:05,349 --> 03:02:02,640 yeah and it and it felt so good like 4670 03:02:08,630 --> 03:02:05,359 it's exactly what i needed it really is 4671 03:02:09,750 --> 03:02:08,640 man it really is it's exactly what i 4672 03:02:10,790 --> 03:02:09,760 needed 4673 03:02:12,469 --> 03:02:10,800 to hear 4674 03:02:15,910 --> 03:02:12,479 and just like 4675 03:02:16,950 --> 03:02:15,920 you know this show man is is the is you 4676 03:02:20,710 --> 03:02:16,960 know 4677 03:02:24,070 --> 03:02:20,720 it used to be music music was the thing 4678 03:02:27,269 --> 03:02:24,080 that took me away and just let me be 4679 03:02:29,349 --> 03:02:27,279 in my place my meditation state 4680 03:02:31,990 --> 03:02:29,359 that's what this show is now man you 4681 03:02:35,030 --> 03:02:32,000 know like i could be having the worst of 4682 03:02:37,670 --> 03:02:35,040 days but as soon as we hop on 4683 03:02:40,389 --> 03:02:37,680 it all goes away man and 4684 03:02:42,950 --> 03:02:40,399 and barbara was just perfect for tonight 4685 03:02:45,349 --> 03:02:42,960 man like i you know it's almost like 4686 03:02:47,750 --> 03:02:45,359 her missing that show 4687 03:02:50,150 --> 03:02:47,760 uh two weeks ago was almost like a 4688 03:02:51,269 --> 03:02:50,160 synchronicity that she showed up 4689 03:02:55,269 --> 03:02:51,279 absolutely 4690 03:02:59,030 --> 03:02:55,279 i was like i was not in the headspace 4691 03:03:02,070 --> 03:02:59,040 to do the show we did tonight like 4692 03:03:06,230 --> 03:03:02,080 that's why i oh i try to approach things 4693 03:03:09,910 --> 03:03:06,240 man like i'm not always great at it 4694 03:03:11,590 --> 03:03:09,920 because i'm an anxious [\h__\h] add 4695 03:03:12,550 --> 03:03:11,600 crazy person 4696 03:03:18,550 --> 03:03:12,560 yeah 4697 03:03:21,429 --> 03:03:18,560 an over stressed overworked uh just 4698 03:03:24,230 --> 03:03:21,439 anxiety kind of with a great haircut 4699 03:03:25,269 --> 03:03:24,240 with a great haircut 4700 03:03:26,630 --> 03:03:25,279 but 4701 03:03:28,389 --> 03:03:26,640 honestly like 4702 03:03:29,830 --> 03:03:28,399 i i need you 4703 03:03:32,790 --> 03:03:29,840 to to 4704 03:03:34,950 --> 03:03:32,800 i'm gonna back you up on that like 4705 03:03:36,150 --> 03:03:34,960 the time that barbara was gonna be on 4706 03:03:37,590 --> 03:03:36,160 our show 4707 03:03:40,870 --> 03:03:37,600 wasn't the time 4708 03:03:43,750 --> 03:03:40,880 no this was the time it was i can't tell 4709 03:03:45,030 --> 03:03:43,760 you how many [\h__\h] dude i'm like 4710 03:03:47,190 --> 03:03:45,040 fighting back tears right now like 4711 03:03:48,710 --> 03:03:47,200 honestly in the moment right now 4712 03:03:52,550 --> 03:03:48,720 as she was saying the [\h__\h] she was 4713 03:03:55,030 --> 03:03:52,560 saying i would not feel the same way um 4714 03:03:57,349 --> 03:03:55,040 a couple weeks ago because i was in a 4715 03:03:59,190 --> 03:03:57,359 different head space like yeah for sure 4716 03:04:02,150 --> 03:03:59,200 for sure it would not have meant the 4717 03:04:04,790 --> 03:04:02,160 same and dude like this this journey 4718 03:04:06,950 --> 03:04:04,800 dude like this starts with me being 4719 03:04:09,750 --> 03:04:06,960 interested in aliens dude 4720 03:04:12,469 --> 03:04:09,760 [\h__\h] love the idea of aliens 4721 03:04:13,190 --> 03:04:12,479 and then it gets into this idea of like 4722 03:04:15,110 --> 03:04:13,200 oh 4723 03:04:16,870 --> 03:04:15,120 the spirituality [\h__\h] and you and i were 4724 03:04:24,550 --> 03:04:16,880 like 4725 03:04:27,190 --> 03:04:24,560 there's no way that it's that's a thing 4726 03:04:30,150 --> 03:04:27,200 there's aliens with boobs okay there's 4727 03:04:32,710 --> 03:04:30,160 14 boobs enough for all of us and that's 4728 03:04:37,830 --> 03:04:36,389 so so like 4729 03:04:39,030 --> 03:04:37,840 wait wait there's a point i'm going to 4730 03:04:40,469 --> 03:04:39,040 make a point 4731 03:04:44,309 --> 03:04:40,479 okay 4732 03:04:47,030 --> 03:04:45,030 so 4733 03:04:48,389 --> 03:04:47,040 what i'm milking out of this whole thing 4734 03:04:51,670 --> 03:04:48,399 is 4735 03:04:53,510 --> 03:04:51,680 um it happened at the exact time it was 4736 03:04:55,830 --> 03:04:53,520 supposed to happen um 4737 03:04:59,830 --> 03:04:55,840 she said some [\h__\h] that just cut to my 4738 03:05:01,429 --> 03:04:59,840 core did it cut the ear for all dude yes 4739 03:05:03,030 --> 03:05:01,439 yes 4740 03:05:07,269 --> 03:05:03,040 like 4741 03:05:09,429 --> 03:05:07,279 past life reading 4742 03:05:11,590 --> 03:05:09,439 it was like 4743 03:05:15,349 --> 03:05:11,600 holy [\h__\h] like 4744 03:05:18,630 --> 03:05:15,359 i'm i'm almost living the exact life 4745 03:05:20,309 --> 03:05:18,640 that my past life was 4746 03:05:21,750 --> 03:05:20,319 but like 4747 03:05:23,830 --> 03:05:21,760 it's almost like 4748 03:05:26,389 --> 03:05:23,840 with smaller nipples with smaller 4749 03:05:28,230 --> 03:05:26,399 nipples and i don't have as cool of 4750 03:05:29,590 --> 03:05:28,240 clothes 4751 03:05:32,309 --> 03:05:29,600 you know what i'm saying it was like it 4752 03:05:35,429 --> 03:05:32,319 was almost like my what what i got from 4753 03:05:37,910 --> 03:05:35,439 it dude is that my my current life 4754 03:05:40,870 --> 03:05:37,920 is trying to 4755 03:05:44,469 --> 03:05:40,880 um like echo that 4756 03:05:46,230 --> 03:05:44,479 echo it but also like 4757 03:05:48,309 --> 03:05:46,240 you know when she was like when she was 4758 03:05:50,230 --> 03:05:48,319 saying that like this is what you do 4759 03:05:51,190 --> 03:05:50,240 right this is what you did in your past 4760 03:05:54,150 --> 03:05:51,200 life 4761 03:05:56,630 --> 03:05:54,160 um and it's like whoa that's exactly 4762 03:05:58,710 --> 03:05:56,640 what i'm currently doing 4763 03:06:01,349 --> 03:05:58,720 and it's like my current life is now 4764 03:06:03,110 --> 03:06:01,359 trying to take it a step further 4765 03:06:05,830 --> 03:06:03,120 when she said but 4766 03:06:08,309 --> 03:06:05,840 it feels like you're tired of this whole 4767 03:06:09,590 --> 03:06:08,319 thing like you're trying to bring people 4768 03:06:11,590 --> 03:06:09,600 to you 4769 03:06:13,429 --> 03:06:11,600 yeah and that might be what the show is 4770 03:06:16,070 --> 03:06:13,439 and i was like it's a huge thing [\h__\h] 4771 03:06:17,830 --> 03:06:16,080 dude like that's exactly like it's like 4772 03:06:22,150 --> 03:06:17,840 my past life 4773 03:06:24,630 --> 03:06:22,160 trying to grow 4774 03:06:26,150 --> 03:06:24,640 into that next stage of like let's bring 4775 03:06:27,190 --> 03:06:26,160 the love 4776 03:06:31,110 --> 03:06:27,200 to us 4777 03:06:33,429 --> 03:06:31,120 you know like it was it was it was 4778 03:06:35,510 --> 03:06:33,439 oh it was almost a little emotional like 4779 03:06:37,990 --> 03:06:35,520 almost got a little teary-eyed in 4780 03:06:40,070 --> 03:06:38,000 certain portions of tonight's show i'm 4781 03:06:42,070 --> 03:06:40,080 not even gonna lie 80 percent of this 4782 03:06:45,349 --> 03:06:42,080 die i almost cried eighty percent of 4783 03:06:47,190 --> 03:06:45,359 this [\h__\h] show i had i had zero 4784 03:06:51,830 --> 03:06:47,200 i had zero 4785 03:06:53,429 --> 03:06:51,840 um need to make any sort of dick joke 4786 03:06:56,070 --> 03:06:53,439 you know what i'm saying like that's how 4787 03:06:59,110 --> 03:06:56,080 important tonight was that is that's a 4788 03:07:00,870 --> 03:06:59,120 rarity we made zero dick jokes tonight 4789 03:07:03,510 --> 03:07:00,880 and 4790 03:07:05,349 --> 03:07:03,520 that's a huge step dude that's a huge 4791 03:07:07,429 --> 03:07:05,359 deal that's what people would like to 4792 03:07:08,389 --> 03:07:07,439 call growth yeah 4793 03:07:09,990 --> 03:07:08,399 that's it 4794 03:07:12,630 --> 03:07:10,000 that's the direction if i've ever heard 4795 03:07:13,349 --> 03:07:12,640 of one i've got one in yes what'd you 4796 03:07:15,910 --> 03:07:13,359 say 4797 03:07:18,230 --> 03:07:15,920 oh i said in my pants and i immediately 4798 03:07:19,830 --> 03:07:18,240 said like an erection so we did it at 4799 03:07:20,630 --> 03:07:19,840 the same time we made dick jokes at the 4800 03:07:25,510 --> 03:07:20,640 same time 4801 03:07:30,950 --> 03:07:26,790 so 4802 03:07:33,190 --> 03:07:30,960 man we're we're all stuck in 19 4803 03:07:35,750 --> 03:07:33,200 somebody somebody asked oh chad smith 4804 03:07:38,230 --> 03:07:35,760 asked ben what did she say 4805 03:07:39,429 --> 03:07:38,240 um what did she hit on that you were 4806 03:07:42,790 --> 03:07:39,439 shocked about 4807 03:07:45,269 --> 03:07:42,800 oh share any of it yes actually yes chad 4808 03:07:47,670 --> 03:07:45,279 [\h__\h] love chad by the way 4809 03:07:50,870 --> 03:07:47,680 freaking love chat and bonnie our our 4810 03:07:53,670 --> 03:07:50,880 new uh left left brain uh uh 4811 03:07:57,190 --> 03:07:53,680 partner and they said we can write off 4812 03:07:58,950 --> 03:07:57,200 our taxes our wine on our taxes for real 4813 03:08:00,389 --> 03:07:58,960 bonnie you're a new or uh uh what are 4814 03:08:02,630 --> 03:08:00,399 you a cpa 4815 03:08:06,070 --> 03:08:02,640 we're gonna we're gonna save thousands 4816 03:08:09,830 --> 03:08:06,080 of dollars we're gonna save 4817 03:08:12,309 --> 03:08:09,840 made ten dollars this month uh so chad 4818 03:08:14,150 --> 03:08:12,319 the what she hit on 4819 03:08:18,469 --> 03:08:14,160 and i was trying not to like 4820 03:08:19,750 --> 03:08:18,479 give like i'm very uh emotive right like 4821 03:08:20,550 --> 03:08:19,760 you know what i'm you know what i'm 4822 03:08:21,349 --> 03:08:20,560 thinking 4823 03:08:23,750 --> 03:08:21,359 yeah 4824 03:08:25,590 --> 03:08:23,760 my face it's variant whatever i'm a 4825 03:08:28,309 --> 03:08:25,600 [\h__\h] cartoon character 4826 03:08:30,230 --> 03:08:28,319 i was trying to hold back and uh this 4827 03:08:31,750 --> 03:08:30,240 very specific thing was when she was 4828 03:08:33,429 --> 03:08:31,760 talking about the white and black 4829 03:08:34,550 --> 03:08:33,439 checkerboard do you remember that 4830 03:08:35,510 --> 03:08:34,560 specific 4831 03:08:37,990 --> 03:08:35,520 yeah 4832 03:08:39,990 --> 03:08:38,000 and she was talking about 4833 03:08:42,550 --> 03:08:40,000 this 4834 03:08:44,710 --> 03:08:42,560 idea of 4835 03:08:46,870 --> 03:08:44,720 correct me if i'm wrong dude like when 4836 03:08:49,590 --> 03:08:46,880 she was going she was going like stream 4837 03:08:52,630 --> 03:08:49,600 of consciousness dude yeah she wasn't 4838 03:08:59,990 --> 03:08:57,269 saying something dude i don't know 4839 03:09:04,870 --> 03:09:00,000 i'm so good with words 4840 03:09:07,910 --> 03:09:06,630 i thought you were a poet dude your last 4841 03:09:11,429 --> 03:09:07,920 life dude 4842 03:09:13,510 --> 03:09:11,439 i told her it was songs like very songs 4843 03:09:18,950 --> 03:09:13,520 and she said that she was like very 4844 03:09:21,750 --> 03:09:20,550 listen to any song that i've ever 4845 03:09:24,229 --> 03:09:21,760 written it's like 4846 03:09:26,710 --> 03:09:24,239 14 words 4847 03:09:30,469 --> 03:09:26,720 they're very short uh but the the 4848 03:09:33,750 --> 03:09:30,479 specific was the black and white texture 4849 03:09:36,790 --> 03:09:33,760 uh sorry a tiled floor my kitchen 4850 03:09:38,710 --> 03:09:36,800 growing up from the age of two 4851 03:09:40,790 --> 03:09:38,720 to ten 4852 03:09:43,190 --> 03:09:40,800 we our kitchen was like this black and 4853 03:09:46,150 --> 03:09:43,200 white tile 4854 03:09:47,990 --> 03:09:46,160 but there was like this old 4855 03:09:49,990 --> 03:09:48,000 we lived in this haunted house we lived 4856 03:09:52,790 --> 03:09:50,000 in a hottest haunted house it was 4857 03:09:55,190 --> 03:09:52,800 haunted as [\h__\h] to like 4858 03:09:57,590 --> 03:09:55,200 we saw ghost activity 4859 03:09:59,990 --> 03:09:57,600 on a regular basis we like 4860 03:10:03,110 --> 03:10:00,000 made it a joke we were like oh yeah this 4861 03:10:05,910 --> 03:10:03,120 is just uh old doctor 4862 03:10:07,830 --> 03:10:05,920 [\h__\h] stevens 4863 03:10:10,150 --> 03:10:07,840 you know trying to you know 4864 03:10:12,229 --> 03:10:10,160 say hey wear a [\h__\h] helmet like he 4865 03:10:14,630 --> 03:10:12,239 wasn't a bad ghost like i would have a 4866 03:10:16,389 --> 03:10:14,640 you know the razor scooter right yeah 4867 03:10:18,070 --> 03:10:16,399 leaned up against the the door in the 4868 03:10:20,550 --> 03:10:18,080 entryway 4869 03:10:22,550 --> 03:10:20,560 and if i didn't wear a helmet 4870 03:10:25,750 --> 03:10:22,560 he would [\h__\h] knock that [\h__\h] over he 4871 03:10:28,790 --> 03:10:25,760 would knock my scooter over 4872 03:10:31,269 --> 03:10:28,800 as i was headed out as a kid 4873 03:10:32,950 --> 03:10:31,279 running mom i'll be back before the 4874 03:10:35,830 --> 03:10:32,960 light you know the street lights turn 4875 03:10:38,469 --> 03:10:35,840 out my [\h__\h] scooter would be pushed 4876 03:10:41,670 --> 03:10:38,479 the [\h__\h] over dude like we had a ghost 4877 03:10:44,630 --> 03:10:41,680 living in our damn house bro 4878 03:10:46,950 --> 03:10:44,640 and that like black and white uh 4879 03:10:49,030 --> 03:10:46,960 tile kitchen i always just thought that 4880 03:10:51,349 --> 03:10:49,040 was so creepy and then later on in life 4881 03:10:54,870 --> 03:10:51,359 i see these movies like uh 4882 03:10:58,150 --> 03:10:54,880 eyes white's eye eyes wide shut yeah you 4883 03:11:03,269 --> 03:10:58,160 know i like that that uh aspect of 4884 03:11:10,229 --> 03:11:06,070 there's no there's no connection i'm i'm 4885 03:11:12,389 --> 03:11:10,239 not saying that i was you know 4886 03:11:15,349 --> 03:11:12,399 at any point connected to that but that 4887 03:11:17,510 --> 03:11:15,359 that pattern is a very sentimental thing 4888 03:11:20,150 --> 03:11:17,520 for me so the fact that she brought that 4889 03:11:25,590 --> 03:11:20,160 up was [\h__\h] nuts 4890 03:11:29,670 --> 03:11:28,070 what would compel her to bring up that 4891 03:11:32,790 --> 03:11:29,680 pattern 4892 03:11:35,590 --> 03:11:32,800 other than that had a very significant i 4893 03:11:39,030 --> 03:11:35,600 i think about that often i told 4894 03:11:41,590 --> 03:11:39,040 jess this often like i think about that 4895 03:11:42,790 --> 03:11:41,600 that that pattern often all the time 4896 03:11:44,630 --> 03:11:42,800 dude i don't know why give him one 4897 03:11:46,870 --> 03:11:44,640 second keep talking to chad and and the 4898 03:11:48,630 --> 03:11:46,880 group my dog keeps [\h__\h] making weird 4899 03:11:53,510 --> 03:11:48,640 ass noises hold on why don't we do one 4900 03:12:00,309 --> 03:11:55,670 chad yum 4901 03:12:02,830 --> 03:12:00,319 yum where are you at chad chad you're 4902 03:12:11,910 --> 03:12:02,840 more you read oh he's probably at work 4903 03:12:20,229 --> 03:12:14,710 okay i'm supposed to be feeling uh uh 4904 03:12:22,710 --> 03:12:20,239 dead air here we go here we go 509 also 4905 03:12:24,950 --> 03:12:22,720 509 we haven't even 4906 03:12:26,469 --> 03:12:24,960 talked to you on our show like in a 4907 03:12:28,950 --> 03:12:26,479 legit way 4908 03:12:32,229 --> 03:12:28,960 we need to have you on 4909 03:12:41,750 --> 03:12:32,239 for like six hours we need to dedicate a 4910 03:12:49,429 --> 03:12:43,590 oh [\h__\h] lou 4911 03:12:52,710 --> 03:12:51,830 let me let me set a little message let's 4912 03:12:56,790 --> 03:12:52,720 see 4913 03:13:01,269 --> 03:12:56,800 after hours 4914 03:13:04,469 --> 03:13:02,630 this little guy just wanted to come hang 4915 03:13:06,389 --> 03:13:04,479 out 4916 03:13:09,349 --> 03:13:06,399 that's your little boy 4917 03:13:11,500 --> 03:13:09,359 that's that boy and my boy nobody knows 4918 03:13:14,309 --> 03:13:11,510 about that boys 4919 03:13:16,150 --> 03:13:14,319 [Music] 4920 03:13:17,830 --> 03:13:16,160 you want to come hang out 4921 03:13:20,550 --> 03:13:17,840 make it all kind of 4922 03:13:22,870 --> 03:13:20,560 about that boy he does this thing dude 4923 03:13:25,269 --> 03:13:22,880 where he comes and like he like 4924 03:13:27,190 --> 03:13:25,279 scratches at my door like two times and 4925 03:13:29,349 --> 03:13:27,200 then he like runs off goes down the 4926 03:13:31,590 --> 03:13:29,359 stairs and he'll come back 4927 03:13:33,670 --> 03:13:31,600 and he'll scratch at the door two times 4928 03:13:35,830 --> 03:13:33,680 and then like he'll run away and go down 4929 03:13:37,269 --> 03:13:35,840 the stairs and then run back like i 4930 03:13:38,870 --> 03:13:37,279 don't know what he's i never know what 4931 03:13:41,670 --> 03:13:38,880 he's doing you never know what he's 4932 03:13:46,389 --> 03:13:41,680 doing down there 4933 03:13:51,110 --> 03:13:48,630 dude i'm i'm i'm kind of at a loss for 4934 03:13:52,950 --> 03:13:51,120 words honestly like barbara was amazing 4935 03:13:56,630 --> 03:13:52,960 dude i want to get oh i kind of want to 4936 03:13:59,429 --> 03:13:56,640 get some some audience um uh 4937 03:14:02,630 --> 03:13:59,439 i don't know aftermath thoughts of this 4938 03:14:05,510 --> 03:14:02,640 yeah some a little participation or our 4939 03:14:08,229 --> 03:14:05,520 boy lou from ucr i mean i'm gonna send 4940 03:14:11,429 --> 03:14:08,239 him a little little little ching ro he 4941 03:14:12,630 --> 03:14:11,439 said he's in chad's at work so i mean 4942 03:14:17,269 --> 03:14:12,640 [\h__\h] 4943 03:14:19,670 --> 03:14:17,279 yeah dude thank you so much man uh 4944 03:14:21,830 --> 03:14:19,680 for the the super chat man that's like 4945 03:14:25,750 --> 03:14:21,840 uh yeah seriously our biggest super chat 4946 03:14:26,550 --> 03:14:25,760 ever dude i love it man i loved it 4947 03:14:32,309 --> 03:14:26,560 uh 4948 03:14:34,550 --> 03:14:32,319 were here tonight were 4949 03:14:37,349 --> 03:14:34,560 it's freaking awesome man like you and 4950 03:14:40,389 --> 03:14:37,359 you know it was a huge factor of that 4951 03:14:42,550 --> 03:14:40,399 i think recently was the what was big 4952 03:14:45,269 --> 03:14:42,560 willy man like 4953 03:14:46,229 --> 03:14:45,279 me having having a little baby 4954 03:14:49,349 --> 03:14:46,239 um 4955 03:14:52,630 --> 03:14:49,359 and not having a lot of uh 4956 03:14:55,910 --> 03:14:52,640 man we we've had to kind of uh finagle a 4957 03:14:57,590 --> 03:14:55,920 lot of stuff and william has just been 4958 03:15:00,229 --> 03:14:57,600 helping us out 4959 03:15:03,590 --> 03:15:00,239 a [\h__\h] ton dude he stepped up man 4960 03:15:05,190 --> 03:15:03,600 stepped up to the plate and we look we 4961 03:15:07,429 --> 03:15:05,200 we just we 4962 03:15:10,630 --> 03:15:07,439 we love the guy 4963 03:15:13,030 --> 03:15:10,640 yeah we're like dude come be in the 4964 03:15:15,030 --> 03:15:13,040 garage and hang out 4965 03:15:17,190 --> 03:15:15,040 and just have your own show like that 4966 03:15:19,990 --> 03:15:17,200 was that was the precipice of this whole 4967 03:15:23,030 --> 03:15:20,000 thing and dude the the flat earth thing 4968 03:15:25,349 --> 03:15:23,040 that he did on sunday yeah dude 4969 03:15:28,309 --> 03:15:25,359 it's got like it's like over a thousand 4970 03:15:30,630 --> 03:15:28,319 views like way more than we've ever had 4971 03:15:34,309 --> 03:15:30,640 dude and flat earth people are pretty 4972 03:15:36,630 --> 03:15:34,319 snarky yes i'm not even gonna lie dude 4973 03:15:38,309 --> 03:15:36,640 everybody was so like 4974 03:15:39,750 --> 03:15:38,319 they were like well go with your 4975 03:15:43,030 --> 03:15:39,760 dogmatic 4976 03:15:45,590 --> 03:15:43,040 religious round earthing-ness it was 4977 03:15:48,070 --> 03:15:45,600 like oh [\h__\h] like it was almost like 4978 03:15:50,150 --> 03:15:48,080 respective building though like is that 4979 03:15:53,590 --> 03:15:50,160 the way ufo people sound 4980 03:15:55,510 --> 03:15:53,600 i don't exactly it was kind of like but 4981 03:15:58,469 --> 03:15:55,520 you know i don't they were very snarky 4982 03:16:00,710 --> 03:15:58,479 though they were kind of snarky hey well 4983 03:16:02,550 --> 03:16:00,720 we gotta we got a special guest here 4984 03:16:04,229 --> 03:16:02,560 tonight we got lewis 4985 03:16:05,670 --> 03:16:04,239 from uh 4986 03:16:07,110 --> 03:16:05,680 ucr 4987 03:16:08,950 --> 03:16:07,120 what's up buddy 4988 03:16:11,269 --> 03:16:08,960 what's up boys 4989 03:16:13,910 --> 03:16:11,279 how you doing good man how are you my 4990 03:16:16,070 --> 03:16:13,920 boys in the garage 4991 03:16:18,150 --> 03:16:16,080 i've been listening 4992 03:16:20,150 --> 03:16:18,160 in and out you know just uh eating 4993 03:16:22,150 --> 03:16:20,160 dinner and stuff and 4994 03:16:24,389 --> 03:16:22,160 and uh catching up on work 4995 03:16:26,950 --> 03:16:24,399 so yeah i was uh digging the 4996 03:16:28,469 --> 03:16:26,960 conversation that was cool 4997 03:16:30,710 --> 03:16:28,479 yeah yeah 4998 03:16:32,309 --> 03:16:30,720 she's a really cool lady we met around 4999 03:16:34,309 --> 03:16:32,319 san francisco 5000 03:16:35,830 --> 03:16:34,319 and uh 5001 03:16:37,510 --> 03:16:35,840 ben i don't think had a conversation 5002 03:16:39,510 --> 03:16:37,520 with her but i i chatted with her a 5003 03:16:41,510 --> 03:16:39,520 little bit and she ended up giving me 5004 03:16:43,110 --> 03:16:41,520 her book once again for everybody out 5005 03:16:44,389 --> 03:16:43,120 there if you want to check it out dying 5006 03:16:47,110 --> 03:16:44,399 for the light 5007 03:16:49,750 --> 03:16:47,120 [\h__\h] dude it's freaking amazing it's 5008 03:16:53,190 --> 03:16:49,760 such a cool book just to sit down and 5009 03:16:55,510 --> 03:16:53,200 read man like it's so good barbara is 5010 03:16:58,150 --> 03:16:55,520 barbara is a fascinating 5011 03:16:59,429 --> 03:16:58,160 human being is she based out of uh 5012 03:17:02,070 --> 03:16:59,439 california 5013 03:17:04,309 --> 03:17:02,080 yeah man yeah yeah i would stop by and 5014 03:17:07,110 --> 03:17:04,319 see her she said ellie she's in your 5015 03:17:09,190 --> 03:17:07,120 town bro i know she hit her up man have 5016 03:17:12,070 --> 03:17:09,200 her on the show and chat with her dude 5017 03:17:14,309 --> 03:17:12,080 no you're fun man uh yeah that was a it 5018 03:17:15,750 --> 03:17:14,319 was a cool show man and uh i like when 5019 03:17:17,590 --> 03:17:15,760 you guys um 5020 03:17:18,710 --> 03:17:17,600 wear the emotion on the sleeves you know 5021 03:17:20,469 --> 03:17:18,720 like it's 5022 03:17:22,790 --> 03:17:20,479 like when you're honest with like you 5023 03:17:24,550 --> 03:17:22,800 know the stuff that i and you know 5024 03:17:27,110 --> 03:17:24,560 everybody goes through it man like 5025 03:17:30,550 --> 03:17:27,120 everybody has their moments and 5026 03:17:33,190 --> 03:17:30,560 and those those walls that they hit 5027 03:17:34,790 --> 03:17:33,200 those life walls that just smack and 5028 03:17:37,670 --> 03:17:34,800 you're just like look up at it you're 5029 03:17:40,389 --> 03:17:37,680 like okay how am i gonna get over this 5030 03:17:41,750 --> 03:17:40,399 um how am i gonna conquer this wall it 5031 03:17:42,710 --> 03:17:41,760 feels like 5032 03:17:48,790 --> 03:17:42,720 um 5033 03:17:51,269 --> 03:17:48,800 yeah yeah we gotta talk after the show 5034 03:17:55,830 --> 03:17:51,279 yeah for sure man i mean that's a big 5035 03:17:58,229 --> 03:17:55,840 part of it man is like this show is is 5036 03:18:00,950 --> 03:17:58,239 it's goofy it's fun 5037 03:18:03,349 --> 03:18:00,960 we have a good time we get drunk uh but 5038 03:18:05,830 --> 03:18:03,359 dude it's it's very real man and that's 5039 03:18:07,349 --> 03:18:05,840 one of the things that we love about it 5040 03:18:09,510 --> 03:18:07,359 is is 5041 03:18:11,349 --> 03:18:09,520 no matter what you're going through who 5042 03:18:13,830 --> 03:18:11,359 you are what you're seeing what you 5043 03:18:15,670 --> 03:18:13,840 experience like we're all human beings 5044 03:18:17,910 --> 03:18:15,680 at the end of the day man 5045 03:18:20,550 --> 03:18:17,920 you know and we all have stuff that 5046 03:18:23,269 --> 03:18:20,560 we're dealing with you know some people 5047 03:18:25,510 --> 03:18:23,279 are dealing with trying to struggle to 5048 03:18:29,349 --> 03:18:25,520 pay bills and some people are struggling 5049 03:18:32,150 --> 03:18:29,359 to pay bills and aliens so you know so 5050 03:18:35,030 --> 03:18:32,160 right yeah yeah it's good to just get it 5051 03:18:37,269 --> 03:18:35,040 off your chest and talk no man no it's 5052 03:18:39,110 --> 03:18:37,279 for sure dude and like 5053 03:18:40,870 --> 03:18:39,120 i love the thing that struck me about 5054 03:18:42,710 --> 03:18:40,880 what she was talking about is this idea 5055 03:18:43,910 --> 03:18:42,720 of um 5056 03:18:45,349 --> 03:18:43,920 you know like 5057 03:18:47,750 --> 03:18:45,359 it's okay 5058 03:18:52,790 --> 03:18:51,269 take care of yourself uh you know like 5059 03:18:54,550 --> 03:18:52,800 there's no reason why these people 5060 03:18:56,150 --> 03:18:54,560 around you should be going on vacations 5061 03:18:58,150 --> 03:18:56,160 to hawaii when you're putting in the 5062 03:19:00,150 --> 03:18:58,160 amazing work as well and you're you're 5063 03:19:01,670 --> 03:19:00,160 providing a service for people and a 5064 03:19:03,349 --> 03:19:01,680 place for people to 5065 03:19:04,389 --> 03:19:03,359 to express themselves and that's 5066 03:19:10,469 --> 03:19:04,399 valuable 5067 03:19:12,150 --> 03:19:10,479 um and you shouldn't be afraid 5068 03:19:13,910 --> 03:19:12,160 or hesitant 5069 03:19:18,150 --> 03:19:13,920 to 5070 03:19:21,830 --> 03:19:18,160 meet that value yeah you know right and 5071 03:19:25,990 --> 03:19:24,150 uh 5072 03:19:27,830 --> 03:19:26,000 i've always tried to find a job that 5073 03:19:28,950 --> 03:19:27,840 didn't feel like a job 5074 03:19:31,269 --> 03:19:28,960 yeah 5075 03:19:33,349 --> 03:19:31,279 you know and so i feel like i've 5076 03:19:36,229 --> 03:19:33,359 i'm almost there 5077 03:19:37,510 --> 03:19:36,239 yeah so close i think you're so close i 5078 03:19:39,590 --> 03:19:37,520 mean 5079 03:19:41,269 --> 03:19:39,600 but you put in the work bro like yeah 5080 03:19:43,030 --> 03:19:41,279 yeah what you guys do over there is 5081 03:19:45,590 --> 03:19:43,040 amazing 5082 03:19:48,710 --> 03:19:45,600 you do five days a week i mean so does 5083 03:19:52,389 --> 03:19:48,720 david sorry bro like you guys put in the 5084 03:19:53,030 --> 03:19:52,399 freaking work bro yeah it's 5085 03:19:55,349 --> 03:19:53,040 it's um 5086 03:19:57,670 --> 03:19:55,359 [Music] 5087 03:19:58,630 --> 03:19:57,680 it's hard it's really hard 5088 03:20:01,110 --> 03:19:58,640 uh 5089 03:20:03,670 --> 03:20:01,120 yeah 5090 03:20:06,790 --> 03:20:03,680 but again like it's 5091 03:20:08,710 --> 03:20:06,800 it's the best kind of heart i want 5092 03:20:11,030 --> 03:20:08,720 you know what i mean like it's 5093 03:20:13,269 --> 03:20:11,040 like welcome 5094 03:20:14,469 --> 03:20:13,279 i welcome this kind of hard you know 5095 03:20:16,070 --> 03:20:14,479 like it's 5096 03:20:20,950 --> 03:20:16,080 like at the end of the day 5097 03:20:23,990 --> 03:20:20,960 look at what you've accomplished 5098 03:20:24,950 --> 03:20:24,000 do you feel more fulfilled 5099 03:20:29,429 --> 03:20:24,960 as 5100 03:20:32,550 --> 03:20:29,439 soulless marketing company or something 5101 03:20:35,830 --> 03:20:32,560 yeah i did i can tell you right now 5102 03:20:38,229 --> 03:20:35,840 i especially in the last two years of 5103 03:20:41,510 --> 03:20:38,239 working in a restaurant 5104 03:20:45,110 --> 03:20:41,520 i absolutely hated my life 5105 03:20:47,990 --> 03:20:45,120 hated everything i felt so trapped 5106 03:20:49,990 --> 03:20:48,000 i was like going through the rolodex of 5107 03:20:51,670 --> 03:20:50,000 man what are the things i could do that 5108 03:20:55,349 --> 03:20:51,680 outside of this 5109 03:20:57,910 --> 03:20:55,359 that can keep a roof over my head 5110 03:20:59,510 --> 03:20:57,920 but at the same time give me fulfillment 5111 03:21:01,269 --> 03:20:59,520 like give me 5112 03:21:03,750 --> 03:21:01,279 something that feels like i'm 5113 03:21:07,030 --> 03:21:03,760 contributing and and but not only that 5114 03:21:09,030 --> 03:21:07,040 but that i'm i'm in control 5115 03:21:11,750 --> 03:21:09,040 me 5116 03:21:15,349 --> 03:21:11,760 you know and um like when you have a 5117 03:21:17,510 --> 03:21:15,359 boss that calls you over like this oh 5118 03:21:19,670 --> 03:21:17,520 you know and you're you're 37 and you're 5119 03:21:21,830 --> 03:21:19,680 like i hate that what are you doing 5120 03:21:24,469 --> 03:21:21,840 right now i hate that song 5121 03:21:27,050 --> 03:21:24,479 i'm a human being yeah i have a boss 5122 03:21:28,790 --> 03:21:27,060 that doesn't even hate me sometimes 5123 03:21:31,590 --> 03:21:28,800 [Laughter] 5124 03:21:33,510 --> 03:21:31,600 well there you go you know like it's it 5125 03:21:36,229 --> 03:21:33,520 sucks 5126 03:21:38,950 --> 03:21:36,239 i was uh you and i lou were talking 5127 03:21:39,910 --> 03:21:38,960 about the the food industry and i i 5128 03:21:43,030 --> 03:21:39,920 joe 5129 03:21:44,790 --> 03:21:43,040 got me my first job at during college at 5130 03:21:47,990 --> 03:21:44,800 free birds and like dude that's like 5131 03:21:50,150 --> 03:21:48,000 literally scratching the tiny surface of 5132 03:21:52,870 --> 03:21:50,160 of the food you know 5133 03:21:55,030 --> 03:21:52,880 service industry and i mean dude you've 5134 03:21:57,190 --> 03:21:55,040 worked for some pretty 5135 03:21:59,510 --> 03:21:57,200 awesome chefs in in some pretty big 5136 03:22:03,269 --> 03:21:59,520 cities and we talked a little bit about 5137 03:22:04,590 --> 03:22:03,279 this did you work for eddie perry 5138 03:22:06,229 --> 03:22:04,600 no i didn't know we're 5139 03:22:08,950 --> 03:22:06,239 pretty 5140 03:22:12,309 --> 03:22:08,960 he actually owns like a pizzeria and uh 5141 03:22:13,750 --> 03:22:12,319 brewery now oh no [\h__\h] yeah 5142 03:22:16,550 --> 03:22:13,760 yeah yeah 5143 03:22:18,790 --> 03:22:16,560 but like so the the the idea is like you 5144 03:22:21,269 --> 03:22:18,800 have one person with this awesome vibe 5145 03:22:22,950 --> 03:22:21,279 this awesome uh 5146 03:22:25,030 --> 03:22:22,960 this vision right 5147 03:22:26,309 --> 03:22:25,040 and you have the people that actually do 5148 03:22:28,630 --> 03:22:26,319 the work 5149 03:22:30,950 --> 03:22:28,640 like you can do you can make this [\h__\h] 5150 03:22:32,870 --> 03:22:30,960 happen before you could carve out this 5151 03:22:34,550 --> 03:22:32,880 this this path 5152 03:22:36,870 --> 03:22:34,560 and you can make it happen but there's 5153 03:22:37,910 --> 03:22:36,880 these people that often get overlooked 5154 03:22:39,830 --> 03:22:37,920 and and 5155 03:22:42,150 --> 03:22:39,840 i mean man 5156 03:22:43,190 --> 03:22:42,160 as somebody who works in a kitchen that 5157 03:22:44,630 --> 03:22:43,200 actually 5158 03:22:47,670 --> 03:22:44,640 makes the food 5159 03:22:50,229 --> 03:22:47,680 dude how frustrating is that for like 5160 03:22:52,309 --> 03:22:50,239 i i love free birds no you love joe's 5161 03:22:54,229 --> 03:22:52,319 burritos do you he's the only 5162 03:22:57,429 --> 03:22:54,239 [\h__\h] that can make that mourinho 5163 03:22:59,670 --> 03:22:57,439 that way or or he like louis only makes 5164 03:23:01,590 --> 03:22:59,680 that pastry that way i i don't think 5165 03:23:04,070 --> 03:23:01,600 you're a pastry chef but like 5166 03:23:05,110 --> 03:23:04,080 you know what i mean like no for sure i 5167 03:23:07,110 --> 03:23:05,120 mean 5168 03:23:08,710 --> 03:23:07,120 you know it's 5169 03:23:10,229 --> 03:23:08,720 it's an interesting dichotomy in a 5170 03:23:12,229 --> 03:23:10,239 restaurant because you've got this for 5171 03:23:14,550 --> 03:23:12,239 the front of house 5172 03:23:15,750 --> 03:23:14,560 that is literally the front line they're 5173 03:23:17,590 --> 03:23:15,760 the face of the restaurant they're the 5174 03:23:19,990 --> 03:23:17,600 ones who've got to deal with all of the 5175 03:23:21,429 --> 03:23:20,000 intricacies and craziness of a of a 5176 03:23:23,990 --> 03:23:21,439 guest 5177 03:23:26,070 --> 03:23:24,000 right so it is a different animal and 5178 03:23:27,670 --> 03:23:26,080 then you multiply that by depending on 5179 03:23:28,830 --> 03:23:27,680 how many tables and guests you have 5180 03:23:30,469 --> 03:23:28,840 right 5181 03:23:32,710 --> 03:23:30,479 allergies 5182 03:23:34,070 --> 03:23:32,720 screaming kids like 5183 03:23:35,910 --> 03:23:34,080 busboys that don't want to bust their 5184 03:23:40,630 --> 03:23:35,920 tables like 5185 03:23:42,309 --> 03:23:40,640 it's a it's a it's a it's a really hard 5186 03:23:44,550 --> 03:23:42,319 for a long time for me it was super 5187 03:23:45,670 --> 03:23:44,560 fulfilling because i'm a people person i 5188 03:23:51,990 --> 03:23:45,680 like 5189 03:23:53,750 --> 03:23:52,000 get highs off of providing a killer 5190 03:23:56,710 --> 03:23:53,760 experience 5191 03:23:59,190 --> 03:23:56,720 for a party like when a party of 12 5192 03:24:01,590 --> 03:23:59,200 would come in and i'd throw the 5193 03:24:03,670 --> 03:24:01,600 menus on the table and i'd say hey guys 5194 03:24:05,429 --> 03:24:03,680 this menu is made to share you can go 5195 03:24:07,190 --> 03:24:05,439 through it or i can just pick stuff for 5196 03:24:08,870 --> 03:24:07,200 you and provide the experience that you 5197 03:24:09,670 --> 03:24:08,880 guys really looking for 5198 03:24:12,550 --> 03:24:09,680 and 5199 03:24:14,229 --> 03:24:12,560 nine times out of ten they go go for it 5200 03:24:19,750 --> 03:24:14,239 yeah 5201 03:24:21,670 --> 03:24:19,760 personality right you know and so like 5202 03:24:24,950 --> 03:24:21,680 but when i started 5203 03:24:26,950 --> 03:24:24,960 you know like and this is just 5204 03:24:28,550 --> 03:24:26,960 it's the end this goes really deep and 5205 03:24:31,030 --> 03:24:28,560 this could get political and stuff like 5206 03:24:34,309 --> 03:24:31,040 that but it's like the blue-collar 5207 03:24:36,710 --> 03:24:34,319 worker has been forced into a corner 5208 03:24:38,389 --> 03:24:36,720 where they don't have any options they 5209 03:24:39,990 --> 03:24:38,399 don't have options on health care they 5210 03:24:41,750 --> 03:24:40,000 don't have options on the hours they 5211 03:24:45,269 --> 03:24:41,760 work they don't have options on the days 5212 03:24:47,190 --> 03:24:45,279 they work um you know the the the work 5213 03:24:48,469 --> 03:24:47,200 is 5214 03:24:49,510 --> 03:24:48,479 hard 5215 03:24:51,269 --> 03:24:49,520 um 5216 03:24:53,349 --> 03:24:51,279 pressure 5217 03:24:54,550 --> 03:24:53,359 filled uh 5218 03:24:56,870 --> 03:24:54,560 um 5219 03:24:58,870 --> 03:24:56,880 you know the the the front of house like 5220 03:25:01,590 --> 03:24:58,880 for example the front house gets this 5221 03:25:02,710 --> 03:25:01,600 fifth big at minimum wage right plus 5222 03:25:04,150 --> 03:25:02,720 tips 5223 03:25:06,229 --> 03:25:04,160 because they're the face right they're 5224 03:25:08,469 --> 03:25:06,239 sending this this and also that's just 5225 03:25:10,309 --> 03:25:08,479 the way the system was set since day one 5226 03:25:12,950 --> 03:25:10,319 why that was i have 5227 03:25:13,750 --> 03:25:12,960 no clue while the the 5228 03:25:19,110 --> 03:25:13,760 the 5229 03:25:22,630 --> 03:25:19,120 i'm talking about a line cook or 5230 03:25:25,349 --> 03:25:22,640 you know the dishwasher who's working 12 5231 03:25:29,269 --> 03:25:25,359 hours a day and then he goes to another 5232 03:25:31,190 --> 03:25:29,279 part-time job because the 15 an hour 5233 03:25:33,590 --> 03:25:31,200 doesn't cover the rent in one of the 5234 03:25:36,389 --> 03:25:33,600 most expensive cities in the world 5235 03:25:39,349 --> 03:25:36,399 you know like so it's this really weird 5236 03:25:41,349 --> 03:25:39,359 like i make is twice as much as that 5237 03:25:43,750 --> 03:25:41,359 as that uh 5238 03:25:45,830 --> 03:25:43,760 as that dishwasher right 5239 03:25:47,830 --> 03:25:45,840 and it's still not enough 5240 03:25:50,469 --> 03:25:47,840 but but where would you be without that 5241 03:25:53,030 --> 03:25:50,479 dishwasher it's like it's all oh no it 5242 03:25:55,590 --> 03:25:53,040 wouldn't crumble it would crumble but 5243 03:25:57,510 --> 03:25:55,600 i'm just saying like that's you know and 5244 03:25:59,590 --> 03:25:57,520 then meanwhile the people who own the 5245 03:26:01,510 --> 03:25:59,600 restaurant 5246 03:26:02,790 --> 03:26:01,520 are telling you oh there's no money in 5247 03:26:04,150 --> 03:26:02,800 restaurants 5248 03:26:06,309 --> 03:26:04,160 yet they just opened three other 5249 03:26:07,830 --> 03:26:06,319 restaurants and then like 5250 03:26:10,309 --> 03:26:07,840 they'll show up with in like a 5251 03:26:12,309 --> 03:26:10,319 seersucker suit like yeah 5252 03:26:14,229 --> 03:26:12,319 yeah not even so much a seersucker suit 5253 03:26:16,550 --> 03:26:14,239 they'll show up dressed as you right 5254 03:26:18,229 --> 03:26:16,560 because they want to relate to you and 5255 03:26:21,750 --> 03:26:18,239 feel next to you but what they pull up 5256 03:26:23,990 --> 03:26:21,760 in is in a bmw m3 yeah you know while 5257 03:26:26,309 --> 03:26:24,000 you took the bus to get there or you 5258 03:26:27,990 --> 03:26:26,319 walked to get there or you had the 5259 03:26:31,990 --> 03:26:28,000 park you know 5260 03:26:34,469 --> 03:26:32,000 ten blocks away because uh you know it's 5261 03:26:36,710 --> 03:26:34,479 the city and you have to you have to use 5262 03:26:39,590 --> 03:26:36,720 one of those parking garages or whatever 5263 03:26:42,309 --> 03:26:39,600 and pay 15 bucks so your first hour of 5264 03:26:43,670 --> 03:26:42,319 work is already gone it's already went 5265 03:26:47,590 --> 03:26:43,680 to parking 5266 03:26:50,550 --> 03:26:47,600 you know yeah and it's it's a joke 5267 03:26:54,229 --> 03:26:50,560 chefs the whole restaurant 5268 03:26:56,870 --> 03:26:54,239 formula is a joke and that's why 5269 03:26:58,309 --> 03:26:56,880 people are leaving those jobs yeah like 5270 03:26:59,910 --> 03:26:58,319 i don't know if you guys have noticed 5271 03:27:01,830 --> 03:26:59,920 but like there's a taco bell around my 5272 03:27:03,590 --> 03:27:01,840 core and and when i'm really in a pinch 5273 03:27:06,070 --> 03:27:03,600 i'll go to taco bell 5274 03:27:07,670 --> 03:27:06,080 and man it used to be it used to be like 5275 03:27:09,429 --> 03:27:07,680 a four to five minute thing where i'd 5276 03:27:11,830 --> 03:27:09,439 sit there by the time you know i was 5277 03:27:13,670 --> 03:27:11,840 when i was out got my order a piece 5278 03:27:17,110 --> 03:27:13,680 now every time i go there it's like a 5279 03:27:18,630 --> 03:27:17,120 15-20 minute ordeal yeah dude yeah 5280 03:27:20,790 --> 03:27:18,640 we don't have enough people in the 5281 03:27:22,790 --> 03:27:20,800 restaurant they don't have it people are 5282 03:27:25,110 --> 03:27:22,800 like we're tired of the hours we're 5283 03:27:28,550 --> 03:27:25,120 tired of the the no health care no 5284 03:27:30,790 --> 03:27:28,560 benefits no vacation pay uh you know you 5285 03:27:33,269 --> 03:27:30,800 work us to the bone you really don't 5286 03:27:35,750 --> 03:27:33,279 give a [\h__\h] about us 5287 03:27:38,870 --> 03:27:35,760 and there's no advancement there's no 5288 03:27:41,910 --> 03:27:38,880 there's there's nowhere for you to you 5289 03:27:43,190 --> 03:27:41,920 have to and like the part that kills me 5290 03:27:44,710 --> 03:27:43,200 with like 5291 03:27:46,389 --> 03:27:44,720 some of these especially small 5292 03:27:47,990 --> 03:27:46,399 businesses and i don't blame small baby 5293 03:27:50,309 --> 03:27:48,000 like there's a lot of moving parts here 5294 03:27:53,590 --> 03:27:50,319 right but like 5295 03:27:56,389 --> 03:27:53,600 there's this this this part where 5296 03:27:58,309 --> 03:27:56,399 you know uh the small business won't 5297 03:28:00,309 --> 03:27:58,319 give you 40 hours because then they have 5298 03:28:03,990 --> 03:28:00,319 to pay for your health care so they'll 5299 03:28:06,389 --> 03:28:04,000 give you 32 hours because that's the 5300 03:28:08,710 --> 03:28:06,399 cut-off point before they have to take 5301 03:28:11,670 --> 03:28:08,720 care of your health yeah so then you got 5302 03:28:13,030 --> 03:28:11,680 to go find another part-time job to 5303 03:28:13,910 --> 03:28:13,040 supplement 5304 03:28:17,349 --> 03:28:13,920 that 5305 03:28:18,469 --> 03:28:17,359 yeah dude working in california was so 5306 03:28:22,950 --> 03:28:18,479 hard 5307 03:28:25,349 --> 03:28:22,960 to like especially like in the 5308 03:28:28,229 --> 03:28:25,359 management like position like you had 5309 03:28:30,870 --> 03:28:28,239 like texas is completely different like 5310 03:28:32,070 --> 03:28:30,880 it's like hey i'm gonna work a 12-hour 5311 03:28:33,429 --> 03:28:32,080 shift today 5312 03:28:36,070 --> 03:28:33,439 uh 5313 03:28:37,670 --> 03:28:36,080 i'm not gonna take lunch just say i had 5314 03:28:39,670 --> 03:28:37,680 no lunch and pay me for it right and 5315 03:28:41,110 --> 03:28:39,680 that's that's that right but in 5316 03:28:44,309 --> 03:28:41,120 california 5317 03:28:47,830 --> 03:28:44,319 you have to have these breaks at 5318 03:28:50,229 --> 03:28:47,840 specific times and you have there is so 5319 03:28:52,710 --> 03:28:50,239 many moving parts in california you got 5320 03:28:54,070 --> 03:28:52,720 to have crew for this and then there's 5321 03:28:56,309 --> 03:28:54,080 brakes so you got to make sure you have 5322 03:28:57,830 --> 03:28:56,319 crew coming in early for this and then 5323 03:29:00,070 --> 03:28:57,840 you got to switch them out and make sure 5324 03:29:02,630 --> 03:29:00,080 everybody has brakes on specific times 5325 03:29:06,630 --> 03:29:02,640 or else that's a lawsuit and it's just 5326 03:29:08,790 --> 03:29:06,640 it's wild dude it's crazy it's 5327 03:29:10,870 --> 03:29:08,800 we had been you might remember this 5328 03:29:12,950 --> 03:29:10,880 remember uh when you were working for 5329 03:29:14,710 --> 03:29:12,960 free birds right and and let me say this 5330 03:29:16,710 --> 03:29:14,720 dude like in the restaurant business 5331 03:29:18,870 --> 03:29:16,720 like i almost feel like i kind of [\h__\h] 5332 03:29:21,990 --> 03:29:18,880 up a little bit in my life but i i 5333 03:29:24,229 --> 03:29:22,000 wouldn't be where i am today had i not 5334 03:29:25,349 --> 03:29:24,239 changed my whole just outlook on 5335 03:29:28,070 --> 03:29:25,359 everything but 5336 03:29:30,469 --> 03:29:28,080 i started out as a dishwasher for this 5337 03:29:32,469 --> 03:29:30,479 company that had been worked for and now 5338 03:29:34,710 --> 03:29:32,479 i ended up being like working for 5339 03:29:36,469 --> 03:29:34,720 corporate and like opening restaurants 5340 03:29:39,670 --> 03:29:36,479 and things like that like we do we did 5341 03:29:41,030 --> 03:29:39,680 such a good job that the the the 5342 03:29:43,030 --> 03:29:41,040 owner 5343 03:29:45,110 --> 03:29:43,040 like the literal like 5344 03:29:46,950 --> 03:29:45,120 it was a guy it was kind of a private 5345 03:29:49,269 --> 03:29:46,960 thing and then they said he was like 5346 03:29:52,150 --> 03:29:49,279 who's making this work so awesome yeah 5347 03:29:55,269 --> 03:29:52,160 they sold it to tavistock and the guy 5348 03:29:57,269 --> 03:29:55,279 who like runs tavistock came in remember 5349 03:29:59,830 --> 03:29:57,279 he ended up coming to one of our shows 5350 03:30:00,950 --> 03:29:59,840 and bought every album that we had like 5351 03:30:03,429 --> 03:30:00,960 for sale 5352 03:30:05,590 --> 03:30:03,439 and just gave them out to people like 5353 03:30:07,830 --> 03:30:05,600 that was like super cool and that but 5354 03:30:10,389 --> 03:30:07,840 that's a very like rare thing that 5355 03:30:12,150 --> 03:30:10,399 happened you know very very rare but 5356 03:30:14,070 --> 03:30:12,160 like when you were saying earlier dude 5357 03:30:16,229 --> 03:30:14,080 like that whole personality and just 5358 03:30:18,070 --> 03:30:16,239 loving like being a people person and 5359 03:30:19,110 --> 03:30:18,080 like wanting to do your best you know 5360 03:30:23,349 --> 03:30:19,120 like 5361 03:30:24,630 --> 03:30:23,359 happen but that that whole industry man 5362 03:30:26,229 --> 03:30:24,640 is a 5363 03:30:29,269 --> 03:30:26,239 grind 5364 03:30:32,389 --> 03:30:29,279 and if you don't get that little 5365 03:30:35,110 --> 03:30:32,399 hole of light occasionally dude that is 5366 03:30:37,670 --> 03:30:35,120 a soul-killing 5367 03:30:39,830 --> 03:30:37,680 industry to be in 5368 03:30:42,710 --> 03:30:39,840 have you seen the movie waiting 5369 03:30:45,349 --> 03:30:42,720 yeah yeah dudes yeah so that that scene 5370 03:30:47,910 --> 03:30:45,359 where the the main character where the 5371 03:30:50,229 --> 03:30:47,920 guy uh waits on the table and there's 5372 03:30:52,550 --> 03:30:50,239 this uh group of business people and the 5373 03:30:56,150 --> 03:30:52,560 guy gives him a business card it says i 5374 03:30:58,309 --> 03:30:56,160 could use someone like you at my company 5375 03:31:01,670 --> 03:30:58,319 and he's like oh [\h__\h] this is my time 5376 03:31:06,630 --> 03:31:01,680 dude i have never like dude 5377 03:31:08,550 --> 03:31:06,640 uh i've never like related to that ever 5378 03:31:10,630 --> 03:31:08,560 like my older brother worked in the 5379 03:31:12,790 --> 03:31:10,640 service industry a lot longer than i did 5380 03:31:15,590 --> 03:31:12,800 joe you worked in the service industry a 5381 03:31:18,229 --> 03:31:15,600 lot longer than i did 12. i'm sure i'm 5382 03:31:21,349 --> 03:31:18,239 sure lou i i know that you you've worked 5383 03:31:22,790 --> 03:31:21,359 in industry a lot longer but like that 5384 03:31:25,110 --> 03:31:22,800 idea is like 5385 03:31:26,790 --> 03:31:25,120 someone recognizes you for this talent 5386 03:31:29,670 --> 03:31:26,800 that you have 5387 03:31:32,630 --> 03:31:29,680 communication understanding memory 5388 03:31:35,349 --> 03:31:32,640 uh this social skill that is not taught 5389 03:31:38,150 --> 03:31:35,359 in our public schools it is a 5390 03:31:41,190 --> 03:31:38,160 it's a it's a talent dude yeah it is it 5391 03:31:42,950 --> 03:31:41,200 is what you know what the people that 5392 03:31:45,030 --> 03:31:42,960 have that talent usually don't fit in 5393 03:31:47,830 --> 03:31:45,040 that public school 5394 03:31:49,269 --> 03:31:47,840 square you do it all 5395 03:31:51,110 --> 03:31:49,279 100 5396 03:31:53,750 --> 03:31:51,120 i was gonna i was gonna i was gonna like 5397 03:31:56,229 --> 03:31:53,760 stroke your your ego here lou but like 5398 03:31:58,150 --> 03:31:56,239 this is why your show is so successful 5399 03:31:59,590 --> 03:31:58,160 because you have a great personality 5400 03:32:01,910 --> 03:31:59,600 dude like 5401 03:32:04,710 --> 03:32:01,920 this is why this is why people like to 5402 03:32:06,550 --> 03:32:04,720 talk or listen to you talk this is why 5403 03:32:09,110 --> 03:32:06,560 people like to listen to me and joe talk 5404 03:32:10,389 --> 03:32:09,120 because we have something i don't know 5405 03:32:12,550 --> 03:32:10,399 what it is 5406 03:32:14,229 --> 03:32:12,560 but it's not making food 5407 03:32:15,590 --> 03:32:14,239 it's it's just being 5408 03:32:17,830 --> 03:32:15,600 it's just being honest and being 5409 03:32:19,510 --> 03:32:17,840 yourself yeah yeah 5410 03:32:21,670 --> 03:32:19,520 not hiding anything man you know what 5411 03:32:22,870 --> 03:32:21,680 this is what you get so how do we value 5412 03:32:25,110 --> 03:32:22,880 that 5413 03:32:27,830 --> 03:32:25,120 oh man 5414 03:32:30,389 --> 03:32:27,840 do you want to go over it here 5415 03:32:33,030 --> 03:32:30,399 i need [\h__\h] i mean we can 5416 03:32:34,469 --> 03:32:33,040 it's always so hard for us because we 5417 03:32:36,070 --> 03:32:34,479 feel like 5418 03:32:38,790 --> 03:32:36,080 i mean who gives a [\h__\h] about your 5419 03:32:41,269 --> 03:32:38,800 opinion but obviously people do 5420 03:32:42,229 --> 03:32:41,279 but you know it's like oh yeah dude you 5421 03:32:44,150 --> 03:32:42,239 know it's 5422 03:32:44,950 --> 03:32:44,160 one of those things like when you when 5423 03:32:47,349 --> 03:32:44,960 you 5424 03:32:49,269 --> 03:32:47,359 like for me for instance right 5425 03:32:52,469 --> 03:32:49,279 i work in the landing landscaping 5426 03:32:55,269 --> 03:32:52,479 industry a very high-end landscaping 5427 03:32:56,389 --> 03:32:55,279 industry and it's very very difficult 5428 03:32:59,510 --> 03:32:56,399 for me 5429 03:33:03,990 --> 03:32:59,520 to walk up to somebody's door and say 5430 03:33:06,469 --> 03:33:04,000 hi can i collect your 230 000 check 5431 03:33:09,269 --> 03:33:06,479 because i've never 5432 03:33:11,429 --> 03:33:09,279 ever ever my house isn't worth that much 5433 03:33:14,229 --> 03:33:11,439 and i spent two weeks on a project that 5434 03:33:15,750 --> 03:33:14,239 cost that much dude like i've never like 5435 03:33:17,510 --> 03:33:15,760 i was talking about earlier dude like 5436 03:33:19,429 --> 03:33:17,520 i've stayed the night in a few cars you 5437 03:33:21,510 --> 03:33:19,439 know what i'm saying like i've had to be 5438 03:33:23,349 --> 03:33:21,520 on the grind a little bit as a child and 5439 03:33:24,790 --> 03:33:23,359 like just coming up through life like 5440 03:33:27,190 --> 03:33:24,800 you know it's a it's a learning 5441 03:33:29,910 --> 03:33:27,200 experience so for me it's very difficult 5442 03:33:32,389 --> 03:33:29,920 to ask people for [\h__\h] let that you've 5443 03:33:34,790 --> 03:33:32,399 never had in your life you know 5444 03:33:36,950 --> 03:33:34,800 that's would be my first piece of advice 5445 03:33:42,469 --> 03:33:36,960 let that go 5446 03:33:46,950 --> 03:33:45,030 the trick to having high sales and 5447 03:33:49,190 --> 03:33:46,960 making sure that you're walking out of 5448 03:33:51,429 --> 03:33:49,200 that that restaurant with 5449 03:33:53,830 --> 03:33:51,439 the absolute most efficient night and 5450 03:33:56,070 --> 03:33:53,840 that means the most tips 5451 03:33:58,550 --> 03:33:56,080 all right i got to pay my bills right so 5452 03:34:00,229 --> 03:33:58,560 the thing that i always did 5453 03:34:01,910 --> 03:34:00,239 is hey guys we've got a wine special 5454 03:34:03,510 --> 03:34:01,920 tonight 5455 03:34:05,030 --> 03:34:03,520 first time they'll probably go no we 5456 03:34:06,389 --> 03:34:05,040 don't need a bottle of wine and then the 5457 03:34:07,990 --> 03:34:06,399 food will come to the table i'll say 5458 03:34:09,269 --> 03:34:08,000 like 5459 03:34:11,590 --> 03:34:09,279 man i'll tell you would go great with 5460 03:34:16,710 --> 03:34:11,600 this a nice barbecue we got on special 5461 03:34:19,990 --> 03:34:17,750 and so 5462 03:34:21,030 --> 03:34:20,000 at that point 5463 03:34:23,110 --> 03:34:21,040 that 5464 03:34:24,710 --> 03:34:23,120 i usually get them by the second time 5465 03:34:26,469 --> 03:34:24,720 right but the trick is you gotta ask 5466 03:34:28,550 --> 03:34:26,479 three times before you take no for an 5467 03:34:29,750 --> 03:34:28,560 answer 5468 03:34:35,670 --> 03:34:29,760 yeah and 5469 03:34:40,070 --> 03:34:38,469 subliminally i guess through my show 5470 03:34:43,510 --> 03:34:40,080 um you know it's kind of like the 5471 03:34:45,429 --> 03:34:43,520 audience is my table 5472 03:34:49,030 --> 03:34:45,439 you also you also have like like 5473 03:34:51,830 --> 03:34:49,040 informative guests though like that 5474 03:34:53,349 --> 03:34:51,840 i'm providing them the experience yeah 5475 03:34:54,950 --> 03:34:53,359 right like when you go to a restaurant 5476 03:34:56,630 --> 03:34:54,960 you leave a great tip you don't leave it 5477 03:34:58,790 --> 03:34:56,640 because it's the best food in the hat 5478 03:35:01,269 --> 03:34:58,800 you you work best food in the world you 5479 03:35:03,590 --> 03:35:01,279 had that's part of it but it was the 5480 03:35:05,750 --> 03:35:03,600 service it was you didn't have to think 5481 03:35:08,710 --> 03:35:05,760 about anything it was 5482 03:35:09,830 --> 03:35:08,720 wow like that was from beginning to end 5483 03:35:12,389 --> 03:35:09,840 you know my 5484 03:35:13,910 --> 03:35:12,399 the girl i proposed to we had a great 5485 03:35:16,710 --> 03:35:13,920 dinner with her family at this 5486 03:35:19,750 --> 03:35:16,720 restaurant you know but my kid graduated 5487 03:35:22,070 --> 03:35:19,760 school and wow this you made my whole 5488 03:35:25,990 --> 03:35:22,080 night so much easier not having to worry 5489 03:35:27,510 --> 03:35:26,000 about this yeah you know your show 5490 03:35:29,990 --> 03:35:27,520 my show 5491 03:35:33,110 --> 03:35:30,000 is an escape from 5492 03:35:37,190 --> 03:35:33,120 reality from bills from 5493 03:35:38,790 --> 03:35:37,200 crazy kids from a divorce from 5494 03:35:40,790 --> 03:35:38,800 the list goes on and on and on and on 5495 03:35:43,670 --> 03:35:40,800 you are providing a service you are 5496 03:35:44,710 --> 03:35:43,680 giving them an experience and there's no 5497 03:35:47,429 --> 03:35:44,720 shame 5498 03:35:48,870 --> 03:35:47,439 in asking that table 5499 03:35:51,269 --> 03:35:48,880 to 5500 03:35:53,190 --> 03:35:51,279 pay the check 5501 03:35:54,389 --> 03:35:53,200 yeah you don't have to 5502 03:35:56,309 --> 03:35:54,399 yeah 5503 03:35:59,269 --> 03:35:56,319 i'm not forcing you 5504 03:36:00,469 --> 03:35:59,279 it's like a street performer if you walk 5505 03:36:04,550 --> 03:36:00,479 in 5506 03:36:06,469 --> 03:36:04,560 and you stop 5507 03:36:07,269 --> 03:36:06,479 because the guy is going hey what is 5508 03:36:08,630 --> 03:36:07,279 that 5509 03:36:10,870 --> 03:36:08,640 he's trying to build a crowd and you 5510 03:36:13,830 --> 03:36:10,880 stop and he starts his performance and 5511 03:36:15,990 --> 03:36:13,840 you watch the whole thing 5512 03:36:18,630 --> 03:36:16,000 and you leave without putting a buck in 5513 03:36:22,790 --> 03:36:18,640 that bucket i feel bad i feel bad shame 5514 03:36:25,590 --> 03:36:24,150 you know you know you're not you're not 5515 03:36:26,309 --> 03:36:25,600 obliged to put 5516 03:36:27,670 --> 03:36:26,319 yeah 5517 03:36:28,630 --> 03:36:27,680 but if you stick around for the whole 5518 03:36:30,630 --> 03:36:28,640 show 5519 03:36:32,630 --> 03:36:30,640 shame on you if you don't put a bucket 5520 03:36:39,349 --> 03:36:32,640 like he knows that you've been there 5521 03:36:43,110 --> 03:36:40,710 so here's here's 5522 03:36:45,910 --> 03:36:43,120 i'm i'm following you i [\h__\h] love 5523 03:36:48,150 --> 03:36:45,920 this dude like i feel like this is about 5524 03:36:50,550 --> 03:36:48,160 this is valuable for for all of us 5525 03:36:52,389 --> 03:36:50,560 content creators whatever we want to 5526 03:36:54,630 --> 03:36:52,399 call ourselves right valuable for people 5527 03:36:55,750 --> 03:36:54,640 who aren't content creators valuable for 5528 03:36:58,070 --> 03:36:55,760 everyday 5529 03:37:00,229 --> 03:36:58,080 life man you know 5530 03:37:02,870 --> 03:37:00,239 this isn't yeah thank you for saying 5531 03:37:05,750 --> 03:37:02,880 that state your value and don't be 5532 03:37:09,030 --> 03:37:05,760 afraid to ask for it so so the thing is 5533 03:37:12,710 --> 03:37:09,040 like what happens to you the day after 5534 03:37:14,950 --> 03:37:12,720 you receive this content or this vibe or 5535 03:37:17,830 --> 03:37:14,960 or this information 5536 03:37:20,710 --> 03:37:17,840 does it even [\h__\h] matter 5537 03:37:23,110 --> 03:37:20,720 or does it matter the most how you feel 5538 03:37:25,349 --> 03:37:23,120 and interact with your reality the next 5539 03:37:27,990 --> 03:37:25,359 day or the next minute or the next 10 5540 03:37:30,630 --> 03:37:28,000 minutes like 5541 03:37:32,630 --> 03:37:30,640 is the show that you watch or or the 5542 03:37:35,910 --> 03:37:32,640 person you interact with like your 5543 03:37:37,510 --> 03:37:35,920 neighbor if you say hey 5544 03:37:39,269 --> 03:37:37,520 great to see you and they're like hey 5545 03:37:42,150 --> 03:37:39,279 actually i've been meaning to tell you i 5546 03:37:44,150 --> 03:37:42,160 i saw you lost a 10 bill or hey i've 5547 03:37:46,550 --> 03:37:44,160 been meaning to tell you i'm i'm going 5548 03:37:48,870 --> 03:37:46,560 to be doing this thing tomorrow i'm just 5549 03:37:50,229 --> 03:37:48,880 letting you know so you don't i'm i'm 5550 03:37:52,070 --> 03:37:50,239 tearing down this tree it's going to be 5551 03:37:54,229 --> 03:37:52,080 loud letting you know it's like this 5552 03:37:55,590 --> 03:37:54,239 karmic thing where like it's this 5553 03:37:59,269 --> 03:37:55,600 understanding where 5554 03:38:00,790 --> 03:37:59,279 man if if if we could all be on the same 5555 03:38:02,870 --> 03:38:00,800 level 5556 03:38:05,190 --> 03:38:02,880 then 5557 03:38:08,550 --> 03:38:05,200 we could all be paying each other back 5558 03:38:09,349 --> 03:38:08,560 in some way whether it be monetarily or 5559 03:38:15,750 --> 03:38:09,359 or 5560 03:38:17,990 --> 03:38:15,760 there could be so many different ways we 5561 03:38:20,389 --> 03:38:18,000 could pay each other back i mean yeah 5562 03:38:22,150 --> 03:38:20,399 why i mean for example like 5563 03:38:24,389 --> 03:38:22,160 we traded work 5564 03:38:27,349 --> 03:38:24,399 right yeah made our website 5565 03:38:30,550 --> 03:38:27,359 and i provided the people with you know 5566 03:38:32,150 --> 03:38:30,560 as a promotion and and probably didn't 5567 03:38:33,670 --> 03:38:32,160 work in your favor 5568 03:38:35,670 --> 03:38:33,680 you know but 5569 03:38:37,110 --> 03:38:35,680 it was but 5570 03:38:38,710 --> 03:38:37,120 here's the thing you know like i don't 5571 03:38:40,150 --> 03:38:38,720 know if 40 people went to your website 5572 03:38:41,189 --> 03:38:40,160 be like i need you to make a website 5573 03:38:43,510 --> 03:38:41,199 right 5574 03:38:45,349 --> 03:38:43,520 that's shouting sort of that's like the 5575 03:38:47,670 --> 03:38:45,359 chance we take when we're doing barters 5576 03:38:49,990 --> 03:38:47,680 like that right but here's the thing 5577 03:38:51,030 --> 03:38:50,000 is and i told you this when we made that 5578 03:38:53,510 --> 03:38:51,040 deal 5579 03:38:55,189 --> 03:38:53,520 like if if it's something that works out 5580 03:38:56,790 --> 03:38:55,199 for me 5581 03:38:58,150 --> 03:38:56,800 i need my per and this is something i've 5582 03:38:59,910 --> 03:38:58,160 been meaning to actually talk to you 5583 03:39:01,670 --> 03:38:59,920 about but since we're being honest and 5584 03:39:03,590 --> 03:39:01,680 we don't give a [\h__\h] we're talking right 5585 03:39:05,510 --> 03:39:03,600 who cares if we're live nobody's [\h__\h] 5586 03:39:05,690 --> 03:39:05,520 nobody 5587 03:39:07,110 --> 03:39:05,700 we 5588 03:39:09,990 --> 03:39:07,120 [Music] 5589 03:39:11,510 --> 03:39:10,000 you know i need a new website for my 5590 03:39:13,670 --> 03:39:11,520 show now 5591 03:39:17,990 --> 03:39:13,680 and now because of 5592 03:39:20,389 --> 03:39:18,000 the growth because of the success 5593 03:39:21,670 --> 03:39:20,399 i ca i now have room for that to 5594 03:39:23,349 --> 03:39:21,680 actually 5595 03:39:25,590 --> 03:39:23,359 pay you 5596 03:39:28,150 --> 03:39:25,600 for that work 5597 03:39:32,309 --> 03:39:28,160 you know what i mean so like 5598 03:39:33,269 --> 03:39:32,319 it it comes around and and and those 5599 03:39:36,550 --> 03:39:33,279 things 5600 03:39:39,349 --> 03:39:36,560 like with acting 5601 03:39:41,189 --> 03:39:39,359 when you get a job that job's important 5602 03:39:43,670 --> 03:39:41,199 and you should absolutely devote as much 5603 03:39:45,990 --> 03:39:43,680 focus as you as you can to it 5604 03:39:48,950 --> 03:39:46,000 but the thing that gets me jobs two 5605 03:39:51,830 --> 03:39:48,960 three ten five years down the road 5606 03:39:53,510 --> 03:39:51,840 is interacting with people on set in 5607 03:39:55,910 --> 03:39:53,520 between takes 5608 03:39:58,790 --> 03:39:55,920 and planting seeds hey this is who i am 5609 03:40:01,030 --> 03:39:58,800 this is my personality yada yada and you 5610 03:40:02,710 --> 03:40:01,040 never know what that seed sprouts into a 5611 03:40:04,630 --> 03:40:02,720 couple years down the road a month down 5612 03:40:06,469 --> 03:40:04,640 the road whenever 5613 03:40:07,269 --> 03:40:06,479 it it works 5614 03:40:09,590 --> 03:40:07,279 like 5615 03:40:10,389 --> 03:40:09,600 it's just do you have the patience and 5616 03:40:15,030 --> 03:40:10,399 the 5617 03:40:16,150 --> 03:40:15,040 do you believe in it that much 5618 03:40:17,910 --> 03:40:16,160 you know 5619 03:40:19,349 --> 03:40:17,920 and are you okay with failing at it for 5620 03:40:21,990 --> 03:40:19,359 a long time 5621 03:40:24,469 --> 03:40:22,000 yeah so how could we how could we like 5622 03:40:25,269 --> 03:40:24,479 apply this to anybody else that's even 5623 03:40:26,870 --> 03:40:25,279 like 5624 03:40:29,510 --> 03:40:26,880 not remotely 5625 03:40:32,790 --> 03:40:29,520 in this industry or if you can call it 5626 03:40:35,910 --> 03:40:32,800 in in this industry like this 5627 03:40:38,070 --> 03:40:35,920 for so long has just been an interest 5628 03:40:41,030 --> 03:40:38,080 for a lot of people and and and some 5629 03:40:42,790 --> 03:40:41,040 people you know written books but 5630 03:40:44,710 --> 03:40:42,800 for some people that are just listening 5631 03:40:46,870 --> 03:40:44,720 or just watching like 5632 03:40:48,309 --> 03:40:46,880 how do we how do we 5633 03:40:51,030 --> 03:40:48,319 i don't know it's 5634 03:40:52,950 --> 03:40:51,040 uh translate this this kind of feeling 5635 03:40:56,150 --> 03:40:52,960 that we're feeling right like this 5636 03:40:59,429 --> 03:40:57,750 this money thing 5637 03:41:02,309 --> 03:40:59,439 i don't i'm not even 5638 03:41:05,110 --> 03:41:02,319 worried about it that at all it's like 5639 03:41:08,550 --> 03:41:05,120 what do we get after that fact 5640 03:41:11,189 --> 03:41:08,560 like what's the end goal that's all 5641 03:41:12,309 --> 03:41:11,199 i think i'm worried about 5642 03:41:13,670 --> 03:41:12,319 um 5643 03:41:15,990 --> 03:41:13,680 and and that is 5644 03:41:17,990 --> 03:41:16,000 this truth like we're all here to figure 5645 03:41:20,710 --> 03:41:18,000 out this truth yeah 5646 03:41:22,950 --> 03:41:20,720 and if we can get closer to the truth uh 5647 03:41:25,510 --> 03:41:22,960 if i can build you a website or or 5648 03:41:28,550 --> 03:41:25,520 whatever to get anybody closer to 5649 03:41:29,349 --> 03:41:28,560 finding out that truth [\h__\h] dude well 5650 03:41:32,790 --> 03:41:29,359 that 5651 03:41:34,229 --> 03:41:32,800 hit it we hit on it a little bit tonight 5652 03:41:36,790 --> 03:41:34,239 dude is like 5653 03:41:39,670 --> 03:41:36,800 what's the end goal well the end goal is 5654 03:41:43,510 --> 03:41:39,680 the truth right but like you you really 5655 03:41:45,510 --> 03:41:43,520 kind of spin your wheels on the truth 5656 03:41:47,750 --> 03:41:45,520 after a while if you don't have the 5657 03:41:48,950 --> 03:41:47,760 funds to project 5658 03:41:51,990 --> 03:41:48,960 the truth 5659 03:41:54,790 --> 03:41:52,000 you gotta have some sort of like 5660 03:41:57,110 --> 03:41:54,800 monetary system to kind of push this 5661 03:41:59,269 --> 03:41:57,120 stuff right i mean that's that's all you 5662 03:42:01,030 --> 03:41:59,279 ever hear or hear about it's like oh 5663 03:42:03,110 --> 03:42:01,040 well the rich people only tell you what 5664 03:42:05,750 --> 03:42:03,120 they want you to hear right well why 5665 03:42:07,030 --> 03:42:05,760 can't the [\h__\h] truth seekers tell you 5666 03:42:08,309 --> 03:42:07,040 what they wanted because they're gonna 5667 03:42:10,550 --> 03:42:08,319 pay them 5668 03:42:12,229 --> 03:42:10,560 [\h__\h] money and it's time that the 5669 03:42:14,229 --> 03:42:12,239 tides have started to change a little 5670 03:42:17,030 --> 03:42:14,239 bit to where some of us are starting to 5671 03:42:18,070 --> 03:42:17,040 kind of maybe you know not 5672 03:42:19,590 --> 03:42:18,080 not us 5673 03:42:20,870 --> 03:42:19,600 you know what i'm saying like some of us 5674 03:42:23,510 --> 03:42:20,880 are starting to get to the point to 5675 03:42:25,349 --> 03:42:23,520 where like we have that monetary backing 5676 03:42:27,990 --> 03:42:25,359 to where we can actually stand up and 5677 03:42:30,469 --> 03:42:28,000 say [\h__\h] you yeah and tell the truth 5678 03:42:33,189 --> 03:42:30,479 what i would say is again don't be 5679 03:42:34,950 --> 03:42:33,199 afraid to ask for it because when you 5680 03:42:36,950 --> 03:42:34,960 you weren't meaning to ask for it but 5681 03:42:38,630 --> 03:42:36,960 when you did ask for it you got it 5682 03:42:40,870 --> 03:42:38,640 tonight 5683 03:42:43,269 --> 03:42:40,880 we did it yeah right 5684 03:42:45,269 --> 03:42:43,279 that's my point 5685 03:42:47,670 --> 03:42:45,279 i think i think there is 5686 03:42:49,189 --> 03:42:47,680 for content creators especially in this 5687 03:42:52,710 --> 03:42:49,199 arena 5688 03:42:54,950 --> 03:42:52,720 they have a guilt for asking people for 5689 03:42:58,469 --> 03:42:54,960 money for asking people to support them 5690 03:43:02,630 --> 03:42:58,479 with hard-earned cash that they work for 5691 03:43:05,590 --> 03:43:02,640 right because there's been so much 5692 03:43:13,670 --> 03:43:10,389 underbelly lying deceitful kind of um 5693 03:43:15,990 --> 03:43:13,680 snake oil salesman in this field 5694 03:43:19,110 --> 03:43:16,000 yeah and so if you 5695 03:43:21,349 --> 03:43:19,120 try to aspire to make a living off of 5696 03:43:23,030 --> 03:43:21,359 this you're you might be afraid that 5697 03:43:25,750 --> 03:43:23,040 people are going to associate you with 5698 03:43:27,990 --> 03:43:25,760 snake oil salesman and what i am saying 5699 03:43:30,469 --> 03:43:28,000 is if you're honest with your content if 5700 03:43:36,229 --> 03:43:30,479 you're honest with your audience 5701 03:43:41,030 --> 03:43:38,790 you'll get it 5702 03:43:43,110 --> 03:43:41,040 but you have to ask for it for sure like 5703 03:43:44,229 --> 03:43:43,120 the best piece of advice i got in this 5704 03:43:46,229 --> 03:43:44,239 town 5705 03:43:47,429 --> 03:43:46,239 was 5706 03:43:50,389 --> 03:43:47,439 and and 5707 03:43:52,870 --> 03:43:50,399 and i use this on you ben like 5708 03:43:56,309 --> 03:43:52,880 you never know what you can get until 5709 03:43:59,990 --> 03:43:56,319 you ask for it you will be surprised 5710 03:44:02,389 --> 03:44:00,000 how much people are willing to help you 5711 03:44:04,550 --> 03:44:02,399 especially if your 5712 03:44:06,389 --> 03:44:04,560 cause is just 5713 03:44:07,830 --> 03:44:06,399 yeah yeah 5714 03:44:09,830 --> 03:44:07,840 you know this conversation is gonna help 5715 03:44:12,229 --> 03:44:09,840 me a lot because we're putting on this 5716 03:44:14,229 --> 03:44:12,239 live event in december 5717 03:44:16,389 --> 03:44:14,239 and uh like you know we're trying to 5718 03:44:19,510 --> 03:44:16,399 find sponsors right now and it's been so 5719 03:44:24,630 --> 03:44:22,710 you know like for us it's massive right 5720 03:44:26,309 --> 03:44:24,640 like it's it's it's massive it's a big 5721 03:44:28,950 --> 03:44:26,319 deal you know what i'm saying like for 5722 03:44:31,670 --> 03:44:28,960 us it's it's a huge deal but like you 5723 03:44:33,590 --> 03:44:31,680 know like it's also that 5724 03:44:36,070 --> 03:44:33,600 i guess you could call it a fear if you 5725 03:44:39,269 --> 03:44:36,080 wanted to but it's also that that fear 5726 03:44:41,990 --> 03:44:39,279 of the the the lingering stigma 5727 03:44:44,550 --> 03:44:42,000 of people who don't understand you know 5728 03:44:47,269 --> 03:44:44,560 and you think a billionaire feels guilty 5729 03:44:50,469 --> 03:44:47,279 when he takes a huge tax break or a 5730 03:44:53,670 --> 03:44:50,479 subsidy to build a new factory 5731 03:44:56,309 --> 03:44:53,680 or or pay less in taxes 5732 03:44:58,790 --> 03:44:56,319 like we're not doing that 5733 03:45:01,590 --> 03:44:58,800 yeah you know what i'm saying like we're 5734 03:45:04,150 --> 03:45:01,600 not asking for that yeah you know so 5735 03:45:05,750 --> 03:45:04,160 we're not doing that you know like we're 5736 03:45:08,229 --> 03:45:05,760 we're not we're not taking from the 5737 03:45:10,389 --> 03:45:08,239 american taxpayer yeah we're asking the 5738 03:45:12,550 --> 03:45:10,399 american worker to support the american 5739 03:45:16,150 --> 03:45:12,560 worker for the work that they're doing 5740 03:45:17,910 --> 03:45:16,160 yeah exactly man exactly so like at the 5741 03:45:19,670 --> 03:45:17,920 top of your show you should have no 5742 03:45:22,550 --> 03:45:19,680 shame in telling people the super chats 5743 03:45:25,030 --> 03:45:22,560 are open that you have patreon support 5744 03:45:27,990 --> 03:45:25,040 that you guys can go to and we have 5745 03:45:30,229 --> 03:45:28,000 perks or whatever your patreon thing is 5746 03:45:33,590 --> 03:45:30,239 you know we have a merch store 5747 03:45:34,630 --> 03:45:33,600 like don't be afraid to ask for those 5748 03:45:37,750 --> 03:45:34,640 things 5749 03:45:39,429 --> 03:45:37,760 100 super chats you get a free dick pic 5750 03:45:42,550 --> 03:45:39,439 there you go 5751 03:45:45,830 --> 03:45:42,560 will gladly send a dip dick you know the 5752 03:45:49,429 --> 03:45:45,840 most hilarious thing about my patreon 5753 03:45:51,590 --> 03:45:49,439 like that was only worth 35 dollars 5754 03:45:53,429 --> 03:45:51,600 my favorite thing about it and this was 5755 03:45:56,070 --> 03:45:53,439 literally a joke that somebody said in 5756 03:45:58,229 --> 03:45:56,080 passing but i'm like i'm doing it 5757 03:46:01,750 --> 03:45:58,239 was like somebody said i can't remember 5758 03:46:03,189 --> 03:46:01,760 who you should have a 500 000 patreon 5759 03:46:06,070 --> 03:46:03,199 and i was like 5760 03:46:08,070 --> 03:46:06,080 yeah that's hilarious and also 5761 03:46:10,710 --> 03:46:08,080 you never know when a millionaire who 5762 03:46:12,950 --> 03:46:10,720 might like my show will go yeah i'll 5763 03:46:13,750 --> 03:46:12,960 fund this show and make it a network why 5764 03:46:15,830 --> 03:46:13,760 not 5765 03:46:18,790 --> 03:46:15,840 you know i'll fund it for one month for 5766 03:46:20,950 --> 03:46:18,800 500 and that that it would be the 5767 03:46:23,750 --> 03:46:20,960 funding for my entire show for three 5768 03:46:25,750 --> 03:46:23,760 years for longer than that 5769 03:46:27,750 --> 03:46:25,760 you know and then and then i could 5770 03:46:30,550 --> 03:46:27,760 really make the show maybe funding the 5771 03:46:32,550 --> 03:46:30,560 rest of your life 5772 03:46:33,990 --> 03:46:32,560 that's so genius though like 5773 03:46:37,510 --> 03:46:34,000 it's it's 5774 03:46:39,910 --> 03:46:37,520 like that's the that's the 5775 03:46:42,150 --> 03:46:39,920 and again i i like when you add words 5776 03:46:45,110 --> 03:46:42,160 like this to this conversation sometimes 5777 03:46:46,790 --> 03:46:45,120 feel people feel icky but this is the 3d 5778 03:46:48,550 --> 03:46:46,800 world we're living in and 5779 03:46:50,309 --> 03:46:48,560 money makes the world go around like you 5780 03:46:52,389 --> 03:46:50,319 guys are talking about this 5781 03:46:53,349 --> 03:46:52,399 people so sticky like even talking about 5782 03:46:57,990 --> 03:46:53,359 it 5783 03:47:01,030 --> 03:46:58,000 the first form of monetization was spice 5784 03:47:03,110 --> 03:47:01,040 do you have salt i need salt well we got 5785 03:47:06,070 --> 03:47:03,120 salt we gotta get with some salt do you 5786 03:47:08,070 --> 03:47:06,080 have terramin yeah i got some of that 5787 03:47:10,309 --> 03:47:08,080 but i got loads of that 5788 03:47:12,950 --> 03:47:10,319 boom exchange that was the first form of 5789 03:47:15,110 --> 03:47:12,960 money with spice i'm pretty sure my body 5790 03:47:26,550 --> 03:47:15,120 excretes cumin only 5791 03:47:30,229 --> 03:47:28,469 what i was gonna say is that this is the 5792 03:47:33,590 --> 03:47:30,239 business model 5793 03:47:36,550 --> 03:47:33,600 for entertainment going forward 5794 03:47:38,150 --> 03:47:36,560 like every single podcast 5795 03:47:39,750 --> 03:47:38,160 youtube channel 5796 03:47:41,510 --> 03:47:39,760 comedian 5797 03:47:44,950 --> 03:47:41,520 i mean 5798 03:47:46,710 --> 03:47:44,960 everybody netflix started this hey for 5799 03:47:48,790 --> 03:47:46,720 seven bucks a month we're gonna give you 5800 03:47:51,349 --> 03:47:48,800 tv with no commercials and all your 5801 03:47:54,309 --> 03:47:51,359 favorite movies and you can rent them 5802 03:47:56,070 --> 03:47:54,319 longer than blockbuster 5803 03:47:59,189 --> 03:47:56,080 you know what you know what hulu did was 5804 03:48:01,910 --> 03:47:59,199 like hey you can subscribe for a month 5805 03:48:03,990 --> 03:48:01,920 no no commercials but also we're also 5806 03:48:05,910 --> 03:48:04,000 going to show commercials no matter what 5807 03:48:07,189 --> 03:48:05,920 you're looking for right no of course 5808 03:48:08,870 --> 03:48:07,199 there's always 5809 03:48:10,790 --> 03:48:08,880 like that's a corporate business model 5810 03:48:13,189 --> 03:48:10,800 right like literally i just signed up 5811 03:48:15,429 --> 03:48:13,199 for hulu and it was like babe they were 5812 03:48:17,110 --> 03:48:15,439 gonna go all out i told my wife we're 5813 03:48:19,590 --> 03:48:17,120 gonna watch that new episode of 5814 03:48:21,510 --> 03:48:19,600 america's horror story we're gonna do it 5815 03:48:23,030 --> 03:48:21,520 it's just she was like amazing by the 5816 03:48:25,910 --> 03:48:23,040 way no commercials it was like a new 5817 03:48:27,670 --> 03:48:25,920 commercial no commercials boom 15 000 5818 03:48:30,150 --> 03:48:27,680 commercials 5819 03:48:32,950 --> 03:48:30,160 yeah no that's the 65 version you got to 5820 03:48:33,670 --> 03:48:32,960 get for no commercials 5821 03:48:34,389 --> 03:48:33,680 like 5822 03:48:35,349 --> 03:48:34,399 it's 5823 03:48:37,349 --> 03:48:35,359 how do we 5824 03:48:39,269 --> 03:48:37,359 get cable at them but here's the thing 5825 03:48:40,630 --> 03:48:39,279 right you know how they do it you know 5826 03:48:43,269 --> 03:48:40,640 how they do it 5827 03:48:45,590 --> 03:48:43,279 they'll be that one show that 5828 03:48:47,429 --> 03:48:45,600 everybody's like talking about and 5829 03:48:50,870 --> 03:48:47,439 loving and liking 5830 03:48:52,950 --> 03:48:50,880 that it encourages you to 5831 03:48:53,750 --> 03:48:52,960 pay that subscription but that's 5832 03:49:06,070 --> 03:48:53,760 like 5833 03:49:17,510 --> 03:49:07,750 is that your is that your halloween 5834 03:49:21,670 --> 03:49:19,269 that's the business model on a much 5835 03:49:23,349 --> 03:49:21,680 smaller level and so 5836 03:49:26,070 --> 03:49:23,359 that's what i would recommend to you 5837 03:49:27,269 --> 03:49:26,080 guys don't be afraid 5838 03:49:32,469 --> 03:49:27,279 to 5839 03:49:33,750 --> 03:49:32,479 table 5840 03:49:34,870 --> 03:49:33,760 yeah 5841 03:49:36,710 --> 03:49:34,880 you know and here's the thing you don't 5842 03:49:39,910 --> 03:49:36,720 have to [\h__\h] ask your boss if you can 5843 03:49:44,710 --> 03:49:43,030 think of it as a tip on the table yeah 5844 03:49:46,750 --> 03:49:44,720 it's i'm binge watching the table you 5845 03:49:48,870 --> 03:49:46,760 were my boss and i'm i'm 5846 03:49:50,950 --> 03:49:48,880 [Laughter] 5847 03:49:53,429 --> 03:49:50,960 wait i'm lose boss i'm 5848 03:49:54,710 --> 03:49:53,439 lou i'm your boss you're my boss you're 5849 03:49:56,630 --> 03:49:54,720 my boss yeah 5850 03:50:00,790 --> 03:49:56,640 okay everybody in the chat we need ten 5851 03:50:03,830 --> 03:50:00,800 dollars right now right now 5852 03:50:07,990 --> 03:50:03,840 in all in all seriousness man like uh 5853 03:50:09,910 --> 03:50:08,000 like you uh have astounded me with 5854 03:50:13,030 --> 03:50:09,920 so many in so many directions man like 5855 03:50:13,750 --> 03:50:13,040 just also being just an awesome dude um 5856 03:50:15,030 --> 03:50:13,760 and 5857 03:50:18,630 --> 03:50:15,040 number one 5858 03:50:21,269 --> 03:50:18,640 the most important 5859 03:50:25,750 --> 03:50:21,279 uh so i just have to give you kudos and 5860 03:50:29,990 --> 03:50:28,550 if you build it they will come 5861 03:50:32,150 --> 03:50:30,000 you know 5862 03:50:35,189 --> 03:50:32,160 what i built so much [\h__\h] at my house my 5863 03:50:37,269 --> 03:50:35,199 wife just breaks it nobody shows up 5864 03:50:38,950 --> 03:50:37,279 here's the thing is that chad smith he's 5865 03:50:42,150 --> 03:50:38,960 like one of her good buddies like i 5866 03:50:44,229 --> 03:50:42,160 should be paying him ten dollars 5867 03:50:46,950 --> 03:50:44,239 for the amount of work he does as a 5868 03:50:50,070 --> 03:50:46,960 wrench he makes sure that the show goes 5869 03:50:51,830 --> 03:50:50,080 smoothly he sold a dick pic he said 5870 03:50:54,150 --> 03:50:51,840 there you go was it mine because i sent 5871 03:50:55,670 --> 03:50:54,160 him a bunch that's why it was only ten 5872 03:50:58,950 --> 03:50:55,680 dollars if it was mine it would have 5873 03:51:03,830 --> 03:51:01,269 but hey lou on all seriousness i i 5874 03:51:05,990 --> 03:51:03,840 appreciate your your uh your candidness 5875 03:51:07,990 --> 03:51:06,000 man like uh whatever you're doing you're 5876 03:51:10,150 --> 03:51:08,000 you're succeeding and you're coming out 5877 03:51:12,870 --> 03:51:10,160 with with some great content you're 5878 03:51:15,670 --> 03:51:12,880 you're working your ass off bro like 5879 03:51:18,150 --> 03:51:15,680 every day bro five days a week 5880 03:51:21,269 --> 03:51:18,160 you just gave it your all you said [\h__\h] 5881 03:51:23,830 --> 03:51:21,279 it let's do this [\h__\h] full time dude you 5882 03:51:26,309 --> 03:51:23,840 know how much balls it takes apollo 11 5883 03:51:31,110 --> 03:51:26,319 thank you so much for that five dude i 5884 03:51:31,910 --> 03:51:31,120 we do appreciate that 100 dude apollo 5885 03:53:03,429 --> 03:51:31,920 i 5886 03:53:05,830 --> 03:53:03,439 man 5887 03:53:09,429 --> 03:53:05,840 i could do a network maybe i like a 5888 03:53:12,870 --> 03:53:09,439 legitimate yeah network uh 5889 03:53:15,830 --> 03:53:12,880 and and um you know 5890 03:53:18,790 --> 03:53:15,840 i've got visions i've got dreams and and 5891 03:53:21,269 --> 03:53:18,800 i'm not gonna let my own self-conscious 5892 03:53:24,630 --> 03:53:21,279 get in the way of that i'm not gonna get 5893 03:53:27,030 --> 03:53:24,640 i'm not gonna let the shame of asking 5894 03:53:28,630 --> 03:53:27,040 for something if you're consuming it 5895 03:53:31,110 --> 03:53:28,640 you're consuming it you're eating the 5896 03:53:34,870 --> 03:53:33,110 pave the staff 5897 03:53:36,469 --> 03:53:34,880 you know yeah dude here's what it makes 5898 03:53:38,870 --> 03:53:36,479 me feel good bro because remember that 5899 03:53:41,910 --> 03:53:38,880 one time before when i was a thespian 5900 03:53:43,429 --> 03:53:41,920 yes hell yeah and you were good too 5901 03:53:46,150 --> 03:53:43,439 though 5902 03:53:48,229 --> 03:53:46,160 i just i i just couldn't pass math so 5903 03:53:54,790 --> 03:53:48,239 like it would never last you and me man 5904 03:54:00,870 --> 03:53:57,110 out here boys i just want to leave this 5905 03:54:03,349 --> 03:54:00,880 here uh just for whatever you take it um 5906 03:54:05,670 --> 03:54:03,359 whatever you put into 5907 03:54:08,070 --> 03:54:05,680 what you're into 5908 03:54:10,309 --> 03:54:08,080 is what you're gonna get out of it man 5909 03:54:12,469 --> 03:54:10,319 if you put in some good vibes if you 5910 03:54:15,269 --> 03:54:12,479 work your ass off on it 5911 03:54:17,590 --> 03:54:15,279 and if you're just a nice dude 5912 03:54:18,950 --> 03:54:17,600 things are gonna work out um not only 5913 03:54:21,510 --> 03:54:18,960 that you're going to have a really great 5914 03:54:22,630 --> 03:54:21,520 portfolio to show people as well yeah 5915 03:54:24,950 --> 03:54:22,640 and you're going to meet some great 5916 03:54:27,189 --> 03:54:24,960 people dude like louis i just i'm just 5917 03:54:29,670 --> 03:54:27,199 so glad to meet you man like 5918 03:54:31,750 --> 03:54:29,680 and everybody we met i mean 5919 03:54:34,870 --> 03:54:31,760 uh there's so many people that i mean 5920 03:54:37,349 --> 03:54:34,880 dave scott dude sor has done so much for 5921 03:54:39,590 --> 03:54:37,359 our our podcast and just getting our our 5922 03:54:41,670 --> 03:54:39,600 our [\h__\h] out there we don't do [\h__\h] dude 5923 03:54:44,710 --> 03:54:41,680 we just talk about stuff man and we have 5924 03:54:46,389 --> 03:54:44,720 a good time and i mean 5925 03:54:49,189 --> 03:54:46,399 this show is just something that me and 5926 03:54:51,510 --> 03:54:49,199 joe love to do and i would love to do it 5927 03:54:53,510 --> 03:54:51,520 for a living that's why i see it and you 5928 03:54:55,349 --> 03:54:53,520 can 5929 03:54:57,110 --> 03:54:55,359 we never claim to to have all the 5930 03:55:03,750 --> 03:54:57,120 answers that's why we point people in 5931 03:55:09,670 --> 03:55:06,710 or whatever like dude we just love 5932 03:55:11,830 --> 03:55:09,680 having fun with this thing right and 5933 03:55:14,550 --> 03:55:11,840 glad to have you along to ride brother 5934 03:55:15,990 --> 03:55:14,560 man same here dude same here yeah all my 5935 03:55:17,590 --> 03:55:16,000 love for you guys hey look man you guys 5936 03:55:19,670 --> 03:55:17,600 have the pat it's there 5937 03:55:21,030 --> 03:55:19,680 it's just i feel like um 5938 03:55:21,990 --> 03:55:21,040 [Music] 5939 03:55:23,429 --> 03:55:22,000 i don't want to say you're getting in 5940 03:55:25,269 --> 03:55:23,439 your own way but you're getting in your 5941 03:55:27,590 --> 03:55:25,279 own heads 5942 03:55:30,150 --> 03:55:27,600 i believe that i believe that yeah and a 5943 03:55:32,389 --> 03:55:30,160 big deal we always have just unlock it 5944 03:55:34,870 --> 03:55:32,399 just drop that bag of guilt 5945 03:55:37,429 --> 03:55:34,880 you don't need to bury carry that bag 5946 03:55:39,349 --> 03:55:37,439 that bag doesn't exist because of you or 5947 03:55:41,269 --> 03:55:39,359 the work you've done that's the 5948 03:55:43,349 --> 03:55:41,279 generations of people that have come 5949 03:55:44,389 --> 03:55:43,359 before you um 5950 03:55:47,429 --> 03:55:44,399 and i 5951 03:55:49,510 --> 03:55:47,439 refuse to carry that bag for them 5952 03:55:51,990 --> 03:55:49,520 yeah i don't even like carrying a bag i 5953 03:55:53,349 --> 03:55:52,000 love the bagpipes but grocery bags are 5954 03:55:56,870 --> 03:55:53,359 the worst when you're trying to open the 5955 03:55:58,550 --> 03:55:56,880 door oh my yeah dude 5956 03:56:00,790 --> 03:55:58,560 yes 5957 03:56:01,990 --> 03:56:00,800 that's why you need a garage door that's 5958 03:56:03,750 --> 03:56:02,000 what you need 5959 03:56:04,710 --> 03:56:03,760 so you hit the button before you go 5960 03:56:06,870 --> 03:56:04,720 before 5961 03:56:09,110 --> 03:56:06,880 i'm working toward a garage gentlemen 5962 03:56:12,309 --> 03:56:09,120 that's what i really want 5963 03:56:14,870 --> 03:56:12,319 oh man dude well hey man you come to 5964 03:56:16,229 --> 03:56:14,880 texas bro i know a lot of places around 5965 03:56:18,550 --> 03:56:16,239 here where you can have a nice little 5966 03:56:20,469 --> 03:56:18,560 garage 5967 03:56:22,469 --> 03:56:20,479 trust me man once a hell of a lot 5968 03:56:24,790 --> 03:56:22,479 cheaper than where you're at right now 5969 03:56:27,590 --> 03:56:24,800 what oh for sure dude once the lady is 5970 03:56:30,150 --> 03:56:27,600 back on the road man and and some things 5971 03:56:32,550 --> 03:56:30,160 get settled after her accident we're 5972 03:56:33,990 --> 03:56:32,560 gonna really take a look at 5973 03:56:36,469 --> 03:56:34,000 at uh 5974 03:56:38,950 --> 03:56:36,479 george possibly possibly making a move 5975 03:56:41,349 --> 03:56:38,960 you know like possibly doing something 5976 03:56:44,309 --> 03:56:41,359 uh because like we want a house we want 5977 03:56:46,550 --> 03:56:44,319 kids we want to raise a family we want 5978 03:56:49,110 --> 03:56:46,560 everything else that every other person 5979 03:56:52,950 --> 03:56:49,120 on human or on the on the planet wants 5980 03:56:54,469 --> 03:56:52,960 which is just a safe healthy family and 5981 03:56:56,550 --> 03:56:54,479 lifestyle 5982 03:57:01,750 --> 03:56:56,560 yeah 5983 03:57:03,590 --> 03:57:01,760 i know i've been i've emailed them like 5984 03:57:05,590 --> 03:57:03,600 10 times 5985 03:57:07,510 --> 03:57:05,600 can they get a diet can they get a cast 5986 03:57:10,550 --> 03:57:07,520 mold of joe's 5987 03:57:13,090 --> 03:57:10,560 so i so i can so i can buy that one it'd 5988 03:57:17,269 --> 03:57:13,100 be like the tiniest flesh like this 5989 03:57:21,590 --> 03:57:18,830 like what do i do with 5990 03:57:23,429 --> 03:57:21,600 this is this just a model 5991 03:57:26,070 --> 03:57:23,439 are you showing me a representation no 5992 03:57:27,429 --> 03:57:26,080 that's the real thing shut up i'm 5993 03:57:30,309 --> 03:57:27,439 talking [\h__\h] 5994 03:57:32,309 --> 03:57:30,319 well dudes i gotta go mop it clean 5995 03:57:34,229 --> 03:57:32,319 because my family's coming in tomorrow 5996 03:57:35,830 --> 03:57:34,239 and i know my girlfriend is dying for me 5997 03:57:38,710 --> 03:57:35,840 to to do that 5998 03:57:40,710 --> 03:57:38,720 um but uh but man yeah i love you guys 5999 03:57:43,590 --> 03:57:40,720 you guys are doing everything right keep 6000 03:57:44,870 --> 03:57:43,600 keep keep and i know exactly what you're 6001 03:57:46,150 --> 03:57:44,880 thinking and the frustrations that 6002 03:57:49,510 --> 03:57:46,160 you're going through 6003 03:57:51,110 --> 03:57:49,520 and it's a few minor changes and we 6004 03:57:52,070 --> 03:57:51,120 could talk about some other stuff some 6005 03:57:53,590 --> 03:57:52,080 other 6006 03:57:55,429 --> 03:57:53,600 things that i could 6007 03:57:56,790 --> 03:57:55,439 you know lay out on the table for you 6008 03:57:59,269 --> 03:57:56,800 guys and you guys could take it and run 6009 03:58:01,670 --> 03:57:59,279 or or decide to not use it 6010 03:58:04,710 --> 03:58:01,680 on a private conversation man for sure i 6011 03:58:07,110 --> 03:58:04,720 think you're so close you're like right 6012 03:58:09,269 --> 03:58:07,120 there and you don't even realize it 6013 03:58:11,429 --> 03:58:09,279 i i appreciate that man and you've 6014 03:58:13,670 --> 03:58:11,439 offered this since the get-go man and 6015 03:58:15,349 --> 03:58:13,680 and i just want to yeah thanks bro i 6016 03:58:16,790 --> 03:58:15,359 appreciate it 6017 03:58:18,630 --> 03:58:16,800 dude i appreciate you guys and 6018 03:58:21,189 --> 03:58:18,640 everything and everything you've done to 6019 03:58:23,830 --> 03:58:21,199 help legitimize the movement and the 6020 03:58:25,590 --> 03:58:23,840 grassroots stuff that we do and and you 6021 03:58:28,710 --> 03:58:25,600 know couldn't have been as it could not 6022 03:58:32,790 --> 03:58:28,720 have been as uh wonderful and successful 6023 03:58:35,269 --> 03:58:32,800 as uh as as as you made it and enjoy 6024 03:58:38,309 --> 03:58:35,279 because of you i will never do a big 6025 03:58:41,110 --> 03:58:38,319 phone home on football opening day now i 6026 03:58:43,990 --> 03:58:41,120 i am gonna be aware of every sport 6027 03:58:47,110 --> 03:58:44,000 opening opening day ever from now on 6028 03:58:48,790 --> 03:58:47,120 anytime i organize anything dude yes as 6029 03:58:51,750 --> 03:58:48,800 long as it's not college football 6030 03:58:54,150 --> 03:58:51,760 opening day or hockey opening day 6031 03:58:56,870 --> 03:58:54,160 we're good we're good well i'm not gonna 6032 03:58:59,269 --> 03:58:56,880 do any sports any opening days ever 6033 03:59:01,189 --> 03:58:59,279 again but what's what you know what's 6034 03:59:03,510 --> 03:59:01,199 the truth dude is the first phone haul 6035 03:59:06,469 --> 03:59:03,520 we reached four million people dude 6036 03:59:08,630 --> 03:59:06,479 that's amazing on the second one 6037 03:59:10,710 --> 03:59:08,640 we reached 14 million 6038 03:59:12,790 --> 03:59:10,720 what what 6039 03:59:15,189 --> 03:59:12,800 it was infinitely more successful 6040 03:59:16,630 --> 03:59:15,199 because partly because there was two 6041 03:59:19,429 --> 03:59:16,640 more days 6042 03:59:20,870 --> 03:59:19,439 so you know uh like again just because 6043 03:59:22,469 --> 03:59:20,880 it reached 14 million people doesn't 6044 03:59:24,469 --> 03:59:22,479 mean 14 million people watched that's 6045 03:59:26,469 --> 03:59:24,479 clearly that's not the case 6046 03:59:28,550 --> 03:59:26,479 we got more more people watched more 6047 03:59:30,389 --> 03:59:28,560 people interacted more people tweeted at 6048 03:59:33,590 --> 03:59:30,399 senators more people sent out letters 6049 03:59:35,189 --> 03:59:33,600 more people uh got responses more people 6050 03:59:37,990 --> 03:59:35,199 used the hashtag 6051 03:59:40,550 --> 03:59:38,000 all of those things went up even though 6052 03:59:43,030 --> 03:59:40,560 the live numbers didn't reflect it 6053 03:59:46,229 --> 03:59:43,040 because it was such a 6054 03:59:48,790 --> 03:59:46,239 like holiday weekend yeah uh 6055 03:59:51,189 --> 03:59:48,800 it it actually 6056 04:00:07,189 --> 03:59:51,199 surpassed everything that i thought was 6057 04:00:11,269 --> 04:00:08,950 and you know about sports openings now 6058 04:00:12,710 --> 04:00:11,279 you did it you did everything i just 6059 04:00:14,710 --> 04:00:12,720 pressed the button 6060 04:00:16,150 --> 04:00:14,720 i love you guys man seriously hey i love 6061 04:00:17,910 --> 04:00:16,160 you man 6062 04:00:20,830 --> 04:00:17,920 get together and tell me when you want 6063 04:00:23,110 --> 04:00:20,840 to meet and i'm there hell yeah 6064 04:00:25,830 --> 04:00:23,120 brother you bro love you man 6065 04:00:28,550 --> 04:00:25,840 love you too dude you take it easy man 6066 04:00:30,150 --> 04:00:28,560 hey i love you dude i love you 6067 04:00:32,309 --> 04:00:30,160 i love you hey you know that part on 6068 04:00:34,070 --> 04:00:32,319 wayne's world where he's like i love you 6069 04:00:38,710 --> 04:00:34,080 man 6070 04:00:39,670 --> 04:00:38,720 i love you too he's like no you don't 6071 04:00:44,870 --> 04:00:39,680 man 6072 04:00:48,150 --> 04:00:44,880 i really really love you you love me 6073 04:00:49,189 --> 04:00:48,160 hey but it didn't almost feel like a uh 6074 04:00:51,349 --> 04:00:49,199 like a 6075 04:00:54,550 --> 04:00:51,359 like my dog's cuter than your dog kind 6076 04:00:57,830 --> 04:00:54,560 of situation no 6077 04:00:58,540 --> 04:00:57,840 oh god it didn't feel like that at all 6078 04:01:02,950 --> 04:00:58,550 no 6079 04:01:02,960 --> 04:01:07,910 i will disagree 100 6080 04:01:12,469 --> 04:01:10,070 even though hey i have more history with 6081 04:01:13,530 --> 04:01:12,479 nibbler 6082 04:01:16,070 --> 04:01:13,540 no 6083 04:01:17,910 --> 04:01:16,080 [Laughter] 6084 04:01:19,510 --> 04:01:17,920 you probably spent more time with 6085 04:01:23,670 --> 04:01:19,520 nibbler than 6086 04:01:26,870 --> 04:01:23,680 and when i was in college because i was 6087 04:01:27,590 --> 04:01:26,880 staying up late uh 6088 04:01:32,389 --> 04:01:27,600 you 6089 04:01:35,349 --> 04:01:33,269 no 6090 04:01:37,110 --> 04:01:35,359 brian smith the most time with nibbler 6091 04:01:40,790 --> 04:01:37,120 dude 6092 04:01:42,790 --> 04:01:41,670 hey 6093 04:01:46,150 --> 04:01:42,800 man 6094 04:01:49,830 --> 04:01:46,160 like 8 am like i just went to like the 6095 04:01:53,189 --> 04:01:49,840 the 7-eleven got like 14 hot dogs like 6096 04:01:55,269 --> 04:01:53,199 your pugs pooped and everything man 6097 04:01:57,189 --> 04:01:55,279 what are you up to 6098 04:01:59,030 --> 04:01:57,199 i don't know i just woke up for class i 6099 04:02:00,710 --> 04:01:59,040 don't know what are you doing 6100 04:02:02,389 --> 04:02:00,720 i'm just living on your couch dude 6101 04:02:05,510 --> 04:02:02,399 anyway ah 6102 04:02:07,910 --> 04:02:05,520 bro smoking dubs you want one do you 6103 04:02:10,469 --> 04:02:07,920 want 12 6104 04:02:12,389 --> 04:02:10,479 hey uh i have to pick you so bad dude 6105 04:02:15,030 --> 04:02:12,399 okay you want to just get it 6106 04:02:18,389 --> 04:02:15,040 get out of here let well no we're not 6107 04:02:20,389 --> 04:02:18,399 done no no we're good are we no dude 6108 04:02:22,150 --> 04:02:20,399 it's dave dave's on 6109 04:02:22,870 --> 04:02:22,160 i know that's what i'm saying 11. let's 6110 04:02:28,790 --> 04:02:22,880 go 6111 04:02:32,710 --> 04:02:30,150 thank you all so much for hanging out 6112 04:02:34,710 --> 04:02:32,720 with us tonight hell yeah this was an 6113 04:02:36,550 --> 04:02:34,720 amazing night dude 6114 04:02:38,150 --> 04:02:36,560 509 6115 04:02:40,070 --> 04:02:38,160 sunny 6116 04:02:41,429 --> 04:02:40,080 apollo 6117 04:02:43,189 --> 04:02:41,439 you guys 6118 04:02:45,349 --> 04:02:43,199 what a great fan we have 6119 04:02:49,030 --> 04:02:45,359 yeah great jam thank you guys so much 6120 04:02:51,590 --> 04:02:49,040 man barbra jean was absolutely amazing 6121 04:02:53,590 --> 04:02:51,600 uh lou thanks for hopping on with us 6122 04:02:58,469 --> 04:02:53,600 tonight man and giving us some words of 6123 04:03:01,030 --> 04:02:58,479 encouragement yeah uh yeah i mean we uh 6124 04:03:03,750 --> 04:03:01,040 we love you guys man 6125 04:03:06,950 --> 04:03:03,760 i really love you man like i love you 6126 04:03:15,349 --> 04:03:09,030 yes 6127 04:03:19,030 --> 04:03:18,229 uh that's not true that's not true at 6128 04:03:21,990 --> 04:03:19,040 all 6129 04:03:22,790 --> 04:03:22,000 it's it's so professional and clean over 6130 04:03:24,389 --> 04:03:22,800 there 6131 04:03:26,389 --> 04:03:24,399 it really is i mean 6132 04:03:28,550 --> 04:03:26,399 i don't i don't know i guess i guess 6133 04:03:30,790 --> 04:03:28,560 maybe we don't have commercials 6134 04:03:33,830 --> 04:03:30,800 my kidney is literally we're the netflix 6135 04:03:37,430 --> 04:03:33,840 and he's the hulu maybe i have to be 6136 04:03:38,870 --> 04:03:37,440 ben has to poop asp so we gotta go 6137 04:03:42,389 --> 04:03:38,880 [Laughter] 6138 04:03:43,429 --> 04:03:42,399 love you guys all right guys well hey uh 6139 04:03:50,150 --> 04:03:43,439 you know 6140 04:03:50,160 --> 04:03:58,229 dude 6141 04:04:09,350 --> 04:04:00,630 see i'm more of a beat maker you're like 6142 04:04:13,269 --> 04:04:10,790 [Music] 6143 04:04:15,750 --> 04:04:13,279 this has been another episode of ufo 6144 04:04:27,440 --> 04:04:15,760 gorillas 6145 04:04:31,670 --> 04:04:29,590 [Music] 6146 04:04:36,550 --> 04:04:31,680 hell yeah put things in your butt with 6147 04:04:42,150 --> 04:04:39,189 dirt when i'm taking photography 6148 04:04:43,750 --> 04:04:42,160 oh like dust everything has dust on it 6149 04:04:47,189 --> 04:04:43,760 it's not like medicine for your butt 6150 04:04:49,750 --> 04:04:47,199 then well it could be if you wanted to 6151 04:04:51,110 --> 04:04:49,760 are they the same tool 6152 04:04:53,750 --> 04:04:51,120 for two different purposes oh yeah i'm 6153 04:04:56,790 --> 04:04:53,760 not gonna let my anybody use this is 6154 04:04:58,790 --> 04:04:56,800 it's for my my like like a knife is used 6155 04:05:02,070 --> 04:04:58,800 for cutting things but also as a 6156 04:05:03,750 --> 04:05:02,080 screwdriver i will never use the same 6157 04:05:06,950 --> 04:05:03,760 knife as i cut 6158 04:05:09,510 --> 04:05:06,960 cheese as to spread cheese oh yeah you 6159 04:05:11,670 --> 04:05:09,520 can't do that yeah it's crazy 6160 04:05:18,309 --> 04:05:11,680 hell yeah well hey guys 6161 04:05:22,389 --> 04:05:20,309 we love you guys man hey we'll see y'all 6162 04:05:24,630 --> 04:05:22,399 next thursday